[This is Sad]
My name is Sarah
I am but three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,
I must be stupid
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mummy
Would still want to hug me.
I can't speak at all
I can't do a wrong
Or else I'm locked up
All the day long.
When I awake
I'm all alone
The house is dark
My folks aren't home
When my mommy does come
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll get just
One whipping tonight.
Don't make a sound!
I just heard a car
My daddy is back
From Charlie's Bar.
I hear him curse
My name he calls
I press myself
Against the wall
I try and hide
From his evil eyes
I'm so afraid now
I'm starting to cry
He finds me weeping
He shouts ugly words,
He says its my fault
That he suffers at work.
He slaps me and hits me
And yells at me more,
I finally get free
And I run for the door.
He's already locked it
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me
Against the hard wall.
I fall to the floor
With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues
With more bad words spoken.
"I'm sorry!", I scream
But its now much too late
His face has been twisted
Into unimaginable hate
The hurt and the pain
Again and again
Oh please God, have mercy!
Oh please let it end!
And he finally stops
And heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless
Sprawled on the floor
My name is Sarah
And I am but three,
Tonight my daddy
MURDERED ME.
unless your into a bit of RAP, then this wont mean a-lot to you ;
everytime i listen to this I cry...
Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me
Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
When I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gonna pull together through it, we gonna do it
Lainie uncle's crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up as daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have got so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream
[chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upperlip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright
It's funny
I remember back when you and daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broken into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Trying to start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
Onto Chalmers in a flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Lainnie were to young to understand it
That Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, I guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Lainie I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment
[chorus]
And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'll go back to the jeweler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad (haha)
i saw kate today... and yesterday... and the day before....
we just got over a bit of a rough period.. it went all tits up at home... and i kinda took it out on her... its a shame..
we got through it and i love her more than ever for it, she put up with me... and i want the owrld to know the she is my one
A girl and guy were speeding, on a motorcycle, over 90 mph on the road..
Girl: Slow down. I’m scared.
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No, it’s not. Please, it’s too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? It’s bugging me.
(In the paper the next day)
A motorcycle crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on it, but
only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his
breaks broke, but he didn’t want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved
him & felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even
though it meant that he would die.
*..If you love someone this much put this on your site..*..
RE : Splittage
looked it up on the net... i found this
A USA study asked 92 couples to keep a sex diary, totalling 4,637 condom usages. Six condoms split while being put on, and 13 split during sex – a total breakage rate of 0.41% (Contraception 1997;56:3-12)
how unlucky are we?
oh dear..... the day i had today was amazing, untill her dad went out... and we had AMAZING sex..... errrmmm... we got splittage.... we both went down to boots tho and talked to a bloke... he rekons she isn't preggo.... but we got a kit none-the-less.
NEGATIVE!!!!!!
she gonna take another on sunday, another on wed... and one on friday..!!!!!!
YOURE A FATHER..... :(
I MISS KATE!!!!! i hate the not on tuesday and thursday rule..........
HOW FUCKING UNFAIR IS THIS? i'm not allowed to see Kate on tuesdays and thursdays anyway, and now this week i can't see her wednesday! midly pissed off... Nah...
I LOVE HER TOO MUCH!
right, i suppose i should write a messege concerning my girlfrend... well....
i met her at this Y/C i go to, and i sorta decided i liked her... and she was going out with a m8 of mine @ the time so... well....
yeah after loads of asking i ended up kissin' her in a field and we been going out ever since... (2 months 2 weeks nearly 3)
i love her, she loves me and im happy and so is she.... can't b arsed 2 type much more.... so i wont
Would you Belive..?
would you belive I have a girlfriend?
would you belive she's the girl of my dreams?
would you belive that she loves me?
would you belive i love her too?
would you belive she's pretty and blonde?
would you belive that im not?
would you belive that she thinks that im hot?
would you belive we were mates before?
would you belive I made the first move?
would you belive she dated my mate?
would you belive he treated her bad?
would you belive i treat her properly?
would you belive i feel Great?
would you belive i wanted her so bad?
would you belive im the luckiest guy on earth?
would you belive she wants to be 'Mrs S-P'?
would you belive she's only 14?
