Ok... so yesterday was a bummer. I had nothing to do so i went skating(boring). The only thing that was kewl is that i thought i was going to die because a tornado was s'posed to come... But it didn't so it sucks. Today is gunna be even more boring. I watched The Crow again, which was actually the highlight of my day. Then i got yelled at again by my asshole of a step dad. For what? i have no clue... *sigh* Anyway, i don't get to see my boyfriend till tomorrow, which sucks. But tonite i have to help out with my sister's birthday party at a hotel? Bear was s'posed to come but he has rehearsals for this movie thing. Oh well... i'll try to survive... lol. Anyway, i'm gunna get going. I'm going to attempt to draw some more! lol. And maybe write some poems! yay! lol. I'll write later! Peace n love, Laterz.
So yesterday made me hurt. I didn't get the Best Support Player award like i was s'posed to. Some b1tch chick on my team did. She didn't deserve it.... Not like i care but still, people could've done better than her. Anyways, It hurt cause my dance class is starting to get rigerous(sp?) I mean... i havn't worked this hard for the longest time. My legs hurt so bad! But it feels so good because i like the pain. Then i had to go to the ortho today, which i didn't even know i s'posed to so the office came to get me? *sigh* Oh well, i broke my retainer, if i didn't say that before, so i went to get it fixed. The only pain i don't like is in my mouth.... *shudder* i hate that shit. Anyway, my Bear is s'posed to come over to my dad's again today, yay! We're gunna take pictures together n we might post some up here, ig they're good enough, heh. I finally did something right! With the help of my Bear, my best friend loves me even more, he he he. We hooked her up by giving some of her pictures to this guy and he was like... omg! And he actually called her! She called me afterwords and was SO excited! Then i got excited cause i actually did something right for once! He he. I'm so happy for her... i know they're gunna end up going out... And she needs a man in her life, i know she does. So i'm glad we did this, THANX BEAR!!!! Anyway, Kristi must be off again. Bell is gunna ring any time soon. Write later! Peace n Love, Laterz!
Okay... so yesterday was fun... Kinda... My boyfriend came over. Remember how i said he's never seen me cry? Oops... well, as of yesterday he has... I broke down n started crying because i felt bad about something that i don't wanna explain. I'll just say this: i feel like i let him down. Bear, if you read this, you might know what i'm talking about, but if you don't, i'll tell you. So, he helped me get started on my poem for school n then i had to go back to my mom's house. So, he came with! YAY! We watched The Crow(yes, i'm obsessed with that movie, heh) and ate some of my sister's ice cream cake stuff, it's good... he he he. We fell asleep on my couch n at about 10 he had to go home *cries* we fell asleep in my car too, heh. We were tired! he he he. No, it wasn't cause we were doin the naughty, me too young. We could have done other naughty, but no... lol we were in my living room so i don't think so, heh. Anyway. Today, i have a banquet for softball... oh god... lol. Then i have dance... Bear has rehearsals like... the rest of the week so i prolly won't see him till sunday, we're s'posed to go to Six Flags Great America then so i hope we still go! lol. I love that place... Well, i'll write later! Peace n love. Laterz.
*sigh* This weekend... It was mighty insane... Saturday i was just depressive. We played out double header n won both. Friday i went to Battle of the Bands... FUN! Yet, i cried, heh. Yes, Bear came with me(yay!). Today, i just remembered, i don't think Bear's ever seen me cry... He's heard me cry, but never seen, at least i don't think. Sunday, yesterday, was awesome. I got to see Larold(Bear) perform in his marching band at the parade, it was kewl. He had to babysit his sister afterwords though. My mom, nice as she is, offered to have them both come over, n they did! I was so happy, yay! Then they had to go, now that moment was funny. My mom laughs everytime she remembers it. Too long of a story. Lets just say little sisters suck, lol. I feel so bad for him.... he he he. I love him, lol. Today is my sister's birthday. I felt bad because after dinner i went to my friend's house for a while n she was crying when i left! *cries* I felt so horrible. Oh well, i made her a picture to make up for it. She's my favorite sibling... Well, i'd better get going. I'll write later! peace n love, laterz.
