This is so interesting , I DEMAND you to read it.
I totally stole this from my sis`s house , and she stole it from someone else, and I`m pretty sure he also stole it.
So if you think its interesting , please do steal this ;P



My Dear Children (and believe me, that's all of you),

I consider myself a pretty patient guy. I mean, look at the Grand Canyon. It took millions of years to get it right. And about evolution? Boy, nothing is slower than designing that whole Darwinian thing to take place, cell by cell, and gene by gene.

I've been patient through your fashions, civilizations, wars and schemes, and the countless ways you take Me for granted until you get yourselves into big trouble again and again.

I want to let you know about some of the things that are starting to tick me off.

First of all, your religious rivalries are driving Me up a wall. Enough already! Let's get one thing straight.

These are YOUR religions, not Mine.

I'm the whole enchilada; I'm beyond them all. Every one of your religions claims there is only one of Me (which by the way, is absolutely true). But in the very next breath, each religion claims it's My fa vorite one. And each claims its bible was written personally by Me, and that all the other bible's are man-made. Oh, Me. How do I even begin to put a stop to such complicated nonsense?

Okay, listen up now. I'm your Father AND Mother, and I don't play favorites among My children. Also, I hate to break it to you, but I don't write. My longhand is awful, and I've always been more of a "doer" anyway.

So ALL of your books, including those bible's, were written by men and women. They were inspired, remarkable people, but they also made mistakes here and there. I made sure of that, so that you would never trust a written word more than your own living heart.

You see, one human being to me -- even a bum on the street -- is worth more than all the Holy Books in the world. That's just the kind of guy I am.

My Spirit is not a historical thing, it's alive right here, right now, as fresh as your next breath. Holy books and religious rites are sacred and powerful, but not more so than the least of you.

They were only meant to steer you in the right direction, not to keep you arguing with each other, and certainly not to keep you from trusting your own personal connection with Me. Which brings Me to My next point about your nonsense.

You act like I need you and your religions to stick up for Me or "win souls" for My sake. Please, don't do Me any favors. I can stand quite well on my own, thank you. I don't need you to defend Me, and I don't need constant credit.

I just want you to be good to each other.

And another thing: I don't get all worked up over money or politics, so stop dragging My name into your dramas.

For example, I swear to Me that I never threatened Oral Roberts. I never rode in any of Rajneesh's Rolls Royces. I never told Pat Robertson to run for president, and I've never EVER had a conversation with Jim Baker, Jerry Falwell, or Jimmy Sw aggart! Of course, come Judgement Day, I certainly intend to...

The thing is, I want you to stop thinking of religion as some sort of loyalty pledge to Me. The true purpose of your religions is so that YOU can become more aware of ME, not the other way around.

Believe Me, I know you already. I know what's in each of your hearts, and I love you with no strings attached.

Lighten up and enjoy Me. That's what religion is best for. What you seem to forget is how mysterious I am.

You look at the petty differences in your Scriptures and say, "Well, if THIS is the truth, then THAT can't be!" But instead of trying to figure out My Paradoxes and Unfathomable Nature--which by the way, you NEVER will--why not open your hearts to the simple common threads in all religions.

You know what I'm talking about: Love and respect everyone. Be kind, even when life is scary or confusing, take courage and be of good cheer, for I am always with you. Learn how to be quiet, so you can hear My still, small voice (I don't like to shout).

Leave the world a better place by living your life with dignity and gracefulness, for you are My Own Child.

Hold back nothing from life, for the parts of you that can die surely will, and the parts that can't, won't. So don't worry, be happy (I stole that last line from Bobby McFerrin, but who do you think gave it to him in the first place?)

Simple stuff. Why do you keep making it so complicated?

It's like you're always looking for an excuse to be upset. And I'm very tired of being your main excuse. Do you think I care whether you call me Yahweh, Jehovah, Allah, Wakantonka, Brahma, Father, Mother or even the Void of Nirvana?

Do you think I care which of My special children you feel closest to -- Jesus, Mary, Buddha, Krishna, Mohammed or any of the others?

You can call Me and My Special Ones any name you choose, if only yo u would go about My business of loving one another as I love you. How can you keep neglecting something so simple? I'm not telling you to abandon your religions. Enjoy your religions, honor them, learn from them, just as you should enjoy, honor, and learn from your parents. But do you walk around telling everyone that your parents are better than theirs?

Your religion, like your parents, may always have the most special place in your heart; I don't mind that at all. And I don't want you to combine all the Great Traditions in One Big Mess.

Each religion is unique for a reason. Each has a unique style so that people can find the best path for themselves. But My Special Children -- the ones that your religions revolve around -- all live in the same place (My heart) and they get along perfectly, I assure you.

