Im 19 5'7 blue eyes brown hair..I write alot...when I first wrote in my personal data i sounded like a hard ass bitch but really im not only whne i need to be...but besides writing there is alot more i like to do...but I will tell you all right now...I hate racism....whether it has to do with color or religion...I mean Im not going to go and tell you that i dont like you cuz your racist against black or puerto ricans...but I dont agree with it......So also I like watching porn I dont know why but I do...but I really hate the pretend*a*plots those suck...I will update when I can figure out to think straight...Oh yeah and to muh jc crew...whats crackalakin:))...Well more off if ya dont like me well I dont care cuz i wasnt put on this earth to impress you fuckers...and its the same both ways...I dont want you to impress me cuz I dont give a shit personally....I sound like a bitch I am a bitch when I need to be other than that I think of my self as a fairly nice person and if you dont think so well thats to bad aint it.
Wicca

Waterwoman
http://www.utb.falun.se/hbo/projekt/religion/religionht98/Wicca/waterwoman.gif

I have the best friends any one could ask for...Adam, monkles, raven, peter. smudge, you guys are my world I dont know what I would do with out you...seeing your faces everyday helps me get through the long endless days at school....I love you all <3



- I tried to sniff coke once but the ice cubes got stuck up my nose!

**There were moments we laughed and cried we always stood by each others side, those many days we spent together they will stay in my heart forever**

**one day your prince charming will come...mine just took a wrong turn and is too stupid to ask for directions**

**Friends are like stars, they come and go, but the ones the ones that stay are the ones that glow**

**You know your in love when the hardest thing to say is goodbye**

*NOT ALL SCARS SHOW, NOT ALL WOUNDS HEAL, SOMETIMES YOU CANT ALWAYS SEE THE PAIN SUM1 FEELS.*


*It's true that we don't know what
we've got until it's gone, but it's also
true that we don't know what we've
been missing until it arrives*


Random Joke
3 Men were waiting to go to heaven. St Peter was at the gate and said, "However good you were to your wife that is the vehicle you will get in heaven".

The first guy comes up to the gate and says, "I never, ever cheated on my wife and i love her". So St. Peter gives him a Rolls Royce.

The next man comes up and says, "I cheated on my wife a little but I stilll love her." He gets a mustang and drives off into heaven.

The next guy came up and said, "I cheated on my wife a lot". He gets a scooter.

Next day the guy that got the scooter was riding along and he saw the guy who owned the Rolls Royce crying.

He asked, "Why are you crying you have such a nice car?!" and the man sobbed, "My wife just went by on roller skates".



"Perfect"

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect


June 1st, 2005
Okay so i just got back from the best weekend I have had in a long time and I spent it with 2 of the best friends any lucky chick could ask for...and whats great is that my mom adores them and their coming home with me for vacation...which is 29 more days weeeeeeeeeee!...Im on a caffiene high and Im about to go to lunch so I guess I will write in this thing l8er. Ciao


So lately it seems I been falling further and further into depression but I dont give a fuck I just wrap it with a biggggg smile:|


So now I am starting to feel once again a nuisance to my friends...why is it that I feel that way...I dont know maybe cause I sense seperation maybe Im seperating myself?? I dont know maybe I should...Im getting wahhhhh again just like back a few months ago...I analyze everything...Yeah I was talkin to my father yesterday more of the your the selfish cunt daughter...hey maybe hes right how can I have friends and a boyfriend to care about when the only one I care about is myself...Fucking asshole I have cared about every one else BUT myself...why bother now why the fuck does it matter if I fucking make myself happy...anna happy???? Ha big fucking Laugh...yeah I got more shit on my mind...hmmm ya know what that sat. night that I wanted to go walking by my fucking self now that i think about it I could really give a fuck what happens to me anymore...Im ready to dissappear...fucking go away and every one can pretend that I didnt ever exist...

Okay so it is a little later inthe day since I wrote that last entry....and I feel a little better...not much but a little had an okay night I watched Hannibal with my friends..then I watched half of a bunch of ingnorant fools yell there heads off...lifes fucking peachy!

6/16/05
Had an okay day...dont really give a fuck :|

6/20/2005
Well I just had a pretty god damn good weekend despite the fact that it was spent on campus...friday was a little better and satuday was good...I hung out with my posse and there was random insulting which lead to biting which lead to extreme sexual frustration which lead right back to more insulting and biting...YAY!...then yesterday was spent randomly walking around center talking shit to random people and hatred for pink bunnies. oh and I named my friend adam Fuzzy, scott is already fluffy, and mike is Furry...what would jeffs be:-? even though his nick name is monkee..AHA Frizzy!weeeheeee!

Bah!...crazy week....and guys (meaning my crew) Im sorry I been a cunt faced spunk junkie lately...I will let you know why i have been when we all hang out and talk...weee! only 1 week till vacation...I just wish that all of us could be together over vacay.
***okay in general to those who read this...I you have friends keep them close to your heart and dont take them for granted...and make new ones but keep the old cuz one is siver and the others gold...or if you choose they could be platinum!****

Okay so I thought every thing was going good..back where I was last week..and Im sick of friends bitching about how many imperfections and ignorance Myself and other people have when they need to look in the fucking mirror themselves.!

