hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



ASK ME!!!!!!!!!!

lol................

my best friends are:ellen christin,sandra og han david!!!love yah!!!!


  HMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!
 


Roses are dead
violets are too
I`m stin inlove
but not whit you
you thought you hurt me
and made me cry
but I was inlove
whit another guy
simply because you have
no class
alll you can do
is kiss my ass
you sit around
and talk shit
so fuck you and your
little ass dick
you thought you left me
but i left you
what my man is doing
you can`t do
you tell your homies
you playd me like a bitch
and i tell my girls
that you have a little dick
you said you loved me
but it wasent true
well guess what MOTHA FUCKA
I played you too!!!!!!!!!!


In the dark,in my pain.
I cry with myself and hope to die!
The voice the voice of death.
Allure me.to the unknown.
To eternal life in pain.
In the dark light.
I see those demons on my path.
I bleed to death.
In the sky,it`s only dark.
I long to come.
The voice.he voice of death.
Allure me.to the unknown.
To eternal life in pain.
When the blood runs,my lifes
fades away.
I cry my unseen tears,in the dark.
I see those demons,take my soul away.
I hate you so my der friend.
My love for you has come for an end.
The more I cry the more you seem to laugh.
yet in the darkness you where my light.
You pot more pain on my bleeding soul.
And I hope you will fall!!!!!!






      Vest d e nån som bor i vesterålen
     her,så ta kontakt fort..........
    Vest d e nån ifra Bø så ta kontakt
     vældig fort..
    Og vest du veit kæm æ e        
    så reng mæ en dag!!!!!
    Men nr mett må du skaff på      
         egenhånd....


          I
         LOVE
         YOU!!
       
     KJÆMPE KOZEKLMZ FRA MÆ=)




noen ganger så tenker jeg på
om du tenker på at jeg tenker på deg
mens jeg faktisk tenker tenker på deg og
håper at du tenker på meg..
tenk på det du!!!!





make new friends and keep the old,
the new is silver and the old is gold.
a ring is round and has no end,
an that`s how long I will be your friend!!!




hvor
mange
prosent
sjangse
har
jeg
på
deg?

0-10%i=ngen
11-20%=vetke
21-30%=venner
31-40%=kline
41-50%=pule
51-75%=flørt
76-96%=kjæreste
96-100%=gift
svar i %!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i himmelen finnes det engeler..
på jorden finnes det ei!
her finnes det bare sjarmtroll
og et av dem er deg!!!!

da gud skapte deg brukte han alle de vakreste
egenskapene et menneske kan ha...
du er unik vennen=)

CARPE DIEM!!!!

himmelen,solen,latter&gråt....
vi er alle i samme båt..
venner& venner&venner min venn..
du lever i dag og alle igjen..
du er deg selv,glem ikke det & hver er sin egen lykkesmed......
gjør som du vi,l ikke som andre..
livet er vakkert,bruk det i dag.
skrik ut din glede,må du så klag.
kjenn på din lykke,glem disiplin...
Carpe diem..............
dagen er din!!!!





A guy sticks his location
in a girl destinastion to
increase population for
the next generation do you
get my explanation or do you need a
demistration????????????



æ ligg våken om natta og tenke
WOW,du e så heit,utrolig,smart,sexy,nydelig
og pulbar..
hm når skal vi ta det??????
¨


en god venn er alltid der for deg.
en god venn kan du alltid stole på.
en god venn er fargeblind og er
der for deg når alt virker mørkt å svart.
en god venn er hva jeg vil være for deg..
klmz!!!!!!!!!!!!!




kjærligheten har ingen vilje....
den faller like gjerne på en kort
som på en lilje!

hvis du må elske meg,så la det ikke
være for noe annet enn
kjærlighetens skyld!!

kjærligheten er sin egen belønning.









