Sometimes you don’t know what you have
At least not until you loose it
Seeing the same person every other week
For almost four years
And it never hit me
How much it meant to me
I didn’t even consider how much
It affected me
How much it helped
And now never again?
I knew beforehand
That it was the last time
But it didn’t really hit me
‘Till I was out the door
I didn’t think it’d make me cry
Four years is a long time
No matter how old you are
And now it’s time to move on?
Moving on was bound to come
I’ve known all along
I wasn’t ready for the pain
Now I have to make with what I have
The “never forget” part will be easy
I’ve learned so much
So thank you
For everything you’ve given me
I think I’ll really miss you
Just for the laugh...couldn
sex is like math
...a smile leads to a laugh
...a laugh leads to a high 5
...a high 5 leads to a hug
...a hug leads to a kiss
...a kiss leads 2 a makeout
...makeout leads to a feel up
...a feel up leads 2 a finger
...a finger leads to a hand
...a hand leads to a lick
...a lick leads to a suck
...a suck leads 2 a fuck.
...So tell me how many people are you gonna smile at after you heard this cuz sex is like math.
...u add the bed
..subtract the clothes
...divide the legs
...leave your solution
...and pray you dont multiply
post this right after u read it,
something good will happen at 2:25 tomorrow.
Get ready for the biggest shock in your life!!
Whoever breaks this chain will be cursed with relationship problems 4-10 years.
Hey... I hardly ever write here anymore, and almost never as a diary, but around x-mas i always end up doing that... I hate x-mas, pretty much as badly as all the other years. This year however will be rather different that the previous have been. Øystein and my job would be the reason for that. I love them both, don't get me wrong (Øystein more than my job, of course :P), but as for my job it's more of a burden now during December. This week I'm working Tuesday to Saturday + school, and that leavs no time for anything else. And tonight there's this Dance show i'm going to because my sibling are in it (and for some reason Øystein agreed to come with me, which amazed me), so I haven't really got time to study for my test on Thrusday then either.
And two days during the X-mas vacation i'm working as well, which i really doing want to, but kinda feel like i have to...
then there's the x-mas family partys, as always. i'm able to get out of one of them, but that's it...the other two (+ probably more family gathering stuff...like my dad's parents staying one day more than i wish they would), i have to be in. the first i'm allowed to leave pretty soon, since it's really close to home, but the other one's a little further away, and i can't walk home from there, meaning i have to stay till the rest of my family is leaving.
this year øystein is coming with me to the first of the partys i'm going to (bless him), but still...i really really with i could get out of them all. i don't feel like being there without having nothing to do but mostly not being noticed for hours, just like most family b-day patys. it's more or less the same every year. and this year guro's not here either, so if øystein hadn't agreed to come to one of them i'm pretty sure the old lonely feeling would come back as strong as ever. he's there only for me, and so at least i'll be seen a little, and i won't be alone then... i'll be ever greatful to him for coming with. <3
random lines/words from songs i'm litening to right now...why don't you try and guess white songs...:P
remember
feelings mean nothing
knowing nothing is better than knowing it all
it's not like you to say sorry, i was waiting for a different story
it's not like you didn't know that i said i love you and you know i still do
you're fighiting things that you didn't know
maybe it's best you leave me alone
there's an angel crying up in heaven tonight
then comes the evening that makes life woth living
i wouldn't be the one to kneel before the dreams i wanted
you almost made me cry again this time
well this time i'm not going to watch myself die
i buried myself inside so i could shut you out
with my foot on your neck i finally have you right where i want you
if you want me back you're gonna have to ask nicer than that
tonight will pass us by as the world it seems to disapear
the streets they call our names, and we'll never feel the same again
we will try forever, we vill drive forever, and i'm here with you
i'm here with you
this time, this place, misused mistakes
too long, too late, who was i to make you wait
just one chanse, just one breath, just in case there's just one left
couse you know i love you, and i've loved you all alone
and i miss you
been far away for far too long
i keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
stop breathing if i don't see you anymore
on my knees i'll ask last chanse for one last dance
for with you i'd withstand all of hell to hold your hand
i'd give it all i'd give for us, give anything but i won't give up
so far away, been far away for far too long
i need to hear you say that: i love you, that i've loved you all along. and i forgive you for being away for far too long
hold on to me and never let me go
would it be okay if i left today and took my chanses on that what you said was wrong?