So I have been seriously considering coming back after vacation...I need to be home in my own bed....After every one gets out..Im gonna be waiting with a big house and a good job...well I gotta get going..I have to go work........Right

girl and guy were speeding, on a motorcycle, over 90 mph on the road..
Girl: Slow down. I’m scared.
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No, it’s not. Please, it’s too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? It’s bugging me.
(In the paper the next day)
A motorcycle crashed into a building because of brake failure. Two people were on it, but
only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his
breaks broke, but he didn’t want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved
him & felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even
though it meant that he would die.
..*..If you love someone this much put this on your site..*..

Havent updated in a while...I had my birthday on the 19th yay 20...1 more year and I can get as shit faced as I want....YaY...so yea Im going crazy but thats nothing new...prom was on friday god damn that sucked...Planning it was a bitch...and if you havent noticed yes Im feeling like miss negativity again if you dont like it well keep your god damn opinions to your self because Ive got my own...Im sick of taken care of other people and there fuckin problems I got my own and until i get those straightened out..well im not helping any one....so on the brighter side---I have decided to remain single love is really just a waste of time...well thats my veiws anyway...hope all you happy couples just have fun and keep on funkin or what ever the hell it is...

August 1st, 2005
For the past two weeks we have had a group of Irish kids come and visit us...we talked to them and they told us about All the troubles that they go through...there is a prejudice between the Prodistens and the catholics...Im not religous myself but these guys kind of opened my eyes to alot...the are great people...Christina, Carla, Fergal, Jason, Ryan, Peter, Sarah, Danielle, Jeanette, Martin, and James...Thank you for the great times the laughs tears and all the awesome conversations. I love you all dearly and you will always be in my heart.

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There Were Roses
by Tommy Sands
sung by Mick Moloney

  So my song for you this evening, it's not to make you sad
  Nor for adding to the sorrows of our troubled northern land
  But lately I've been thinking and it just won't leave my mind
  I'll tell you of two friends of mine who were both good friends of mine

  Isaac Scott from Banagh, he lived just across the fields
  A great man for the music, the dancing and the reels
  McDonald came from South Armagh to court young Alice fair
  And we often met on the Ryan Road and laughter filled the air

  -Chorus-
  There were roses, roses
  There were roses
  And the tears of a people ran together

  Now Isaac he was Protestant and Sean was Catholic born
  But it never made a difference, for the friendship it was strong
  And sometimes in the evening when we heard the sound of drums
  We said it won't divide us, we always will be one

  For the ground our fathers plowed in, the soil it is the same
  And the places where we say our prayers have just got different names
  We talked about the friends who'd died and hoped there'd be no more
  It was little then we realized the tragedy in store

  -Chorus-

  It was on a Sunday morning when the awful news came round
  Another killing had been done just outside Newry Town
  We knew that Isaac danced up there, we knew he liked the band
  But when we heard that he was dead we just could not understand

  We gathered round the graveside on a cold and rainy day
  The minister he closed his eyes and for no revenge he prayed
  And all of us who knew him from along the Ryan Road
  We bowed our heads and said a prayer for the resting of his soul

  -Chorus-

  Now fear it filled the countryside there was fear in every home
  When late at night a car came prowling round the Ryan Road
  A Catholic would be killed tonight to even up the score
  Oh Christ it's young McDonald they've taken from the door

  Isaac was my friend! he cried, he begged them with his tears
  But centuries of hatred have ears that do not hear
  An eye for an eye, it was all that filled their minds
  And another eye for another eye till everyone is blind

  -Chorus-

  So my song for you this evening, it's not to make you sad
  Nor for adding to the sorrows of our troubled northern land
  But lately I've been thinking and it just won't leave my mind
  I'll tell you of two friends of mine who were both good friends of mine

  Now I don't know where the moral is or where this song should end
  But I wonder just how many wars are fought between good friends
  And those who give the orders are not the ones to die
  It's Scott and McDonald and the likes of you and I

There were roses, roses
  There were roses
  And the tears of a people ran together
  There were roses, roses
  There were roses....

Wonderwall
By Oasis

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me

This is another song that for some reason I can relate to....its also by Oasis

Champagne Supernova

How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?

Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?

Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova in the sky

Wake up the dawn and ask her why
I dream a dream she never dies
Wipe that tear away now from your eye

Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?

Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova

'Cuz we don't believe
That they're gonna get away from the summer
But you and I will never die
The world's still spinning around we don't know why
Why-why-why-why-i-i

[solo]

How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?

Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?

Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova

'Cuz we don't believe
That they're gonna get away from the summer
But you and I will never die
The world's still spinning around we don't know why
Why-why-why-why-i-i

[solo]

How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
We were getting high


It seems alot easier to help other people and make other people happy before themselves.

Someone once said even if you have your friends and family, the wealth there is still a peice missing and with that peice missing will you ever truly be complete???