*IF AS A RESULT OF TALKING TO ME I EMOTIONALLY, PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY AND ANY OTHER KIND THERE IS DAMAGE YOU THEN LOL HA FUCKITY HA I PROBABLY MEANT TO......BY PROBABLY I MEAN DID.......HA :D PLUS, I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL BODY.......ITS IN MY TRUNK LOL*


just me with brown hair and my stolen hat, hmm well one of them, and no i aint a poor fuck i was drunk and did it caus it looked good on the dudes head and i wanted it for mine!


I actually smiled here so its a rare thing (lol like me) so i took a pic of it!


Eyes...yes well done they are...my eyes..correct again they are!


Ok so like if you look closer yes those are tears in the corner of my eyes and no i will not say now why i had them there!


Thats my stripey dressing gown im wearing lol



Well i heard some ppl raving on about how theyre planning to throw all the non artists of so ha fuckity ha im stayn, i did this last night to piss you off so ha fuckity ha...its not finished lol and like prob wont get to that stage but its ok..ish....


If you sprinkle when you tinkle...no thst it i fucking refuse to type a childs pissing habbits rhyme!

I like this one, if i was asked to i guess id give a girl my heart, no i wont cut it out for the bitch, id give it to her in another form ;P


:D MONKEYS...Pair of fuckn monkeys!!

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Kurt dude, you are my idol, R.I.P Kurt Cobain *Nirvana still rock*


Go little stick dude go!


Ok i got nothing for this so whatevr

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ewwe dudet listen to the nice man and cover the fuck up!!


Lol yeah im a freaky dude and proud of it :D

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I swear to fuck if you move one inch ill blast your little cute kitty brains all over that wall.....aww it is a cute pic tho....well apart frm the whole gun thing pointn at a kitten...still cute!

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If you so much as annoy m ill tell this blonde rehab which red button to press....after i explain the colour red to her.....and what a button is....lol

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Yes you fat hobbit they are and if you dont shut the fuck up ill ram a few up your fat hairy hobbit arsehole......lol much to the delight of frodo :D

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yeh thats right you jesus man you, for once tell the truth :D


Just got up from being drunkenness sick all night!

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Very true!

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It hurts to know theres an animal with bigger balls than me......for fucks sake its a furry squirrel, who the hell gets their kicks lookn at a fury squirrel?!

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I would love to pull that trigger....ive had dreams about doing so! lol :D


Ohh sniney hair, not its pure greasy like a burger or something else greasy, shit eels i guess?

Ok so like these two are me in full hungover form so just remember that ok!


And no fuckn laughn right, well like i di so i guess its ok if you do too but not alot ok!

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Yeah thats right, where a little more advanced now than pitchforks and potatoes, weve got a war boat, well war dingy but still its...pretty god damm crap actually!

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Happy mother fuckn drunk pingu!


My natural hair colour *shudders* pure blonden gold!

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I want this guitar soo bad *drools* for more things than playing *goes over and closes the door,locking it*....ewwe lol :P

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yeah thats it you tell her, yeah go you great big fat fuck of a man, yeah ahh whats tht, ah sht whats wrong, aww you gona cry hun, you gona squirt some you huge titted beast, ahh dnt cry baby boy whose a gud boy then, you are, you are........ok thts a little worrying?!

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Hey there is nothn wrong with a man and his love for his elephant, its perfectly natural lol :P


Leaf............ its a random picture so like why not a pure random description....cake......se its easier this way :P

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This little dudes actually not so stupid, he's got some good advice....wonder what he tastes like?

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Ok so like they were and are still fuckn amazn!


Bye i guess


Now isnt tht...pretty....or just cool altogheter :D


WOAH MUFFIN!!

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You little hairy bastard, who would you liek it if i laughed at you naked, hey wait a minute, you filthy little pervert,you were spying on me.....why you!

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Lol ooh yeah!...sht no wait thats lame...fuck me im lame....i need a life...help me....

