Haha! I got a chance to stop by the HCC lounge today! *looks around* its so fucking quiet... =P

I don't know what to do with myself... o_O (that statement works well for my situation now...) XD

I just got Green Day's new cd (semi-new) and I've been listening to it so much that the first track skips already! >.< HAHA! I also beat the crap out of my Incubus-Make Yourself cd as well... *grins* I can't help it... when I love my music I love my music... hehe!

Oh I have an electric guitar now! YESH! I need to get an amp though... I might save that for my next paycheck though... money isn't that tight anymore, but its still kind of cinching... :/

I have something cool to say! XD I'm gonna post it in my LJ... I haven't been there in quite some time either... well... my myspace has cobwebs too... I should go see whats up there... *nods*

MSI IS COMING TO TAMPA!!!! EVERYONE GO!!! DAMNIT! >.< haha!

<3
-Me

internet connection probably monday or sometime this week...

*scratches her head*

Hmm...I've gotten myself into a good rut... I need therapy >.< (I haven't been able to see my therapist in a few weeks {Try a month} b/c my ride {Betsy and her mom} keep conveniently forgetting about it...)

I tried to 'forget', as it were, about José in the relationship sense by starting to date a new guy, Aaron...but it hasn't worked...

And of course if I broke up with Aaron, I would lose almost all of my friends and whatnot...b/c I'd be a 'bitch' for leaving a really great guy...

Well... yeah Aaron is great. But he has some similar qualities to shane (No offense to shane at this point in time) like using the phrase "I love you" as a confirmation of his self consiousness (SP?) >.< It's kind of annoying, but its the type of personality that he has...so I can't blame him... *shrugs*

And besides... I finally narrowed the career that I want down to a single type of job. I want to become a publicist. (Which ties into advertising and marketing, duh...) and being a publicist, my life would be dedicated to my clients, so the type of relationship I had with José (seeing him only on the weekends) is very good, as opposed to me being with Aaron ALMOST 24/7... >.< *shrugs*

I want to fix my life.... but I can't, not at this point in time...I'm stuck in a muddy rut... >.<

Oh and Betsy is a fucking alcoholic that has her smelly, dirty, gutterpunk friends in my house ALMOST 24/7 so thats why I'm never home... I can't stand the uncleanlyness... (SP?) We barely even get along anymore... she has this whole "fuck everything if I cant gain from it" attitiude...

o_O No internet connection, I can't be around often until I do... You will see me as a regular again soon... *nods*

<3 ~*Davorah*~
-Me

HAHAHAHA!

I got my nails didededed today... I have to get back into the habit of typing with the pads of my fingers instead of the tips like I do without nails... haha!

I Rock! And So Do YOU!!!

I Love You All

<3 ~*Davorah*~

I Just now wrote this, for those of my friends that just don't care anymore...

~*Generalized Rant From Davorah*~

Life is just one giant popularity contest, isn't it...

Everyone struggles to gain some kind of respect or fame, whether it be big or small, at some point in their little lives.

Why do some people think they're so insignificant when all they have to do is open their eyes and see all the things they have acomplished in life.

Yeah, those acomplishments may not be as noticable to the whole crowd as some other person's acomplishments, but there will always be someone looking your way, using you as an inspiration in their lives.

So hold your fucking head up, be proud of what you HAVE done.

Make a path for those that come after you. Or if you want, show them that there are ways to make their own paths...

Hell, cover their eyes and spin them in a fast circle then let them find their own way through the cloud... haha! Make the best of things, for you, your peers, and the young'uns that look up to you...

Pass This On To The Ones You Care About...

I Love You All...

<3 ~*Davorah*~

I wished on one of those puffy dandelion flowers today... It would be awesome if it came true... :/

I watched a bunch of movies and went to IHOP with José last night... it rocked! I was cold... but I didn't care!

I want to write another poem/song... give me some inspiration...

-Me <3

My wisedom teeth are coming in and I hate everyone...

have a nice day... =P

-Me <3

My livejournal is my main journal now... want the link? Ask me.

