i like someone... and what are you supposed to do when you like someone.. alot.. and you dont wanna hurt them.. all i do is hurt people and i dont wanna hurt him... he is such a sweetheart.. and i know he cares about me.. cares enough to listen to me cry about the dumbest things.. i smoke.. yeah i smoke.. and i know he doenst like smokers.. and i feel really bad cuz like i wanna smoke but i can quit really easily cuz if i just didnt have anymore then id be fine... but i dont wanna quit.. i feel like he thinks im contaminated..
My hands keep running
over stretches of skin
that feel foreign
to the touch.
New exposures
of the sharp
perfection
of bone over softness
multiply daily.
But questions
and looks of concern
are easily quieted now
because too much
is still
ten pounds
of controlled compulsion
away.
I refuse to be alone
why have you forsaken
forgotten
abandoned me
I cannot be alone tonight
I hate to feel this way
you have made me feel this way
you left me alone
I dont love you
when you leave me alone
I dont want to be with you
but I cant be alone
you save me
and condemn me
at the same time
you save me from lonliness
but leave me alone
the very next day
I can not escape this void
only you can save me from this
why wont you save me from this
why cant you understand
its being alone
that is killing me
Remember me once im gone,
Remember me,
Still living strong.
Remember me after the H bomb explosion,
Rocks our hearts.
H bomb hearts lies before me,
Waiting for another chance.
Comes down with no remorese,
Leaving me be.
Ill fly to the heavens,
Riding on a rocket.
Replace all of my thoughts,
With the arsenic in honor of rememberance..
llegible expressions in your face
i don’t know where your heart lives
or if you have one
yet
or if I’m ready to find out
have I gone through enough yet
in the name of love?
do I want it anymore
if I did
it’s you I would turn to
but I don’t know
much anymore
except I’m listening to jimmy eat
world again and I’m living in fear
of betraying my emotions
and that doesn’t happen when
my soul is unbound
open window
forgotten past
didnt sneak out
but stayed
waited for hours...
but the the window stayed open
you never returned as you promised
once again i was lied to
cryed myself to sleep again
falling asleep to the sound
of silence.
There's some nights I know,
though try as I might,
it will always hurt to die alone.
-Every night-
Something in me realizes
that this pain is not worth the fight.
I've lost this match
why try again?
-Imagine-
my heart gives up
my pulse gives in
Its so much easier to end it all
that to pick up and struggle
I'll never recover
what I've lost
and I fear I've lost it all
Crying myself to sleep for you-
as though we were never in love at all.
They Both Knew
Brought to the knees of confession
Wrapped in the robes of silhouettes of conquered nightmares
He stood there, with her conscious in his hands
He watched her sleeping form at dusk
In the twilights crystal glow he would stay
He knew she deserved her own truth
But giving back her conscious was not an option
She stirred as she woke
Only to see his tear-stained face
As he let her crawl from his warmth
She knew she wanted to leave
But he was the only one that held the key to her retreat
Tasting her disapproval through her words
He loosened his hold on her heart
But as soon as he realized he had let go… she was gone.
You called me beautiful-
You still do every now and then.
But it's all based
on this lying face.
She smiles for you-
the only way to get through the day.
Did you know
that's the only part of me
you've ever seen?
You wouldn’t think my wrists
were as pretty.
Of course you wouldn’t.
You'd probably like it
if I just stayed silent.
You watched me crying that day.
Staring
asking what was wrong.
I say as I always do
"Nothings wrong, I'm fine."
While inside I'm screaming
"EVERYTHING!"
Walking away
thinking to myself
that’s it, I cant take it anymore.
You're so blind, you can see inside me
if you tried.
Maybe you can't understand me because
you won't.
who wants to waste their time
on a broken little girl?
You called me beautiful-
You still do every now and then.
But it's all based
on this lying face.
She smiles for you-
the only way to get through the day.