Treat the world well. We are not given it by our parents, mearly lent it by our children.


All of us are travelers lost
Our tickets arranged at a cost,
Unknown but beyond our means.
This odd itinerary of scenes:
Strange, enigmatic, unreal,
Makes us unsure how to feel.
No post-mortem journey is rife
With more mystery than life.

~Book of Counted Sorrows Dean Koontz


Life's Lessons
My teachers have taught me facts and about who I am.
My friends have taught me about companionship and to be who I am.
My parents have taught me about tradition and to accept who I am.
My love has taught me about relationships and to love who I am.
But I, and only I, can know who I am.
And that is the true form of knowledge.

~An Antitheory original


Stages
Life may pass through stages,
Fleeting though they sometimes be.
But as you go through these phases
Be not ruled by your memories.
Life was made for living.
A fact I hold to be true.
And though, to you, the world is spining,
I am not the same as you.
For my world is firmly planted,
And to you it may seem slanted.
I have my own style, one that works for me.
And that is what I want you to see.

~An Antitheory original


Life, Love, and Happiness
Our love bleeds into eternal nothingness
Much as misery bleeds into the heart
Leaving us to question the truths
For it is our heart that leads us
And our heart that holds us back
Fear of the broken heart and joy of a whole
Bringing us ever closer to our happiness
But never attained
If we are but to play these parts
Why do we not take our lives to ourselves
The love we strive for can only bleed away
Into it's own eternal nothingness

~An Antitheory original


Nights on End, Days on Hold
Nights on end
Days on hold
Nighttime's for lovers
Love is for the bold
Always laughing at
Stories that are told
Giving each other warmth
When all around is cold
Realizing that a heart
Cannot be bought, and never sold
Always knowing that
The past isn't all that old
I've played my hand
But now must fold
Nights on end
Days on hold

~An Antitheory original


Darkness
I sit in silence
Darkness all around me
Staring into oblivion
Empty thoughts confound me
The lines on the wall
Fade into the ceiling
The lines across my heart
Fade without feeling
I reach out for what I can
My mind always screaming
But the darkness cuts through me
And leaves my black eyes gleaming

~An Antitheory original


Mind's Eye
Fading into obscurity
No one at the side of me
Falling into my tortured mind
Hunting sanity, but none will I find
The fan above me, spinning so fast
It's wobbling, I wait for the crash
This room is huge, but feels so small
My troubles few, but they tower tall
The sounds of the night catch my attention
But they're not really there, no matter how I listen
An illusion of my mind, reaching insanity
No real order, only chaos and entropy
The world around me comes crashing down
And no longer is insanity found

~An Antitheory original


Call of the Wild
Nightime falls, the moon calls
To his children down below
The wolf will howl, the panther scowl
Through forests, winds will blow
Scattered thoughts, empty plots
Shining in the moon's rays
Laughing breeze, plays through the trees
No sign of the mellow days
The river yawns, the brook's last dawn
Has passed it in it's sleep
The eagle soars, the lion roars
The children can't help but weep
Mighty things, noble beings
Where comes and goes your power
From the mightiest tree, the smallest bee
And to the daintiest of the flower
The forests full, the plains grow dull
As all lay down to rest
Another night, another fight
Nature's one true test

~An Antitheory original


Lost
It's hard to wake up
When your eyes are melted shut
You're blind to the world
Stuck in the swirl
Downward vortex, pulling to the abyss
Robbing me of proof I exist
Stolen soul, an empty shell
An eternity living in hell

~An Antitheory original


Antihero
I'm not your traditional hero, I never claimed to be.
I'm not the fucking martyr that they make out of me.
I've never saved anyone. I've never done any good.
All I do gets misconstrued, miscommunicated, and misunderstood.
I am the antithesis of all the fuck-off heroes that you've seen.
I am the only thing that I will be and have ever been.
But if you feel your world slipping away, from afar and from above.
At a word I'll change my ways... A hero for you, love.

