Loki had been gone for what seemed like forever. He kept himself alive in Jotunheim and a few other planets before deciding to visit Asgard. He snuck into the palace, away from Heimdall's watch.

Several years it had been since Thor had seen his beloved. Through those years he had become more and more depressed, barely moving, eating, interacting. Finally it had gotten to the point where he just couldn't stand it anymore. Taking a near by knife and stabbed into his chest. Just before his vision went black the last image he saw was that of his beloved brother leaning over him saying he loved him. 
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Sif looked at Thor, rubbing his back gently. "Thor.. You should eat something..." she mumbled

Thor smiled softly though he hid the fact that he was truly hurting. Loki was gone, he had left before the other man had gotten there. He never got the chance to say good-bye. He looked up and nodded his head a little. "I'm just not all that hungry." He spoke softly.

"Thor please, you've been avoid everything... Including me.' She caressed his cheek. 'Come now, talk to me..'

"It's nothing Sif I swear." He said quietly, trying to convince the goddess. "I'm just tired." Which he was. Tired of his life.

"Loki was the God of lies, Thor. Not you." She held him close. "Come... Eat something. I know you miss him, but he wouldn't want you, or anyone being sad over him.. Not the was he was.."

He took one bit and felt ill. "Sif I need to lay down." The god of the thunder proclaimed.

Sif nodded and helped him up, leading him to his bedroom and laying him down

"I'm sorry Sif." He said as he laid down. He grabbed her arm gently and smiled the best that he could. "You deserve better."

Sif looked at him and smiled, caressing his cheek. "You're the best out there, Thor... Please, get some rest.."

Thor looked at her pleadingly, like he wanted her to just let him go. It was killing him know that at anymore he was going to hurt her.

Sif nuzzled him lightly and got up, leaving him alone to his thoughts.

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Loki stepped into the room, horrified at the site. He scrambled over and gathered his brother quickly into his arms. "Thor no!" He held the blonde close, crying into his neck. "Thor don't go... I love you..." He looked up, seeing a healing stone on the table and snatched it, crushing it over the broad chest of the god. "Please heal please heal.."

The stone had taken a few moments to kick in but once it had the wound healed over and Thor jolted gasping. He shoved Loki away thinking it was just another illusion. One of his own mind not Loki's tricks. "You're not here... your not real." he cried out and moved away to the nearest wall. He curled into a ball and hid his face.

Loki grunted as he hit the ground and looked over his brother. "What has become of you..." he mumbled, walked over and pulling him close. "You selfish bastard..." He trembled, burying his face in Thor's neck. "You were really going to take your own life? Take it and leave me all alone in this universe? Who would protect me if not you?"

Thor pulled away slightly and looked that the god that held him. "Is it you?" He asked in disbelief. "Is this not some illusion of mine own mind to make me even more mad with grief?" At this point he didn't care. He pulled Loki closer and just held on to him. "Life without you is not worth living." His friends as much as they tried were not the same. He felt nothing but brotherly love for Sif and Odin has ignored him since Loki had left. Life was miserable without Loki.

The trickster held his brother close, nuzzling his neck. "I'm so sorry..." He caressed that blonde hair. "I'm not an illusion..." He adjusted them so Thor was bundled up in his lap. "Why do you say that? Thor, I would never want you to kill yourself over me..."

"My mind has played games with me." The blonde said softly. He felt save and warm for the first time in a very, very, very long time. "You'd be here taunting me with your freedom. While I suffer the life that has become meaningless. Without you... there is nothing left for me here."

Loki kissed the soft skin of his neck, nuzzling his hair. "I'm not leaving again..." He whispered. "I can't stay away for much longer or I would have done the same... I would rather be imprisoned.."

"Just stay with me." Thor practically begged. He leaned up and grabbed both sides of he beloved face and kissed him passionately. 

The mischief god kissed back with a tender passion, holding him close. "I missed you so much, Thor.." He whispered.

Thor just held on. His mind didn't want to believe he was truly there, but his heart knew. "as I you."

Loki helped him to his feet and brought him over to the bed, lying him down. "Oh Thor..." He cuddled him next to him.

The blonde wrapped himself around the raven haired god and held him tight. "Please never leave again."

The trickster nodded. "Never again..." He whispered, kissing his brother's neck.

Thor pulled back and instantly started to kiss the latter deeply, passionately, breathlessly. He wanted to feel even inch of his belove. Even if that meant in him for the first time.

Loki moaned lightly at the sudden passion and pulled Thor above him. "Have you been pent up this entire time...?" he whispered hotly against his brother's lips.

"You are the only one who can calm me." The blonde replied heatedly.

Loki pressed against him, slipping off Thor's clothes. "Then have me, brother... Have me until your heart's content..." He purred.

Thor carefully slipped off Loki's clothes and kissed and nipped the other man's neck. "are you sure?" he asked

Loki lay before him, gorgeous and pale. ”Always.... ” he whispered sexily. He pulled off Thor's pants and kissed him deeply. "Don't hold back, love... Take it all out on me."

The blonde took his time feeling, kissing, tasting every inch of his the smaller god. He was desperate to make sure it was really him. It too him a moment before he finally realized and slowly penetrated him.

