Ik aan mijzelf
Aan mijn verleden zelf :
Ach lief meisje wat dachten wij toch
wijs te zijn weer ieder jaar.
Minachtend keken wij neer
op de domoor die wij vroeger waren.
Weet je dan niet dat
wijsheid niet met jaren komt
maar met woorden en met daden ?
Waarschijnlijk hadden wij
in de peutertijd onze wijze periode
En kunnen we daar zelfs
nu nog wat van leren.
Was ik nog maar net zo zeker als jij
dan had ik geen schild nodig.
En kon ik met recht zeggen
een echt mens te zijn.
Aan mijn toekomstige zelf :
Weet dat het nooit erg kan zijn
eens goed gekwetst te worden.
Wij weten immers allang
dat al het leven lijden is.
Zeker als het om liefde gaat
we horen niet anders.
Maar laat dat je vooral niet weerhouden
toch lief te hebben.
Dat is namelijk het enige
wat er echt toe doet.
Wordt alsjeblieft nooit zoals anderen
wat zal betekenen dat je nooit helemaal
volwassen zult worden.
Wat echter niet erg is want
wij hadden allang door dat
alle harten die van kinderen zijn.
Aan mezelf :
Wees zoals je bent
iets anders kunnen we toch niet wezen.
We hebben onzelf immers
al veel te lang gespeeld .
En we moeten toch echt eens leren leven
zonder angst en zonder banden.
Of nee , toch liever met angst want
een leven zonder zorgen
zien we nu ook alweer niet zitten.
En zit niet steeds zo te piekeren
over het leven enzo want
daar zijn wij nog veel te jong voor.
Of doe toch maar wel want weet je nog ?
Wijsheid komt niet met de jaren.
Me to myself
To my past self :
Ah dear girl do you remember when
we thought we were wise every year again.
And how we pitied the fool
we used to be the year before.
Do you not know that
wisdom does not come with age
but with the words we say
and the deeds we do?
We probably had our wisest time
during our infant years.
And I think that we still are
able to learn from that right now.
I wish I still was as certain as you
that way I would not have need for a shield.
And I would really be able to say
that I am a true human being.
To my future self:
Please know that it can never be a bad thing
to get hurt real good once in your life.
Because we have always known
that living also means suffering.
Certainly when it comes to love
we hear that all the time.
But still , please don`t refrain from
loving someone yourself.
Because that is the only thing
that really matters in this life.
Never become exactly like
all the other persons in this world.
Which also means that you will
never entirely grow up.
But thats not really a bad thing because
you and I both have known for a long time
that all hearts are those of children.
To my present self :
Always be whom you are
we both know that we cannot be anyting else.
We have played ourselves now
for a far too long of a time.
And now we really have to learn how to live
without fear and leashes.
Or no , rather with fear because
we would not like a life without worries.
And stop sulking about life and stuff because
we both know you are much too young for that.
Or wait , rather do so because do you remember?
Wisdom doesn`t come with age .
Written by me , october the 20th . You are allowed to use it and put it on your house , your site or whatever if you think this poem says what you think about life yourself.
But please , always say that I wrote it , that those are my thoughts . Because they are ^^
For all the people that think the Netherlands is such a great country :P You have to know Dutch to understand it though.
If you can`t , just ask and I`ll be happy to translate it for you ^^
Hans Teeuwen Nederland
Nederland, Nederland, politiek correct en tolerant
Nederland, Nederland, Nederland oladiejee
We krijgen een hele domme koning met een dikke kop
Daar kan ie niks aan doen, maar het valt wel op
'T komt.. 'T komt omdat hij niet denkt, maar lekker eet
Net als dat Argentijnse mokkel met die dikke reet
Nederland, Nederland, politiek correct en tolerant
Nederland, Nederland, Nederland oladiejee
Aan het einde van de oorlog, het verzet in allemaal
En met de spullen van de weggevoerde joden aan de haal
Geen land waar in de oorlog zoveel Joden zijn verdwenen,
Want de lafheid zit diep geworteld in de genen in
Nederland, Nederland, politiek correct en tolerant
Nederland, Nederland, Nederland oladiejee
Weinig landen hebben zoveel, slaven gedreven
Tis hier 'n traditie om de buren aan te geven
We hebben ook nog heel veel Indonesiers vermoord
En apartheid is ook niet voor niks een Nederlands woord.