Okay... Yesterday was horrible... I hate being confronted after i do something wrong, everyone should know that right now. My dad confronted me and tried to correct me right after i did something wrong in softball and i told him to leave me alone. He said i'm so uncoachable. GET OVER IT!!! I'M NOT A FU<KING SPORTS FREAK LIKE YOU ARE!!! I hate this stupid sport as of yesterday. We lost, by the way, 6-4. I started crying on the bench. I cried for about 30 minutes on the bus cause the sophmore softball team was pissing me off!!! I cried when i got into the locker room, i wanted to cry in the car but i sucked it up. I wanted to cry in the resturaunt, but i sucked it up. I cried in my room when i got home. I went on the computer, got off, went to my room n cried. I called my boyfriend. He had to get off the phone for a minute, so we hung up. I cried. I stopped about 1 minute before he called again. He had to call me back again because he had to eat... I cried. This time, i picked up the phone in the middle of a sob. He didn't know till a few minutes later i was crying because i started crying AGAIN!!! Then, he made me feel better, THANX BEAR! But just before i fell asleep, a tear rolled down my cheek. Jeez i had a hard day. I'm full of mixed emotions today, sad, pissed, tired, happy cause i get to see Bear today, and more. "Aunt Flow" is also in town... ask me if you don't know what i'm talking about, although i'm sure boys realy don't want to know, heh. Today, i get to see Larold, which will be fun. That's about all i'm doing, heh. Well, my eyes hurt from looking at this computer. I also have to get back to work. I'll write Later. Peace n Love, Laterz.
Hmmm... Well, yesterday we won our game. Today, we have another. At the game yesterday, which was our last home game, we decided to pour the 2 jugs of water on the coach... he he he. He got REALLY mad... it was a little chilly out too! HA HA! SUCKS FOR YOU! Then i threw ice at him... ha ha ha. Anyways... Then i had dance... why is everyone obsessed with my teeth!? Grr...*shakes fist* And why does our second dance have to be to Justin Timberlake!? AHH!!! I HATE POP! I HATE RAP!!! You have no idea... *clenches teeth* Well... it's a kewl dance! heh. Today is gunna be boring. We have to go all the way to Lake Zurich to play and when i get home... i'm gunna be dead! Hehe. Anyways. Finals are gunna suck... i know it. I hate finals... absolutly hate them! *sigh* oh well... Have you ever thought thouroughly about giving a guy head? i mean... gross... they pee out of the same hole! I don't even understand why guys like to eat girls out... It's not the same hole we pee out of... but pretty damn close! But hey, whatever floats your boat... But i just think it very... grotesk that anyone would do that... Meh, oh well. I'll do other things just... yea... Sorry, i had this convo with my boyfriend last night... weird people we are... oh well! love him anyway! And yea... I g2g now. write later! peace n love, later.
Wednesday.... also known as hump day! heh. I have about 1 week of school left then finals.... then summer! YAY!!!! Well, i also have 4 more softball games, one of which is today.... BOOO!!!! lol. I also have dance. My teeth feel slimy cause i just got my braces off, as you know. This is crappy... i feel crappy.... i have been feeling crappy like... all week!!!! Oh well, i g2g... i'll write later! Peace n love. Later
Okay, so today is Tuesday. Sunday was fun... he he he. Not gunna explain my unintentional evil laughter... Monday i got my braces off, finally! But... it's really weird. My mom won't stop laughing at me whenever i talk to her cuse it's so different. I have small teeth so it looks even weirder... heh. We had another softball game yesterday. We almost won!!!!! We were -(this) close! If our second baseman would've stayed with it, we would've won by 1 point. But she bobbled the ball cause she got nervous n we lost the game*cries* those were the conference champs too!!! Now we're in second place. Oh well, second is still better than third!!! He he he. Anyways. Today we have another game. I REALLY hope it starts storming or at least down pours so i can spend the day with my bf. 4 months today! WEEE!!! I know... ooh wow. 4 months, whoop dee. But my longest relationship was... basically never, heh. Okay okay... it was 3 weeks. Whoop dee doo da. Heh. Anyway, i g2g. Getting behind in my work! I'll write tomorrow! ttyl. Peace n love, laterz.
Well, yesterday, i went to the movies. I had a shitty time. I want to cry because i made te mistake of thinkin my boyfriend didn't want me around! We're still going out, but we're in a quarrel at the moment. And i don't wanna be!!!! I love him so much! Never want to let go of him! I hope he knows that. Well, anyway, My friend Brianna spent the night, we talked, then fell asleep. Lol. I made her eggs this morning! I love making eggs... heh. Anyways. *sigh* I'm so bored. I don't know what's goin on today. It's gunna be sitty, but i'll deal. t's like every other day of my life... *sigh* Well, i must go now. Gotta keep my company... company. Heh. Peace n Love. Laterz.