~An Antitheory original


Longedness
001: Name: Brad
002: Nickname: Clawz, Shoji, B-Rad, Antitheory
003: Country of living: USA
004: Birth date: July 31, 1988
005: Height: 5' 10"
006: Eye color: Depends on my mood. Either Blue or Green or somewhere in between, rarely Grey... they were Black one time, but that's never happened again since
007: Shoe size: 9 1/2 to 10
008: School/work: TSTC for Game Design
009: You smoke: Yep. Camel Royals, or whatever I can get.
010: Hobby's: Games, Reading, Pyromania
011: Brothers or sisters: 1 Sister
013: Piercing(s): Earring, pierced by myself.
014: Tattoo: I have a tribal pheonix on my right shoulder, 3 others I want, and a 5th I'm still designing
015: Favorite Country to go to: Ireland
016: Are there people you won't reply to?: People writing "Hey Baby, want a good time?" and things like that.
017: Nicest person you met this year: Dick
018: Person you rather not have met this year: Kryptonite... don't ask
019: Who would you like to meet: Myself in 20 years so I can ask myself what I should do for a better life (ie. the lottery numbers for next week)... or Mitch Hedberg
020: Who do you admire most: My friends, for putting up with me
022: Favorite Pajamas(clothes to sleep in): Fake tattoo sleep pants
023: Favorite Car: Nissan Skyline GT-R R-34, or a 1968 GTO
024: Favorite Movie(s): Interstate 60
026: Favorite City(s): Waco, TX
027: Favorite Plush(stuffed animals): My giant Scooby Doo in Pajamas. He has a matching shirt to one I always wear now
028: Favorite Body Spray to wear: Axe, or Avatar
029: Favorite Magazine: GameInformer
030: Favorite sound: Thunder with Rain in the background
031: Favorite TV-series: Not really sure
032: Favorite Writers: T.A Baron, Dean Koontz, Steven King, R.A. Salvatore, Mercedes Lacky
033: Favorite Nickname: Probably Antitheory
034: What is on your mouse pad: A bullseye that says "Stress Release Zone: Bang Head Here"
035: What all is under your bed: I have a water bed with a closed frame, so there is no "under the bed"
036: Favorite color(s): Black, Midnight Blue, Silver, Blood Red, Emerald Green
037: Favorite Song ever: I'm Just a Kid - Simple Plan
038: Favorite song at this moment: Through Glass - Stone Sour
039: Favorite food: Chili dogs
040: Favorite class in school: C++ Programming
041: Favorite drink: Bubble Tea
042: Lucky numbers: God, you want a list? 3, 7, 13, 31, 42 (Those are my lottery numbers =P)
043: What do you think is the greatest thing about yourself: There's nothing all that great about me, I'm just myself, and that's all I can be. I dare do only that which becomes a man. He who would do more is not a man at all.
044: What deodorant do you use: Mitchum
045: Favorite shoes: Solid black converse
046: What time do you go to bed on weekdays: When I feel tired. Normally between 2 and 4 in the morning now that I'm back in school
047: What words do you use most: "Well", "I guess", and "aight"
048: Most romantic moment in your life: Hmmm...
049: Most embarrassing moment in your life: *shrugs* Kinda hard to be embarrassed when you really don't care
050: Would you rather spend your time, inside or outside: Outside, at night, laying on my back, staring at stars, curled up with someone special, surrounded by friends
051: What do you do on the weekends: Hanging out with my friends
052: What class in school do/did you dislike most: Computer ethics
053: Your Breakfast: Don't eat breakfast
054: What's your favorite kind of fast food: Taco Bell
055: Pets: Oh god, where do I start, 9 fish, 1 cat, 1 golden retriever, 1 mutt (black lab, aquita, and husky mix), 2 basset hounds, and a little sister (she counts as a pet right?)
056: Favorite chocolate?: Dark Chocolate
057: Serious or funny: Serious when it counts, funny the rest of the time.
058: Fast or slow: Slow
059: You prefer being alone or have relationship with someone: Relationships
060: Simple or complicated?: Complicated, I love a good challenge
061: Cremate or Buried when you die: I have no clue
063: Stay up late or go to bed early: Stay up late
064: Light or dark?: Dark... very dark
065: Speak or Silence: Speak most of the time, but total silence when I'm depressed or pissed off for fear of saying something I will regret... I regret enough already
066: Do you like a Tall or Small girls: Umm, if I say I like small girls does it mean I have a lolita complex? *Wink* Hi Jenna
067: Newspaper or Television: TV
068: Hug or kiss: *Traditionalist beliefs shining through* Hug unless it's the right girl.
069: Happy or Sad: Happy, all the time, even when I'm sad (that's actually kinda the truth, a bit hard to explain though.)
070: Life or Death: Ooo, umm, 42?
071: Jig or Disco: Jig, I'm Irish after all
072: Left or Right: Left
073: Peanut butter Or Jelly: Melted peanut butter with a bit of brown sugar in it.
074: Brunettes or Blondes: Heh, no preference, but why are redheads and dyed hair left off the options?
075: What would you ask God if you could ask him 1 single question: Wow, um, I suppose "Do you exist?" would be a weird question if he was staring me in the face.
076: You believe in reincarnation: Aye
077: You believe in Aliens: Just due to the fact that there is near infinite planets out there, so there has to be at least one more with intelligence
078: When you die, what will be your last words?: "Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, you're cool, fuck you, I'm out"
079: Does true love exist: There is a part of me that hopes it does
080: How many kids would you like to have: 1 at most, 0 at the least... yeah, that makes sense...
