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Impossible

I am... Impossible.
People never really understand me. They never get to know me. They never TRY to get to know me. And even though I knew several of my friends for many years... Even they, do not know me.
This is weird to me.
I have a good reason to think so!
I think...

Someone I once knew got to know me, the actual ME, in about... 3 hours. THREE F*CKING HOURS.
I thought that was impossible. But, apparently, I was wrong.
On the other hand, this person happened to be exactly the same as me. Same way of thinking.
I guess that made it easier.

Of course, there is more than one person who found out about it. In total, there are 4 so far... Or, should I say, 3,5...
I only talk to 2 of the 4. The other two are way out of reach, or they are not talking to ME, because I made everything feel awkward.
The two that I do actually talk to, are, of course, my best friends. One of them is already in college, working his butt off. The other, is at home, playing videogames, and working half days.
I CAN contact the when I need to...
But, that's not really like me.

I neither have much succes with the ladies. Might sound a bit... Weird, coming from a guy, but it's true.
I'm not the kind of guy who just screws around. When I have a girlfriend, I want to make it work.
But...
I'm picky. I only want the girls that know me.
I fell in love with both of the 2 I didn't talk to...
One is in my school... I can't talk to her now, the situation is awkward. The other is way out of reach. Literally.

And for the time being, I can't really see it getting easier...
I'm slowly going in to life.
~Go With The Flow~, as people say.
Numb, following others, doing what everyone else does.
If this means I'm growing up, I'd rather not.

I'm in battle. Life VS Me.
Right now, winning seems...

Impossible

Alpha And Omega

2010-04-27 [Alexi Ice]: Means your giving up, I think. People who...don't belive that human contact is worthwhile...well we learn. You get a choice. You can sit by yourself, or you can reach out. And yeah sometimes it screws up but you learn from it. That's how you grow, fate, destiny, what have you. Take it as it comes and don't slow down and don't be scared. Belive me. I know. No good EVER comes from waiting and watching. Ever.

2010-04-27 [Sinchao]: I still don't believe much in other humans. It's like they can't comprehend my trail of thought for some reason.

2010-04-27 [Alexi Ice]: That might not be a good thing. Do you really want someone else inside your head? I mean, it's nice to know about people, but sometimes you still need to retain a little something.

2010-04-30 [Sinchao]: Not someone else in my head. Voices don't sound like good company, really. It would be better if people could just fully comprehend for once, so that I need not explain myself thousands of times over again..

2010-04-30 [Alexi Ice]: Hahaha. Maybe you have not met the right calibur or person, OR your opperating on a differnt frequency

2010-05-03 [Sinchao]: Frequency, lol

2010-05-03 [Alexi Ice]: What's so funny?

2010-05-04 [Sinchao]: Oh, not much. My new screen name, and coincidentally also the replacement for my real name when dealing with foreigners is Freq. However, I always dot my names at the end for no apparent reason, so people think it means Frequency ;d As if it's an abbreviation.

2010-05-05 [Alexi Ice]: Hahaha, well, ok, then. I'll call you Frequency! <3

2010-05-06 [Sinchao]: Nah! xD

I don't like it, eventhough I like it :P (figure this out yourself xD)

Just keep it to Sinny, or Freq.

2010-05-06 [Alexi Ice]: Ok, ok fine. I was only kind of joking anyway.

2010-05-06 [Alexi Ice]: Sinny. LOL

2010-05-08 [Sinchao]: People used to call me that. Sin just sounds so Emo :P

2010-05-08 [Alexi Ice]: Sexy emo! Lol.

2010-05-09 [Sinchao]: xD I've got so many webnames, I don't really mind any anymore.

2010-05-10 [Alexi Ice]: Naw, it's ok. Sinny is fine! I just had to throw in my two cents about Emos.

2010-05-10 [Sinchao]: Lolol xD

I wonder how many cent 50Cent would throw in though. He doesn't have many to spare..

2010-05-10 [Alexi Ice]: Probably not any. Or just a penny...(Couldn't help Rhyming...)

2010-05-13 [Sinchao]: He'd probably throw in a hat, since he has two of them anyway..

2010-05-14 [Alexi Ice]: Maybe !

2010-05-14 [Alexi Ice]: ( I love how conversations die so easily. LOL)

2010-05-14 [Sinchao]: Lol, yeah. One-worded messages kill stuff :p

2010-05-15 [Alexi Ice]: i think I need time to think about what to say

2010-05-15 [Sinchao]: Well, take it then :P No one's forcing you to write RIGHT now O_O

2010-05-16 [Alexi Ice]: <3 Thanks. Sometimes I feel that way.

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