Nederland, Nederland, politiek correct en tolerant
Nederland, Nederland, Nederland oladiejee
Dit is een heerlijk lied, 'n (-h)eerlijk lied
En wie het tegendeel beweert die is hypocriet
Ik ben slim en jullie zijn dom, mensen zoals jullie daar lach ik om
Want ik kom uit..
Nederland, Nederland, politiek correct en tolerant
Nederland, Nederland, Nederland oladiejee
Ik heb schijt aan arme landen, ik ben gelukkig en gezond
Ik voel nog meer dan passie (dan passie->compassie(=medelijden)) voor een in de steek gelaten hond.
Echte risico's of offers daar ben ik niet aan gewend
Ik zing een moralistisch liedje en dat heet engagement
Nederland, Nederland, politiek correct en tolerant
Nederland, Nederland, Nederland oladiejee
I have a house key!!
*dances*
Now I can feed my cat again! ^^
Also. My beloved sister is BACK!!!!
*Happy happy happy dance ,happy happy happy dance*
Out of boredom I did some personality tests on internet today and these are the results :
results from Stupid and vague colour test : Your Existing Situation
Easily affected by her environment and readily moved by the emotions of others. Seeks congenial relationships and an occupation which will promote them.
Result from a doctor phil test : Your total score is 43
Interpretation of Results
Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.
this is enough product of boredom for now
World sucks ass when grytsje`s not around , seriously 0.o I guess she`s been gone to De Ardennen for about...two days now (bootcamp XD) and I can`t remember being so bored.
I actually talked to the couch when I was watching anime ><'' I would so totally hate to be an only child, really :P In most of the daytime it isn`t that worse because most of times I go to josry`s place now (we even had a sleep over ^^ , I had to sleep in another room though , sneaky parents of his XD ) and I also have a test week (although I`m not really learning..yeah I know I should but I just can`t bring myself to actually study. I am trying though but I guess I really do have a case of serious sister addiction XD )
Also , I don`t know if it is because grytsje is gone or not but Fenna (my best friend) is starting to irritate me. She`s being kind of...well bitchy . Dunno why and I could be wrong...she also has the testweek stress offcourse but for as long as she remains bitchy on msn I`m kinda going to avoid her and putting my status on offline :P
She could be mad because I managed to skip my M&O test (I pretended being sick and my dad went along with it...I`m called de oplichter , or in english * the fraud* now:P
And another problem! I suspect grytsje of taking BOTH the housekeys to my mom`s house and now I can`t get to my books AND I CAN`T FEED THAT FUCKING CAT!!
Poor thing... My mom`s away for a vacation in Portugal and she won`t be coming back until lets say....saturda
I`m so totally going to be killed :| Not to mention the poor kitty :/
But I guess I shouldn`t be bored because I have tons of thing to do.
1 : Study for Economics (blegh..don`t feel like it)
2 : Study for French (done that , its hopeless because we get a text anyway )
3 : Study for Dutch : (We have to write some letter ,I can I possibly study writing a letter?)
4 : Buy batteries for the photocamera (yeah...I could do that.. I`m kind of in a picture mood)
5 : Finish the script that you should have finished a month ago ( But it is so boring!!! >< >< )
6 : Start drawing things for your pws !!! (Yeah...althoug
7 : Look up the art school site and enroll yourself into it.( Okey thats going to be problematic because I don`t know the name of the site..)
30 THINGS THAT WIll MAKE YOUR PARENTS GO CRAZY
1. Follow them around the house everywhere...
2. Moo when they say your name...
3. Run into walls...
4. Say that wearing clothes is against your religion...
5. Stand over them at four in the morning with a huge grin on your face and say, good morning sunshine...
6. Pluck someone's hair out and yell, "DNA"...
7. Wear a sticker that says, "I’m a retard"...
8. Have 20 imaginary friends that you talk to all the time...
9. In public yell, "No Mom/Dad, I will not make out with you!!"...
10. Do what they actually tell you...
11. Jump off the roof, trying to fly...
12. Hold their hand and whisper to them, I see dead people...
13. At everything they say yell, Liar...
14. Try to swim in the floor...
15. Tap on their door all night...
16.Pretend to have amnesia...
17.Say everything backwards...
18.Give yourself a swirly...
19.Run around with a lamp shade on your head yelling, "the sun!!! it's dying!!!"...
20.Sing at the top of your lungs while running around the house...in your underwear...
21.Have nervous spasms at spontaneous times...