Ok so like im supposed to write something in here but theres two key things that have to be taken into consideration when doing so...... ahem, no.1 Im a pure lazy little fucker so dont expect this to be long or to make much sense (nothung about me makes much sense, im disfunctional, alcoholic, drug addict, guitarist by heart, band leader and vocalist, raised in a family full of degrading bullying segregating dictators blah fuckity blah you know the rest) actually it'll like probably be long caus i like to talk, alot, alot alot, too much alot the kind that makes you get bored easily :D WOAH! and no.2 im tired and hungover and i think they're re-laying a motorway in my head and for once the bastards are actually doing the work! Shit it says that im supposed ot be nice and not an asshole, kinda hard though if you look like me (which you obviously dont caus they'res just one me.......right......right....isnt there.....shit is there.......?....) ok back to the plan, ok so i lied, i try not to but i did and they're is not plan, im just writing this as it pops into my head so ahh ah ha ha ha ha ha serves you right for actually reading this, dont read it, no wait do, no dont you might hate me by it......HA i dont care if you do hat me for it so go ahead! Ok i still aint to sure on the whole does cursing count as being an asshole (does anyone have a great big crusty ass for a face and body caus thats the only really scientific way to be an asshole, ooh and dont forget the hair, cant be an asshole if it aint a hairy sweaty musky shit crusted one......ewe! so i think im big enough and old enough to take a risk......FUCK........WANKER..........CUNT FACED GRANNY FUCKING DONKEY ASS RAMMING DOLPHIN RIDING FOUL MOUTHED HAIRY TIT BASTARD.......ok if cursing is against the rules then i think i should say good bye now, Bye fuckn bye! Ok so like dont get me wrong im a nice dude......well i can be evil, lol if thats your thing rrarrgh :D see look.........rehab....see that was me being evil to you....aww shit and like now i feel bad for doing it....sorry......*shuffles feet, fiddles with hands and looks up threw fringe wide teary eyed and mouths the word sorry as a silent tear rools down face* Do you wanna know how i could describe that so well, caus my last girl friend confessed to me that she had somehow managed to fuck five different dudes whilst still going steady with me........over a coarse of a year plus.....and i just fuckn cried there and then, you know how it feels, you really cant believe what your hearing yet you know its true, the sudden loss of breathe, the slightly distorted vision, the stabbing pain in your chest and now brutally raped heart made worse by every single bitter sweet word mouthed by the guilty person, the high pitched voices and the tears mounting sadly on your lids before rolling to the chorous of "Im sorry jesus nathan im sorry i didnt mean to" whilst you stutter back a chorus of "No, jesus fucking christ just no" then swag off into a cold fucking night to drink your brains out and then you just wander for over five days straight crying and drinking liek a baby, your entire life a loss and left in a virgin stte of mind, innocent...ok enough of the sad memories i think or ill get pure emotional and thats just pure bad ok!

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My hairs longr now so its like a big blanket to hide azure blue eyes so when i wanna i can just look up threw it and all you see it blue lol :P its funny doin that!

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Nothn is as funny as cursing puppets...especially kids programme puppets, i saw a clip of tht bastard dinasour barney swearing his head of once and it was deadly! :D

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WOAH Chaos!!



         My different type of art/photo/weird stuff :D


No one is worth your tears, and the person who is wouldnt make you cry in the first place.... those be my eyes when i used a polor something the other lense?!


This eye looked like lightning so i kept it.


Aint life just all doom and gloom


Serious face...yeah liek i tried to look serious, if i could id get another to model for me and id liek tht caus then i could fuck with the photos like i did these!


Feeling like a freak, so why not look like one too? :P


The colouring and eyes are very prettyful........and im a special little boy, why yes you are nathan!


Butterflies and bannanas...lol i feel random and im bored now so im just gona give it no effort what so evr!


Eyes of flufflyness, nah theyre ok i guess...ish...not really alot!