The clergy must stop creating a myth of sibling rivalry where there is none. My blessed children of Earth, the world has grown too small for y our pervasive religious bigotries and confusion. The whole planet is connected by air travel, satellite dishes, telephones, fax machines, rock concerts, diseases, and mutual needs and concerns.

Get with the program!

If you really want to help then commit yourselves to figuring out how to feed your hungry, clothe your naked, protect your abused, and shelter your poor. And just as importantly, make your own everyday life a shining example of kindness and good humor.

I've given you all the resources you need, if only you abandon your fear of each other and begin living, loving, and laughing together. Finally, My Children everywhere, when you think of the life of Jesus and the fearlessness with which He chose to live and die. As I love Him, so do I love each one of you.

I'm not really ticked off, I just wanted to grab your attention because I hate to see you suffer.

But I gave you free will.

I just want you to be happy. Always. Trust in Me.

Your One and Only,

God.

Author unknown

Soms vraag ik me af .
Hoe het zou zijn
Als niemand van deze wereld
ook maar iets om mij zou geven.
Zou dat feit dan leefbaar zijn?
Hoe zou het zijn
Als niemand me nog vast zou houden,
of enige steun zou geven,
wanneer ik die het meest nodig heb.
Zou ik dat feit kunnen dragen/
Hoe zou het zijn
Om compleet alleen te staan ,
met niemand die nog naar je kijkt.
Is dat feit niet te hard voor woorden?

Na zulke momenten ben ik altijd blij,
dat er van mij gehouden wordt.

http://wallpapers.theotaku.com/view.php?action=retrieve&id=112495

this site has THE MOST AWSOME wallpapers ^^

Common things foreigners should know about the Netherlands.

1. Not everybody is on drugs.
2. Our prime minister really does look like harry potter ,just less cool.
3. Amsterdam is not the only , and not even close to being the most wanted place to be.
4. No one wears wooden shoes anymore except for some farmers ,but some people have them just for fun.
5 . Our cows are black and white :P
6. No , tulips don`t grow all over the place in Holland ,infact we stole them from the Turkish people hundreds of years ago so its not even dutch XD
7. Not all girls are cute or pretty in holland , we do have a lot though :P
8. Not every dutch person likes cheese
9. I think we are the only country that has 'drop' for sale , most foreigners don`t like the taste.
10. Dutch persons are quite direct , Fries people are even more direct , most of times even blunt.
11. Gay marriage is legal here
12. Prostitution is also legal , but there aren`t more hookers than in any other country.Statistically seen. ^^
13. Soft Drugs are also legal , but not everyone is on drugs and you are allowed to have 5 plants of weed per person , if you disobey that rule , you get arrested :P
14 . Dutch people are hypocrite , but Americans are still worse.
15.We are the country that lets people in to shelter here because theyre home situation is unbearable , to kick them out a few years later , Then suddenly our country is too small for all those people :S (told ya we are hypocrite:P)
16. Dutch people don`t know of patriotism.
17. Most dutch people are quite honest , because they are so direct .

I hate McDonalds so yeah , I`m boycotting it.
And until this very moment , I was boycotting by myself BUT I`ve gained a new member!
Unfortunatly its just Yeb that prefers Subway over the Mac.
Oh Buggors

And I wished that EGL clothes weren`t that bloody expensive . If they weren`t I would totally change my gatherobe and only wear harajuku or EGL wearings.
Just because , they are that cool.
I wouldn`t wear the skirts or dresses though...(I`m already way too clumbsy now , not even mentioning when I`m wearing high heals and a skirt or a dress)
But those Japanese clothes are just so...bloody hell they rule.thats it :P

I also hope I did well on my test (that and that my pws will magically finish itself , that would be nice thank you ^^)
But I know that I fucked up buseness and manegement. >.<
Course today really sucked , I have this course every Saturday morning so I can see if art school is something fitting for me (okey..I already know that it is but my mom forced me to and I kind of want to know if I`m talented enough)
It contains that we have to paint stuff...yeah..stuff in abstract stuff. Well this time , we had to fuck up someone else`s work. Or atleast it felt that way for me. It was our assignment to skribble and paint and do stuff (make it even MORE beautiful teacher said) but anyway..I really had the feeling I fucked the poor boy`s hard work up.
We had to paint a comment to the others last painting (are you still getting it?)
and when we were finished we had to combine the painting (thats where the raping of someone elses work starts)
It was also very painful to see someone raping MY work. (auch auch...)
And then...we had to give our sketchbook to someone else from the group so that person can skribble in it.
Heres the problem : I had two perfect drawings in that sketchbook and I`m not trusting my coursemate enough to think that she won`t touch it and paint on a blank paige.
I feel like I`ve scored an A on my test but then someone took it and messed up the answers so I got a F and to make it worse , they also took my sketchbook :(

