There's a bossy girl that i work with, she's like 4 foot tall and has been working there for 4 years and thinks she can boss everyone around. me her and Derek were working yesterday and it was hell with her being a control freak. so me and Derek were the only ones working in the drive thru today and we were such a good team. that's what you call real team effort. work at a good pace, cooperate. he took the orders and the money i made the subs. and malory (that short chick) asked like 5 times if we need any help and all 5 times i said NO! hah! and when the rush hour was over, she said that we did a really nice job. that's what you do to shut people up. I always thought that there's no way that only 2 people can work at the drive thru at 12 pm....busiest time. but today i learned that if there's cooperation everything works out.
Look into these gates to my soul
tell me what you see
beyond this skin,
beyond this pretty face?
does it tell of the pain that lies inside me?
the truth that no one knows of...
but me?
must i shed the pain and move on,
and pretend like everything is alright?
people treat me as if i were a doll....
admired from afar
hurt me as they please.
look beyond these gates to my soul, tell me what you see...
do you see happiness or sorrow?
can you tell that i am hurt but shed the wonders of sadness?
or do you just see the shield that conceals it all?
look beyond these gates to my soul, beauty is only skin deep.
don't hurt me, i am not your doll. you have no control over me.
School is RAD! i mean, i'm not a school junkie or anything but everyone is so fucking hilarious...i love them! I'm slowly breaking out of my shell of shyness too... yeah everything is just great! I'm a bizzy girl these days from now on. School and Work. It's fun being myself. I have good mind power. let's just say... things are going my way for once finally. and i want to keep it that way. yeah! go me! woot woot!
i dyed my hair red today. i was really, REALLY tempted to leave the dye in longer. but i was only supposed to leave it in for 15 minutes. that's not long at all, is it? cuz i mean, the more you leave it in the more it is the color on the box. but yay....it'll be out after 28 washes. i wish my hair was redder. but at least when it all washes out after 28 shampoos, it leaves a trace of red, so my hair looks sort of naturally auburn or something. i like that. i wanna dye my hair purple after it all washes out.
Allen [Martini_Kiss] is sooooooooooo awesome!! i love him ! i love him! i love him! He makes me feel so comforted and loved. We always have really meaningful conversations and just read what he had to say to me:
Allen says:
no it is just right...it feels like we dont deserve whats happening, but we do....look back on ur life. all the suffering, pain. has lead to this...we deserve someone like eachother
we were talking about each other, our past relationships and our future. it made me teary. so many connections between two people.
Taking Back Sundays new cd is awesome. but the funny thing is that i like the bonus sampler songs better.... lol.. oopsies..haha. the last song kicks ass. i believe it's called: Drug Like by Action Action. it sounds like an 80's song by The Cure. I think i'm in a mini 80's phase again.../ emo/solitude..
I got the awesomest shoes today! they are the coolest shoes ever! *dances around* so perfect... :D
Wow, i'm just noticing how super fast this summer has been going by!!! school starts in almost one week... man i hate that feeling of going back! I get a dis-oriented feeling for a few days or a week. then everything is alright...
Summer is almost gone. the days will turn much chillier. So long summer of 2004......
Haha i had a mix up dream last night, it was neat. i was on one of those streets on the south side of town and someone i used to be friends with said that the grass had blue nets on them and told me to get them off. i was like...nah i think those should be there... then the next minute ashlee simpson was there and was all prissy (I HATE HER!!!) and she was being all preppy like: am i pretty? i was like no! you're fucking ugly! and the next minute i saw some of the band members from incubus.... then i saw brandon boyd! i was cuddling with him in his lap, it was sexy... oopsie, i think i said too much *blushes* heh heh...
...end of dream...
i was so freaken bored today. i didn't work. i decideed to do some of my painting of Davey. The background is so beautiful but when i started drawing him on today it started looking icky.... it's just a shadow image though :( i need to get more white paint do that it wont show.. that made me mad. cuz the video clip is so detailed, the little touches that make Davey DAVEY! damn me :(
Allen wasn't on all day :( hey if you're reading this, know that you mean a lot to me and a day isn't complete without a convo with you!
I had a strange dream last night... ok i know why i had this dream... last night i really wanted to listen to Weezers Blue Album but i couldn't find my headphones. so instead i had a dream about Weezer ^_^
I was at their concert and got to talk to the lead singer in the back (i think he's the one with the buddy holly glasses..... we had a neat talk and later on he gave me a ticket or some kind of paper that allowed me to travel to Chicago... don't ask, i have no clue...but i thought that dream was sweet. the guy was nice :) And it was Weezer! i mean...come one!! WEEZER!!!!!!!!
weezer weezer weezer!!!! woooo!!
Thanks [Sad Lonely Angel] i haven't forgotten about you... i love every second on that album ^_^ (the blue album)
peace.....
