IN LOVING MEMORY OF GEORGE:
the blue perakeet, who stole my heart, and took it with him, now that he's gone.
1999-2005

I HATE FRIGIN FLORIDA! My family is evacuationg from our home in south-east fl, because of stupid huricane Wilma. ARGH! I have no clue why anyone would even build a city in a marsh pit like florida, which gets hammered by huricanes every couple of days! It's ridiculous! I'm going to spend eight hours in a car with my family! what a nightmare. I can't drive myself for two reasons: one, I don't have my lices yet, I have my permitt though, and two, my car is dead (the engine is broken, the battery is dead, and the front axles are rusting.)so yeah, things are just peachy.

I have to go visit my father, for 3 days. It sucks. I can't stand being around him; he's an idiot and a loud-mouthed jerk! If he would just stay in florida, and leave my mom, sis and me alone, here.

I have been eating, by the way, and I'm feeling a little better. Sleep still continues to be a problem, I take the meds, but nothing really helps.

Woohoo! My dad finished packing his bags, and left, on sunday! What a relife! Living with him is like living with an attomic bomb, that could go off any second. Having him gone makes it easier to breathe.

I just got asked out, by a guy who goes to my school. Cool! It's been a long time since I've been in a relationship, so it's nice to be in one again.

I LIVE! My mother gave me my computer back, after she found out that without it, I was falling behind in three classes. ( I had about Fourty pages worth of notes, which I can only acces on the computer.) so, any way, I have my computer again.

Thanks and big hugs to nancy, who introduced me to Nightwish, the awsome band!

My crappy parents baned me from using the internet. so I'm at the library, and supposed to be working, but its realy slow here to day, so I'm alowed to use the internet. I'm sorry that I havn't responded to your measages, or emails.
that aside, I have been eating maybe 2 granola bars a day, and I'm feeling a little better.

Just finished watching Trigun. Love that anime! The only thing I could think of to make it even better, would be if Meryl and Vash got together. But, yeah, that's just the ramblings of an obsessive fan. XD

Yes! I ate a whole granola bar, today! I feel sick now, but the important thing is that I ate something. I have a middles east history test going on in my class right now, but I finished early, so I'm writing in my diary. It's hot outside, and the breeze coming in through the window feels good. A few days ago, my sister knocked over my bottle of contact solution, so I've been wearing my glasses, which, by the way, I had previously (and accidentaly) knocked into my underware drawer. any way, things are looking up a bit. Sorry If I scared anybody yesterday. I'm just going through a hellish time right now. A special thanks to Nancy ( [Kelaria] ), who helped me yesterday on the metro.

I was just watching the episode of trigun where Wolfwood dies, and I started crying! God, I'm shuch a softie, it was just so sweet, though, I couldn't help it! I love wolfwood, not as much as Vash, but I was realy sad when I watched that. Gah! Now, I'm just rambling! Squeek! I need to eat something soon, I'm so hungry, and my blood shuger is crashing, but every time I think about food, I just feel sick. My parents keep teling me that I'm fat, and that I need to lose weight. So now I'm trying, just to get tham off my back; but it's driving me insane! I'm so hungry, but I can't eat anything! What's wrong with me?

I finaly managed to finish up the first draft of my novle! Go me!

I can't belive the stupidity of some of the people at my school. Just like today, someone stole a bottle of Aceedic Acid, a deadly acid which can burn your hands off, blind you, and kill you. It says as much on the warning lable. Now I ask you, why on earth would you want to have that kind of thing lying around?! And one of the girls in my study hall, who is constantly talking about her oversized chest, and her sex life. With our male teacher in the room. People at my school are such idiots!
(With the exeptoin of Nancy, who rocks, as well as Sara, Chrissy, Sha, Alison, and a few other people.)

There's beauty in the breakdown, so don't give up yet! I'm going down to see the house that my dad just bought. It's on a farm. AND, it has an art studio! This is a dream come true, I can have a horse, maybe not Galiano, but I can have a horse, and an art studio! There maybe hope yet!

These are the people in my life who I love unconditionaly:
-My little sister, Kell
-My oldest friend, Halle
-My best friend from elementary school, Cherie
-My best friend from middle school,Karen
-My Best friend from high school, Nancy
-My "older sister", Sara
-My "friend with the perakeets" from middle school, Tammy
-My art class friend, Elo
-My Bus-ride friend, Liz
-MY Horsey friend, Sha
-My anime friend, Chrissy
-My Great friend from Paris, Rachel
-My Aunt, Anne
-My perakeet, George
-My cocatiel, Luv
-My dog, Bear
-And a few other people, who shal remain nameless on request

I'm Moving to Florida. Yes this is sudden. No I don't want to move. Yes my parents knew for a few months befor they told me and my little sister. Yes they lied to us when they said they were going to visit friends in Florida. They were going to visit friends- and schools, and realtors and houses! God, what do I have to do to get them to understand that I'm adult enough to handle news like that right off the bat, and that if they would just ask me, I might even be able to help them. My dad just got a job, and started planning, without even telling me and my sister. who dose he think he is? It's not just his life this will effect, but mine and my sister's too. I just got settled back into normal life after some realy bad things that happened a little while ago, and now he wants to uproot me again.

~My life is mine,
Don't mess with me,
When I'm in a bad mood,
Let me be.

My heart's torn to pieces,
My eyes wet with crying,
Don't hurt me any more,
I'm close to dying.~

Avalon's Song

My god. I hate this. My idiot parents have yet again decided that I have to go to Lithuania, for "political reasons", again over my Thanksgiving break. And do I have any say in this matter? Nope. None.
P.S. Nancy, If you need anything you can talk to me.
(migrain today, nearly knocked me out.)