-Me <3

Okay I'm not quite so sick today, but it sure is cold as fuck!!! >.<

I went majorly OCD today... it was kind of scary, but I got a good workout... hahahah! I cleaned Betsy's living room and kitchen... I mean CLEANED!!! Its all purdy now... and I weighed myself... (I try not to every month... >.<) and I'm 141lbs... I rock!

anywho... Danny's band (Neglected Superheros)'s concert is tomorrow night and the tickets are $10 at the door!!! Its at the State Theatre! Everyone that can go...GO!!! Support Our Local 'Rabbi Ham'...That's Danny by the way... durr..hahaha!

Betsy, Lexi, Zack and I are going! (I don't know if josh and Kyle are going, they don't like punk-type music...anything that isn't death metal isn't for them... hahaha!)

OOOOOO!!! That reminds me! The Lamb of God/Slipknot concert is in March!!!! YESH! I got free tickets!! Josh knows some of the guys from 98 rock...so he got a few tickets... (He says six... but I don't believe him...he got more I know it) YES!!! HE RULES! I RULE!

I RULE YOU!!! HAHAHAH! (I love aqua teen hunger force, that episode was on the other night... hehehe!)

Anyways... I think I should go lay down... I'm too hyper...o_O *bounces around in a circle* =^.^=

Ooo! Josh and Zack just arrived... gotta go!

Much Love to my Ninjas and Niggas =P

-Me <3

*does a bunch of air traffic control signal looking arm gestures*

Why do I have to be so sick right now... >.< I fucking hate it... I just want to stay in bed all day long... but I can't I have a lot of shit to fix and work out before I lay back down...

My closet is brokededededededed... I need to fix it or have it fixed... >.< or something...

I want a night alone to myself for once, I haven't been out of my friends' sight for at least 3 weeks now... >.< They still think I'm going to do something horrible to myself or someone else even though I'm not 'depressed' feeling anymore about José. Everything happens for a reason.

Also, the fact that they think that I'm going to hurt myself shows that they don't know me as well as they think they do, or they have a set vision of me that is set in the wrong direction... or something... *shrugs*

I really don't have time right now for any thought to be my own... its kind of wierd... it feels like... o_O I don't know how to explain it... its just a weird out of body feeling... *shrugs*

Oh well, back to my list making and budgeting of the money I don't even have yet... >.<

I feel like I need another hot bath... o_O

Hmm... To the tenth power... (X10)

I don't think our party shall be on Feb 26...

I called Randy, my landlord, this morning and asked him when the first month's rent and deposit were due and he said on March 1st. $1,100 is the amount we need for first month's rent and deposit ($600 for rent and $500 for deposit)...Thats all of our first paychecks...which we get on Febuary 26th... Soo... We're pushing the party to the second week of march... and it will be a house warming party and some other random holiday... I think St. Patrick's Day is in March... o_O DON'T YOU PINCH ME!!!! >.< *runs and hides under the couch with jeebus*

Ehh! It will still be fun! But we do need a third person to room with us... o_O Well, we don't "need" one, but it would sure help keep the money not too tight... *nods*

I have the worst fucking chest cold ever!!! I'm coughing so much that I almost have a tight six pack now... >.< HAHAHA! I wish it would just go away... NOW! I can't be sick, I have too much shit to worry about... >.<

Ugh... I'm gonna go take a hot bath now... and fall asleep for a few hours... I slept over 10 hours last night... but I feel like I need more sleep... I haven't eaten yet either... >.< bah... what the hell is wrong with me... :/

Haha! José says he wants to be security as well! That fucking rocks!

So now I have a short italian death metal guy (Josh), a tall greek death metal guy (Kyle), a tall-skinny white grunge-punk guy (Zack), and a 6'2" mexican Ninja (José) as my securtiy squad for the valentine's party... W00t!

I love my guy friends! What would I do without them?!

Hm...we need a third person to move in the apartment as well... o_O I need to talk to Randy (the landlord) tomorrow about me renting the place after my mom leaves... *nods*

G'night everyone...

-Me <3

"Fear? What is there to fear in love? Love is the very reason we live...to fear it is to lose all sense of living. If we cannot love why have we been put here? Fearing love is like being afraid of breathing..."

Alright the plan has come to a full swing! hehe!