Would you belive im only 16?
would you belive it's gonna last?
would you belive....
would you belive....
would you belive i don't think i can belive the last one?
would you belive that when it ends.. so will i?
would you belive untill that time.. she's mine and im her's and that's all that matters?
would you belive that i showed her this, she told me she loves me, and said it will never end?
101 funny words....
Acomoclitic — Shaved and completely hairless genitals are a turn-on.
Acousticophili
Acrophilia - Being sexual aroused by heights.
Acrotomophilia - Arousal by the activity/thoug
Actirasty - Arousal from exposure to the suns rays.
Acucullophalli
Adolescentilis
Agalmatophilia - A fetish for statues/manneq
Agonophilia - Pseudo-rape, pretend struggle or wrestling play as a form of foreplay.
Agoraphilia —Gettin' it on out in public is hot, hot, hot!
Agrexophilia - Excitement from knowing that others are aware of a persons sexual activities.
Aischrolgia - The expression of obscenities.
Albutophilia - Arousal from water.
Algolagnia - Both Masochism and Sadism.
Algophilia - Enjoyment or arousal from pain.
Alphmegamia —Bring on the older, seasoned men.
Allopellia - Orgasm from watching others have sex.
Allorgasmia - The need to fantasise about a more desirable partner in order to orgasm.
Altocalciphili
Alvinolagnia - Stomach fetish.
Amaurophilia - Excitement from having a partner who is unable to see them during sex.
Ambisextrous - Attractive to both sexes.
Amelotasis - Attraction to someone who has lost a limb.
Amomaxia - Sex in a parked car.
Amychesis - The act of scratching a partner during sex.
Anaclitism - Sexual enjoyment arising from activities, or being exposed to objects, normally associated with childhood (e.g. toilet training, breast sucking, playing with dolls).
Anasteemaphili
Anolinctus - The act of licking the anus of another.
Anolingus - The act of inserting the tongue into the anus of another (as opposed to just licking it).
Antholagnia —The scent of a flower brings about that special tingly feeling.
Anthropophagol
Anthropophagy - Cannibalism for sexual purposes.
Apotemnophilia - Arousal from the idea of losing a limb (either through accident or surgical procedure).
Arachnephilia - Arousal from play with spiders.
Asthenolagnia —When this person's partner is mamby-pamby, this makes him or her quite randy.
Asphyxiaphilia - Sexual arousal, or enhancement, from lack of oxygen.
Autagonistophi
Autoassassinop
Autogynephilia - Sexual excitement from cross dressing.
Automasochism - The act of inflicting pain or injuries on oneself as a way of causing sexual stimulation.
Automysophilia - Arousal from being dirty or defiled.
Autophagy - The ingesting of one's own flesh (usually for sexual reasons).
Axillism - Using the armpit for sex (as a substitute vagina).
Belonephilia - Arousal from using of needles.
Bestialsadism - Arousal from performing cruel acts to animals.
Biastophilia - Only being aroused when sexually assaulting an unwilling victim.
Biiest - A female who has a fetish for female feet.
Blastolagnia - A person aroused by young females.
Botulinonia - Using a sausage as a dildo.
Capnolagnia - Arousal from watching others smoke.
Catheterophili
Chezolagnia - Masturbating whilst defecating.
Choreophilia - Sexual arousal from dancing.
Chrematistophi
Claustrophilia - Sexual arousal from being confined in small spaces e.g. cages, coffins or straight jackets.
Clitoridectomy - Surgical removal of the clitoris in females (obviously).
Coitobalnism - Sexual activities whilst in the bath.
Coitus A Cheval - Sex on a horse.
Coitus A Unda - Sex in water.
Coitus Interfermoris - Penetration between the thighs. Sometimes used as a form of birth control.
