ay matie, i got a cell phone that i'm using till i get mine back the number is 419-852-4148 even though no reads these, but yea call me and if i don't reckonize the number then i'll assuming it's someone from here just make sure ya let me know who ya bloody are at the begining, but i'm off yo ho

Ever just have one of those nights that you wish that you could just stop time and completely up and leave what's going on and go find something that isn't as bad as the time at the moment is?

Heres something for everyone to attempt to figure out because i can't, for some odd reason i can't sleep, every time i get to sleep about 10 or 15 minutes later i end up getting hurt and end up waking up...and no one is doing to me, so far i figured i'm doing it in my sleep, but i'm not getting why or what's with the injuries....so far i've got a sore chest, messed up knee, a messed up elbow, and i just added a busted up fist and a new scar on my head from my desk about a half hour ago....so if you can honestly figure out what's wrong then let me know before it ends up getting worse

I guess the word friend only means that they are someone to treat like shit until you're b/f or g/f are gone then they come feed on you like a damn virus... well it stops here i want NO friends, i don't want a thing from anyone ever....so fuck off for good

"Rooftops"

When our time is up
When our lives our done
Will we say we've had our fun

Will we make a mark this time
Will we always say we tried

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody Scream your

All the love i've made
I have no regrets
If at all it's now i'm sad
Will we make a mark this time
will we always say we tried

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody Scream your

Standing on the rooftops
(Wait until the bombs drop)
This is all we got now
(Scream until your heart stops)
Never gonna regret
(Watching every sunset)
We'll Listen to your heartbeat
(All the love that we found)

Scream your heart out [x42]

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out
This is all we got now
Everybody Scream your..

I lost a good friend this week because of some oddly fucked up shit, but all i know is that we had 3 years together and yet it ended in the matter of 3 days... but my biggest thing is i never could openly admit it but i was truely in love with her, in the past three days i've cried 3 times walking around town, fell asleep on an photo albium that she did for me with the page being on an old card she made for me, but tonight was what killed me, we went to the fountain and sat around, i wanted to tell her that i honestly loved her and that even though i know better i wish i still had a chance to be with her. and the fact that i didn't want to let her go for anything.....then she finally dropped me off, the first thing i do is i go out back to the river curl up and cry for almost an hour and then pretty much force myself to come into the house. then i sat and cried my eyes out even more in front of my own mother which hasn't been done since i was a little kid and pretty much have been stomping on my own heart since then because this whole thing is my damn fault!!!

God i'm trying really hard not to kill someone's mother, she treats her kids like they are her own personal servants, she has guys rotating in and out like a stop light changes, The fact that she makes promises to get shit and then will turn around and bold face lie about the fact that she said it....mix this with the fact that my stupidity fucked me over again with mayfair and plus other past events i'm to the point of just killing something or someone(most likely someone) god this is pathetic I can't get out of this hell hole, and i can't save my friend's from it either so why do i even bother trying anymore

I need help, i mean something is seriously fucked up with me, i can't sleep at night because im afraid of something that's not even there, i can't stand being around myself, i mean i know deep down im gay and yet i hate myself for it and for the fact that i let it get to me that im different, I hate the fact that i'm almost deadly afraid to try anything knew, mayfair is here for the next to weeks and i chickened out of actually helping because i was afraid to make a pathetic ass out of myself, i constantly fight with everyone i talk to anymore if it is a conversation that last more then about 2 minutes, i'm constantly sick, i never eat, i've had enough suicide thoughts in the past week to give everyone on my friend's list at least 2, what i'd really love to do is make an outfit for another rens fair that happens around here but i don't have any ideas or any way of doing it, not to mention the fact that i would like to get my head cleared of all this damn suicide shit

stole this from [Angelic nightmares] and figured i'd put it here because it's the truth

time for another rant -watches as everyone runs away and then shrugs- well i was roaming the free and wild pastures of ET's random houses and i came across alot of profiles that like the second or third thing said i was this religion, and i was that religion.........here is a few things of advice, this is a bloody fantasy based site, along with art, and blah blah blah....no one cares about ya religion in this place honestly i'm glad ya have a religion and ya follow your version of their rules but keep it to yourself.....also if ya to bloody lazy to post anything but a few spit throws of random b/s in your page what makes ya think someone would want to chat with ya?
-listens to the crickets slowly fade as they run away- they always run v_v'

alrighty this week is going to be hell since prom is friday night and im not bloody going so if ya wonder why i seem off it's because im seriously messed up at the moment but i'll be fine when the week goes by, and read my thing below this people and comment

all my problems enjoy, someone pissed me off so i told them because they wanted to know so like i said enjoy

