well this week is going pretty well actually!
Iv met this amazing guy called james falcon and he is soooo cool i just wanna wrap him up in cotton wool and take him home =). to make me even happier the 1 and only nadia is down here in 4 days!!!!! can u believe it! 4 days woooo *dus a freaky lil dance*

no matter how hard i look i cant find anyone to replace the beautiful nadia. why does she have to be 1 of a kind?
i love her i love her i love her so bad.

cant believe im not allowed in school just cause i have weird spot things on my tonsils.

i have tonsilitus =(

wow love is such a great thing.
i never thought i would ever love anyone as much as this

omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg SHE SAID YES!!!!!!!!!!!!

great just fucking great.....where's nadia when you need her????????? NADIA? NADIA? *cries* FUCKIN HELL

wow what a busy weekend. had the greatest shagging EVER many times!!! my beau came to stay for the weekend. the sad thing is that he ended up in hospital with appendisitus (sp) and had to have an emergency operation but the good thing was that i got to spend more quality time with him......................I LOVE HIM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH. i never thought i could love anyone as much as nadia but i guess i have to move on now that she has been taken away from me by john.....oh well theyre happy. i guess i wont be needed up their now that she is in love......*sighs*
ok im not gonna go down that route today cause im having a happy day

what am i gonna do? i just cant stand the thought of nadia being so upset. i just couldnt cope if she killed herself. shes my world surely no-one can take that away from me. its hard enough seeing her with a boyfriend it would be 1000000 times worse knowing see was dead. i feel so helpless. i really cant lose her


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oh my god im soooooo bored.
just got back from the psychiatrists, ended up storming out. hes such a twat! i dont wanna change i am who i am GRRRRR

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i feel so fukin shitty. grrrrr! i feel soooooo suicidal. just wanna dig myself a bit hole and hide in it until i suffacate. ive had enough now. i cant deal with all this when im so alone.
everytime things start going well they always start taking a turn for the worst again. i cant stand living here much longer. im hoping to run away tonight, just got to wait for my dad to go out.
why do i always end up worrying people and bringing them down with me? i cant do anything right.