So I`m kind of feeling sad right now , and after course I had to shop with my mom (which made me even MORE pissed)
And after I went home Josry totally forgot that I was supposed to come hanging out with him after course and that we were going to the movies .
auch yeah :P
But thats okey , I wasn`t in a going out mood anyway and after I pretended like I was angry with him he called me and said he was sorry and misunderstood , and if I wanted to watch a horribly romantic movie with him tonight at my place (HUH? okey the boyfriend I know from the previous relations never , ever said he was sorry and also didn`t want to watch movies with me.)
So I was happy , and surprised ....and realised we had nothing edable in house exept for macaroni >.<
So ...he made something macaroni..ishes and I ate all of it . It was kind of good (but to be honest , I even would`ve ate it and said it was good if it was burn`t and disgusting)
Wow...first time I wrote something serious about Jos here ,hehe well I guess I should...considering I`ve known and dated the guy like..forever. Just not all the time :P

55 Things nobody gives a shit about... XD


1. Is your second toe bigger than your first?
No it is not

2. Do you have a favorite type of pen?
Black inker

3. Look at your planner for November 9, what were you doing?
Don`t have a planner , can`t remember.

4. What color are your toenails usually?
Natural pink , I find painting my toenails a bit gross for I have the ugliest feet in the world XD

5. What is the last thing you highlighted?
Things I have to remember for MO

7. What color are the seats in your car?
I don't have a car...but my dad`s car has blue seats

8. Have you ever had a black and white cat?
Yes I still have one , he`s called Poeke

9. What is the last thing you put a stamp on?
On a postcard I forgot to send...oops

10. Do you know anyone who lives in Wyoming?
No...where the fuck is Wyoming >.<

where's 11???
I accidentaly stepped on it

12. Who is the last baby that you held?
Gaby , the newborn of my mother`s best friend.

13. Do you know of any twins with rhyming names?
...No XD

14. Do you like Cinnamon toothpaste?
I don`t really hate it but I like mint better.

15. What kind of car were you driving a year ago?
I don`t have a licence...yet :P

16. Pick one: Florida State Seminoles, Miami Hurricanes or Florida Gators?
The pink ladielas

17. Last time you went to Six Flags?
Yeaaars ago on a school trip.

18. Do you have any wallpaper in your house?
Yes.

19. Closest thing to you that is yellow:
A yello post-it. Its a grocerie list.

20. Last person to give you a business card?
I have never ever recieved a business card .

21. Who is the last person you wrote a check to?
Better question : Who will be the FIRST person you write a check to?

22. Closest framed picture to you?
One big frame with lots of pictures of me and grytsje.

23. Last time you did homework?
........ 3 years ago ?

24. Have you ever applied for welfare?
No

25. How many emails do you have?
8.

26. Last time you recieved flowers?
Two years ago after a show

27. Who is the governor of your state?
I don't live in a state

28. Do you think the sanctity of marriage is meant for only a man & woman?
Oh for fucks sake , off course not. I`m dutch and I grew up with the fact that being gay is in your genes and not in your head! Therefore people that prefer the same sex should get married if they want to , people should really stop whining about that.


29. Where do you get your myspace layouts from?
I don't have a myspace

30. What is the smallest key on your key ring for?
I actually don`t have a keyring

31. Do you have any Willow Tree figurines?
I... don't think so >_>

32. What was your high school's rival mascot?
I`m really starting to like Holland now for not having mascots ^^

33. Last person you spoke to from high school?
Josry , said bye and have a nice dinner.

34. Last time you used hand sanitizer?
few hours ago

35. Have you ever worn camoflauge?
....NO XD


36. What color are the blinds in your living room?
Green , like bright grass like green

37. What is in your inbox at work?
I don`t have a job yet

38. Last thing you read in the newspaper?
Something about high-schoolers

39. What was the last pageant you attended?
pfffft

40. What is the last place you bought pizza from?
The Jumbo XD

41. Have you ever worn a crown?
yes I sometimes wear a crown to school. Because I`m like that XD


42. What is the last thing you stapled?
paper?

43. Did you ever drink Crystal Pepsi?
....No...

44. Ever had an ingrown toenail?
No never >.<

45. Last time you saw fireworks?
Last new year`s eve.

46. Last time you had a Krispy Kreme doughnut?
Never had one , and I don`t like doughnuts either.

47. Who is the last person that left you a message & you actually returned their call?
I don't return calls because I hate calling people .