Today... today today today... What can i say? Today might be a bad or a good day. Who knows!? Not me... Anyways. Last night... i hate seeing my siblings cry and cry for help cause they think i'm going to hurt them... *sigh* But i told them they couldn't have that! So i yelled at them... *sigh* Why me? I despise them, but love them all the same. Oh well... My mom is being really nice tese past 2 or 3 days... but my step dad is an ass. Heh, some things never change, eh? Heh. I really have nothing exciting to say... I'll write tomorrow i guess... Peace n love. Laterz
*sigh* We lost our game yesterday, sad to say... And our coach was mighty pissed at us. The only good part of my day was seeing my boyfriend... Being around him with his parents wasn't fun though cause they're EXTREMLY unparent-like. First time i witnessed it*sigh*. Oh well, he told me not to worry about it but i know it's one of the reasons he's getting depressed... I also got sick yesterday. Now it's worse. My throat hurts really bad, my nose is plugged up which is making my head hurt VERY badly and when i breathe my chest hurts. There's also snot running down the back of my throat constantly so it's making my throat worse then it already is. On top of that, i have a softball game today. Yes, again. We have a lot of games in a week... Luckily next week is our last*sigh of relief*. Bad part: my wreck league starts right after that! I'M SO SICK OF SOFTBALL!!!!! Mostly my coach... Oh well. Today sucks as it is. I'll just have to get used to it. Ta Ta For Now! Peace n Love. Laterz
Hmmm... Yesterday was boring. My game was cancelled and i didn't have to go to practice because i had a HUGE English project to do! So, i finished that and i was happy, i guess... Wow my moods change! lol. For the past 3 or 4 entries i've been talkin about mood swings. No, i'm not on the rag...not for about 2 more weeks or so, heh. I know, nice to know but hey! some people say it's prolly PMS but i really don't PMS. lol. Well, i had dance last night too. I have a new bruise on my knee from it! YAY! Just what i need... more bruises on my legs... Why do my legs bruise so easily? Hmmm... one of the many wonders i have about my body... heh. Well, after dance, i got home n called my boyfriend and talked to him for a while. I found a book called The A to Z Encyclopedia of Serial Killers. I started reading the back of it to him. My mom came upstairs and laughed and said put it back. I said no. I mean she was kidding around but my step dad comes in and yells at me to put it back! I said that mom was just kidding but he didn't believe me! WHAT IS THIS SHIT!? And so i ended up yelling at him saying, "you know what, fuck you i don't fucking care anymore!" and i slammed the book down and left the room and went to mine. I hate him... You can even as my boyfriend. He heard me say it. And from that point on i was in a horrible mixture of moods! Stupid step dad... UGH! Yea... he sux a cock everyday so, who cares. heh. Anyways, Today is our make-up game from yesterday cause it was cancelled. I hope today it goes real fast, in which it prolly will, because i'm s'posed to go to Larry's house tonite and then his concert thing. I'll most likely be sitting in the audience alone cause no one can go with me n i don't think his parents are gunna stay there...*sigh* oh well. It's a foreign school to me but i've been there like 3 times before, heh. Computer class is totally bogus. It can go to hell. I'm getting and A+ because it's so damn easy, heh. I've been slacking though... oh well. Anyways, i g2g now... Back to work! Peace n Love. Laterz
Ok, so today is goin good. I've had a mood swing or 2 but it only lasted like 5-10 minutes each n then i was back to my happy self. Now i'm quiet and bored. Computer class sucks. If we don't have our game today, i can't go to practice(thank god!) cause i have a project due on Friday for English n i have absolutly no time to do it cause softball takes up my whole life! My coach is a dick and didn't play me yesterday but we won against the undefeated team! I was pissed off, depressed, sad, then pissed off again at the game. But, if we do have our game today, it'll suck cause i have dance when it ends! that means only 1 hour to actually DO my project tomorrow! Why? because i'm skipping practice to do it! School is more important than softball, and plus, to be on the team, i have to get good grades! So in your fuckin face Busam! Suck my cock if i had one! ANYWAYS! heh. I dunno how the rest of the day will go, but i'll write about it tomorrow...*si
