i seriously believe that there is no such thing as fate. we live for ourself to make something of our lives, not just to be some puppet controlled by cruel gods. we live. we die. we become a star too far away for earth to see. that is why the universe ic constantly expanding, because of death. seriously, black. empty. exactly what most humans percieve death to be. that is all. we live for the day, for our own happiness, so that we may not reflect in sorrow when we are nothing but flaming balls of gas.

well, actually, this is what happens. when you die, you are judged by the creator star who looks at you entire life and send you to be a asteroid if you are bad, a star if you were good, or a comet to revolve around her greatness and bask in her infinite glory if you have lived the 'perfect life' which we only get one shot at. we live, we die. we become the ever-expanding universe.

when the creator star has chosen the perfect time, everything will cease but the stars, asteroids and comets. the stars will live alone in their light, but will see the lights of others and thus be happy. when the stars die, they become reconnected to the creator star, orbiting the star as nothing but souls basking in her glory. asteroids will feel their way into darkness and nothing ness, not knowing if they are about to hit each other. there will be pain and suffering as they blindly destroy themselves until they are nothing but souls traveling the universe without light and without purpose. they comets will never die, but will forever circle the creator star in happiness and pure bliss. that is why we live.

so i'm starting my diary with some raw poetry. enjoy the crap.

i hide from the pain
i embrace the rain
as it washes away my face
the shadows at night
are only friends till it's light
because they leave without a trace

and i am so scared of whats meant to come eventually
and i am so weary of the plight i took upon myself
i was a fool and i'm still a fool
but i was a donkey, now i'm a mule
it's worse than i ever thought before
if you're gonna leave, don't forget to shut the door
it's not like anyone cares about me anymore

because
for once
my clock
stood still