The trickster propped himself up on his elbows, watching his kin touch about his form. "You act as though I'm going to disappear..." he whispered, pulling Thor up as he was entered, claiming his lips tenderly. "I'm not going anywhere.." He arched his back and moaned lightly. "Nn..."

The thunder god thrusted slow at first and brought a hand to his cheek. Part of him feared that other would just disappear again but this time he felt too real to be just another illusion.

The brunette chewed on his lip a little, leaning his face into Thor's hand. "You always hold back in the beginning." He whispered. "You're not going to hurt me.. I'm not going to vanish." He purred

Thor growled softly and thrust harder. "Is this what you want?" He asked making his thrust deeper.

Loki gave a soft yelp and dug his nails into his brother's shoulder blades. "Y-Yes...!" He whined, locking his legs around the older's waist.

The blond moved his hips in just the right way that he knew he was hitting the one spot he knew would drive Loki to the edge.

The brunette gave a sharp cry of pleasure and raked his nails down the larger god's back, cutting into the skin. "Th-Thor!!"

"nnnn Loki~..." Thor bit down Loki's collar as he felt himself completely let go. Thrusting harder, faster, deeper he could no longer control himself.

Loki's chest rose and fell with every labored pant. The sharp pain from the bite shocked his body, making it arch at a near impossible angle. This was the closeness, the pleasure and animalistic love he craved from his brother. He loved having that sort of control, even when he wasn't.

Thor, in the heat of everything still managed to bring a hand between them and wrapped his hand around Loki and stroked. He nuzzled the lair's neck and growled softly, "Come for me love."

"N-Not yet..." The liar managed to whine out the words. He wanted to hold back for as long as possible, never wanting this moment to end. "H-harder Thor... P-please..!"

The thunder god could help but do as the other pleaded. His thrust were more powerful then ever before. Thor brought Loki's leg's up to his own shoulders and leaned forward and down so he could get deeper.

Thor was making holding back more difficult by the moment. He brought his arm to his mouth and bit down hard to silence himself. He didn't need to alert anyone of him being there.

Turning his head slightly, Thor kissed his cheek and moved back to bite down on his lover's clavical. "So beautiful." He whispered taking him as rough and passionate as ever.

"H-Hush you.." Loki panted and bit harder into his arm. "C-Close...!"

Thor pulled him up into his lap with Loki's legs still on his shoulders (talk about pretzel). "Cum for me." He whispered softly as he managed to somehow move a little faster.

Loki cried out loudly, Thor in as" His flexible body allowed him to bury his face in his brother's neck. His muscles tightened around him, his throat letting out a scream as he came.

Thor could hold back no longer with a few more strong violent thrust, he release his own seed into his lover. He bit down on the spot between his neck and should as he came and soon after kissed the spot hoping he didn't draw blood.

He did indeed draw blood, but Loki reveled in the pain. He slowly relaxed against the blonde, his lithe from shaking from the force of his orgasm. "Th-Thor.."

Catching his breath and pulling him down on top of him. "Y-you okay?" he asked. Holding the smaller god to him he kissed the top of his head.

”I love you so much, brother....” Loki said between pants. ”Dont ever try to leave me again.”

"I would never." The blond god spoke softly and held the other tight. "As long as you swear never to leave."

"I swear..." Loki nuzzled his face into his brother's chest, sighing lightly and closing his eyes. "I still have to be locked away though. You realize this, don't you?"

"No you don't." Thor said in a rush as he stood for a moment. he grabbed some of his clothes as he got an idea. "Stay here I have an idea that
might just work."

Loki blinked in confusion and sat up. "Thor? Thor where are you going?" He got dressed quickly, following him to the door.

Thor turned and quickly kissed Loki. "My love, please stay here." He said softly. "I'm just going to talk with Heimdall. I promise I'll be back soon."

Loki looked so lost. He kissed his lover back and nodded,staying in Thor's room. He walked back to the bed and sat down, looking around a moment and recognizing the room their once shared.

Thor made his way to the gate to speak with the god that saw all. "Heimdall...." Thor called to the other. "We need to talk."

Heimdall stood calm as usual. "It seems as though we do. When will you tell the All Father of Loki's return?"

"Never if I have any say in this." the blond looked up at the other and he knew he was going to have to tread lightly. "Please Heimdall, you can't tell him." He was to the point he was not above begging if it meant his lover could stay.

"You ask me to not tell the king of his war criminal sons return? And why?"

Thor looked up at the taller god and sighed. "Please Heimdal, I will keep him under close watch but just... don't tell my father."He was desperate not to have his love locked away again.

Heimdall sighed. "I can promise nothing. If he asks, I have no choice but to tell him. But if Loki behaved in the cell, perhaps Odin would allow him out occasionally."

The blonde looked down and sighed as well he knew if Odin had found out that Loki was back that would be the end of that. He would never be allowed near him. "I see..." He plundered sadly as he turned to leave. there must be another way.

"But... Perhaps I can talk to the All Father and convince him that Loki can be reformed..."

"Lets just wait and see if he notices first." Thor muttered back. If odin didn't notice there was no reason to say anything, right? He knew that wasn't the case but still he wanted only one thing. To protect Loki. Even if that meant protecting him from other worlds or even his father.