(01) I have a mom and her name is anita
(02) I have a dad and his name is atle.
(03) I have a brother and his name is per ivar.....
(04)I have a sister and her name is mari jeanette but we call her just jeanette..
that is my family.
(05) my sister have a boyfriend and his name is daniel they have a baby togheter and his name is mikael andre and i love them all!!!!
(06)do I drink???=hell yeahhh
(07)do I smoke???=only when I`am drinking..
(08)do I do drugs??= hell no....
(09)do I have a boyfriend???=ask me if you wanna know!!okey??
(10)do I like music??=yes I love music!!
(11) do I like boys??=hell yeah=)
(12)do I like school???=I hat it!!!
(13)have I ever been to a party??=yes,many times before!!!
(14)hwat is my favorit band???=nightwis,fremmed rase,buksevann,metallica,linkin park,the prodigry,and a son that has a name like this:Ain`t no party like an alcaholic party!!
do you know who sings this song????
if you know pleas send the name to me!!!

(15)doI live at home???= yesI do!!!!
(16) do I have friends???= yes I have.
(17)and that was all I have of info.
if you want nore then you will have to send me message!!!i`am logged on almost every day,I promiss=)
lol from me.........



(18)what music do I lissen to????=
pop,rock,contry,well I lissen to all music..
but I dont lissen to OPRA!!!!
I hate it!!
(19)what is my faviorit drink????=always coca cola=) and smirnoff.........
I just love it....
(20)Do I have a telefon???= hell yeah!!

(21)Is it just my telefon???= yes it is!!


(22)what is my favorit movies???=the ring,the grudge,the mumi;harry potte nr 1,2,3!!!!!!
(23)do I like to read???=hell yeah=)



famouse you are
but one thig is sure
I cant stop loving you.
where ever you are,
where ever you have been,
what ever you said,
I just cant stop loving you
And I hope you feel the same way too.
I just want me to hold me in your arms,and
then I will take you in my arm`s.
No I am gonna dream sweet dreams
and then you will be in them because you are the only sweet in my life and i love you so much,and I just love you and I want you in my life,i wanna be with you and nobody else...but that is never gonna happend
because you are famose and I am not!!
you lock at me like I was just a little girl but I am not ,because little girls dosent know who they love and I know!!
And I can proove it to you!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU=)
I LOVE YOU=)
I LOVE YOU=)
I LOVE YOU=)
I LOVE YOU=)


So pleas just tell me that you love me
beacause I know that you do!!!!

A dark shade, a small form
Forevermore, cursed by dorm
Not breathing nor sleeping
Untold grief, how she's weeping


Love is what her heart used to keep
Now carved by wounds, oh so deep
The tears are dropping into her hand
The pain inside, she can no longer stand


In the deepest bowels of the Abyss
She hopes to find one last kiss
Equal to the one during his final breath
When his soul was touched by cold death


She reached for the sky, so heavenly
And begged her holy god for mercy
The one god throning on his filthy seat
Responded with blasphemous deceit


As red tears flow down her pale-looking face
She cries out so hard, wishing for one last embrace
What is meant to be done, for having it her way
For what is love worth, if she is cursed to stay


Her soul shattered by infinite lies
Enforced by the cursing replies
See how the crushing pain goes on
The nightmares she carefully hides


Witness the torment so sadly
The everlasting ritual of agony
The grievous suffering inside
Ever since the moment he died



Instead of thinking
Of how I'm sinking
I think of how I will fly
Of city lights
Of different sights
Of towering heights
And starry nights
I daydream and I sigh


Not thinking of deceiving
Or why I'm leaving
I think where I will go
The feel of the air
The wind in my hair
The things people wear
The stories they share
I learn all I can know


When I feel dread
When I feel dead
I close my eyes and dream
Of places far away
Foreign words that people say
The cool of night, the warm of day
The reasons I could find to stay
My eyes open, and they gleam


When I feel like crying
When I feel like dying
I just let my mind roam
Completely free
Over the sea
To a country
To where I want to be
A place that could be home.



My ears are full of filth
and filled with disgust
You beat my drum so loud
the air vibrates filth to crust


You:
Silly men with some money, your silly
puppets with guitars, you
Silly men with your crummy silly
puppet hearts!
Silly men growing rich, while their
puppets entertain a growing size of retards
for whom the puppets play...


...Still
Corporate men still play! But
For the awestruck masses...
And puppets spoon the chorus!
Still for the awestruck masses...






