Today... today today today... What can i say? Today might be a bad or a good day. Who knows!? Not me... Anyways. Last night... i hate seeing my siblings cry and cry for help cause they think i'm going to hurt them... *sigh* But i told them they couldn't have that! So i yelled at them... *sigh* Why me? I despise them, but love them all the same. Oh well... My mom is being really nice tese past 2 or 3 days... but my step dad is an ass. Heh, some things never change, eh? Heh. I really have nothing exciting to say... I'll write tomorrow i guess... Peace n love. Laterz
*sigh* We lost our game yesterday, sad to say... And our coach was mighty pissed at us. The only good part of my day was seeing my boyfriend... Being around him with his parents wasn't fun though cause they're EXTREMLY unparent-like. First time i witnessed it*sigh*. Oh well, he told me not to worry about it but i know it's one of the reasons he's getting depressed... I also got sick yesterday. Now it's worse. My throat hurts really bad, my nose is plugged up which is making my head hurt VERY badly and when i breathe my chest hurts. There's also snot running down the back of my throat constantly so it's making my throat worse then it already is. On top of that, i have a softball game today. Yes, again. We have a lot of games in a week... Luckily next week is our last*sigh of relief*. Bad part: my wreck league starts right after that! I'M SO SICK OF SOFTBALL!!!!! Mostly my coach... Oh well. Today sucks as it is. I'll just have to get used to it. Ta Ta For Now! Peace n Love. Laterz
Hmmm... Yesterday was boring. My game was cancelled and i didn't have to go to practice because i had a HUGE English project to do! So, i finished that and i was happy, i guess... Wow my moods change! lol. For the past 3 or 4 entries i've been talkin about mood swings. No, i'm not on the rag...not for about 2 more weeks or so, heh. I know, nice to know but hey! some people say it's prolly PMS but i really don't PMS. lol. Well, i had dance last night too. I have a new bruise on my knee from it! YAY! Just what i need... more bruises on my legs... Why do my legs bruise so easily? Hmmm... one of the many wonders i have about my body... heh. Well, after dance, i got home n called my boyfriend and talked to him for a while. I found a book called The A to Z Encyclopedia of Serial Killers. I started reading the back of it to him. My mom came upstairs and laughed and said put it back. I said no. I mean she was kidding around but my step dad comes in and yells at me to put it back! I said that mom was just kidding but he didn't believe me! WHAT IS THIS SHIT!? And so i ended up yelling at him saying, "you know what, fuck you i don't fucking care anymore!" and i slammed the book down and left the room and went to mine. I hate him... You can even as my boyfriend. He heard me say it. And from that point on i was in a horrible mixture of moods! Stupid step dad... UGH! Yea... he sux a cock everyday so, who cares. heh. Anyways, Today is our make-up game from yesterday cause it was cancelled. I hope today it goes real fast, in which it prolly will, because i'm s'posed to go to Larry's house tonite and then his concert thing. I'll most likely be sitting in the audience alone cause no one can go with me n i don't think his parents are gunna stay there...*sigh* oh well. It's a foreign school to me but i've been there like 3 times before, heh. Computer class is totally bogus. It can go to hell. I'm getting and A+ because it's so damn easy, heh. I've been slacking though... oh well. Anyways, i g2g now... Back to work! Peace n Love. Laterz
Ok, so today is goin good. I've had a mood swing or 2 but it only lasted like 5-10 minutes each n then i was back to my happy self. Now i'm quiet and bored. Computer class sucks. If we don't have our game today, i can't go to practice(thank god!) cause i have a project due on Friday for English n i have absolutly no time to do it cause softball takes up my whole life! My coach is a dick and didn't play me yesterday but we won against the undefeated team! I was pissed off, depressed, sad, then pissed off again at the game. But, if we do have our game today, it'll suck cause i have dance when it ends! that means only 1 hour to actually DO my project tomorrow! Why? because i'm skipping practice to do it! School is more important than softball, and plus, to be on the team, i have to get good grades! So in your fuckin face Busam! Suck my cock if i had one! ANYWAYS! heh. I dunno how the rest of the day will go, but i'll write about it tomorrow...*si
Well, yesterday, i had another bipolar day. I really think i should see if i am bipolar! But... Therapists scare me with their secret files and enclosed rooms so no one can hear... Most of all, i'm afraid of my mom. Approaching her about it is insane! She'll ground me! Yes... i said ground me. She'll think i'm insane and i need to be put away from the world... But that's my mom for ya! Anyways... I cried last night... don't know why. But i soon fell asleep, thank god. I didn't get to talk to my boyfriend at all yesterday, but i know i'll talk to him today! Yay! heh. Anyways... I think we're goin through sexual withdrawl... LMAO. jk. I've had too many softball games! This week... i have 4. I had 1 yesterday, one today, one tomorrow, and one on Friday. I also have dance tomorrow! Can you say, STRESS!!!!!??? AHHH!!!! heh. Oh well, it's over next week, finally. Even though it feels like we've just begun, i'm glad it's almost over. But then wreck leagure starts in June... shiza... Oh well, at least it's not softball 24/7 like High School right now! My coach sux my dick if i had one... Heh. Anyway... I tend to say that a lot, don't i? Oh well... I miss Larry... *sigh*... I gotta go now... time to finish my computer work. Peave n Love, Laterz.
