well i screwed up completly my computer crashed i lost my chance to talk to her and now this i diary will probably not get read by anyone funny isn't it well if for some reason you do read this and you know who i tried my hardest to get the computer up and running one last time because there was so much i didnt get to say i even got wrotten up at work for being an hour late so if you do read this you know that i will sacrifice just about anything for a moment to talk to you

hmmmm im gonna try so hard to get on right after school i dont know how well itll work out but she knows how i feel about her so well i hope it all works out allright

a little sad talking to her will be now and never or now or never either way i hope this isnt the end because i love her shes awsome *and you know who you are*

tonight i have an op hour witch is just a gay way to say detention at my school im going to try and use one of the library computers to get on but if not i might be on 11:00 centeral time tonight or if not ill be on 2:00 p.m. on saturday but i guess by then it'tl be to late then huh? all i can do is hope

ok now im just bickering i havnt got messages since i got on a little bit ago but it's cool because im kind of in a profound thinking exploration about some stuff with some freinds that i hope goes alright

Heheh tommarow i have a date a date with the skate park a rather large drink and my world industry skateboard cause im gonna tear it up on the half pipe

Today sucks even more there is some one who i wanted to talk to more then any thing today and my damn art teacher didnt come to school today so i got stuck on watching a video in class because of the sub.

Im the biggest screw up in the world i messed up my relationship with the girl i love more then anything in the whole world its toture to watch it slip away