Woe you who think you are dead...
Woe you my brother, who think he knows..
For you know nothing,


Lift the veil from your folly eyes my friend,
Death is not the frost on fingers,
Death is not eternal slumber,
Death is not the rotting of flesh.


Woe you who think you are alive…
Woe you my friend, who think you know
For you know nothing,


Death is the absence of life
Death is the same life day and day again,
Death is boredom and lethargy
Death is living in the cage of life with no meaning.


Death is not having your wings torn apart
But having them and not flying
But neglecting the needs of your soul


Heed my warning and live,
Dare to dare, dream of life
Death is giving up
Heed my warning and be strong


Woe myself, for I am lost
For I am weak
For I have given up
…. For I am dead.




I sit here with this broken blade
Wondering if my whole life was in vain
For everything I have worked for
It all fell away with this war
I hoped to be remembered
Now I hope to be forgotten
Why didn't anyone tell me that I was wrong
Before I killed our people's savior
Took away the one chance of freedom
The only hope for salvation
I've been condemned for what I've done
But trust me I wasn't the only one
The ones who made this young child learn to kill
The ones who broke and twisted my will
Why am I the only one left to die
Without even the sight of my own eyes
They took away everything I loved
Both the ones I trusted
And the ones I thought were in the wrong
Maybe one day I will be free
And will be able to just be me
But for now I'm just a broken soul
One with a blood stained past
A puppet that has been tossed away
Once they cut the strings




Deep in the night
I hear the wolves call
They call me to come
And to join the hunt.


I try to resist,
Yet I know where
My heart lies and
I cannot resist


They are calling:
Close your eyes
Come with me
We will race the wind
And howl at the moon


I jump to my feet
Run out the door
In the moon light
I then take flight


My blood races
Through my veins
And I wonder if I
Will ever be the same


For in the night
When the moon
Is full, I run with
The wind and cry
At the moon.


now more silence
we sit there and stare
at a prince of violence
and a maiden so fair


nothing to say
no looks exchanged
no light of day
no fire or flame


where in the silence
does the peace sit
with a prince of violence
does it seem fit?


but do the words
fall upon the lips
does it seem absurd
does she trip?


what should she speak
to make him see
there it is bleak
fair maiden is me


nothing to say
to make it right
in the silence we lay
here in this night


so rain may fall
and sun may rise
but through it all
no compromise



Two hearts, each love,
Both loved in return.
One mind, two hearts
All in one body.
How do I deal,
How will I feel,
When the world comes crashing down.
I pray to God,
Screaming and hoping
That I'll be healed
But my heart's still torn
And now it seems
My heart's fate is sealed
In a perpetual torture.


I dream at night,
When I think I'm safe,
But even sweet dreams can't repair
What's already been torn.
I see myself on a block,
An axe raised over my head.
Maybe without a mind,
Two will become one
And in death, I will finally be healed.


Color of Rust

Rough as sand,
Red as fire,
Brown as earth,
I have become Rust,


Covered by dust,
Hiding the runes.
Of the blade,
Of my soul,


Re-forge me in coal,
Underneath you'll find,
The real me,
Clean and new,


Glistening like dew,
Please uncover me,
Restore me, reforge me,
Bring me back,


Complete all I lack,
Smooth the imperfections
And renew me,
Back to the way I use to


Hold onto the gold at the end of the road
Before someone can steal it a second ago.
I would look if I'd see it but no one can know
How I feel, for they'd hold back and something would change.
Some small, insignificant detail would shift in the depth of the world,
But it'd all seem the same
When it isn't.
A false look, a blink of an eye and its gone
Did I see it, or could I be wrong?
We've done this before, in so many ways,
But I'm tired
And I just wish that something could change
With the people I meet
Still the scenes just repeat themselves.
Over and over I face my defeat!
I want to be something, to someone, somewhere.
All the same, sometimes I'd just like someone to care
The same way I do.
When maybe you were the one--wrong place, wrong time--
Now I wish you were mine again.
I'd never hurt you without hurting me
Because something inside of me feels what you feel.
Like a one way connexion
A bridge to your mind
Through your actions and anything not quite in-line.
It could be I know you the more time goes by
And the closer and farther we drift, side by side,
As friends just forever,
Blessed and cursed all in one.
And I never accepting your "certain" refund--
Nor denying it, either--
For my unrequited love.