We're having a valentine's/house warming party at my house (It shall be under me and betsy's 'ownership' in March) on Saturday, Febuary 26. *winks*

Its gonna start at 3pm and go till whenever the party goers leave. XD

Music will be provided by our friends, Anthony and Manny, (Manny is a dj for the Ampitheatre {SP?} and Anthony is an Amateur DJ) They both rock! If some people don't like techno sounding music, then it really wont matter, because other people will be talking too much... hahahahaha!

Food will be catered by Alessi's Bakery...because Betsy's parents have it in good with the owners of the Bakery! W00t!

We're hoping to have at the most, 30 people... haha! We got Josh, Kyle, and Zach to do security... they'll kick out anyone trying to start trouble...YAY!

Anywho... we gotta call Alessi's sometime next week so we can preorder the food, and then get all the other supplies when we get our first paycheck... *nods* (we start work on Monday!!! WOO!!)

Oh and, I talked Betsy out of going to Ultra (The Ultra Music Festival in Miami) in march, b/c we can't afford it if we want to have that apartment by march... *nods* Ultra costs $50-$75... I don't think we can afford that...No...

And then in March, I have to start registering for my summer classes so I can catch up since I didnt take courses this semester... :/

"So much crap, so little toilet paper..." -Me hahaha!

We've started a plan...

Betsy and I are going to have a Valentine's party. It will probably be at my house since I have that huge outdoor area in front. Betsy has MAD folding chairs at her house so she will probably bring those over.

People don't have to be single to come to the party... Its for all of us to have a good time with friends...

There's gonna be MAD food! GRUBBAGE!!!!!!!! (Betsy's parents are in good with several catering companies)

I'm still debating the bonfire...concidering most of my friends are fucking pyros... >.< I don't need that burning down shit... GAH! I'd be so fucking pissed! HAHAHA!

And since Feb 14 is on a monday, we might have the party on either the saturday before or the saturday after (most likely the saturday after) Feb. 14... :/

Oh yeah, and my friends Anthony and Manny might be DJ'ing XD ("DJ'ing"...thats funny!) for it so the musack shall be dealt with accordingly...

hmm...sounds like a good plan... but of course we only came up with the Idea today, so... we have a lot of other thinking to do... *nods*

-Me <3

Note to self: trixi400

Hmm... I went to Betsy's therapist with her today (as I do everyday of course) and Karen (her therapist) said that I look disheveled (I've been having REALLY bad insomnia b/c of all the shit on my mind recently) and told me that if I ever need to talk that I can come talk to her free of charge. *sighs* I love it... Finally I can have a professonal opinion on my drama bullshit that I keep held inside... >.<

I'm seeing her on monday... I'm telling her everything. Doctor patient privelege, you know... *nods*

I'm using it to my advantage...

I start work in a week and a half. I can finally get out of debt... FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!

I get to see El Hosey (José) tomorrow! <3 Hehe! I get to make fun of THE phohawk! YESH!!! X3

Gasparilla is this weekend! (Saturday!) All you Tampanians (Residents of Tampa,FL =P) that are going, come find me!!! I'll have U.T.I. Promo shirts for you if you find me!!! *grins*

I'll be hanging out at the 93.3 AND the 98 Rock tents (those are radio stations for those of you who are like 'what the fook???') for a while, then I'm going to be roaming the crowds! Lovery!!!! INDEED!

Anywho...I gotta go, going to try to find 'The Bag Adventure' some more....Borders didn't have it... But they did have "Bluntman and Chronic"!!! FUCK YES!!!

The guy working at Borders said that there is a comic book store near Gaither Highschool. (Thats near José's house!! Woo!) I might go there next week if I don't find my comic book at Barnes and Nobles today... >.<

Hehe! I saw an old buddy from back in the day today! David Paddillo! I've known him since middle school! He's lost a lot of weight! Hehe! He's an 'emo kid' too! X3 He looks so adorable!! X3

We were talking about music (of all things...hahaha, what else do I talk about? Ever?) Anywho..that was my day so far...

Going to Barnes and Noble in a little bit to look at comic books! X3 I love them! I can't be without them!! >.<

Betsy and I are going to the HCC Dale Mabry Campus tomorrow to see if we can find old friends... I just might see José there! But its all good! I know Brian (Squatty) will be there, who else might be there?! Who knows indeed! hehe!

-Me <3