This one goes out to the one i love to the one person whose never failed to read my diary the one thats failed to let me know she read my diary the one whose been there since the start and the one thats stands beside me and has never left my side you know who you are and this is my way of showing my gratitude for you thank you

yeah i made it through another day of training gesse last night we had to do push ups for a time limit to raise our mental strength not to quit and then we did the hutles the later runs the box jumps and then we did crunches then crunches with one leg crossed over the other and then switched and then crunches with both legs in mid air and then we had to repeat fun huh oh well well time to go thats the bell hope you all having a fun time bye

Well I just heard the news today
It seems my life is going to change
I closed my eyes, begin to pray
Then tears of joy stream down my face
With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Well I don't know if I'm ready
To be the man I have to be
I'll take a breath, take her by my side
We stand in awe, we've created life
With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
If I had just one wish
Only one demand
I hope he's not like me
I hope he understands
That he can take this life
And hold it by the hand
And he can greet the world
With arms wide open...

im so lost im tired yet i have so much to do oopps there went the bell ill post more later

It's a shame that i havnt goten to talk to a good friend very much latly have some new stuff goin on well oh well but hey i know your reading this right now yes you sorry i like to right in my diary alot its kind of fun

wow today sucks so bad im realy messed up my bodys all sord im tired i have to work and 8 1/2 shift today and i just realy honestly want to die right now

You know a wise man once told me that hope is just a false hope well i believe he who thinks that is not a very wise man just a man with out happieness

Im here please be here i am staying after to make sure we can talk

Hey hehehe im just writing in my diary so you'll read it i like when you do how you doing hope your sick is going away well i just sittin in school thinkin bout yah so i wrote in my diary instead of sending you another letter i write to much sometimes a? any way hope to get to talk later

well i screwed up completly my computer crashed i lost my chance to talk to her and now this i diary will probably not get read by anyone funny isn't it well if for some reason you do read this and you know who i tried my hardest to get the computer up and running one last time because there was so much i didnt get to say i even got wrotten up at work for being an hour late so if you do read this you know that i will sacrifice just about anything for a moment to talk to you

hmmmm im gonna try so hard to get on right after school i dont know how well itll work out but she knows how i feel about her so well i hope it all works out allright

a little sad talking to her will be now and never or now or never either way i hope this isnt the end because i love her shes awsome *and you know who you are*

tonight i have an op hour witch is just a gay way to say detention at my school im going to try and use one of the library computers to get on but if not i might be on 11:00 centeral time tonight or if not ill be on 2:00 p.m. on saturday but i guess by then it'tl be to late then huh? all i can do is hope

ok now im just bickering i havnt got messages since i got on a little bit ago but it's cool because im kind of in a profound thinking exploration about some stuff with some freinds that i hope goes alright

Heheh tommarow i have a date a date with the skate park a rather large drink and my world industry skateboard cause im gonna tear it up on the half pipe

Today sucks even more there is some one who i wanted to talk to more then any thing today and my damn art teacher didnt come to school today so i got stuck on watching a video in class because of the sub.

Im the biggest screw up in the world i messed up my relationship with the girl i love more then anything in the whole world its toture to watch it slip away