081: What is the one thing you can't stand: People who's sole purpose is to bring other people down.
082: Best feeling in the world: Not sure, but I want to experience it at least once.
083: Worst feeling in the world: The moment right after a car wreck.
084: What are you afraid of: Being alone forever.
085: Are you an emotional person: Becoming more and more so...
086: Do you ever cry during a movie: I did during Click... our whole group did to some extent.
087: Your goal in life: Always be there when I'm needed
088: What was the promise you made to yourself at new years eve: I made a resolution to break my resolution. Figure that out if you can.
089: Favorite art-artist: M.C. Escher
090: As what animal would you like to reincarnate: A dragon =P, or a bat
091: What is the best part of a Girl: The whole girl =P, all joking aside though, I love girls' eyes.
092: Most original place you would ask your love to marry you: Tis a secret
093: What do you think of Elftown: It tastes good with a bit of ketchup on it.
094: Is there something you miss about elftown: Not really
095: Where did you get this question list: Brandi... then modified it to my own twisted means
096: Besides elftown, what do you do most on your PC: Music, Games, and Surfing, and IMs
097: What is the first thing you think of when you wake up?: "Daylight burns your sleepy eyes and it's hard to see you dreaming" Then I grab for my phone to see if I missed any texts or calls while I was asleep
098: Favorite smell?: Orange rolls and coffee (the combination)
099: Summer or winter?: Winter
100: What book are you reading?: Nothing at the moment
101. Which finger is your favorite?: Pinky
102. When did you last cry?: Um...
103. Living arrangements?: Mom's house
104. Relationships or one-night stands?: Relationships
105. Any bad habits?: Not realizing where the line is when joking around. Overthinking things
106. What is the most embarrassing CD on your shelf?: Sound tracks from musicals I was in
107. Hugs or kisses?: Didn't we already have this question?
108. Have you been told a secret and sworn not to tell?: Yeah
109. How do you release your anger?: Attacking a pillow, punching a wall, things like that... nearly shattered my mirror by punching it once. I've axe kicked through my futon frame, it's in pieces... I have issues...
110. Where is your second home?: House?:In New Orleans, at my dad's house.  Home?:Jenna's House
111. Do you trust others easily?: Depends on their first impression. If I like them when I first meet them, I'll trust them. If not, it takes a while to gain the trust. But then there's also the question of how much trust.
112. What was your favorite toy as a child?: My K'Nex set
113. What class in school is totally useless?: ACT
114. Do you have a journal?: No, I can never get into the habit of keeping one.
115. Do you use sarcasm a lot?: Hell yeah.
116. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?: Yep, had a scar on my leg from one for about 4 years
117. What do you look for in a girl?: Sense of humor, caring, comforting, loving, and understanding
118. Who is your favorite singer?: Simple Plan... although that's a group, not a singer.
119. Scary movies or happy endings?: Scary
120. If you could travel anywhere , where would you go?: We had this question before too, I said Ireland
121. Would you bungee jump?: Yee-Haw
122: Last movie you watched?: Knight's Tale
123. Do you think your strong?: No, I'm a little weakling... okay, maybe not that bad.
124. What's your favorite ice-cream flavor?: Chocolate mousse royale
125. Are you too shy to ask someone out?: Yes ;) but I can flirt with them till they get the idea. It's worked before.
126. Favorite day of the year?: any Friday the 13th
127. What's your least favorite food?: Gumbo
128. Favorite month?: Not sure
129. How many people have a crush on you right now?: At least two. One is my "stalker" and the other my girlfriend. I don't need anymore and would be very happy with one less as long as it's the right one... otherwise I would be very unhappy
130. Who do you miss right now?: Jenna. Always Jenna. I need my fix, withdrawals are a bitch.
131. What color pants you wearing?: Blue
132. What are you listening to right now?: Silence
133. Last thing you ate?: Beef Jerky
134. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?: Trick Question - If I were a crayon, I couldn't type this. Burnt Umber. There's logic behind it. Don't ask.
135. What's the weather like right now?: Very cold
136. Last person you talked to on the phone?: My mom in an actual call. Jenna in texting
137. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?: If I'm close up, their eyes, if not, their voice.
138. How are you today?: *Looks around in paranoid fashion* Why, should I be something? Do you know something you're not telling me?
139. Favorite alcoholic drink?: Whiskey, or Sake. Mixed drink: Fallen Angel
140. Of all of your friends, how many can you trust your life to?: 5 at the moment
141. Who do you have a crush on? If you know me it's pretty damn obvious.... being as I'm going out with her right now
142. Favorite person on the planet? The girl whose life I am the #1 fan of.
143. Fire or Ice? Fire all the way *twitch*
144. With or Without? I can go without I guess
145. True or False? True. Theres already too many falsities in this world.
146. Favorite Comedian? MITCH HEDBERG!!!
147. Who, what, when, where, and why? 42!!!
148. Do you have any Grey Poupon? No, I am lacking in that area...
149. Have you ever snorted a line of chalk? Yes, I'm a chalk addict.
150. Are you a freak? Yep, and proud of it!

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