The guy hasn't answered my message even though Facebook indicates some recent activity. I don't know, maybe he hasn't had time to read it, or maybe he just doesn't know what to say - or then he's simply not interested in building bridges. Whatever. I don't know why I should be so disappointed, or how the thought of him not wanting to know me should still sting so much. Why did I even bother?

...oh, right, because I had some convoluted idea of this bringing both of us some measure of peace. Ha. That might hold true for my case, but who am I to say spending time with me would do him any good? Ego much? Maybe I should just leave psychology to the professionals.

I have lotsa new badges, a dead brain, aching legs, sore feet and a new appreciation for cleaning crews everywhere. In need of a footrub and a good long sleep. Have an odd craving for coffee.

:D

Also, I saw a baby/toddler in a Cthulhu suit, riding on his/her dad's shoulders. It was such a freaking adorable sight that I squeed and flailed and was driven incoherent by the cute.

For my lovely Trin: a photo of Lucius Malfoy, who I saw today (and stalked in order to get this picture).

Went to shake hands with an old classmate today. I was nervous at first, but when I got the chance, it was surprisingly easy to walk up to him and get his attention. Heh. He was a bit flummoxed. I hope I can see him again and have an actual conversation. I think it might do both of us good.

Word of the Day for July 21st, 2009
sojourn
1. a temporary stay: during his sojourn in Paris.
2. to stay for a time in a place; live temporarily: to sojourn on the Riviera for two months.
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/sojourn

Word of the Day for July 20th, 2009
perfidy
1. deliberate breach of faith or trust; faithlessness; treachery: perfidy that goes unpunished.
2. an act or instance of faithlessness or treachery.
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/perfidy

I am so amused. I've decided on a name for a hypothetical female child that I might mother some day... and I still have my cherry intact, and am not likely to be making any cubs in the foreseeable future. Lollerskates. Maybe in a decade or two? :P

Another note to self: Raul Midon

Note to self: get music by this group. Husky Rescue

Word of the Day for July 9th, 2009
absolve
1. to free from guilt or blame or their consequences: The court absolved her of guilt in his death.
2. to set free or release, as from some duty, obligation, or responsibility (usually fol. by from): to be absolved from one's oath.
3. to grant pardon for.
4. Ecclesiastical.
a. to grant or pronounce remission of sins to.
b. to remit (a sin) by absolution.
c. to declare (censure, as excommunication) removed.
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/absolve

Fairy Crossing was picked as a mod's choice at Elfwood! A freaking mod's choice! :D

Companion piece to Seal Your Lips. Kinda. Because I still had to use 'paper cut'.


Close Your Eyes

Hush, my blinded prince
do not pretend to cry for me
or whatever happened in our
(barely remembered)
shared past where you
were the most beautiful face I'd ever seen and
my pulse beat wildly
under rough yet tender hands--
those days, worth everything
or nothing at all
have been locked away

In truth, that heartache
is (ancient news)
so much like a
half-forgotten paper cut or
maybe thousands of them
stinging bitterly when you least expect
it and when you think
all hurt is beyond this flesh

and if you ever dared to imagine
my hatred would
stop here where the memories lie
in so many pieces, along with
the remnants of my love
(it was like a drug for so long)
then pause and turn back to
see what you broke, what once was ours
a thing of hideous beauty that
no one should've had the power
to tear apart
except your resentment and
my foolish prayers for serenity,
no...

I will see us both
torn up and
forever erased.

Word of the Day for July 8th, 2009
conglomeration
1. the act of conglomerating; the state of being conglomerated.
2. a cohering mass; cluster.
3. a heterogeneous combination: a conglomeration of ideas.
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/conglomeration

Word of the Day for July 7th, 2009
antediluvial
Before the flood, or Deluge, in Noah's time.
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/antediluvial
See also: antediluvian

Finally, something new on the poem front! [Triola]'s prompt words: nirvana, master plan, spin, paper cut, limelight. Forgot 'paper cut', but, eh... four outta five is good enough, right? <_<
Comments plx.


Seal Your Lips

Tonight is a hushed-up affair
closed curtains, locked doors
(do not disturb)
with the two of us staring at something
beyond either's reach yet still
approaching nirvana
and if suddenly
the world should spin on its axis
faster than ever before
or come to an abrupt, jarring halt
I could not let you go

Please don't ask for the limelight
you know you don't deserve
the collision of our bodies tonight is
private, not to be sullied by
your ignorance or mine or theirs

and if I remember how I
was hell bent on
washing away any trace of you,
your scent, your touch, the essence--
of myself, perhaps
because I drowned in you, remember
such a long time ago
it cannot be of consequence
(I'm burying the memory of your skin)

So I have this master plan
lurid, really
with all its intricate details
(a little like knotwork)
for no other purpose than
to catch you
or maybe your ghost
whatever is left of you
in this darkened house
where, just once, you loved me
and my soul was yours to scar.

Brilliant. <3
http://www.latech.edu/tech/liberal-arts/geography/courses/spellchecker.htm

Word of the Day for July 6th, 2009
inception
1. beginning; start; commencement.
2. British.
a. the act of graduating or earning a university degree, usually a master's or doctor's degree, esp. at Cambridge University.
b. the graduation ceremony; commencement.
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/inception