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[godessofpain]'s diary

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Written about Friday 2005-02-25
Written: (7214 days ago)

omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg SHE SAID YES!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Written about Sunday 2005-02-13
Written: (7226 days ago)

great just fucking great.....where's nadia when you need her????????? NADIA? NADIA? *cries* FUCKIN HELL

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Written about Tuesday 2005-01-18
Written: (7252 days ago)

wow what a busy weekend. had the greatest shagging EVER many times!!! my beau came to stay for the weekend. the sad thing is that he ended up in hospital with appendisitus (sp) and had to have an emergency operation but the good thing was that i got to spend more quality time with him......................I LOVE HIM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH. i never thought i could love anyone as much as nadia but i guess i have to move on now that she has been taken away from me by john.....oh well theyre happy. i guess i wont be needed up their now that she is in love......*sighs*
ok im not gonna go down that route today cause im having a happy day

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Written about Thursday 2005-01-13
Written: (7257 days ago)

what am i gonna do? i just cant stand the thought of nadia being so upset. i just couldnt cope if she killed herself. shes my world surely no-one can take that away from me. its hard enough seeing her with a boyfriend it would be 1000000 times worse knowing see was dead. i feel so helpless. i really cant lose her

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Written about Tuesday 2004-12-21
Written: (7280 days ago)

oh my god im soooooo bored.
just got back from the psychiatrists, ended up storming out. hes such a twat! i dont wanna change i am who i am GRRRRR

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Written about Tuesday 2004-12-14
Written: (7287 days ago)

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Written about Wednesday 2004-12-08
Written: (7293 days ago)

i feel so fukin shitty. grrrrr! i feel soooooo suicidal. just wanna dig myself a bit hole and hide in it until i suffacate. ive had enough now. i cant deal with all this when im so alone.
everytime things start going well they always start taking a turn for the worst again. i cant stand living here much longer. im hoping to run away tonight, just got to wait for my dad to go out.
why do i always end up worrying people and bringing them down with me? i cant do anything right.

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