I despise me.

George R. R. Martin is not your bitch.
http://scifisongs.blogspot.com/2009/08/sci-fi-song-20-george-rr-martin-is-not.html

Le [Skydancer] questionnaire.

1. Optimist or Pessimist, is the glass nearly empty or half full of a nice wine or mead?
I can be very cynical, but I suppose I'm an optimist at heart. Mead, please.

2. Grass or concrete, do you prefer the natural world or the urban one?
I love nature, but I just don't see myself living in a rural area. Still, I'll take both.

3. Fashion madness or skin cult? Do you spend money like crazy on the latest fashions and clothes or are you more comfortable in your own skin and clothes are just something you wear when you need to?
Does it really have to be one or the other? No, I certainly do not run after fashion. I wear what I want when I want to wear it. Sometimes that happens to be as little as possible.

4. Fantasy or common reality? Are you more immersed in your own, or others fantasy worlds to the point that they color your life choices and actions or are you caught up in the shared illusion of the "real world" with all its mania of jobs, family, wars and the media?
Real life is real, no matter how much I whine about it. It's only wise to be aware of the goings-on in the world. However, I greatly enjoy daydreams. That is to say: both.

5. Spiritual, Religious, Agnostic, Alternative, None of the above.
I suppose I am mostly agnostic, although spiritual matters fascinate me.

6. Creative madness or fan girl/boy? That is to say, artist/performer or fan/follower?
Both, please. And I am certainly not ashamed to say it.

7. Spicy or homestyle? You like your life and foods hot and spicy or prefer the comfort of homemade meals and sincere cuddles.
Trin's answer suits me, so: Homestyle, with the occasional spicy element.

8. Hopeless romantic or pragmatic partner?
A mixture, perhaps?

9. Animal companions or beer and sports casts?
Beer, ew. Sports are only interesting when you play yourself or you're cheering for a friend. Give me a kitten any day and watch me die of allergies.

10. A hike in the forest or a night out at the club?
Depends on my mood.

11. Polygamy, Monogamy, Open, Exclusive, Shared, Alternative, Traditional?
Isn't this question at least partly redundant? Anyway... I can understand and support polyamory, but I'm not yet sure about myself. Right now my answer would be 'single' or 'friends with benefits'.

12. Silk Sheets or Comfy Quilts?
On any ordinary day, comfy quilts. But I'm certainly not opposed to the luxury of silk sheets.

13. Wood and Candles or Metals and Glass?
Again, I keep Trin's answer: Both have their uses... depends on what for.

14. The touch of sun through the clouds or the drama of the storm?
If there have to be clouds, I'll take the storm. Unless this is some convoluted psychological question, in which case I'll take the sunrays.

15. Sweets or Sours?
Both, although I think sweets would weigh more on the scale.

16. A chance to meet a friend you know from online or a chance to meet a celebrity?
Psssch, silly question. Online friend!

17. Lord of the Rings or the Last Unicorn, The Labyrinth or The Dark Crystal?
Um. Let me get back to you on this.

18. Muppets or Anime?
I've never cared much for Muppets.

19. Paint, Ink, Pencils or Photoshop, tablet and Painter?
Water colours.

20. In front of the Lens or behind the Camera?
More behind, but I don't mind being in front, either.

21. You have one thing you may do that will be the pinnacle of your life. It is?
That remains to be seen.

I find myself wanting to write a webcomic script. But to do that, I would need someone to do the artses. So... Trin? Vorkje? Jitter? Emu? Someone?

The guy hasn't answered my message even though Facebook indicates some recent activity. I don't know, maybe he hasn't had time to read it, or maybe he just doesn't know what to say - or then he's simply not interested in building bridges. Whatever. I don't know why I should be so disappointed, or how the thought of him not wanting to know me should still sting so much. Why did I even bother?

...oh, right, because I had some convoluted idea of this bringing both of us some measure of peace. Ha. That might hold true for my case, but who am I to say spending time with me would do him any good? Ego much? Maybe I should just leave psychology to the professionals.

I have lotsa new badges, a dead brain, aching legs, sore feet and a new appreciation for cleaning crews everywhere. In need of a footrub and a good long sleep. Have an odd craving for coffee.

:D

Also, I saw a baby/toddler in a Cthulhu suit, riding on his/her dad's shoulders. It was such a freaking adorable sight that I squeed and flailed and was driven incoherent by the cute.

For my lovely Trin: a photo of Lucius Malfoy, who I saw today (and stalked in order to get this picture).

Went to shake hands with an old classmate today. I was nervous at first, but when I got the chance, it was surprisingly easy to walk up to him and get his attention. Heh. He was a bit flummoxed. I hope I can see him again and have an actual conversation. I think it might do both of us good.

Word of the Day for July 21st, 2009
sojourn
1. a temporary stay: during his sojourn in Paris.
2. to stay for a time in a place; live temporarily: to sojourn on the Riviera for two months.
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/sojourn

Word of the Day for July 20th, 2009
perfidy
1. deliberate breach of faith or trust; faithlessness; treachery: perfidy that goes unpunished.
2. an act or instance of faithlessness or treachery.
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/perfidy

I am so amused. I've decided on a name for a hypothetical female child that I might mother some day... and I still have my cherry intact, and am not likely to be making any cubs in the foreseeable future. Lollerskates. Maybe in a decade or two? :P

Another note to self: Raul Midon

Note to self: get music by this group. Husky Rescue

Word of the Day for July 9th, 2009
absolve
1. to free from guilt or blame or their consequences: The court absolved her of guilt in his death.
2. to set free or release, as from some duty, obligation, or responsibility (usually fol. by from): to be absolved from one's oath.
3. to grant pardon for.
4. Ecclesiastical.
a. to grant or pronounce remission of sins to.
b. to remit (a sin) by absolution.
c. to declare (censure, as excommunication) removed.
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/absolve

Fairy Crossing was picked as a mod's choice at Elfwood! A freaking mod's choice! :D

Companion piece to Seal Your Lips. Kinda. Because I still had to use 'paper cut'.


Close Your Eyes

Hush, my blinded prince
do not pretend to cry for me
or whatever happened in our
(barely remembered)
shared past where you
were the most beautiful face I'd ever seen and
my pulse beat wildly
under rough yet tender hands--
those days, worth everything
or nothing at all
have been locked away

In truth, that heartache
is (ancient news)
so much like a
half-forgotten paper cut or
maybe thousands of them
stinging bitterly when you least expect
it and when you think
all hurt is beyond this flesh

and if you ever dared to imagine
my hatred would
stop here where the memories lie
in so many pieces, along with
the remnants of my love
(it was like a drug for so long)
then pause and turn back to
see what you broke, what once was ours
a thing of hideous beauty that
no one should've had the power
to tear apart
except your resentment and
my foolish prayers for serenity,
no...

I will see us both
torn up and
forever erased.

Word of the Day for July 8th, 2009
conglomeration
1. the act of conglomerating; the state of being conglomerated.
2. a cohering mass; cluster.
3. a heterogeneous combination: a conglomeration of ideas.
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/conglomeration

Word of the Day for July 7th, 2009
antediluvial
Before the flood, or Deluge, in Noah's time.
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/antediluvial
See also: antediluvian