Well, yesterday, i had another bipolar day. I really think i should see if i am bipolar! But... Therapists scare me with their secret files and enclosed rooms so no one can hear... Most of all, i'm afraid of my mom. Approaching her about it is insane! She'll ground me! Yes... i said ground me. She'll think i'm insane and i need to be put away from the world... But that's my mom for ya! Anyways... I cried last night... don't know why. But i soon fell asleep, thank god. I didn't get to talk to my boyfriend at all yesterday, but i know i'll talk to him today! Yay! heh. Anyways... I think we're goin through sexual withdrawl... LMAO. jk. I've had too many softball games! This week... i have 4. I had 1 yesterday, one today, one tomorrow, and one on Friday. I also have dance tomorrow! Can you say, STRESS!!!!!??? AHHH!!!! heh. Oh well, it's over next week, finally. Even though it feels like we've just begun, i'm glad it's almost over. But then wreck leagure starts in June... shiza... Oh well, at least it's not softball 24/7 like High School right now! My coach sux my dick if i had one... Heh. Anyway... I tend to say that a lot, don't i? Oh well... I miss Larry... *sigh*... I gotta go now... time to finish my computer work. Peave n Love, Laterz.
I know i know... i'm horrible. I havn't written for a few days. The thing is... i forgot! HAH! Anyway... Yea... the past week or so has been... very... interesting. I'm beginning to think that i am bipolar *sigh*. It really sux! I've been SO mood swingy it's scaring me.... I have no clue what's wrong with me but... Yea. I'm glad my boyfriend understands or else he'd leave with the snap of the fingers! And i love him so much so i don't want him to, heh. But, i gotta figure out what's buggin me cause i have no frickin clue... ever happened to ya? I gotta find out fast... And right it... Yea... Well, i must be off. Write soon! Peace n Love. Laterz.
School... wow that's funny. I had/still have the biggest sugar rush! I had pixie stix and coffee for breakfast and Skittles at lunch... now i'm never eating again cause i have a giganterous stomache ache but it's still fun! lol. But i was also kinda depressed n stuff, the usual. Overall, i think i'm doin pretty good, just confused... but that's also normal. Eh, i dunno. My boyfriend made me so speechless last night on the phone that i STILL have nothing to say to him... UGH! I hate him... but yet... I LOVE HIM! he he he. Anyway. Got an ortho appt soon cause i get my braces off in 2 weeks! SCORENESS!!!! lol. Peace n Love. Later.
Sorry i didn't write yesterday... busy day! Well, Friday ended up being fun. My boyfriend loves me and all is well. I got to see my bestest friend and hopefully we gunna hang out more since he n his gf just broke up, which is sad. Yet Friday was depressing cause... yea. Sometimes no one got along... Saturday was joyus too. I got to go to the mall n get my bathing suit, finally, and get my friend her b-day present cause we're havin a suprise party for her today. Then i slept at someone's house, always a joy. We took a nighttime swim cause her pool is heated lol. Well, nothing else interesting happened... My life can get real boring... so yea. Me go. Love n Peace to all. Later
Today... Today sucks. Except for the fact we had an early release and i'm goin to see my friends tonite. I've been depressed for a few days... I dunno what to do with myself. My boyfriend has been so great to me, but does he really love me as much as he says he does? Is he cheating on me? How does he feel during the day? All these questions run through my mind all day, especially cause he goes to a different school... I mean, i should know these answers by now, but it's just the way i am. I fret and worry all the time about him because i love him so much. I need to stop thinking these horrid thoughts because i know they aren't true. I hope all is well... I guess i'll find out sooner or later right? I hope so...
I'm really new at this whole thing so i'm gunna put my poems in here till i figure things out. Until tomorrow, this is Kristi saying Love and Peace to all. Later
Well, today i went to school. 3rd period, i got curious about this site and i joined! It seems fun cause i get to kepp this fuckin diary thing... man this sucks. I took pictures of my friend, Brianna today for some guy. I wanted to see Larry, but... i had to go to Brianna's cause i promised and i don't break a promise!!!! So yea... i had a shitty day cause Softball game was cancelled n i had practice for 2 hours in the rain... UGH! i hate that coach... Well, i'ma gunna go n call my sweetie! Later