22.Snort loudly when you laugh and then laugh harder...
23.Run in circles...
24.Recite a whole movie 3 times...
25.Pretend to beat yourself up...
26.Slither everywhere...
27.Wear your pants on your head and your shirt on your waist... tell them you're making a fashion statement...
28.Try and drink out of a glass the wrong way...
29.Super glue your finger up your nose...
30.Talk to a pen..
I saw this in someones house and I shamelessly stole it ..teehee ^^
Have you ever wondered ,
Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin?
Why women can't put on mascara with their mouth closed? (I tried this and its true...we can`t !! )
Why don't you ever see the headline "Psychic Wins Lottery"?
Why is "abbreviated" such a long word?(I don`t even know what it means -.-)
Why is it that doctors call what they do "practice"?
Why is it that to stop Windows 98, you have to click on "Start"?
Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquid is made with real lemons?
Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?
Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?
Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?
When dog food is new and improved tasting, who tests it? (yes..I would so very like to know that)
Why didn't Noah swat those two mosquitoes?
Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?
You know that indestructible black box that is used on airplanes?... Why don't they make the whole plane out of that stuff?
Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?
Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?
If con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite of progress?
If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
*On a bar of Dial soap: "Directions: Use like regular soap." (and that would be how??...)
*On some Swanson frozen dinners: "Serving suggestion: Defrost." (but, it's "just" a suggestion.)
*On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert (printed on bottom): "Do not turn upside down." (well...duh, a bit late, huh!)
*On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding: "Product will be hot after heating." (...and you thought????...)
*On packaging for a Rowenta iron: "Do not iron clothes on body." (but wouldn't this save me more time?)
*On Boot's Children Cough Medicine:"Do not drive a car or operate machinery after taking this medication." (We could do a lot to reduce the rate of construction accidents if we could just get those 5-year-olds with head-colds off those forklifts.)
*On Nytol Sleep Aid: "Warning: May cause drowsiness." (and... I'm taking this because???....)
*On most brands of Christmas lights: "For indoor or outdoor use only." (as opposed to...what?)
*On Sunsbury's peanuts: "Warning: contains nuts." (talk about a news flash)
*On an American Airlines packet of nuts: "Instructions: Open packet, eat nuts." (Step 3: maybe, uh...fly Delta?)
*On a Swedish chainsaw:"Do not attempt to stop chain with your hands or genitals." (..was there a lot of this happening somewhere?)
I now have red thingies in my hair *.*
Look I`ve got piccies ^^
CAUTION , I didn`t say they where nice (I AM sick after all)
http://i80.pho
http://i80.pho
http://i80.pho
Subject = PICTURES
Blegh I`m sick today >< Well not really sick.. I`m kinda having a splitting-head kind of headache so I skipped school and I think I`m also gonna skip tomorrow if this continues -.-
Grytsje still managed to make a few good pics of me though , I don`t know how she pulled it off , but she did ^^
Its weird because I hate and love being taken pictures from at the same time. I hate it because I get nervous in front of a camera and don`t know how to pose..grytsje is about the only one that can take decent pictures of me. And I love being taken pictures from because I like dressing myself up and seeing the end result (if its a good one)
I`d like to be on a picture with my sis where we both look good , because its always that either she looks perfect and I`m pulling off a weird face ,or the other way around.
But then again...perfec
I also have a new mission.. I want grytsje to make a good pic of me and josry. Not a posed one , just a sweet one.
Why ? Well.. I don`t have a nice pic of him and I`ve always wanted one but he used to hate being photographed ..but now he`s being a total sweetheart to me so he might agree ^^
I`ll put a few of today`s pictures here so you can see ^^
Offcourse I`ll do the ones that worked out allright:P doh.
http://i80.pho
http://i80.pho
http://i80.pho
OKey those were about it >< the rest is way too silly to put over here XD
I`ve drawn something today that I`m really proud of.. well I didn`t draw it today.. I drew it last week and I nearly finished it today.
Drawing couples is soo damn hard 0.o
So..uurm here`s the story.
I think my ex and I are going back together again. I`ve predicted this though..so it isn`t much of a surprise for me. A few weeks ago we started hanging out again and I felt that we both missed eachother. I almost had forgotten how easy it is to talk to him about random , but also serious things. We understand eachother with half a word , and thats rare you know :P So we talked , about almost anything the whole day . And for the rest of the week we stayed seeing eachother or *accidentaly* bumping into eachother when shopping or something.