48. Last time you parked under a carport?
Never did , not eighteen yet remember.
49. Do you have a black dog?
No mine is grey ^^

50. Do you have any gourds?
what?

51. Are you an Aunt or Uncle?
My siblings don`t have any children yet , or else it would be pretty fucked up *imagening grytsje with children* HAHAHAHAHAHA XD

52. Who has the prettiest eyes that you know of?
Josry , big brown dark eyes *.* And those LASHES!! I`m actually jealous lol:P

53. Last time you saw a semi truck?
Pff...no clue

54. Do you remember Ugly Kid Joe?
Never heard of him

55. Do you have a little black dress?
Actually I do , but I never wear it..its too...nice XD

Yay another lame and totally good for nothing enquete thingie!
Yes you guessed it right...I was bored.

1. Have you ever been searched by the cops?
No

2. Do you close your eyes on roller coasters?
No but I do scream.

3. When was the last time you've been sledding?
Pfff aaages ago , I think I must have been....like 5 years old or so?


4. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
With someone else , if you have once shared your bed with someone else it feels weird when you sleep alone.

5. Do you believe in ghosts?
Yes I do

6. Do you consider yourself creative?
Yes but not nearly creative enough.

7. Do you think O.J. killed his wife?
Who the fuck is O.J?


8. Jennifer Aniston or Angelina Jolie?
Jolie , at least she can act. Anniston seems like a nicer person though.

9. Can you honestly say you know ANYTHING about politics?
I know a bit , but I can`t vote yet so next year I`m going to devote myself to it.

10. Do you know how to play poker?
Not yet..

11. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight.
No , I don`t think it would even be possible for me .
I need my sleep ^^

12. Have you ever cheated on a test?
Once , but the whole class cheated so then its more like a practical joke. Sigh , I guess I`m not sneaky enough to be a good cheater

13. Who was your first crush?
Uuurm....*think think* I think it was a Turkish boy when I was there on vacation, must`ve been 12 or 13

(what happened to 14?)
It got sucked into hammer space.

15. Do you have a secret that no one knows but you?
Probably yes , but its better if you share a secret with at least one person.

16. Boston Red Sox or New York Yankees?
I`m not into sports that include a fabric ball ^^

17. Have you ever been ice skating?
Yes , I`m also pretty good at it.

18. How often do you remember your dreams?
I always remember some parts but I had a few weeks that I couldn`t remember any of it. Now I can remember them again fortunatly ^^

19. When was the last time you laughed so hard you cried?
A few weeks ago when Josry found out at what parts of my body I`m the most ticklish

20. Can you name 4 songs by The Beatles?
a. Help
b. Yellow Submarine
c. All you need is love
d. Yesterday

21. What's the one thing on your mind?
I have thousands of things on my mind.

22. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Yes I do

23. Do you know who Ba-Ba-Booey is?
No but it sounds lame -.-

24. Do you always wear your seatbelt?
Whenever there is a seatbelt I do

25. What talent do you wish you had?
I wish I had an absolute memory , but thats not a talent isn`t it ?
Well...then I`d wish for the talent to sing , it must be great if you have a good voice.


26. Do you like Sushi?
I probably would if I ever got the chance to try it.

27. Have you ever narrowly avoided a fatal accident?
I narrowly avoid fatal accidents everyday...XD Usually cars or trucks.

28. What do you wear to sleep?
Nothing....I`m a nude sleeper.

29. Righty or lefty?
Righty

30. Full house or Fresh Prince?
Both series are old and I enjoyed both of them but I guess I liked Full House more

31. Do you truly hate anyone?
No...hating costs waaay too much energy. I do dislike persons though

32. Rock or Rap?
Depends on my mood , but most of times rock.

34. Do you know anyone in jail?
Nope.

35. Have you ever sang in front of the mirror?
When I was smaller I once did.

36. What food do you find disgusting?
Its a dutch dish called snert , it looks like someone just puked on your plate

38. Do you drive an auto or stick?
Wtf is stick?

40. Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew?
Yes , when I was younger I immediatly stood up for someone if a person wasn`t treated right. Now I tend to do it less frequently

41. Have you ever been punched in the face?
Yes , also have been bitchslapped in the face.

42. When was the last time you danced?
Today , there isn`t a day without dancing.

43. Do you own any stuffed animals?
Any? Stocks!! But only those without fur, I`m allergic to most stuffed animals.

44. When was the last time you tripped?
Yesterday...damn I do trip alot XD

45. Were you born by a caesarian? (c-section)
No .

46. Do you like anyone?
Yes , infact I have a wonderfull , sweet and intelligent boyfriend whom I do not like , but love.