Let me be the one to comfort you...



Conquer

Fear to fear, to suffocate;
To never live, to live too late.
To die from fear, to care not here,
to glare as hell forbids you.


Die to die, to be reborn;
to live too much, and live to mourn.
To fear to die, thou shall not cry,
one must try as fate forbids you.


Live to live, to fly away;
to only dream, to never stay.
To die from thought, your feelings rot,
you think a lot as reality forbids you.


Dream to dream, to live a lie;
to never know, to live to cry.
To never feel, to know what's real,
to kneel before those that forbid you.


Know to know, to understand;
to shout it out, to reprimand.
To tell them all, you'll never fall,
to crawl as hate forbids you.


End to end, complete it all;
to win forever, standing tall.
To end it now, no matter how,
You've conquered all, conquered all.







Wrong

Nothing seems right,
I don't know what's real.
I'm so confused,
you don't know how I feel


There's something wrong here,
don't you see?
This is what you've
done to me.


You can't understand
because you don't even care.
How could I expect
life to be fair?


It has to end,
I don't care how,
because it can't go on,
It's over now...




With our hands clasped tight
Our gazed fixed on the star filled sky
Not saying a word…
Never needing anything more…


With our lips softly touched
Our bodies beneath a starry sky
Just a smile…
Never needing anything more…


And underneath this familiar sky
We've found eternity at last
No words can express everything inside
Yet we never really needed anything more…


With our hearts beating as one
Locked in each other's warm embrace


Never a word…
Just knowing this time is the one…


And we've finally made it here
To our one true forever…
And nothing can convey the feelings that we share…
Yet we never really needed anything more…








Moth

I know, I knew, but still I flew
into the blazing light in view
A moth, I am, to pain I flew
Head on, blindly, to my death I knew


Again again, was burnt am I
But still a moth I surely am
to death, to death, O'I rejoiced
Be burnt to ashes, tears in joy


In pain, in pain, a pain I sought
In joy, in joy, a pain enjoyed
Your eyes, your face, my fading sight
Soon a moth be gone into the endless night.





My heart no longer beats,
It only listens to the sound,
The sound of your voice
Coming through the tears
And the never-ending pain,
Pain the rips me apart,
From the inside out.
All the times we loved
Have left me,
Left me here to cry.
I think of us,
Both happy and sad,
When we smiled,
And when we cried.
Today is day,
That is niether happy,
Nor sad.
I wish you were here,
Here to help me,
Help me with the hurt,
Hurt that has never left,
Since you left,
Since you left me.
Come back here,
Here to me,
To take away the pain,
My heart no longer beats,
It only listens















Standing next to you, next to me
Is like a dream come true.
Being near you when you are near me
Keeps me from feeling blue.


Sleeping next to you, next to me
Keeps me from wanting to cry,
And holding you when you're holding me
Reminds me that I am alive.


Claiming you while you're claiming me
Let's me know that we'll never let go.
Having me next to you, next to me
Reminds me of the love we both know.








An empty vessel is I, here without a soul
Filling a role that I have yet no idea to
Sadness and unkempt feeling roams my heart
Tearing shreds of fate to bits and pieces
My once forlorn feelings driven mad and gone
Crying tears mask my guilt-ridden face
Crushing open a capsized hole in my heart
Have I betrayed myself to precious feelings?
Or succumbed to those of my foes
Have I let my self be traitor?
If so, would I turn and cut the throat of friend and for alike
Alas, I cry not, tempted to try my luck
Even from the hesitation of my steps upon the throws
Temptation lies no near in my soul
For I have no soul as to speak of
I have the devilish horrors of life
Marred into my existence, reminding me
Night after night Day after day
The treat of hate, brought onto my soul
Tempting me nearer to the brink of inhumanity at its worst
If I wished for someone to come and bring me from my prison
I wonder if anyone ever would
Or if all I would encounter is my head
A fit of despair would attack me then
Ending my existence, right there and then
Allowing me perhaps to find my peace


Alone in this world forever to be








All At One Hell Of A Cost

Too long the pain and hate went on,
So much was lost so many were wrong.
Times were hard and getting worse,
Life then seemed so far from mirth.
Days were cruel and night was torture,
Seizing its victims, murders and slaughter.
Blood was shed and hope was lost,
All at one hell of a cost.