i'll never regret this years
this is my snow covered home
this is me alone
just wish i didn't feel like there was something i'd missed
take back all the things that i've said to you
i'd give it all away just to have somewhere to go to
give it all away just to have someone to come home to
these are my snow covered dreams
this is all i need
she says i'm only telling half of it, that's probably couse thee's only half worth telling. and everytime i try to laugh it off, that's when she turns around and wind up yelling
i won't, don't, no i won't do this anymore
the smell of blood has filled this room
if i could do it all again i could change almost every single ting
but killing me would be too easy
say it for me, say it to me
say it if it's worth saving me
hurry, i'm falling
i will go anywhere if you just leave the way
whatever it takes or how my heart breaks i'll be right here waiting for you.
Small bits from Belgarath The Sorcerer by David and Leigh Eddings
This is conversations between Belgarath and Poledra... (Belgarath is the one who's telling the story about what was said, kinda)
p. 97
"She sniffed. That's a maddening trait of hers. 'I will say as I wish to say,' she told me with that infurating superiority of all females. 'You need not listen if it does not please you, and if you choose to think me simple, that is your concern - and your mistake.'"
p.166
"'Say it again,' she told me with a warm smile.
'Say wgat again?'
'Love. It's a nice word, and you don't say it very often.'
'You know how I feel about you, dear.'
'One likes to be told.'
'Anything that makes you happy, love.' I will never undrestand women."
And suddenly the whole world crashed
It all turned into nothing
A bright light of northing
With memories coming together from everywhere and nowhere
So many and all so cold
Pain from a thousand wounds starts spreading
Through the veins in the body
Panic, anger, sadness and remorse
Everything at once
All the bad things, feelings and thought
They always come back
Knocking everything to the ground
Taking away the mask hiding it all
Seeing nothing
Hearing screams and mean voices
Not being seen by anyone
Drowning inside from tears that were never shed
Bleeding from wounds no one can see
Screaming without anyone noticing
Knowing nothing can make things better
Praying for darkness
Begging for no tomorrow
Hoping it will all end
Falling from nowhere to nothing
And it’s all hidden inside
All the screams
All the pain
Where it can’t be mocked or looked down on
Only the eyes show
Only the eyes can’t hide anything
But no one sees the eyes
So no one knew
No one knows
[Just wrote it.
if you see it and do read it, let me know what you think...]
[Questions you can ask me if you want to know more about me but don't know what to ask.]
Yes, some of these questions are kind of pointless or silly, and it's up to you if you want to ask them. If you want to ask me questions these questions are only here to make it easier. You can compy them and send them to me, copy some, or just read over some of them and send me those you want to know the answers to. If there are questions you don't really care about the answer to, don't send them to me.
If you have other questions you want to ask that's not on the list of course you can ask them as well.
There are no questions here on this list about what I think about you, would want to do to you or things like that. If you want to know stuff like that, find a different list somewhere else. There are a chanse I'm not even gonna answer it if you send me one of those, though.
And IF you send me some of the questions, don't be suprised if I send the same questions to you later. If you take the time to ask me questions to get to know me I want to get you as well.