47. Do you miss someone right now?
Don`t you always miss someone?

today was an interesting day , because you see I have headaches . Every day. Every hour . Every minute.
Always .
I`ve had them for like a half year now. Sometimes it doesn`t hurt that much and sometimes its so bad that smacking my head against the wall seems a good idea. But its always , always there.
It causes me concentration problems at school so my grades are drasticly dropping , not to mention that its just plain annoying. I read three times slower than I used to , and then I still can`t memorize all that I read .
And therefore I feel...stupid.
You know what its like..feeling stupid? It sucks...it really does because I`ve always considered myself quite a smart person...studying for a test meanth just reading the info for me and then I would pass it.
Not anymore though..And I know that I`m not stupid or dumb ..that its just the headache and the concentration problems but I still feel stupid.
Ive been to the doctor for this problem , he sent me to the hospital and they couldn`t find anything in my blood.
Weeks later I went again for my headache (I also went a few times for my astma)and the man did not take me seriously.. I could actually HEAR him thinking that I was just another teen attention seeker with a bit of a headache.
He thought I was overreacting and did not pay any attention to it , now tell me. Is it normal for someone to have constant headaches for SIX FUCKING MONTHS??
So we tried the alternative way , someone that uses his hands to cure my headache.
I went there today for the first time..heres a detailed report.

When I stepped out of the car with my mom (yes my mom was with me , it was during schooltime and it was kind of far away so she had to drive me)I saw it was just at a regular house (surprise number one) I also thought that the man would be middle-aged...normal sized and quite introvert. Instead of that I was welcomed by a sixty-five year old man , kind of fat but not really and he talked quite alot and quite loud to.
And at that same moment ,that instant I immediatly knew that this was a good person and that he really could help me.And after I knew that all my nervousness faded away and I introduced myself.
I was said to take place on the chair before him , my mother could watch from a small distance in another chair.
The room itself looked like a normal study room..except for the big massage table. You didn`t get that uncomfortable doctor feeling.
He asked me what the problem was , and then felt my shoulders. "Like brick they are" he said. "Your shoulder muscles are stuck , you`re so tense..and thats why you have those headaches."
That wasn`t the weird part. From the moment he touched my shoulders and began to rub them to get the tension out of them. He started telling all kinds of stuff about me to me and my mother. Things he could not have known, for he had never seen or spoken any of us before.
He told me that I carry my problems too long with me , because I think I can solve them by myself.
He knew I`m a easy learner
He knew that I drink too little.
He knew that I don`t say important things out of myself.
Just by merely looking at me and touching my shoulders.
And then I realised..he is like me. But in a far more advanced stadium.
It was not scary though..I`m kind of used to the alternative healing arts because my dad also practises them when I have a headache.
I also noticed that my hands were getting warm and at some moments I almost had to cry...for no reason at all.
That was really...really weird , but then again not scary. Not at all.
After a half hour or so my shoulders became more relaxed and he was overjoyed because I was making so much progress in so little time "It always works immediatly with kids" he said. He also layed a paper towel on my head and then softly massaged my head , "without the paper towel it would hurt both of us" he explained.
After an hour I already felt much better , I was tired but my headaches seemed less. I also got some tips . I have to practice walking straight (so my energy can flow through my body normally) and I have to stretch my shoulders three times per day.
I also have to go to the healer (magnetiseur in dutch) two more times , but not for a whole hour anymore . Maybe an half hour or so.
I still have headaches , they are even worse now but the man warned me that it might become worse at first and a day after I would be rid of my headaches. Or they would be easier to handle. He also asked me (well kind of obligated me) to open up a bit more to my surroundings , to tell persons when I have something thats on my mind.
I guess I`m really a loner when it comes to sharing problems , but I honestly will try. At least to Josry and Grytsje , I can talk to them about anything ^^

okey note : I fucking hate being sick.
Yes..I am sick , again. This time my bronchien (or however they are called in english) decided to get all fucked up and maybe I have also astma creeping in on me. That sucks because when you get astma at my age , you`ll never grow over it.
But anyway , I can`t stop coughing (I even bruised a few ribs because of it) my head still hurts , I have zero fatigue and I can`t even lift a chair. Oh.. I`m also on antibiotics so I`m supposed to get better soon
I`ve been sick for almost a week now ><

My elf name is Morwen Ancalimë , or so this site says http://www.chriswetherell.com/elf/

Nessa Ancalimë it is when I type in my full name ^^
Ain`t telling you what it is though , because I`m MEAN like that
puuuuh!

Ik aan mijzelf       

Aan mijn verleden zelf :       

Ach lief meisje wat dachten wij toch 
wijs te zijn weer ieder jaar.     
Minachtend keken wij neer
op de domoor die wij vroeger waren.
Weet je dan niet dat
wijsheid niet met jaren komt
maar met woorden en met daden ?
Waarschijnlijk hadden wij
in de peutertijd onze wijze periode
En kunnen we daar zelfs 
nu nog wat van leren.
Was ik nog maar net zo zeker als jij
dan had ik geen schild nodig.
En kon ik met recht zeggen
een echt mens te zijn.