Colobosis - Mutilation of the penis.
Coprography - "To write with faeces". To write obscene graffiti, poems or stories. Arousal from obscene words.
Coprophagy - The act of eating faeces. Quite a popular activity up until the 1700s.
Coprophilia - Refers to someone that is sexually aroused by faeces.
Corephallism - Having anal sex with a young girl.
Coulrophilia —This person wants a clown to entertain their pants off while playing with that long, red balloon.
Cunnilalia —Just talking about female genitalia gives this person the proverbial or actual woody.
Cunnilingus —Tonguing vulva is titillating.
Dacnolagnomani
Dacryphilia - Refers to someone that is aroused by seeing tears in the eyes of their partner.
Dasyproctic - With hairy buttocks.
Defecolagbia - Arousal from defecating.
Dippoldism - Sexual arousal from beating/chasti
Dogging - The watching of couples having sex in parked cars.
Doleros - Arousal from pain.
Doraphilia - Love of fur or skin (usually leather).
Dysmorphophili
Ecorchement - Flagellation.
Ecouteurism - Unintentional arousal from sounds.
Electrophilia - Arousal from electrical stimulus.
Emetophilia - Arousal from vomit or vomiting.
Endytophilia - Refers to preferring a sex partner to be clothed rather than naked during sex.
Entomophilia - The use of insects for sexual stimulation.
Epispadias - The condition whereby the urethra opens up on the upper surface of the penis instead of extending through the centre to the tip of the penis.
Eproctophilia —"Beans! Beans! The magical fruit! The more you eat, the more you…" This person is horny whenever farting is involved. An ideal date might begin at Taco Bell, or perhaps with cabbage, beans, and a Farrelly Brothers movie.
Erotographoman
Exhibitionism —This is someone who enjoys surprising others by exposing their naughty bits. I'm thinking an omolagnian would probably get along really well with this person.
Fisting —This person is aroused by either being the receiver or giver of a hand, fist, or forearm into the rectum or vagina. This also appears to be one of the few fetishes that can be easily pronounced.
Flatuphilia - Arousal from others passing gas.
Formicophilia - Sex play with ants/insects.
Gerontophilia - Arousal from people who are significantly older.
Gomphipothic - Arousal from the sight of teeth.
Graophilia —Older females are hotties, and The Graduate is probably a favorite movie.
Gymnophilia —Turned on by nudity. Oh come on, who isn't? Sheesh.
Gynelophilous - Arousal from the sight/touch of pubic hair.
Gynemimetophil
Gynonudomania —If the thought of ripping clothes off of other people fills you with lust, you are a Gynonudomanian
Harmatophilia - Arousal from mistake or from breaking rules.
Harpaxophilia - sexual arousal from being robbed.
Hebephilia —Teenagers make this person randy.
Hierophilia —This person gets off on sacred objects such as crosses. I would say rent The Exorcist, but if that movie gets you hot, I need to bump this definition down a category or two.
Hirsutophilia —Aroused by armpit hair and, most probably, Berkeley.
Hodophilia - Sexual arousal from travelling to new or strange places.
Homilophilia - Arousal from giving or receiving a sermon or speech.
Hygrophilia - Arousal from contact with body secretions (tears, salvia etc.)
Hyphephilia - Sexual arousal from touching (certain) fabrics.
Iantronudia - The arousal that some people have when they expose themselves to doctors.
Iatronudia —Doctor, doctor! This person loves exposing him or herself to a physician. The health insurance bills must be staggering…
Idrophrodisia - Arousal from perspiration.
Inspectionism - Voyeurism.
Irrumation - Fellatio.
Jactitation - Excitement or arousal from bragging about their own sexual exploits.
Kleptolagnia - Arousal from stealing.
Kleptophilia —The only difference between this person and someone giving themselves the five-finger discount is that this person gets horny when they steal.
Klismaphilia - Arousal from having an enema.
Knismolagnia - Arousal from tickling.
