Impossible



I am... Impossible.
People never really understand me. They never get to know me. They never TRY to get to know me. And even though I knew several of my friends for many years... Even they, do not know me.
This is weird to me.
I have a good reason to think so!
I think...

Someone I once knew got to know me, the actual ME, in about... 3 hours. THREE F*CKING HOURS.
I thought that was impossible. But, apparently, I was wrong.
On the other hand, this person happened to be exactly the same as me. Same way of thinking.
I guess that made it easier.

Of course, there is more than one person who found out about it. In total, there are 4 so far... Or, should I say, 3,5...
I only talk to 2 of the 4. The other two are way out of reach, or they are not talking to ME, because I made everything feel awkward.
The two that I do actually talk to, are, of course, my best friends. One of them is already in college, working his butt off. The other, is at home, playing videogames, and working half days.
I CAN contact the when I need to...
But, that's not really like me.


I neither have much succes with the ladies. Might sound a bit... Weird, coming from a guy, but it's true.
I'm not the kind of guy who just screws around. When I have a girlfriend, I want to make it work.
But...
I'm picky. I only want the girls that know me.
I fell in love with both of the 2 I didn't talk to...
One is in my school... I can't talk to her now, the situation is awkward. The other is way out of reach. Literally.

And for the time being, I can't really see it getting easier...
I'm slowly going in to life.
~Go With The Flow~, as people say.
Numb, following others, doing what everyone else does.
If this means I'm growing up, I'd rather not.

I'm in battle. Life VS Me.
Right now, winning seems...

Impossible



Alpha And Omega