Aan mijn toekomstige zelf :

Weet dat het nooit erg kan zijn
eens goed gekwetst te worden.
Wij weten immers allang 
dat al het leven lijden is.
Zeker als het om liefde gaat
we horen niet anders.
Maar laat dat je vooral niet weerhouden
toch lief te hebben.
Dat is namelijk het enige 
wat er echt toe doet.
Wordt alsjeblieft nooit zoals anderen
wat zal betekenen dat je nooit helemaal
volwassen zult worden.
Wat echter niet erg is want
wij hadden allang door dat
alle harten die van kinderen zijn.

Aan mezelf :

Wees zoals je bent
iets anders kunnen we toch niet wezen.
We hebben onzelf immers
al veel te lang gespeeld .
En we moeten toch echt eens leren leven
zonder angst en zonder banden.
Of nee , toch liever met angst want
een leven zonder zorgen
zien we nu ook alweer niet zitten.
En zit niet steeds zo te piekeren
over het leven enzo want
daar zijn wij nog veel te jong voor.
Of doe toch maar wel want weet je nog ?
Wijsheid komt niet met de jaren.





Me to myself

To my past self :

Ah dear girl do you remember when
we thought we were wise every year again.
And how we pitied the fool
we used to be the year before.
Do you not know that
wisdom does not come with age
but with the words we say
and the deeds we do?
We probably had our wisest time
during our infant years.
And I think that we still are
able to learn from that right now.
I wish I still was as certain as you
that way I would not have need for a shield.
And I would really be able to say
that I am a true human being.


To my future self:

Please know that it can never be a bad thing
to get hurt real good once in your life.
Because we have always known
that living also means suffering.
Certainly when it comes to love
we hear that all the time.
But still , please don`t refrain from 
loving someone yourself.
Because that is the only thing
that really matters in this life.
Never become exactly like
all the other persons in this world.
Which also means that you will
never entirely grow up.
But thats not really a bad thing because
you and I both have known for a long time
that all hearts are those of children.

To my present self :

Always be whom you are
we both know that we cannot be anyting else.
We have played ourselves now
for a far too long of a time.
And now we really have to learn how to live
without fear and leashes.
Or no , rather with fear because
we would not like a life without worries.
And stop sulking about life and stuff because
we both know you are much too young for that.
Or wait , rather do so because do you remember?
Wisdom doesn`t come with age .










Written by me , october the 20th . You are allowed to use it and put it on your house , your site or whatever if you think this poem says what you think about life yourself.
But please , always say that I wrote it , that those are my thoughts . Because they are ^^

For all the people that think the Netherlands is such a great country :P You have to know Dutch to understand it though.
If you can`t , just ask and I`ll be happy to translate it for you ^^


Hans Teeuwen Nederland




Nederland, Nederland, politiek correct en tolerant
Nederland, Nederland, Nederland oladiejee

We krijgen een hele domme koning met een dikke kop
Daar kan ie niks aan doen, maar het valt wel op
'T komt.. 'T komt omdat hij niet denkt, maar lekker eet
Net als dat Argentijnse mokkel met die dikke reet

Nederland, Nederland, politiek correct en tolerant
Nederland, Nederland, Nederland oladiejee

Aan het einde van de oorlog, het verzet in allemaal
En met de spullen van de weggevoerde joden aan de haal
Geen land waar in de oorlog zoveel Joden zijn verdwenen,
Want de lafheid zit diep geworteld in de genen in

Nederland, Nederland, politiek correct en tolerant
Nederland, Nederland, Nederland oladiejee

Weinig landen hebben zoveel, slaven gedreven
Tis hier 'n traditie om de buren aan te geven
We hebben ook nog heel veel Indonesiers vermoord
En apartheid is ook niet voor niks een Nederlands woord.

Nederland, Nederland, politiek correct en tolerant
Nederland, Nederland, Nederland oladiejee

Dit is een heerlijk lied, 'n (-h)eerlijk lied
En wie het tegendeel beweert die is hypocriet
Ik ben slim en jullie zijn dom, mensen zoals jullie daar lach ik om
Want ik kom uit..

Nederland, Nederland, politiek correct en tolerant
Nederland, Nederland, Nederland oladiejee

Ik heb schijt aan arme landen, ik ben gelukkig en gezond
Ik voel nog meer dan passie (dan passie->compassie(=medelijden)) voor een in de steek gelaten hond.
Echte risico's of offers daar ben ik niet aan gewend
Ik zing een moralistisch liedje en dat heet engagement

Nederland, Nederland, politiek correct en tolerant
Nederland, Nederland, Nederland oladiejee

I have a house key!!
*dances*
Now I can feed my cat again! ^^

Also. My beloved sister is BACK!!!!
*Happy happy happy dance ,happy happy happy dance*

Out of boredom I did some personality tests on internet today and these are the results :

results from Stupid and vague colour test : Your Existing Situation
Easily affected by her environment and readily moved by the emotions of others. Seeks congenial relationships and an occupation which will promote them.

