Well, my father, I guess, had been talking with my mother about giving me the camera that I want that he really never used. If I do get it, I definately cant wait to get out and take some snapshots. Now that Im working around the snow, I would love to get some candids of some skiers/snowboarders. I cant wait.....Im so excited.

Had a really great time with Justin this week. Its starting to look like things are getting better. Even after my druken sob fest, and some things that I shouldnt have brought up...but oh well, thats all in the past now. Im totally ready and geared up for the future.

Going to be doing some more sketches on my days off. Trying to save up money (will take me a long time) to get a wacom digital drawing pad with the usb hook up...so I would not need a scanner for my art work, I could actually do my sketch on the computer. We'll see what the future holds.

YOU'VE BEEN QUOTED

Had a huge hurtle to jump over with Justin. Wasnt sure what and where things were going....Im just now making my way out of the storm.

Looking foreward to Christmas though. It will be my very first Christmas with Justin. There are a few things I kind of want for Christmas, but my biggest thing is to have Justin and be happy. And then bring in a new year with him, which we'll be almost 2 years of dating.

I have no clue what has come over me, but I am a country whore all of a sudden....I cant get enough of the good oldies. One of my favorites Garth Brooks song, and possibly the song Justin and I will dance to (maybe) when we get married, cause [Izyin] is all the cowboy Ill ever need!!!!! LOVE YOU HUNNY

Garth Brooks
Cowboys and Angels

A Vampire's Lament

She is over-come with a fearsome feeling of power
Surging through every nerve of her body.
Riddled with confusion, 
She can sense this tomultious power
Coursing through her veins
Pumping adrenalin, so hard to breathe.
Making her loose more control of herself.
The void that grow within her heart
Thirst for something now.

So unsure of what she becomes,
She lingers on in a haze.
Something warm, salty-sweet
To satisfy her palette
She craves.
Someone approaches whom,
She does not know
Their scent is strong,
It feeds her senses into sheer madness. 
Heartbeat pulses faster,
Further into the dizzing haze,
She lunges. 
Clutching her victim,
Helpless within her hold,
She sinks her teeth deep into the neck. 
How freely does the blood flows
Leaving a sticky coating upon her lips.

(a work in progress)

Love: a wonderous feeling
Beautiful and harmonious throughout
Shared by many

*does the happy dance* Ive got a possible job, I have an interview monday....well its a side job, only work 3 days (sun/mon/tues). So hopefully I can get a call back from the other place, and work at that job as well (so Ill be working 2 jobs *gets tired thinking about it*).....but if it means that I can actually work, have money coming in.....and actually have a life.

But something tells me, Justin maybe had something to do with this call I got today.

Well.....Justin and I are moving the begining of next month, wee finally have our place, but as Justin says....its 'HIS' place, because he'll be paying the rent. Im hoping like hell to get this job, just waiting for the guy to call me back. Fall/Winter time is coming, so jobs should be opening up, cause kids are going back to school. If Justin can be patient long enough, I will get the job, and then life came get way easier.

I feel bad that most of the pressure of money is on his shoulders, it kills me inside...so Im making up for it. Just wish me luck people....I need all the luck I can get.

Holy Shit

This is what I fucking needed......Everyone is gone today....Ive got the full run of the house....*sits back sipping a girl scout cookie (hot cocoa and peppermint schnaups)*......Ive got the tunes blaring......Im so much more at ease.....Fuck I might even get myself intoxicated completely.

I do look foreward to Justin coming home from work.....I do love him, and miss him when he is gone.....I know....I so fucking pathetic....

This is what I fucking needed......Everyone is gone today....Ive got the full run of the house....*sits back sipping a girl scout cookie (hot cocoa and peppermint schnaups)*......Ive got the tunes blaring......Im so much more at ease.....Fuck I might even get myself intoxicated completely.

I do look foreward to Justin coming home from work.....I do love him, and miss him when he is gone.....I know....I so fucking pathetic....

Over My Head by Fleetwood Mac

Idea for a story


Honoshiro guided his tired frame downwards along side a cherry blossom tree, until he finally found comfort upon the ground. He rested his daisho closely beside him. The sun pelted its blaring heat upon the earth. Honoshiro could feel the warmth eminate from the surface.

There, living among
two beautiful daughters.


         
Of a man who possesses
two beautiful daughters,

 
         
you cannot know
nor yet try to guess

 
         
the sweet soothingness
of their caress.

 
         
The outstanding genius
of this pair

 
         
is understood by few,
they are so rare.

 
Compared with these
two, every man is a fool.

 
         
The world is most honored
that they should deign to rule,

 
         
and I worship the power
of these lovely two

 
         
with that adoring love
known to so few.

'Tis indeed
a miracle one must feel

 
         
that two such
heavenly creatures are real.

 
         
Both sets of eyes,
though different far,

 
         
hold many mysteries strange,

 
         
and passively,
they watch the race of men

 
         
decay and change.

 
         
Hatred burning bright
in the brown eyes

 
         
with enemies for fuel.

 
         
Icy scorn
glitters in the gray eyes,

 
         
contemptuous and cruel.

 
         
And why are men such fools

 
         
they will not realize
the wisdom

 
         
that is hidden
behind those strange eyes?

 
         
And these wonderful people
are you and I.

Wow.....it really hasnt hit me yet that Im 21. I went to the bar with Shane earlier today, while Justin was at the Chiropractor.....and we had a drink.....then we drove around and checked a couple of stores.....than we went to lunch and had a couple drinks there. Now Im just waiting til Justin is ready....were gonna go pick up a 12 pack (than Im officially 21) and go up to Shane's and have some fun......hehehehe.

Less than 4 more days til I finally turn 21....biatches! Ive waited such a long friggin time for this....and the best part is....I get to spend it with the one I love.

So the count-down continues....will make sure lots of pictures will be taken.

My fucking word.....what is up with you men......stop commenting me on my photo......its getting fucking annoying. I hate having to filter through my mail, thanks for the comments, Im glad you think Im hot (I think you all are insane). And for all you guys that want to cyber, Im not interested. Cybering is a big turn off.....and I dont understand how you cant get off on it.

In about 2-3 more days, I will be moving. Its going to take me a little while to settle in, but I should be alright, and get back with you all as soon as possible. I probably wont be myself, because Ill be going through some pretty big life changing choices. I love you all, and Ill be back as soon as I can

*yawns* been working hard on theses sketches, and I keep getting more and more disappointed with them. Ive also been trying to revive a couple of my wikis as well as setting up a myspace page. Hoping to catch up with Justin. Oh well......*falls asleep*

Fuck.....
Me!!!!!

NOT INTENTIONALLY...THAT MEANS YOU JUSTIN