Ahhh, haven't written here in a while. i like listening to NFG's new cd, it's neat. I know that some people may thing that Jordans nostril voice is annoying but fuck everyone who thinks that. I love these lyrics a lot because of the way he sings it and the meaning is neat too....
This Disaster
All my life I've been looking for the answers
to the questions you never asked and
we never planned on this disaster
when will i let it go?
NFG is an uber sweet band
Hehehe, the entry under this one was to someone on the all things rock mtv message board, he/she said that they were so hardcore punk........be
so that was my response under this entry.
i put this on an mtv message board cuz somebody was being a jackass! i think it's funny!
and um, i lyke jump around with my guitar in my lyke $80 cargo pants wearing lyke black laced underwear that smell lyke ass...ooooh i am so hardcore...i lyke umm, go to graveyards and spook visitors and lyke, break my guitar on their heads and lyke, bury myself afterwards...o
I am so involved with my own world, it's like i don't really give much about this world anymore. The outside world anyways. The popularity, the outgoingness, the way most people are "cool", partying...... conformity. It all sucks. That's why elftown rocks. There are people on here that see the world like i do. The world outside is like a foreign country. It's not welcoming anymore. Unless you're with people that you can associate with. The world looks down on you if you're different, it's like you can feel the energy around you.
damn, exams blow :-O~
We were taking notes in american history today, and we actually took brief notes on Kurt Cobain and Nirvana!! i didn't know that that's actually a part of americas big history! That's awesome. And wanna know something else? Kurts name was mis spelled. it was spelled "Curt Kobain" . I'm going to bring in my Nirvana cd insert thing and show the teacher how to spell it right! Proving teachers wrong is a guilty pleasure :D
The diary entry below this one...... i don't know if i want to talk to that person anymore. yesterday morning, i saw him talking and walking with a preppy fucking freshmen. They were both smiling and walking the moment away. That's a huge turn off, especially if it is one of those preps that have a mascara obsession and think they're all that......ahhh
worst feeling at the moment - wanting to talk to someone but don't have the guts to. *sighs* NO NOT ON ELFTOWN! i can talk to anyone here in a heartbeat :P I mean in real life... When you'd like to get to know someone and want to be friends but hold back...
There's always that moment in nature that you capture in your memory and can't forget, right? Today I took a walk and it was so nice and warm, but the sun wasn't out. The scent of chamomile filled the air, and the trees are all green. We're ready for summer. The last two weeks of school are dragging by slow, like it doesn't want to leave, yet this year zoomed by so quickly.
Oh my gosh! I've been looking for the title and name of person who sings a song that i've been looking for the past 10 months! Can you believe it? It's called "The Horizon has been Defeated" - by Jack Johnson. All along, I thought that it was either by Sublime or 311! That's how hard it is to find something out if you're as wacked as i am.
I saw the Von Bondies video! And again, i won the race cuz i've heard their song "C'mon C'mon" like, half a month agao! Who, go me. I don't want mtv to play them out though! They're too fun to get ruined. I wanna go to Lollapalooza this summer.
Why is it that when I FINALLY find a great band to listen to (Rooney) ...... then all of a sudden, this morning i'm on the couch in my pajamas eating my breakfast, watching mtv, and all of a sudden, "I'm Shakin'" comes on? Am i having a competition with Mtv to see who can find the better band faster? What's sad is that they play out a lot of great music, and you know how that goes. I love Yellowcard, but seeing "Ocean Avenue" every half hour after a show is over just kills it.
I go through phases on a daily basis, sometimes weekly, or even monthly. Sometimes, it's the way i see the world, and the vibes that i feel. I've been feeling unexplainably great vibes lately. Maybe it's because i am so positive about things and don't give a flying fuck about stupid people. I don't know if it's just me, or others have noticed this too, but i've noticed a 70's and 80's revival going on lately. Is it in the whole world, or certain parts of the world, or is it just on tv, music, media and entertainment? Whatever it is, I embrace it, because it's feel good and i feel comfortable in it. This revival has been happening for around 2 years. Guys grow out their hair, more people skateboard and listen to 70's 80's songs and wear certain clothes that were similar to the styles back then.....And then they get revived. This creates new bands that sound old school, and I love them ALL!!!!! Some include: Rooney, the Von Bondies, the White Stripes or the Strokes. While some come back like Weezer (from the early 90's.), The Ramones from the 70's, or Rancid who's been around for who knows how long.
I've been wearing my hair to school wearing it down naturally. My curls are beautiful. I don't know about your school, but at mine, the hair trend is all about blonde highlights, with straight hair. I don't follow preppie trends. I like to bring my best qualities out of myself and stay unique that way. So what's with several girls starting to wear their hair the same way I do?! Am I starting a new trend? Are we on the verge of ending the old and beginning the new revival? It's all new school, yet old school in a way. But you know what? This is me, this is my phase and I love it.