wow tonight has been rough comming up on deployment really makes me try to change the past even tho it is now long out of my hands. I was in love along time ago with a girl named lyndsey and she messed me over but i messed her over too but we had such a ridiculous strong bond and connection i think about here almost everyday but i have no way of evertalking to her again and i just wish i could come to peace with her. So im am torn and i really dont know what to do i mean what can anyone do. She hates me and thinking about that makes me sick still to this day. Strangly people always say when it comes to the end you start to think about the begaining i met her on this verry website long ago and to be quite humerously honest this is the first time ive logged on in like a whole year shes been gone but i love her to this day she made me who i am and i will never forget her and can never forgive myself for letting this happen. I have to say tho we never had a fighting chance her parents wanted her no where near any guy and well i dont blame them but i still think about her almost everyday i rember accidently sending her old phone a pic from when i had finished basic training over a year ago never thought i heard her so pissed till that moment her name on here is [dragons angel] its been so long i forget if that space between the name is accurate i could check but doubt i can bare that memory lyndsey if you ever read this someday i hope you know you were the best thing that ever happend to me and you will always be my strength in dark times well its time for me to go good bye