lm pretty but ugly at the same time
im crazy and scared at the same timeim lost but found at the same time but inm always some were safe or not im there

hair: long brown
eyes: ocean blue
body: skinny short
body color: tan


bros:bobby cody trevor justin rusty christopher kyle cj brandon(close)

Sissy: jesse ashley,brittany(close)
   
 
I went to a party,
And remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink, Mom
So I had a sprite instead.
I felt proud of myself,
The way you said I would,
That I didn't drink and drive,
Though some friends said I should.
I made a healthy choice,
And your advice to me was right,
The party finally ended,
And the kids drove out of sight.
I got into my car,
Sure to get home in one piece,
I never knew what was coming, Mom
Something I expected least.
Now I'm lying on the pavement,
And I hear the policeman say,
The kid that caused this wreck was drunk, Mom, his voice seems far away.
My own blood's all around me,
As I try hard not to cry.
I can hear the paramedic say,
This girl is going to die.
I'm sure the guy had no idea,
While he was flying high,
Because he chose to drink and drive, Now I would have to die.
So why do people do it, Mom
Knowing that it ruins lives?
And now the pain is cutting me,
Like a hundred stabbing knives.
Tell sister not to be afraid, Mom
Tell daddy to be brave,
And when I go to heaven,
Put Daddy's Girl on my grave.
Someone should have taught him, That its wrong to drink and drive.
Maybe if his parents had, I'd still be alive. My breath is getting shorter, Mom
I'm getting really scared.
These are my final moments,
And I'm so unprepared.
I wish that you could hold me Mom, As I lie here and die.
I wish that I could say I love you, Mom So I love you and good-bye

cheating if a guy cheats there out the door cause ones a cheater always a cheater. the thang ins you cant live with boys but cant live with ou them. most of my friends are boys i someimes were boys clothes. boys are a pest but im very amotional with them i cant hurt there feelings it hurts mine more i can cry all night untill i now he ant made at me.





Ole Sandtorv
-July 19th 2005-
You've truly captivated me

We used to be together watching the sunset
As i held your hand, enjoying the happiness i get
Those rainy days that we walked together
As you whisper those promises of forever

But you left without a word without even goodbyes
Without telling the truth behind your lies
What have i done or what should I've done?
I didn't have the chance to ask because you're already gone

Gone are those days of being with you
Those happy moments and trials we've been through
I never thought that one day you will leave
That you'll broke those promises you made me believe

Since then I hate watching the sunset
I'm holding my tears trying so hard to forget
I still walked alone in the middle of the rain
So no one can see me cry and I could hide the pain

If I would see you even with your someone new
Don't worry I just have something to say that I have to
Please just let me ask you to explain to me, why?
At the same time I will bid you goodbye........

 
You Don't Understand

you don't understand
is a line I often hear
especially from those
who hold pain so dear

rather than share
and relate their misery
they chose to dwell
within their own agony

to say "you don't understand"
is an easy thing to do
but do you really know
what others have been through

I've seen babies
beaten within an inch of their life
done time with husbands
who killed their loving wife

a woman who was raped
and left to die
he cut off her arms and legs
she wondered why

families so poor
dumpsters become a diner
sometimes they splurged
from a trash can liner

just the other day
a woman sold her child
to feed an addiction
that had gotten too wild

go to any nursing home
and visit the elderly
look deep into their desolate eyes
where memories used to be

reach out and comfort them
while holding their hand
whisper in their ear
"you don't understand"..........

these are some poems on the internet that i thought were interesting here is some of mine

someone new

you think i forgive yo
but what you did
felt like no oither has been done
but you came back
and took my heart one last time
but what you did was a heart breaker
but i forgive you now
but im sorry
but i love someone new

concrete angel

shes all alone
no one tobe by her

but a little boy
is by her

they talk to each other
through the windows that never open

there was a pose
that made her turn around

shes gone gone gone
forever

who could do this to your child
shes
gone
gone
gone

forever
at least we now shes
safe

who does she
thank she is

when she loos up she see's a halo
when she looks down she see's
people living alife that she cant 


heres a song of 911
"It's been a year daddy
I really really miss you
Mommy says your safe now
In a beautiful place called heaven"

Oh I'm thinking about our younger years

"We had your favorite dinner tonite"

There was only you and me

"I ate it all up"

We were young and wild and free

"Even though I don't like carrots"

Now nothing can take you away from me

"I learned how to swim this summer"

We've been down that road before

"I can even open my eyes"

But that's over now

"While I'm under water"

You keep me coming back for more

"Can't you see me?"

Baby you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven

"I started kindergarten this year"

Love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

"I carry a picture of us
In my Blue's Clues lunchbox"

Oh once in your life you find someone

"You are the greatest daddy"

Who will turn your world around
Pick you up when you're feeling down
Now nothing can change what you mean to me

"I can swing on the swing by myself"

There's a lot that I could say
But just hold me now

"Even though I miss you pushing me"

Cause our love will light the way

"Can't you see me?"

Baby you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven

"I miss how you used to tickle me"

And love is all that I need

"Tickle my belly"

And I found it there in your heart

"My belly hurts"

It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

"I try not to cry"

I've been waiting for so long

"Mommy says it's okay"

For something to arrive
For love to come along

"I know you don't like it when I cry"

Now our dreams are coming true
Through the good times and the bad

"You never wanted me to be sad"

I'll be standing there by you

"I try Daddy but it hurts"

Baby you're all that I want

"Is it true you're not coming home?"

When you're lying here in my arms

"Maybe someday"

I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven

"I can visit you in heaven, okay?"

And love is all that I need
And I've found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

"It's time for me to go bed now
I sleep with the light on
Just in case you come home
And kiss me good night
I love you so much
I miss you Daddy"


im not supposed to love you, im not supposed to care.im not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. im not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do. im sorry i just cant help myself..... i think i love you but because of my mother im not aloud to date but boy you stil have my heart eve nthough i bearly get to see you because of what i did my mom thinks im not mature just because i like my moms bestfriends step son i ove yo uhow are you wre are you what are yo doing i miss you maby i can see you in a few days i love you and good bye

dedicated to nichole trask
east to
the sea
west to
the death
to the bitch
that touches
my ant


when im missen you
when im alone
i cant help
but thank
about you
when i am
down i know why

cause baby
i cant help
missen you

your in my heart
every day and night
when im missen you
i just want to cry

cause baby
i cant help
missen you

why do i feel this way
your only a boy
but you make me laugh when i am down
you make me smile for no reason at all
why di i feel this way

cause baby im just missen youuu

how i feel
you went out with my friend
i said ok
but oyu asked me out yesterday
but you cheated on her
i know how you feel
but shes my friend
but you said it would be a secret but how can i trust
baby i think im in love with you

continued later..........