Enemies grew and outnumbered truth,
Nearly all seemed lost, gone like youth.
But the war had only just begun,
There were still so many more to be hung.
Death now was a sweet retreat,
As gods and glory they thought would meet.
The hate grew strong and many were lost,
All At one hell of a cost.


Time was taking its toll on love,
It all fell apart the once unbreakable trust.
But as experience slowly entered the realm,
A few of the strong ones, built up helms.
Again the battle went on and on,
Many still fighting but so many more gone.
Once a love, made above, now shattered and lost,
All at one hell of a cost.










Can't you stop this,
God I wonder sometimes,
where your coming from,
who's side your on,
where you stand,
if you stand,
confusing isn't it
the idea of dreams;
something to get you through life
then you ask:
'dreams? ha who needs them?'
and then you'll say:
"Jesus I wish I had something to hold on to.'
you and your dream destruction, your love annihilation.
so trust is something you fear,
man I could bring you down with that.
But I am afraid as well
and I'm not into hypocrisy
I'll bring to you verbal slander,
but I'll not mean it.
the truth is...I care
Do you? can you look past your dream destruction,
your love annihilation, your enigmatic superiority?
can you find it in you to
notice the simple hidden beauties of life?





















Wings Wings Wings
Fly me away
Fly me away to a place
To a place were I can be loved
To a place were I can be worshiped
For as you keep me staying on this ground
I shall be hated
And I shall be tortured
For I am not loved on this planet.
Wings
Please take me away from this planet
From this earth,
From this place and people
And this place that is like hell
I wish not to be here anymore,
But these wings shall never work
They shall never let me fly away
I shall never fly
For these wings are broken
Broken in half
They are broken like a twig
I have tried everything to fix them
But they shall never be fixed
So as of for now
I have to stay on this awful place
I shall live in pain forever and die.









Finally Feeling It

She's screaming again
The obscenities flow like blood gushing from a wound
He's cut her again


I am suspended by the beige leather of the car seat
As she turns on the engine with a quick flick of her wrist
The clock reads two-eighteen a.m. and
It has taken all this time to see
We never wanted this to be here in the first place


He couldn't even say hi. I hate him. I hate him so much.
Her words are mangled pieces of love
And she feels like
One of those girls now
Waiting by the phone
Darkened eyes from the silence


Sitting on the gravel driveway of her desire
She's playing with regret
For the effect of his eyes
Devouring her invisible shell form the outside in
Eating away the vulnerability until she's naked and hungry
that's how he crawled in


Now her words drip with rage
And fall on me
I know this storm won't last for long
Because love is never silent
And the phone will ring again.








Final Moments

The end of the world looms near
No one seems to know
Just me
Though I'm all alone


Every moment flies by
One less breath
One less step
Death comes closer


It matters not
This world left me alone
To weep bitter tears
Fearing the end in solitude


The world will die
And so will I
Though it means nothing
For I am all alone


A burst of light
Then he appears
The person who haunts my dreams
Forever I've yearned to meet


I grasp his hand
Enveloped by light
I watch the world slip away
I am alone no more











Trusting Love of a Unicorn

He stood there under the moonbeams, glowing in the silver-blue shroud
Paying no attention to the rising mist, coming up to him.


Dreaming about places far, far away
Knowing he can never go back, to the place he had once been.


His dear human friend, who taught him to trust
Was lost to him four years past,never knowing when she would be back.


She was not of his world, coming lost and alone
Hurting and afraid of animals here, until he found her there.


He had healed her then, gaining her never ending trust
Reaching into her past, discovering whence she come.


He had to help her back, knowing time would be lost
Trusting she would come back to him,
And learning that trust can be turned into love.


He stands there still, waiting for her to come
Wandering his world, looking for his long lost love.


He heard a voice calling to him, a voice that was long missed
He found her there, sitting apon a log in the thin mist.


Feeling her hands in his long silver mane, joy went through him
Knowing she was back, and would stay with him.