Lactaphilia —Mammaries full of milk don't make just babies happy...
Lagnonector - A person that kills in order to have sex with the corpse.
Leptosadism - Mild sadism.
Lygerastia - Being aroused only when in darkness.
Macrogenitalis
Maieusiophilia —Pregnant women make this person hot under the collar. This should be good news to moms-to-be asking "Do I look like a cow or what?"
Martymachlia —Aroused by having others watch during sex. Get these folks hooked up with a voyeur, pronto.
Mastix - A female sadist.
Mastofact - Breast fetish.
Mazoperosis - Mutilation of the breasts.
Meable - Easily penetrated.
Medolalia —This person could hang with a cunnilalist since this person is aroused by talking about everything phallus.
Melcryptovesti
Melolagnia - Arousal from music.
Meretricium - A tax on prostitution.
Menophilist - Arousal from menstruating women.
Merinthophilia - Arousal from being bound.
Miscegenation —When two people of different races get it on, this person wants to get it on. Sex or marriage between people of different races.
Mixoscopy - The secret observation of a sex act.
Moriaphilia - Arousal from telling sex related jokes.
Mucophagy - The consuming of nasal mucus.
Munchausen's syndrome - Arousal from opening a wound.
Mysophilia - The arousal from handling soiled underwear or foul odors.
Nanophilia - Attraction to short people.
Naphephilia - Arousal from touching or being touched.
Narratophilia - Arousal from telling sex related stories, poems, jokes etc.
Nasophilia - Arousal from kissing, sucking, touching or looking at another's nose.
Necrochlesis - The act of having sex with a corpse.
Necrophilia - Attraction to, or arousal from, corpses.
Necrosadism - Mutilation of corpses for sexual purposes.
Nepiophilia - Adults attraction to an infant of the opposite sex.
Nosolagnia - Arousal from knowing that ones partner has a terminal illness.
Nymphophilia - The love of a female adolescent by an adult.
Nymphotomy - The surgical procedure whereby the inner labia is cut away.
Ochlophilia - If you get turned on by being in a crowd, you need to get a job working security at Ozzfest. Refers to those own find the presence of crowds to bring sexual pleasure.
Oculophilia — Eyeball fetish. It's said that the eyes are the window to the soul. An oculophiliac thinks they are the viagra of the face.
Oculolinctus - The act of licking a persons eyeball for sexual arousal/fulfil
Ochlophilia - Arousal from biting.
Odaxelagnia —Bite me. No, really, bite me!
Odontophilia - Arousal from teeth.
Omolagnia —Aroused by nudity? Freak. (Hey, wasn't that Gymnophilia?)
Ondinisme - Arousal from urine.
Ozolagnia - Arousal from odors. "Ooooo, that smell! Can you smell that smell? Oooooooo, that smell!" Outside of bad old Lynyrd Skynyrd references, Ozolagnians are turned on by powerful scents.
Pageism - Male submitting to a female.
Paizogony - Petting.
Pathicant - A minor who engages in anal sex with an adult.
Paraphilia - Arousal from acts that are generally considered unacceptable by the fetishist (themselves) or society.
Pecattiphilia - Sexual excitement from stealing or sinning.
Pediophilia - Attraction to dolls.
Penotherapy - Regulation of prostitutes as a form of disease control.
Paedophilia - Adult sexual attraction to children.
Parthenophilia —These people have a desire to deflower virgins. You know, find a virgin, grab the flowers right out of their hands and trample them for the sheer joy of it. They're just so mean.
Phallophilia —This person only wants penises of unusual size, namely gargantuan. Arousal from an erect penis of exceptional dimensions (length or girth).
Philemanmania - Compulsion to kiss.
Philematology - The art of kissing.
Phlebotomy - Blood letting. Often practiced for sexual purposes by Vampyres.
Phobophilia - Arousal from fear.
Phygephilia —Turned on by being a fugitive. If you also fantasize about finding the one-armed man, you may be a Richardkimball
Podophilia - Foot fetish.