something im going to put as far as what i believe and i honestly don't care if you agree or not about it, my biggest thing with humanity today are the ones that talk about how they are nothing, to be nothing would be a person that believes in something even if it is a corrupt something it's still makes them a hell of a lot more important then anyone that says that they are something and yet don't do a freaking thing in the lines of what they believe, granted the fact that what im about to say might be off but in a way it's reality and it's a small amount of something but even the half cocked groups through out history that has tortured the hell out of people even are worth more then the people that went through the hell and try to use it as an excuse to get a certain thing or get someone to feel sorry for them, if ya can't tell i am pissed as hell from the fact that im tired of people making claims of being non worthy or nothing when they are worth more then the slime that don't act on what they believe it's why i've never once got pissed at a basher that tried using the bible for an excuse because it's what they believe as to be true,

you think you can trust people with some stuff or at least hope they'd be mature enough to know better, god i swear how many times does it take to ask someone to stop doing something before they do it..example.. someone decided that they would randomly start making out with their b/f right in front of me not once, nor twice, but they have done it for three times and she knows that i can't handle seeing it, and the fact that it makes me sick...to go along that i've been in a depressive state to go along with it so yeah i've tried cutting my wrist with any random object that i'd think had a sharp point to it but so far no go but that'll change......she knows that it's got me fucked up and the fact that im actually grabbing knives the very thing i was petriefed of and trying to sneak them away....but do you think she'd care that her best friend is doing this, HELL no she tries lieing through her damn teeth about how she'll stop and how she really cares.... *News Flash* ya don't lay on someone's legs and make out with your b/f and pretty much force them to watch it the entire fucking thing and then try to claim that you care about them.

don't know if these will work but a sweethearted friend of mine sent them to cheer me up and i thank them for it

if anyone ask about my mood you'll either get a none of your business or nothing important depending on the person

this was writen by [Diiwica] and i think i have the ending for her but i want to know what people think about it:


They were in love, deep true hearted love. The two were never happier, with a baby on the way. Nothing could be more perfect, other than the fact that people would constantly try to get involved with them day in and day out. Constantly telling them that, thy were doing the wrong thing and that they were to young to know what TRUE love was. That is were they were wrong, their age didn’t matter. They did indeed love one another, as well as their unborn child.
The loved one another more than anything in the world, nothing could tear them apart, or so they thought. She lost the child. The stress got to her, the fears ate away ate her day in and day out. Making her toss and turn in her sleep, making her jumpy as she walked down the street, the hallways. Everything became far too much for her, and in the tossing and turning of her deep slumber, she fell off of her bed. Pulling to block the fall only seconds to late. Landing on my stomach and abdomen losing the child.
Nothing was ever the same between them. Things got harder, they both became depressed. Things all around got rough. But they still tried and still loved one another with all their hearts. Both holding hopes that one day things would get better and they would have the chance to have a child again.
He in the mean time planed something most wonderful and tear jerking plan. The plan was a sure fire way to get her happy again. A way to ease the pain and make things better again. HE wanted to Propose to her. Not just any were but at Disney’s Cinderella’s castle. Before he did that he wanted to know if she meant it. He pushed her away to another guy. She came back to him. He pushed her away again. She came back to his side shortly after, again. Each time she came back to him. But things started to fall apart. They slipped and slipped. Until their love became nothing but a friendship.
She fell for another. But she said nothing to that person. He knew, and yet again did something that drove knives through a both of them alike. He told her to go to the other guy, and talked her into it until she decided that she would give it an honest good hearted try. He convinced the other guy to ask her. He did. They went together.
In return the girl felt that she owed him. More than she already owed him. She talked to he best friend that liked the guy so. She talked to him. The two started going out as well. Now she loves another and the other loves her…


Is this the end of a bad gone good and romantic, or will it end in tragedy?


Really people i do need an ending.. couldnt thing of anything. want to help?

hey im just getting sick and tired of all the hell of everything so im not going to delete anything but the pictures of myself and them im going to pretty much get off of here for good

what in the hell is wrong with me lately, i keep forgetting important stuff like dates and stuff im supposed to do and i lose everything and i've been getting horrible migrains to the point of wanting to black out just to get rid of it and it's just driving me nuts i mean i black out and end up getting into a fight with my brother like im a puppet with the whole knowing whats going on but not controling the body kind of thing, which is why i've got to go to court in a week from wednesday and i don't remember half the stuff that happened at night and im going to end up getting screwed becuz of the court system.....it's bull shit when all this shit is happening to you and when you are the police station and you tell one of the dumbass cops that you want to talk to a lawyer but will cooreport none the less and all the cop does is stare at you like you insane and this was all in about 5 minutes time period(no offense to kiersty's dad because he's a cool guy) but i just don't need a court date to go along with the migrains and the rest of my freaking problems

nice to know the guards are not worth a pile of shit in the middle of a swamp...someone causes trouble and tries to get shit started and they ignore your complaint about it, and then you try to be cival and talk to them and yet they still ignore you.....I say it's about time we get some damn guards that are worth having on here instead of the ass kissers that are on here now