Soldier of the Forest

Wheat colored strands flowing soundlessly
Dancing in the night to a melody
One that stirs the forest
Bringing creatures to life


His stance casual to his observer
Leaning against a tree in a clearing
Far from impervious to attack
Yet lacking tension as he waits


The man stepped into the firelight
Skirting the flames with shadows
Created by his heavy clothes with hood drawn
But elvish eyes pierced straight through


The stranger lifted back his cloak
Drawing a longsword with one mighty pull
Sending the echo of metal scraping metal up
Rising above the trees


The sword was a blur as it was brought around
Slashing through the air in a deadly arc
With undisputed speed it flew
Straight for the elf's shoulder


His double -sided blade halted the sword with amazing speed


With a push of his ankle the elf jumped
Landing with intent directly behind the mortal
And brought his knife around with finality


The unerring accuracy made it end before it had begun
Silence cloaked the clearing as the elf resumed his place
The wind carried a haunting lament through the wood
The elf stood ready, for this was just the b first.





Twilight

The moon has friends among the stars
while it looks down on our planet
they sit up there as if behind bars
wanting to talk, but they cannot


So she stays in the sky and talks to her friends
talks of beginnings and sometimes the end


When she thinks of destruction,
a tear falls from one eye
then one becomes two
as they fall from the sky


On Earth it is raining,
making puddles on the ground
wetting,
soaking,
replenishing.


A child runs into the street,
laughing and jumping, wetting her feet.


The moon isn't crying, for the sadness has passed,
below her humans dance, laughing and singing,
and she becomes sad once more,
knowing it won't last.


But once more she is cheered by one persons kindness,
who looked out of the shadows, through former blindness.


Things seem okay now, for she has done well,
shes removed one person, from their living hell.


The man looks up, from down in the street,
and thanks this kind stranger,


one he'll never meet.


But he's knows she has saved him,
knows what she did,
he remembers a happiness he felt as a kid.


My story is over,
the ballad complete,
the moon is bowing
now taking her seat.












































She stood on top
of her lonely rock,
and gazed upon her world.
She smiled slightly
and didn't take lightly
to those who got in her way.
She plotted and planed
her life away,
and never accomplished a thing.
Except for being able
to stand on a rock,
and scream
"I am untouchable








Drown

Growing roots towards the core,
Halt the coming of green spirits of life,
Blooming flowers return to closed fists,
Bring them death.


Cause the sky to weep thousands of tears,
Rain to help the fists release their grip.


No,
Drown them.


Rain, bring them death.


A stone sky is gorgeous, mistifying.
Wash the rancid odor of green away,
Green that does not belong.


Yes,
Drown them.


Naked trees, rough and demented.
Ancient things look lovely dead,
Leave them barren and cold.


Yes,
Drown them.


To the shoulders, it rises,
Muddy, murky, blood filled,
Breathe water.


No,
Drown me.










Past, Present, Future

My body lies broken,
You whispered in my ear.
My blood is forsaken,
You gave me everything dear.
My tears burn my eyes,
You're not around.


My soul wants to cry,


Your love shared common ground.


I can't believe it,
As I sit in the streets.
Your love's no longer writ,
In stone three foot deep.
My breath is shaken,
You left me alone.
My body no more a vixen,
You felt that you've grown.
I've waited for you,
But now I've moved on.
When your thoughts return to me few,
I'll be long gone.







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You tell me what to think,
what to be.
You tell when to listen,
when to breathe.
You tell me to go study,


you tell me to relax.
You tell me when to lie,
you tell me when to hide.
Go ahead and tell me when to die.
You tell me I am simple,
you tell me I'm complex.
You tell me that I'm sorry,
you tell be that I have regrets.
You tell me I'm a failure,
you tell me I am a reject.
You tell me how to feel,
you tell me how to deal with my anger.
You treat me like a daughter,
you treat me like a stranger.
I am drowning in your support






Loch air Cuimhne
(Lake of Memory)

The lake where we had always gone to swim
Had frozen over; solid in a flash.
The park was cold, but it was not so grim
That we could not enjoy it all day long.


The children went about their snowy wars;
Left casualties to shed their tears of ice.
Such games were played and left for out of doors;
Forsaken when inside, the game denounced.


