The last year and a half has been an interesting ride. I'd have to have at least 4 or 5 entries to explain everything. Just recently I have been able to get past my daghters death and move on. It took a while but I've done it. :) 
I got my own apartment in December of 05 and lived there until October of 06. Man was it crampy. It had no stove or even a door for the bathroom. It was a teeny tiny studio.
In June I had met the man of my dreams. We have been dating ever since. In August we decided to start looking for an apartment together which we now have. We moved in in October in the small town of Eagle, Idaho. i am enjoying a much bigger place. So for now, I must rest and I will update more tomorrow. Now, I am just having a couple of drinks to relax. G'night

Man these last few weeks have been hectic. In October I lost my job with WinCo *grcery store* then I got a job at Dominos and the library. I then lost the job at Dominos and then I got another job at the Canton as a waitress *canton is a chinese food place* I'm finally getting myself settled. I'm leaving myb roomates place this week and maybe by the end of the week have my own place. Yay!!!!! *claps hands*

Hello everyone.  I am back from a 2 week "R & R". Tomorrow my daughter would be a month old, I am really missing her today. On the way home from Idaho on the plane I just wanted to cry. I just didn't want people to see me. I've had a refreshing vacation and now I am doing research on adoption. I know I'd be a single parent but there are many women out there who do it with 5 or 6 children everyday. SO can I. I will have more later.

Incense Recipies

1. Be sure ALL herbs, spices, peels and flowers are completely dry.
2. All dry ingredients must be ground into a fine powder
3. Mix all ingredients in a small glass container with a clean stick, or your fingers.
4. Let the incense stand overnight to dry.
5. Store any unused incense in a tightly capped glass jar, aweay from light.
6. These incense need self-igniting charcoal. Check the Classified-ads.
7. Or, in a pinch, you might try to smolder some in a small heavy pot on top of your stove.
8. Most important, for best results, try to blend your energies with the incense as you prepare and use it.

PAGAN POWER INCENSE
       For Ritual Energy

1 tab. Cinamon
1 tab. anise seed
1 teas. Nutmeg
1 teas. lemon peel
1 teas. lemon extract
1 tes. peppermint extract
Dry petals of 3 white roses.

DIVINE DELIGHT
  To honor your personal deity

Dry peel of one orange
1 teas. nutmeg
1 teas. vanilla extract
1 teas. almond extract
Petals of one carnation and of one rose.

SACRED SPACE
   To clear and make pure and area.

4 tab. cedar chips
1 tab. thyme
1 tab. sage
2 teas rosemary
1 teast. cinamon
1 pinch salt
1 pinch tobacco

WHITE LIGHT DELIGHT
    Use when invoking the white light of protection

1 tab. rosemary
1 tab. ginger peel of lemon
Dryu petal of 2 white roses
1 teas. vanilla extract
1teas. almond extract
1 teas coconut extract
7 crushed bay leaves.

THANK YOU

2 Tab. Rosemary
1 Tab. Cinamon
1 Teas. Sage
1 Teas. Allspice Dry peel of 1 lemon
Dry petals of 3 roses
1 Tab. almond extract

HELP

2 Tab.cinamon
2 Tab. Vanilla extract
1Tab Rosemary
1 Tab. Thyme
1 teas clove
1 Teas. Ginger1 Teas. Allspice
1 pinch salt

SOLSTICE CITRUS

1 Tab. dry orange peel
1 tab. dry grapefruit peel
1 tab. dry lemon peel
1 tab. dry tangerine peel
1 teas. orange extract
1 teas. lemon extract

JOB SEARCH SPELL INCENSE

Incense Recipies

1. Be sure ALL herbs, spices, peels and flowers are completely dry.
2. All dry ingredients must be ground into a fine powder
3. Mix all ingredients in a small glass container with a clean stick, or your fingers.
4. Let the incense stand overnight to dry.
5. Store any unused incense in a tightly capped glass jar, aweay from light.
6. These incense need self-igniting charcoal. Check the Classified-ads.
7. Or, in a pinch, you might try to smolder some in a small heavy pot on top of your stove.
8. Most important, for best results, try to blend your energies with the incense as you prepare and use it.

PAGAN POWER INCENSE
       For Ritual Energy

1 tab. Cinamon
1 tab. anise seed
1 teas. Nutmeg
1 teas. lemon peel
1 teas. lemon extract
1 tes. peppermint extract
Dry petals of 3 white roses.

DIVINE DELIGHT
  To honor your personal deity

Dry peel of one orange
1 teas. nutmeg
1 teas. vanilla extract
1 teas. almond extract
Petals of one carnation and of one rose.

SACRED SPACE

~Stones and Gemstones~

Agate~
 good for transmutation, helps with the emotion of acceptance; gives a mellow, blended aspect; beneficial in stomach area.

Agate-Fire~
 Master healer with colour therapy; enhances all essences; grounds and balances; sexual and heart chakra binder; burns energy.