Polyiterophili
Psychrocism - Arousal from cold, or, arousal from seeking another that is cold.
Psychrotentigi
Pubephilia —Don't ever shave for this person, because pubic hair is where it's at.
Pygmalionism - Attraction to manikins.
Pygophilia - Arousal from touching, playing with or seeing another's buttocks.
Pyrolagnia - Sexual arousal form watching fire.
Pyrophilia - Sexual arousal from fire.
Raptophilia - Arousal from raping a victim.
Retifism —Turned on by shoes. Would this be also known as Imeldaism?
Rhabdophilia - Arousal from being flogged, beaten or caned.
Sacofricosis - The practice of cutting a hole in the pockets of trousers so that a person can masturbate (usually in public).
Satyriasis - Male equivalent of nymphomania.
Scopophilia - Arousal from looking at people or events.
Shunammitism - Contact (does not have to be physical) with young girls by old men to encourage or restore sexual vigor.
Siderodromophi
Sitophilia - The use of food for sexual purposes.
Spectrophilia —These people get aroused by either coitus with spirits or from images in mirrors. While I can see the mirrors over the bed thing happening, I'm wondering about the spirit thing. Isn't The Enquirer still offering a bazillion dollars for proof? Why aren't these people rich by now? Is the truth really out there?
Sthenolagnia - Arousal from a display of strength and/or the sight or muscles.
Stigmatophilia - Finding body modifications arousing (tattoos, piercings, scarification etc.)
Symphorophilia - Sexual arousal from causing many casualties (train crash, burning hospitals, explosions).
Tantalolagnia - Arousal from teasing.
Taphephilia - Arousal from being buried alive.
Thalpotentigin
Thesauromania —While the name makes me envision someone with an insatiable Rand McNally habit, it really means people who are turned on by collecting women's clothing and stuff.
Thlipsosis —Ow! Oooooooo. Oh! Mmmmmmmmm. Turned on by pinching.
Timophilia - Arousal from power or wealth.
Tragolimia - Desire for sex regardless of attraction to partner.
Transvestitism —This person has a secret bigger than Victoria's, because they feel absolutely divine cross-dressing
Trichophilia - Hair Fetish.
Tripsolagnia - Arousal from having one's hair shampooed by another.
Tripsolagnophi
Tripsophilia —Sensual massage is the only kind of massage, baby.
Urophilia - Sexual arousal from contact with urine.
Urtication - The use of stinging plants to stimulate the skin.
Vampirism - The drinking of blood/fetishis
Vicarphilia - Arousal from another person sexual experience/s.
Vincilagnia - Arousal from bondage.
Voyeurism —They like to watch. (Sounds like a good book title to me!)
Xenophilia - Sexual arousal from strangers.
Zelophilia - Arousal from jealousy.
Zoophilia - Sex between humans and (other) animals.
Zwischenstufe - Arousal from person/s of the same sex.
maybe; it means you are too much of a mate....
yeah well... not no more....
what the hell does 'maybe' mean?
i wonder why she left such a deep mark in me... ?
geeez.. when i spend time apart from her my feelings grow......... it really hurts now.......
How dare you say that my behavior is unacceptable
So condescending unnecessarily critical
I have the tendency of getting very physical
So watch your step cause if I do you'll need a miracle
You drain me dry and make me wonder why I'm even here
This Double Vision I was seeing is finally clear
You want to stay but you know very well I want you gone
Not fit to funkin' tread the ground that I'm walking on
When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
What you are doing is screwing things up inside my head
You should know better you never listened to what I've said
Clutching your pillow and writhing in a naked sweat
Hoping somebody someday will do you like I did
When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Does it kill
Does it burn
Is it painful to learn
That it's me that has all the control
Does it thrill
Does it sting
When you feel what I bring
And you wish that you had me to hold
When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
is there anyone out there cuz its gettin harder and harder to breathe
guess what? i got permanatly kiked out of skool.. :(