The Beauty Of The Rose.


This is a part of my life. This part is basically 2 month's length. July-August 2006, to be exact.




School's over, and of course, I leave it attracted to a girl. Of course, it has to be the girl I only talk to in school, so no contact. NEARLY no contact. All I had was her E-mail.

I came home early, from Gerrit, one of my best friends.
It was around 1 O'clock, and I walked into the PC room, and turned on the PC, for a quick peek at MSN, to see if there was anyone worth talking to. SHE was online. I double-clicked her name, and smoothly started the conversation. "Hey".
It took a while for her to respond, but eventually I got an answer. "Hi". And so the conversation started. I asked her what she was up to during summer break, and where she was going on her holiday, stuff like that. She was going to London. "When are you going?". She was leaving in 3 weeks. I asked if she had plans this week. "Yeah, I'm going to see my family".

Tough luck for me.

There was another message. "Can't we hang out next week, when I come back? I'll be here on Friday". Crap. That was the exact date I had to get packed, and prepare for my own Holiday to France. "No sorry, I'm gone for 3 weeks, starting on Friday. Maybe we can hang out when we get back?".
She agreed. For once, luck was on my side. We both came back, at the start of the same week. The last thing she asked before leaving; "Call me when you get back". That's how things started.


After one week of sitting on my butt, I went to France, where the weather was nice. The pool was nice. The people were nice. BUT, she wasn't there.


When I returned home, after 3 weeks of holiday, I wasn't sure whether she was back or not, so I waited with calling her. However, coincidence beat me to it, of course, making me look like a fool. "Why didn't you call?" - She said through MSN. Right. How to answer this. "I didn't know when you got back home, so I figured I would call you Wednesday". That WAS the plan. After about 30 minutes, we came to an agreement. We would go to Pirates of the Caribbean 2. The Friday-Night Movie. Finally, after such a long time, I got myself a date.
Or so I thought.
With all of the stupidity in me, I made her misunderstand. It wasn't a date. We went as friends, and all I got for it, aside from a nice evening, was a hug, and a kiss on the cheek. I was a bit discouraged, but it was a start.

When I spoke to her again, I asked her why she wouldn't go on a date with me. She made it pretty clear, and smashed me. "I'm lesbian". Auch. I pretty much gave up on her then, but she was still one of my best friends. She still wanted to hang out though, so I called her, and we were going to watch movies on upcoming Wednesday. I would go pick her up, since she didn't know where I lived. We would meet around 2 O'clock.



Wednesday morning.
My cell phone ringing.
12 O'clock.

I rubbed my eyes, and lifted myself up from the bed. I answered my phone. "Hello...-yawn-". "Hey! It's Cindy! I just came back from my Holiday and wondered if you wanted to hang out today?". That's Cindy. The disturbance of all. She's small. She bites. And she prefers to think of people as chairs, rather than humans. "I'm sorry, I already have plans for today. I'm going to watch a movie with Dorien". Oops. "Can I come?". Crap, I didn't count on that one. "Ehh.... I don't know, let me call Dorien first". So I did. "Sure! She can join!". I felt like bashing my head into my wardrobe. BUT, I had to call Cindy first. "You can join. I'll pick you up at school around 2 O'clock".

I got up, took a shower, put some more music on my Mp3-player, and headed out for Dorien's House.

I got there ten minutes early. "It's better to be early, than it is to be late" - I said to myself. I locked my bike, and walked to the front. She already spotted me through the kitchen window, and walked to the door. "Hey". "Hey. Should I come in for a moment, or are you ready to go?". "I'm done, let's go". We picked up the hyperactive midget at school. She was happy. As usual.

When we got back to my place, I showed them around, and got the pile of DVD's from my Bro's room. I had seen almost every single one of them. The ones I didn't see, weren't worth watching anyway. I took us about 45 minutes to pick one, and eventually, we watched 'Collateral'. Not exactly what I had in mind, but FINE, we'll watch it.
After the movie, Cindy had to go. It was around 5 O'clock already, and she had to eat early. At first, I thought this was a good thing. I could spend some time alone with Dorien, but NO. She, unfortunately, decided she would leave as well. She had to get groceries, and cook. I joined them on their way back. Cindy knew her way back at a certain point, so I joined Dorien back to her home. When we were about 500 meters from her home, my cell phone rang. "Hey dad, what's wrong?". "WHAT'S THIS PILE OF DVD'S DOING ON THE TABLE?!". Crap, I completely forgot. "I just watched one of those!". "Get back here now! You have to clear the mess you made". Since we were near her home anyway, I dropped her of there, and we separated. I raced home. Once I got home, I already made up a fitting excuse. "Cindy had to go, so I had no time to put them back". It was partially true.


The next invitation came from Nikki. We were going to go to The Hague. It's a city close to mine, where we would hang out with four people. Me, Dorien, Nikki, and Wesley.

We were going on next weeks Wednesday.
"What's with these people and Wednesday?!" - I thought.

As usual, luck turned on us. Nikki got sick, so the plans were cancelled. The rate of Contact went down to Zero after that, and the next contact was on Tuesday. We would watch movies at Wesley's on Friday, and spend the night there. I liked these plans. Everything turned out right.
Wesley's Parents were out until late at night, Nikki wasn't sick anymore, and Dorien was at home as well.

Friday evening. 6:30 PM. Raymond calls. He's a friend of my brother. "We have to go eat Shoarma!". "Not tonight, I already have plans. I'm going to watch movies with some friends". Crap. I did it again. "They can join!".
Another thought rushed through me.
"What is it with people and the undeniable will to destroy whatever plans I have?!"
I took a deep breath.
"Sorry dude, not tonight".

Around 7, I went to Dorien's house. Again. She didn't know where Wesley lived. We also had to go pick up Nikki. I had no idea where to go, but apparently, Dorien knew where she lived.
Once we got to Wesley's house, we all got comfortable. I sat Right, next to me was Dorien, followed by Nikki, and Wesley. We watched '10 Things I Hate About You', 'Phileine zegt Sorry', followed by one-and-a-half hour of 'The L-Word'. We then moved ourselves to Wesley’s room, where we watched 'The Hills have Eyes'. Even though we were in a weird position, I managed to slip my hand into hers.
I don't know why I did this.
At the end of the movie, I moved to the couch, and close to her. She didn't seem to be effected by this, as she didn't looked at me with a weird face. Actually, she didn't look at all. We started up 'Bad Boys II', and during the first 15 minutes I took a hold of her hand again. Again unknowing why. After 25 minutes, we stopped the movie. No-one seemed to care about it anyway.
We talked for a while, and then we got into our beds.
The harm was done. Nothing I could do about it.

The next morning, without ever touching alcohol, I felt drowsy. We ate breakfast together, and after half an hour, everyone went home. I joined Dorien until a crossing, where we both headed our ways. I didn't have the guts to tell her.

I did tell her. Eventually. I asked her if she had some time to save, because it was important. She wasn't shocked at all, when I told her I was in love with her. Apparently she knew.


By now, several days have past, but the feelings aren't decreasing at all. We got selected into classes today. I used to be in the same as her, well... Not anymore.


I know now.

The Beauty Of The Rose...
Is in it's thorn.







Alpha And Omega