We are still talking a lot now..and its almost like we`ve never been apart. I think he`s gonna ask me for a relationship on my birthday..actu
I haven`t talked about this with anyone besides my sister , because I may be wrong. But than again , he`s sending so much very VERY hard to miss signs that its almost impossible for me to not see them as not-so-well-hi
People that know me are gonna say that I must be nuts to even consider starting an relationship with the same guy for the third time. I must say that it does sound kind of foolish..And maybe it is. But I also know that I broke up with him because I knew that we would end up hating eachother if we continued. I knew that if I would not dump him , the little love he had left would die and he would feel nothing for me. I prefered him hating me instead .
I dumped him so he could love me again , I knew that he would because thats the kind of person he is. He is the kind that can`t be in a relationship for a very long time ,because he thinks he`s gonna miss too much . I know that , so I let him go. At that time I also was so depressed , that I could not handle the whole situation..If I could I would`ve found another reason besides having to end it. But ooh well..I did and now we are going back together again if I`m not mistaken.
I`m happy about that , because I`ve never stopped loving him. And strangely enough , I`m not even the slightest bit scared of what will happen. I am not affraid of getting hurt , because getting hurt is worth it. Definetly ^^
*UPDATE 19 september *
I was right , yesterday on my birthday Josry (yes..thats his name..you are not the only one that is thinking about that green dino thing named Yoshi now ^^ ) and I started something for the third time XD
Very romantic mushy mushy story it is , but I`m not gonna tell the details now.. the fact is. I was right ^^
found this poem in some house , it made me smile ^^
[~I Seem To Have A Problem~
...I Think I've Lost My Heart...
~I Can't Find It Anywhere~
...It's Like I'm Searching...
~Through The Dark~
...I Was Beginning To Panic...
~Wondering What To Do~
...Then I Remember...
~My Heart Belongs To You~]
I`ll be gone for a week again !! This time I`ll go to a foreign country (yay ^^)
anyway , see you all in a week ;)
I am making this because I am very , very bored ...and because I like those enquete thingies :P
1. First Name:
Hanny
2. Were you named after anyone?
Yes I was named after my great grand mother from my fathers side and after my grandmother from my mother`s side .
3. Do you wish on stars?
Always ^^
4. Which finger is your favorite finger?
My pinkies ,dunno why.
5. When did you last cry?
...Pff....a few weeks ago during a movie
6. Do you like your handwriting?
No I hate it XD
7. What is your favorite lunch-meat?
Roast beef *.*
8. Any bad habits?
I bite my finger/toenail
9. What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf?
A kinderen voor kinderen CD , I still know all the lyrics *blushes *
10. If you were another person, would you be friends with YOU?
Hell no , I`d prolly think I was weird lol :P
11. Are you a daredevil?
Naah , I`m a chicken
12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell?
Yeah but only when the person in question already told it her or his self
13. Do looks matter?
Well its nice if someone is good looking ,but its not the first thing I`m looking at.
14. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid?
....all the time.
15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?
I used to but after endless searches I`ve lost my beliefs :P
16. Do fish have feelings?
They sure do , believe me.
17. Are you trendy?
Hahaha hell no!
18. How do you release anger?
In my head
19. Where is your second home?
At my cousin`s place
20. Do you trust others easily?
No I trust others hardly :P
21. What was your favorite toy as a child?
I liked stuffed animals a lot but it turned out that I was allergic for them.
22. What class in school do you think is totally useless?
This might sound stupid but I think that every class is usefull in some way
23. Do you have a journal?
Yes...like this one maybe?
24. Do you use sarcasm?
...All the time ;)
25. What do you look for in a boy/girl?
Kindness and passion , nothing more really
26. What is your nickname?
I have a lot..but its mainly hatty or han-han
27. Would you ever bungee jump?
NO! I`m affraid of hights !
28. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
....My shoes don`t have strings...so I think that makes a no :P
29. Do you think that you are strong?
Mentally or physically ? Mentally ; sometimes , Physically ; I`m the strongest girl in my class so yeah
30. What's your favorite ice cream flavor?
Chocolate/bana
31. What's your favorite color?
I like all colours
32. What is your least favorite food?
Its a dutch dish called "snert" It looks like someone just puked on your plate :/
33. How many wisdom teeth do you have?
None
34. Are you in love with anyone?
Yes ^^
35. How many people have a crush on you right now?
Dunno and I as hell don`t want to know either :P
36. Who do you miss most right now?
I don`t think I`m missing anyone..Well Yeah I missed [Michael Asher] a lot but he`s back again ^^
38. What color pants are you wearing?
None , I`m sitting in my bathrobe ^^
39. What are you listening to right now?
Blues and jazz
41. What was the last thing you ate?
Mushroom soup
42. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
I`m pretty sure I would be Red
43. How is the weather right now?
Its sunny ^^
44. Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
Wobbe ny vacation schnabbel (oeh talk about stupid words XD)
45. First thing you notice about the opposite sex?
The eyes
47. How are you today?
I`m quite well although I think I have a pretty bad cold :/
49. Favorite alcoholic drink?
Ameretto-cola!
50. Favorite sport?
Martial art things ^^
51. Hair color?
Black
52. Eye color?
Brown or green
53. Do you wear contacts?
Nope , I have a vision of 150 percent
54. Siblings and their ages?
One sister , age 15
55. Favorite month?
September
56. Favorite food?
Lasagna or something with fish
57. Last movie you watched?
House of flying daggers
58. Favorite day of the year?
Sinterklaas
59. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Only when I really like the guy
60. Scary movies or happy endings?
Neither..
61. Summer or winter?
Summer
62. Hugs or kisses?
Can`t choose , Both!!
63. Relationships or one-night stands?
Relationships , period ^^
68. What books are you reading? I`ve just finished "komt een vrouw bij de dokter" At the moment I`m not reading anything.
69. Favorite board game? Kolonisten van Catan
70. What did you watch on TV last night? Nothing cuz the tv is broken , I watch anime on the computer instead. I watched Girls Bravo . Stupid anime , really lame :P
71. How clean is your house? My mom`s house is clean , my dad`s house is a mess..so I guess its moderate :P
72. Favorite smells? Georgio armani , my ex has that scent , it smells goooooood ...I think I`m gonna steal his perfume :P
73. What is the first thing you think when you wake up?
"Nooo I had such a nice dream, let me sleep more >< "
74. Now, did you notice that there were numbers missing?
Eeerm to be honest....no I didn`t..
NOooooo!!!!
I lost my sketchbook with 2 close-to-perfe
NOOOOOOOOOOOOO
*runs through the house screaming while annoying her father and sister*
*update*
I found them a day later , after a lot of searching through the entire house..therefo
For all the people I talk to on elftown , I`ll be on vacation from this day on until next week. I won`t be able to read , or sent messages while I`m gone. I will when I get back though , so please don`t stop sending messages :P
Wish me a nice vacation ! ^^
The difference between you and me
I like to walk through life at an easy pace
Observing the things around me ,
absorbing all the details.
I walk through my life slowly,
so I won`t miss a thing.
I know I`ll reach my goals either way.
There is no need to rush.
And then theres you.
You like to rush through life,
like its a race.
Always failing to see,
the small things at your path.
Thinking that if only you have haste ,
you won`t miss a thing.
Don`t you know that if you rush through life ,
and don`t take the time to observe.
You`ll miss everything ?
Poem written by me and by myself alone . So no stealing , or touching.
You can look though :P
I`ve figured out that when I`ve had too much to drink , I say everything what I think out loud. Especially the nasty things..
So.. when I`m drunk , I become a nasty , mean person. Especially to interested guys 0.o
The good thing is that I never drink a lot of alcohol , but last week I did...and I insulted a person. Or maybe more. DAaamn I can`t remember it right -.- Anyway I said some very nasty things 0.o Bad me, BAD!!:P
My sis has bought a digital camera , so I guess in the near future there will be some normal pics of me to watch over here :P
Or not because I think she`d rather photograph our sweet little puppies ^^ Then you`ll get to see those .
Or maybe You`ll get to see me in a weird ninja mood ^^
[Imgliniel] http://i80.pho
Yeah..Fear me and my coca cola bottles , for they will whoop your arse :P
Finished two weeks of my working weeks , that means I still have one to go.
I swear , if it wasn`t for the money I had burned the whole company down ages ago -.-" It really motivates me to finish highschool and after that do the most difficult study possible so that I don`t have to do this crappy work when I grow up 0.o
Just imagine you and lots of old man shirts that you have to iron and close the buttons from eight hours per day , I can actually feel my IQ staggering every day I work..
If it werent for the money , I would`ve quit after the first day XD