First of all:
000: Are there people you won't reply to: Yes...pervs, mostly. I'm not here to find someone to cyber with or people who say "cool" and "yes" and "lol" all the time. (I hate "lol"...brb, bbl, ttl and soo on are okay, but NOT lol)
"Basic Fact" questions (normally the basics, anyway):
001: Name:
002: Nickname:
003: Eye color:
004: Hair color:
005: Shoesize:
006: Hobby's:
007: Brothers/Siste
008: Relationship:
009: Lucky number:
010: Pets:
"Favourite" questions:
011: Favorite color:
012: Favorite music:
013: Fave Country to go to:
014: Favorite Car:
015: Favorite Movie(s):
016: Favorite City(s):
017: Favorite Plush:
018: Favorite Perfume/au de toilette/after
019: Favoriete Magazine:
020: Favorite sound:
021: Favorite TV-series:
022: Favorite Writer:
023: Favorite Nickname:
024: Favorite Song ever:
025: Favorite song at this moment:
026: Favorite food:
027: Favorite class in school:
028: Favorite drink:
029: Favorite art-artist:
030: Favorite shoes:
"This or that" questions:
031: Laugh or dream:
032: Serious or funny:
033: Fast or slow:
034: You prefer being alone or have relation:
035: Simple or complicated?:
036: Cremate or Buried when dead:
037: Sex or alcohol:
038: Stay up late or go to bed early:
039: Light of dark?:
040: Speak or Silence:
041: Tall or small man/woman:
042: Hug or kiss:
043: Happy or Sad:
044: Life or Death:
045: Gig or Disco:
046: Left or Right:
047: Sausages on top, or on the side:
048: You spend your time rather inside or outside:
"Other facts":
049: Your goal in life:
050: Best feeling:
051: Worst feeling in the world:
052: What are you afraid of:
053: What is the one thing you can't stand:
054: Most romantic moment in your life:
055: Most embarassing moment in your life:
056: What word do you use most:
057: What time do you go to bed on weekdays:
058: What class on school do/did you dislike most:
059: What do you really really dislike to eat:
060: What do you think is greatest about yourself:
061: Who would you like to meet:
062: Who do you admire most:
063: Most sexy person(s):
064: What do you do in the weekends:
065: What was the promise you made to yourself at new years eve:
066: What all is under your bed:
067: What deodorant do you use:
068: What is on your mousepad:
069: As what animal would you like to reincarnate:
070: What would you ask God if you could ask him 1 single question:
071: How many kids would you like to have:
"Yes/No" questions:
072: Are you an emotional person:
073: Do you ever cry during a movie:
075: You believe in reincarnation:
076: You believe in Aliens:
077: Do you smoke:
078: Any tattoo(s):
079: Does true love exist:
080: Most original place to ask your love to marry you:
081: When you die, what will be your last words?:
Our story
I can’t believe you’re gone
After so long
After all we’ve been through together
We shared everything
Until the day you left me here alone
You took with you all that was good in our world
Left me with nothing at all
Even the pain and sadness went with you
All that is left here is an empty me
Alone here without you
Of course I know it wasn’t planned
It just had to happened
Destiny or faith they call it
Fuck them all
Your place was always next to me
You belonged close to me
Now I don’t know what to do
I keep on looking for you
Though I know you’re not around
I can’t accept this loss
They killed you
I felt your heart stop beating
Felt all meaning disappear
Time and thoughts are none existent
And there’s nothing I can do
Your life, your death
Your pain, your love
We shared one soul
And it died with you
It all died with you
Your story should have been longer
No one knows it better than me
Just like you knew mine
I’m here to tell yours
But no one can tell mine
[60 Things Most Girls Don't Know]
a guy wrote this
*Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 5 guys..you're a HOE)
*"Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.
*Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
*Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.
*Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
*Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.
-Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.
-*A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
*Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.
-Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.
*Guys get jealous easily.
*Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.
*Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...n
-*Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
*Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.
*Girls are guys' weaknesses.
*Guys are very open about themselves.
*It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.
--Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
*If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
*A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
*Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.
*Guys will brag about anything.
*Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.
*Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.
*Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.
*Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.
*Try to be as straightforwar
*A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never
, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.
*If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.
*No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.
*Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
*Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.
*If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.
*When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.
*When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."
--Guys don't really have final decisions.
*If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.
--If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.
**When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.
*Guys like femininity not feebleness.
--Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
*A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
*Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.
*Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.
*Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.
*Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.
*Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.
*A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
*No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.
*Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.
***We don't like girls who are too skinny.
*We love it when girls talk about there boobs.
**Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy ...like wheather it's a one time deal or not ....
***Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...
-*When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually
--Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..
**Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...
-*Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.
****When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.
[Fun just reading this stuff. xD]
Looks like I'm back in here already,doesn'
I'm all out of ideas about things to write, so if you come up with anything at all, please send it to me. it could be anything. just a word or a short line. :/
"If tears are signs of weakness, then I'm really, really weak" - KK