Agate-Moss~
 Emotional priorities; mental priorities; colon, circulatory, pancreas and pulses, blood sugar balance; agriculture.

Alexandrite~
 Clear violet-green, It. blue or orange-yellow irridescence. color chances with angle. Opens hear, Solar Plexus, and especially Crown Centres. For healing, centering, self-esteem. Rare and powerful. Opens to higher self, disattachmnent, psychicness, spiritual love, joy and luck. Excellent tissue regeneration especially Central nervous system. Low self-estees and difficulty centering imply need; spleen and pancreas.

Today has been dull so far. waking up at noon, going to lunch and getting pulled over. Nothing to jump for joy about. Just moseying around. :)

So far today has been pretty uneventful.  Last night was miserable because my neices and nephews gave me a migraine!!! First one in 3 months. We got together and played bingo yet again. Actually I played Monopoly with my cousins. *I needed a change of scenery.* I was in so much pain that I couldn't get to sleep until about 3:30 this morning and I had to wake up at 6:00!!!!!!! For a pregnant woman that baaaad. Talk about cranky and I'm usually a pretty good morning person. *Pregnancy messes with your mind* hehe.
I had a doctors appointment this morning and everything is well except sometimes I have to remind myself to breathe. It's kinda difficult when you ahve a 4 lb. baby on your blatter and she's got her feet stuck on your rib cage *wince* That's it for now. :)

For the last few days I have been miserable!!! It sucks because the baby is moving into the birthing position and it's driving me NUTS!!!!!!! My stomach does nothing but itch because it is still streching. She's probably about 3 lbs now and she does nothing but move. I can hardly sleep through the night anymore. I probably get about 2 hours of sleep maximum.
Other than that I am working on my book and making good progress too. **giggle** I've made like 2 or 3 different copies because my family members have been fighting over who gets to read it next. Children. **LoL**

             The Wiccan Rede
        Bide in the Wiccan Laws we must
        In Perfect Love and Perfect Trust
             Live and Let Live,
          Fairly take and Fairly Give.
         Cast the Circle Thrice About
         To Keep the Evil Spirits Out.
         To Bind the Spell Every Time
        Let the Spell be Spake in Rhyme.
         Soft of Eye and Light of Touch,
          Speak but Little, Listen Much.
          Deosil go by Waxing Moon,
         Chanting out the Witches Rune.
        Widdershins go by Waning Moon,
         Chanting out the Baneful Rune.
         When the Moon Rides at Her Peak
          Then Your Hearts Desire Seek.
        Heed the NOrth Winds Mighty Gale,
         Lock the Door and Drop the Sail.
       When the Wind comes from the South,
         Love Will Kiss you On the Mouth.
        When the Winde Blows from the West,
         Departed Souls Will Have No Rest.
        When the Wind Blows from the East,
         Expect the New and Set the Feast.

For the last few weeks I've been going to my Catholic church. The more I go the more I realize I am making a good decision with Wicca. At first I didn't want to tottally leave the religion I was born, baptized, had 1st Holy Communion and Confirmation, it just doesn't make sense to me anymore. everything is just the same. 
I believe with Wicca one has the opportunity to grow as an individual and learn learn learn. I feel the Judeo-Christian God is a little hypocritical saying "love thy neighbor" and then saying something else entirely. **Shrug** what can you do??? I feel if you go on a journey on your own you will get more out of life, and you will better yourself as a person.

The last few days have been quite dull. My dad is visiting us from Idaho and we've been planting flowers and trees all day. **it feels good to work in the dirt** The only problem is my big belly that's in the way.. grrrr. I just don't like squirrels because they like to dig up our work. piss on 'em lol...j/k 
I went to the Endocronologist on Wednesday and she did a series of tests on me. I swear she could have choked me! haha. I've been on medication for the last 10 years but my dosage hasn't changed since I was 11. So, since I'm pregnant she decided to up my meds from 2 vitamin d's a day to 3. But I had taken some lab tests and she wants meto go back to 2 Vitamin d's a day. I is soooo confoosed!!!! LoL. **grin** Can't think of anymore news.

The last week has been hectic. While my mother was out of town in Cancun....I was staying at my cousins house one night helping her watch my neices and nephews. (2 boys and a girl). While I was there I was trying to develope my character, but kept getting inturrupted....."Auntie Censia what are you doing???" or they'd ask me to play with them, *Slaps forehead* oi! hehe. 
I've added a few more details to her description but I just need someone to draw her for me *Grrrrrr* I am NOT an artist well...I am....just as a musician. The strange thing about my charachter her name is Teraeza but she resembles me a little bit but we're two totally different people. She was also my dungeons and dragons character last year when we had a HUGE campaign going at Yellowstone this last summer *I worked there...it was fun* she got soooo powerful my fellow mates were terrified. hehe well that's it for now. see yall.