I know i know... i'm horrible. I havn't written for a few days. The thing is... i forgot! HAH! Anyway... Yea... the past week or so has been... very... interesting. I'm beginning to think that i am bipolar *sigh*. It really sux! I've been SO mood swingy it's scaring me.... I have no clue what's wrong with me but... Yea. I'm glad my boyfriend understands or else he'd leave with the snap of the fingers! And i love him so much so i don't want him to, heh. But, i gotta figure out what's buggin me cause i have no frickin clue... ever happened to ya? I gotta find out fast... And right it... Yea... Well, i must be off. Write soon! Peace n Love. Laterz.
School... wow that's funny. I had/still have the biggest sugar rush! I had pixie stix and coffee for breakfast and Skittles at lunch... now i'm never eating again cause i have a giganterous stomache ache but it's still fun! lol. But i was also kinda depressed n stuff, the usual. Overall, i think i'm doin pretty good, just confused... but that's also normal. Eh, i dunno. My boyfriend made me so speechless last night on the phone that i STILL have nothing to say to him... UGH! I hate him... but yet... I LOVE HIM! he he he. Anyway. Got an ortho appt soon cause i get my braces off in 2 weeks! SCORENESS!!!! lol. Peace n Love. Later.
Sorry i didn't write yesterday... busy day! Well, Friday ended up being fun. My boyfriend loves me and all is well. I got to see my bestest friend and hopefully we gunna hang out more since he n his gf just broke up, which is sad. Yet Friday was depressing cause... yea. Sometimes no one got along... Saturday was joyus too. I got to go to the mall n get my bathing suit, finally, and get my friend her b-day present cause we're havin a suprise party for her today. Then i slept at someone's house, always a joy. We took a nighttime swim cause her pool is heated lol. Well, nothing else interesting happened... My life can get real boring... so yea. Me go. Love n Peace to all. Later
Today... Today sucks. Except for the fact we had an early release and i'm goin to see my friends tonite. I've been depressed for a few days... I dunno what to do with myself. My boyfriend has been so great to me, but does he really love me as much as he says he does? Is he cheating on me? How does he feel during the day? All these questions run through my mind all day, especially cause he goes to a different school... I mean, i should know these answers by now, but it's just the way i am. I fret and worry all the time about him because i love him so much. I need to stop thinking these horrid thoughts because i know they aren't true. I hope all is well... I guess i'll find out sooner or later right? I hope so...
I'm really new at this whole thing so i'm gunna put my poems in here till i figure things out. Until tomorrow, this is Kristi saying Love and Peace to all. Later
Well, today i went to school. 3rd period, i got curious about this site and i joined! It seems fun cause i get to kepp this fuckin diary thing... man this sucks. I took pictures of my friend, Brianna today for some guy. I wanted to see Larry, but... i had to go to Brianna's cause i promised and i don't break a promise!!!! So yea... i had a shitty day cause Softball game was cancelled n i had practice for 2 hours in the rain... UGH! i hate that coach... Well, i'ma gunna go n call my sweetie! Later