I hate the old chat here on eltown.. sry but i do...
the snow is gone.... I saw a flower yeasterday. YEAY.. it's almost spring. time for valentines, flowers, life, and heartbreaks...
I HAVE SNOW! I HAVE SNOW
I have no snow.. I have no snow.. I have no snow.. =(
I want it to snow. They promised us a blizzard today and what do we get?.. Freezing cold rain blowing in our faces...
It's not realy x-mas without snow. I want it. Gimme gimme gimme snow!
I should be locked up fore all eternity never to be tempted again. I admitt it.. I was flirting and I shouldn't have. But I would never go any further then that. But still. I find it sickening that I should have been tempted at all.
I hate temptations, sure I can withstand them so far but I'm afraid that one day I might not be able to anylonger...
"I think I preferd you when you were humming!"
"-Look at me... what am I!!!??
-eeerrr.. Really tall?!"
oh.. and by the way....
D-See , I suffer from short term memory loss
M-short term memory loss???..
D- It's true. I forget things almost instantly. It runs in my family..ee atleast I think it does..... hmmm... were are they......????
D-Can I help you?
I'm sleepy...
Let me sleep
Let me fall.
I love Josh Groban... OO I'll have to listen to him when I get home. YEAY something to look forward to. Oh well.. the classes today end at 12.00 so after that i'm going to lunch with me friends..and after that it's back here again to sit in the sofa until about 15.00 and then I can go home. But I don't wanna sleep home tonight.. I wanna sleep at my bf's....=( Dad says I can't live mostly at his place and have my pets at home..but there is no space at his appartement right now. So now I'll sleep at home in my bed, all alone just to get dad to stop nagging. I miss my bf already...
Yes it's safe to say we have our problems..but somehow, I really don't know how, we get through it. In the last couple of months we have had it quite good. I'm loving it! (yes i'm aware of the MC slogan) But no more about this now..
Nice talking to ya
cya later
bye bye
I always seem to fall for the bad guys... But now I know why!
It's the passion. I long for it, i need it to survive. I want it without inhibitions...
There's always much more passion in a realationship with arguments then in one were everythings peachy wouldn't you say....!?
I'm dependent on the rush... the feelings.
I need to feel it rushing trough my veins and fill every last bit of my body.
I want it to drown me, I want it to own me..
Passion... it's life
Thunder.. Passion without inhibitions.
Maybe that's why i love thunder so much.
could it be... ;)
Monday, the most missunderstood day of the week!
I absolutly load mondays.. it's the ending of the weekend and the begining of a full, new, long week..........
Need I say more?!
I'm sitting in my bf's appartement watching Witchhunter Robin on his computer while he's busy sleeping. He didn't sleep at all last night.. He should really turn his sleeping times around to combine better with his school .. well and me of course. But he's actually doing pretty good. Better then I excpected, needless to say i'm very proud of him.
I have this feeling inside that this world wasn't the one I was supposed to live in from the start. I get this tingeling inside my head and images pop up from nowere. And for a split second I find myself being dragged away from my body, and I love it. But reality it seems always ends up pushing me back again. In thoose small seconds of separation from my body prison I'm living like never before. There's not really any form of time in this between... there's just living, the way you want to. Theese episodes are often triggerd by something I have either watched on film, read, or imagined. I guess I am a hopeless romantic after all. Not in the gushy smushy "I love you with the heat of a TRILlION fires" way, but in the way of always dreming of something els. Always with one small part of my brain busy trying to make my normal life seem invisible so that it one day can take over and rule the kingdom of emtiness in my head were there ones was a brain with more cohearent thoughts
Some people just really get my attention. Mostly guys! Their faces.. it's not just that I think that their GOD DAMN handsom, =P there's more of a timeless feeling to it. It's like their whole being is timeless and I find myself being dragged into the world of fantasy and having a REALLY hard time getting out from there again.
I would love to take their picture.. if I will be a photografer in the future i will take fatasy pics insteed of painting them cause I suck at painting.
Oh how I wish...
i wanted to write a poetic diary, but alass... it's just not working today... Oh well. I guess i'll just have to make do with this insteed. At work now.. teacher assisten for a minimal pay... well it beats being unemployed. Waiting for that preciuos moment when i pack it up for the day and realize that it's friday. I'm free tomorrow!!!!!!
So now i'm sitting here..waiting for the weekend with a litle smile on my lips.. just being happy. I'm always happy nowadays.. i love that to!
It doesn't hurt to smile anymore...
Let me walk amongst the stars in the cold wintersky,
shedding my sorrow on the way.
Leaving my grief behind with each step of my feet,
I feel it no more I could say.
Let me fly above the rooftops, grey, red and black
Feeling more free then ever before.
Leave me sleeping on a cloud with a smile on my lips,
never to hurt anymore.