The youthful couples skating hand in hand
Upon the frigid pond, a scene so fine
That it brought back a memory so grand
To older couples reminiscing there.


All those who'd lost their loved ones stopped to cry,
Yet were content with all that they had shared.
Removing gloves to try to dry their eyes,
Those few continued on, the thought elapsed.


The whole town celebrated the event
They knew the year was coming to an end,
And all of the festivities that meant.
The winter never knew such revelry










Of Time and Tears...

Tears could have been tattooed to my cheeks
The nights I've spent by looking at my window
Counting cars to pass at down street
Waiting for morning to pretend to wake up
Smile to people and die piece by piece inside
I really tried to search for my lines


My guardian angel seems tired
No better company could be hired
One day I'll buy a rose or two
And send them to random people
Maybe take a walk and watch leaves to fall
How did my stairs grow so tall


Now angels fall dead
I know it's my time for eternal bed
Someone turned the clock forward so many decades
I think I'm not yet ready to close my eyes
I look in the sky and count the clouds
They remind me about what I never did
People around me to whom I never said "hi"


For the ones who did remember me... kiitos







To The River

Behold the peaceful waters by,
As ephemeral as the hour.
Bringing bygone memory nigh
As it follows life's meandering course.
Through the glass I see my source -
A source that shall devour.


Tearstained is the silky stream,
The looking-glass mirrored o'er.
In the reflection a feared face screams.
Crystal ripplets blue as sky
In which reflections I may spy
Yield haunting wail from times of yore.


My frosty river beneath bridge sweeps,
An emblem of youth's beauty lost.


Mother Nature weakly weeps
For that which is gone forever.
Summer sun will return never,
The fringes laced with frost.











Dreamer Dreamer

Dreamer, dreamer, where are you?
Your mind amongst the clouds.
Can't you ever face the truth;
Can you ever abandon your shroud?


Dreamer, dreamer, why do you dream?
Don't you know it will never come true?
You dream of such impossible things
That no human could dare to do.


Dreamer, dreamer, will you wake up
And face painful reality?
Haven't you had quite enough
Of looking for things you can't see?


Dreamer, dreamer, dreaming more,
Living always in fantasies.
Never dare to dream again,
And with your mind appease





Have you ever been in a crowd,
but felt so alone?
Been at a funeral,
but felt like laughing?
Been at a party,
but felt like crying?


Have you every been alone,
but felt so crowded?
Been at a birth,
but felt like dieing?
Been at a death,
but felt re-born?


Sometimes, we're so confused.
Sometimes, we go along, unknowing,
and unsure.
Sometimes, the opposite is.
Sometimes, life is inside-out.





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Loneliness

I am the coldness of your heart
I am the pick of the dart
I am the screams that lie inside
I am the ghosts behind your eyes
I am the nothingnes that you feel
I am the pebble benieth the wheel
I am the shadow that lurks behind
I am the ice on your mind
I am the darkest of the dark
I am the only child not at the park
I am not the type that likes to whine
I am always at the bottom of the line
I am the one whos always sad
I am rarest of rare to see me glad
A friend is all I need and ask
To wash away this lonely past










My one true death

I found a letter from him that day,
In his hand which did decay,


To my true love I do ask,
To me you do not cry and grasp,
For I have left this mortal coil,
And soon shall be part of that soil,


I may be gone from this plane,
But in you I stay with no more pain,
For when you think of me this day,
I live within you and I stay,


In memories I cannot die,
In spirit and love I cannot cry,
But if you do I soon will weep,
For misery and life I cannot keep,


That is why I left this place,
So people cannot judge my face,
For the person within was so much more,
But they just made my heart bleed, then grow soar,


So I ask of you do not blame yourself,
For my mind fell into that of ill health,
And a happy life you must lead,
That's my dieing wish of which I plead,


Find someone else and go on without me,
Let me rest and then do leave thee,
And always know I'll be by your side,


And you in my heart do reside,


And that is what the letter said,
And I lie and cry whilst next to his head,
And my lips touch his for one last time,
For fate has delivered this heinous crime....
