Result from a doctor phil test : Your total score is 43

Interpretation of Results
Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.



this is enough product of boredom for now

World sucks ass when grytsje`s not around , seriously 0.o I guess she`s been gone to De Ardennen for about...two days now (bootcamp XD) and I can`t remember being so bored.
I actually talked to the couch when I was watching anime ><'' I would so totally hate to be an only child, really :P In most of the daytime it isn`t that worse because most of times I go to josry`s place now (we even had a sleep over ^^ , I had to sleep in another room though , sneaky parents of his XD ) and I also have a test week (although I`m not really learning..yeah I know I should but I just can`t bring myself to actually study. I am trying though but I guess I really do have a case of serious sister addiction XD )
Also , I don`t know if it is because grytsje is gone or not but Fenna (my best friend) is starting to irritate me. She`s being kind of...well bitchy . Dunno why and I could be wrong...she also has the testweek stress offcourse but for as long as she remains bitchy on msn I`m kinda going to avoid her and putting my status on offline :P
She could be mad because I managed to skip my M&O test (I pretended being sick and my dad went along with it...I`m called de oplichter , or in english * the fraud* now:P
And another problem! I suspect grytsje of taking BOTH the housekeys to my mom`s house and now I can`t get to my books AND I CAN`T FEED THAT FUCKING CAT!!
Poor thing... My mom`s away for a vacation in Portugal and she won`t be coming back until lets say....saturday or something..dunno to be exact .
I`m so totally going to be killed :| Not to mention the poor kitty :/
But I guess I shouldn`t be bored because I have tons of thing to do.
1 : Study for Economics (blegh..don`t feel like it)
2 : Study for French (done that , its hopeless because we get a text anyway )
3 : Study for Dutch : (We have to write some letter ,I can I possibly study writing a letter?)
4 : Buy batteries for the photocamera (yeah...I could do that.. I`m kind of in a picture mood)
5 : Finish the script that you should have finished a month ago ( But it is so boring!!! >< >< )
6 : Start drawing things for your pws !!! (Yeah...although I don`t really feel like drawing I guess I should..)
7 : Look up the art school site and enroll yourself into it.( Okey thats going to be problematic because I don`t know the name of the site..)

30 THINGS THAT WIll MAKE YOUR PARENTS GO CRAZY

1. Follow them around the house everywhere...
2. Moo when they say your name...
3. Run into walls...
4. Say that wearing clothes is against your religion...
5. Stand over them at four in the morning with a huge grin on your face and say, good morning sunshine...
6. Pluck someone's hair out and yell, "DNA"...
7. Wear a sticker that says, "I’m a retard"...
8. Have 20 imaginary friends that you talk to all the time...
9. In public yell, "No Mom/Dad, I will not make out with you!!"...
10. Do what they actually tell you...
11. Jump off the roof, trying to fly...
12. Hold their hand and whisper to them, I see dead people...
13. At everything they say yell, Liar...
14. Try to swim in the floor...
15. Tap on their door all night...
16.Pretend to have amnesia...
17.Say everything backwards...
18.Give yourself a swirly...
19.Run around with a lamp shade on your head yelling, "the sun!!! it's dying!!!"...
20.Sing at the top of your lungs while running around the house...in your underwear...
21.Have nervous spasms at spontaneous times...
22.Snort loudly when you laugh and then laugh harder...
23.Run in circles...
24.Recite a whole movie 3 times...
25.Pretend to beat yourself up...
26.Slither everywhere...
27.Wear your pants on your head and your shirt on your waist... tell them you're making a fashion statement...
28.Try and drink out of a glass the wrong way...
29.Super glue your finger up your nose...
30.Talk to a pen..

I saw this in someones house and I shamelessly stole it ..teehee ^^

Have you ever wondered ,

Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin?

Why women can't put on mascara with their mouth closed? (I tried this and its true...we can`t !! )

Why don't you ever see the headline "Psychic Wins Lottery"?

Why is "abbreviated" such a long word?(I don`t even know what it means -.-)

Why is it that doctors call what they do "practice"?

Why is it that to stop Windows 98, you have to click on "Start"?

Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquid is made with real lemons?

Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?

Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?

Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?

When dog food is new and improved tasting, who tests it? (yes..I would so very like to know that)

Why didn't Noah swat those two mosquitoes?

Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?

You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes?... Why don't they make the whole plane out of that stuff?

Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?

Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?

If con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite of progress?

If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal?

