Omigosh! Ya know life is sure shitty, but I guess what goes around comes around. Kristina is fucking killing me. I could care less who the girl fucks (as long as it's not Vic) but Tina wouldn't go there. I just wish she would tell me the truth about josh because quite frankly it's getting a bit ridiculous! She knew what was between me and him and she still feels she can't tell me the truth. Well one day maybe she will learn to keep her legs closed she would be alright. But I think I am truly done with her this time. She says I am just paranoid, and if I didn't want to start any shit between Josh and "the informant" I would bust her out and she couldn't deny it. The only thing that really pisses me off is now Josh is lying too. But anyways I can't dwell on this shit anymore...I am officially giving it to God and he will deal with everyone accordingly.

Life fucking sux. Don't ever get too comfortable where you are at, cuz the devil always has a way of fucking up something too good to be true. Vic's still in jail, and deep on the inside I am loving it! But at the same time I miss him. What's a girl to do?? Well anyway life still sux but I continue to be blessed...if GOD turns himself from me I am screwed.

HEY HEY HEY I am in soooo much of a better mood! Me n Patricia made up ....finally...and hopefully all the bullshit will stop and my stress factors will decrease but I still have slight hatred towards L.... he is such a fucking asshole, and seems to only care about himself, but I decided that eventually it will all catch up with him, so I am giving my anger to God and he can take care of the vengence part. As is said if you blessed God's children you will be blessed and if you curse them you will be cursed! Anyhoo I am gonna stay happy and not let others effect me anymore. The people I have love for and will not stop loving no matter what......
LaTosha Rigsby
Kristina Mahan
Patty Vance-Rigsby
Randi Thompson
Kristin Massie
Dave Chandler
"Clyde" Williams
Karmyn Troxler
Emma Rigsby  ^^these r my daughters^^
Keiarra Rayburn
Landon Rigsby
Peggy Vance
Angela Datcher
Pam Fannin
Joyce Picado
Ryan Troxler
Shai Troxler
Aliyah Datcher
............don't be offended if you didn't make the cut but I am sure I love ya if you are my friend~!

Also I have finally admitted to myself that I am in love with L. It's fucking crazy it's like he has some kind of wierd hold on me. I am trying to cut all ties with him, but the most important one can't be cut....our daughter....i am just trying to do the right thing without ruining her life or her relationship with her father. well i know i will get the wisdom and this situation will be resolved as long i trust in my higher power. TO BE CONTINUED!

damn my mind is all screwed up right now. stress has been way to overbearing these days and i don't know what to do with myself. My newborn just spent a week in the hospital and i am slacking in my college classes, my baby daddy hates me.....i could go on forever. But do i keep setting myself up for failure is the question. I believe that ultimately u control your life and how things are gonna be. 

Today is the day after shit hit the fan and came out! Omigod! Omigod! Well all the dirty laundry has been aired out! I finally broke down and told P the truth about me and L. She asked me and I just couldn't look her in the eye and lie to her anymore. Now L hates me again and is probably gonna try to make my life hell. But he better play nice because my temper has been more difficult to control and ANGER is one letter short of the word DANGER! I dunno where everything is gonna go from here, and I don't believe I was in the wrong for it either. Oh well life goes on and I feel better about myself.