Without Her

She's my little angel from above,
More beautiful than even a dove,
I love every little things she does,
And I love her just because,
Without her I wouldn't be happy,
Without her I wouldn't write this poem so sappy,
Without her I wouldn't I wouldn't be alive,
Without her I wouldn't wanna groove and jive.
Without her I wouldn't have someone I love so much,
Without her I would have no one to see and touch,
Without her I wouldn't be anyone's kitty,
Without her wouldn't no anyone so pretty.
Without her I wouldn't be able to say I love you,
Without her I wouldn't hear I love you too,
Without her I wouldn't have such a beautiful girl,
She's my everything, She's my world.
























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Death is a Vampire
Meant to be forever Well how about not
Emotions you spare While my affections rot


Never meant to be This life of living hell
But couldn't make you see Through that love fogged veil


I should have seen it first At your worship clouded eyes
But I denied my thirst And fed my self with lies


You hoped to find me real The thought would make you burn
Wanted to make a deal So that you could turn


But this isn't fantasy It's ice and fire
While I kill, you see Death is a vampire


Your fire burns out While ice remains the same
I'll always remember how Your end finally came


If death is a vampire Then eternity is pain
When I finally expire Your mistake will remain













Choices

I lost another friend today.
Just because I made a choice.
A life choice.
A choice that could only be made by me.
My choice; my life.
Maybe, someday, people won't be judged by their choices.
Maybe they will be jugded by personality instead of looks.
Witt instead of body.
Mind and soul: the deciding factors.
That will be your choice.
As this is mine.
I chose to be me.
Not a stereotypical version of the world.
Not a standardized idea of of your type.
Not your mirror immage, just me, myself, an















The Breaking Of My Heart

I would give the world to you if only you would take it
I would give my heart to you, but I know You'd break it
I would give my dreams to you, for something we could share
And I would give my mind to you, if only you could care


I would give my heart to you, to do with what you please
I would give my love to you, to drown within the seas
I would give the dawn to you, so you could save our time
And I would give the night to you, so our rhythm here could rhyme


If you would watch the world with me and take just what you pleased
If you would sing a song for me, and leave the summers breeze
If you would share your dreams for me, I'd paint them into art
But I'll never be the other girl, the one inside your heart


No one ever told me it was wrong to fall in love.
No one ever told me the stars fell from up above
No one ever told me that tears could fall this hard
And nothing ever hurt as this, the breaking of my heart.









Concealed Shadows

Within the shadows, I was told
I would find my love to cherish, to hold
To the darkness I then went
Hours of much searching then was spent
Couldn't find a single soul
And knew I'd have to pay the toll
Nothing had I to pay
I knew that I would have to stay
Blindly searching, continuing on
Maybe I was nothing but a pawn
The more I looked, the less I sought
I knew that I had been caught
The darkness was the holding trap
All the shadows its fearful wrap
Suddenly there came something bright
I screamed as I saw the light
Something came and grabbed me tight


I didn't give up without a fight
Eventually I did succumb
My burned skin began to numb
There standing before my eyes
Was my love, more beautiful than the skies
As we finally faced
We locked into a tight embrace
Promising forever love
Never would we go above
Forever closed the shadows' gates
Wonderful were the fates
Forever bliss hidden from the light of day
‘Til eternity passed away










Upon The Horses Back

Upon the horses back we ride
Until these wars will subside
And peaceful winds whisper in our ears
But for now we must face our fears.


Walking Slowly into battle
We ride proud upon the saddle
A war will soon take it's form
It is the Calming before the Storm


Trotting at a faster beat
Keeping rhythm with the horses feet
The sounding of the battle horn
Those whom are lost, we will mourn


Galloping and the war is calling
With the horses, we are falling
During the battle there is so much red
Most of us will come out dead.


Upon the horses back we ride
With no more wars we did decide
This world will be all in peace
And all war will come to cease.










In Between

I want to see what lies between
All the wonderous horrors I've seen.


Is there light behind the shadow?
Lead me on to where I shall go.


Feel the brush of phantom lips
As your mind, dreamward slips.


I dream close my face to yours
Under rain-soaked skies on closer shores.


The night flows on, the moon lit white;
My triple-goddess shining bright