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*On a bar of Dial soap: "Directions: Use like regular soap." (and that would be how??...)

*On some Swanson frozen dinners: "Serving suggestion: Defrost." (but, it's "just" a suggestion.)

*On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert (printed on bottom): "Do not turn upside down." (well...duh, a bit late, huh!)

*On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding: "Product will be hot after heating." (...and you thought????...)

*On packaging for a Rowenta iron: "Do not iron clothes on body." (but wouldn't this save me more time?)

*On Boot's Children Cough Medicine:"Do not drive a car or operate machinery after taking this medication." (We could do a lot to reduce the rate of construction accidents if we could just get those 5-year-olds with head-colds off those forklifts.)

*On Nytol Sleep Aid: "Warning: May cause drowsiness." (and... I'm taking this because???....)

*On most brands of Christmas lights: "For indoor or outdoor use only." (as opposed to...what?)

*On Sunsbury's peanuts: "Warning: contains nuts." (talk about a news flash)

*On an American Airlines packet of nuts: "Instructions: Open packet, eat nuts." (Step 3: maybe, uh...fly Delta?)

*On a Swedish chainsaw:"Do not attempt to stop chain with your hands or genitals." (..was there a lot of this happening somewhere?)

I now have red thingies in my hair *.*

Look I`ve got piccies ^^
CAUTION , I didn`t say they where nice (I AM sick after all)

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Subject = PICTURES

Blegh I`m sick today >< Well not really sick.. I`m kinda having a splitting-head kind of headache so I skipped school and I think I`m also gonna skip tomorrow if this continues -.-
Grytsje still managed to make a few good pics of me though , I don`t know how she pulled it off , but she did ^^
Its weird because I hate and love being taken pictures from at the same time. I hate it because I get nervous in front of a camera and don`t know how to pose..grytsje is about the only one that can take decent pictures of me. And I love being taken pictures from because I like dressing myself up and seeing the end result (if its a good one)
I`d like to be on a picture with my sis where we both look good , because its always that either she looks perfect and I`m pulling off a weird face ,or the other way around.
But then again...perfect sister pictures might be a bit boring :P
I also have a new mission.. I want grytsje to make a good pic of me and josry. Not a posed one , just a sweet one.
Why ? Well.. I don`t have a nice pic of him and I`ve always wanted one but he used to hate being photographed ..but now he`s being a total sweetheart to me so he might agree ^^


I`ll put a few of today`s pictures here so you can see ^^
Offcourse I`ll do the ones that worked out allright:P doh.
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OKey those were about it >< the rest is way too silly to put over here XD

I`ve drawn something today that I`m really proud of.. well I didn`t draw it today.. I drew it last week and I nearly finished it today.
Drawing couples is soo damn hard 0.o

So..uurm here`s the story.
I think my ex and I are going back together again. I`ve predicted this though..so it isn`t much of a surprise for me. A few weeks ago we started hanging out again and I felt that we both missed eachother. I almost had forgotten how easy it is to talk to him about random , but also serious things. We understand eachother with half a word , and thats rare you know :P So we talked , about almost anything the whole day . And for the rest of the week we stayed seeing eachother or *accidentaly* bumping into eachother when shopping or something.
We are still talking a lot now..and its almost like we`ve never been apart. I think he`s gonna ask me for a relationship on my birthday..actually I know that . Dunno why , I just know.

I haven`t talked about this with anyone besides my sister , because I may be wrong. But than again , he`s sending so much very VERY hard to miss signs that its almost impossible for me to not see them as not-so-well-hidden flirts.
People that know me are gonna say that I must be nuts to even consider starting an relationship with the same guy for the third time. I must say that it does sound kind of foolish..And maybe it is. But I also know that I broke up with him because I knew that we would end up hating eachother if we continued. I knew that if I would not dump him , the little love he had left would die and he would feel nothing for me. I prefered him hating me instead .
I dumped him so he could love me again , I knew that he would because thats the kind of person he is. He is the kind that can`t be in a relationship for a very long time ,because he thinks he`s gonna miss too much . I know that , so I let him go. At that time I also was so depressed , that I could not handle the whole situation..If I could I would`ve found another reason besides having to end it. But ooh well..I did and now we are going back together again if I`m not mistaken.
I`m happy about that , because I`ve never stopped loving him. And strangely enough , I`m not even the slightest bit scared of what will happen. I am not affraid of getting hurt , because getting hurt is worth it. Definetly ^^



*UPDATE 19 september *
I was right , yesterday on my birthday Josry (yes..thats his name..you are not the only one that is thinking about that green dino thing named Yoshi now ^^ ) and I started something for the third time XD
Very romantic mushy mushy story it is , but I`m not gonna tell the details now.. the fact is. I was right ^^