Well like im not your sterotypical male, you know the type that puts on his mothers thong and stands in front of a really tall mirror and smears his semi nude body with baby oil whilst saying something like "Dude you are the best, ooh your so good" as he adjusts his neaty cropped moustache! :D And ponders on the thought of exploiting another woman or adjusting another car to make it go faster and turn into a bigger jkilling machine so that he can add it to the list on his wall beside his collection of guns and dead things shot with his guns and his hge coletion of hats and moustache weekly magazines! Ok blah fuckity blah you get the picture, im me and nothing else, id rather be hated for who i am then liked for somebody i am not! I have a shit load of female friends who i care for with my heart, as much as i hate them i do love my family and i would put them first in my life no matter what the past does hide and will always, i have a past but its bad and complicated, ask about it if you must, but dont expect me to talk alot on it, well lol unless im drunk and thats most nights so liek i guess you'd get a good enough answer then :P hit like i love cuddling, everytime i see a dudet i know its arms around her holdn close cuddle, and liek so what,shit ive hugged dudes for fucks sake and will to add to that! Nope i aint a dodgey butcher |(takes meat in the back door) and i aint homophobic so dont judge me and dont feel you cant talk to me about shit, i aint racist, judgemental, etc etc so i accept you for who you are, hmm all i ask in return is that you would do the same for me!



Ok im in a band, im the guitarist, vocalist, song writer ( i do have three songs about the night of my x's confession) and im just the frontman of the band, the typical guitar and voice, that kinda thing. We play alot of different music, mainly rock, punk, emo, alternative ,goth ,death metal, thrash metal, shit all metal etc blah fuckity blah! Bands i liek are

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Fuckn deadly band, ive seen them play and it was amazn!

Greenday
Nirvana
Metallica
Slipknot
Hole
Mudhoney
Funeral for A Friend
Bullet For My valentine
Audioslave
Cold
Alkaline Trio
Slayer
ACDC
Foo Fighters
RHCP
Spineshank
SoundGarden
Khasier Chiefs
Stained
My Chemical Romance
Simple Plan
Good Charlotte
Blink 182
Sum 41
The Used
Papa Roach
Bowling For Soup
Linkin Park
HIM
CKY
Kittie
Loser's Luck
Mudvayne
Marilyn Manson
Drowning Pool
Senses Fail
Eighteen Visions
Gwen Stefani
Avril Lavigne
Def Leppard
Bush
The Offspring
Hawthorne Heights
Weezer
Taking Back Sunday
Seether
The Killers
Breaking Benjamin
Saosin
Avenged Seven Fold
Relient K
All American Rejects
Fall Out Boy
Skindred
AFI
Refused
Nine Inch Nails
Emanuel
Finch
From First To Last
Underoath
Thursday
The Matches
Any shit like tht really!

Ok me myself, im a messed up dude, im dysfunctional, addicted to alco and drung, love living the fast life of sex drugs rock and roll, im a rocker born and bread with the perfect rockstar background of a fucked up childhood and homeless lifetimes spent wandering in the only safe place to me, my head. I have natural blonde hair, azure blue eyes, yes im buff but hate it, yes i can sing and am glad for it, yes i can play good. Look i dont know what to say to make you even remotly interested in talking to me but i guess, well, im me and if you wanna talk or whatever then im here so dont be shy, i aint most of the time so just go for it, a half lived life just as bad as a not lived life!

Well this is it i guess, but hey im going out with a bang so latrs n love, me

Ok so like since im doin the whole band thing im gona put up some of our rather shit lyrical ideas composed by us when we were pretty much stoned outa our skulls but still its like not bad for us i guess...hope...pray...well ok no to the pray thing, he gave up on me as a kid so im returning tht favour!


All small pieces of writing that are only foundations for lyrical ideas. Nothing more than written hopes, still Geeks United right??

DEATH FEASTS

Like a frosty morns sun shunts the silence from the land,
a gazing lonley soul can wonder to the bleakest and barrenest of places.
To stand and stare at the figures of frozen time and future,
and savour the seemless look and lack of all their contorted faces.
Knowing not what is to be and needs be done, yet,
they slowly unwind and shift shapes to fit the newest member.
Of all the hard earned lessons taught and preached only still to get,
the most undeserved and unrewarded reply of cold cruel confession.
Celebrate, for you know not when death feasts.


FREE LEE

Sorry friend, are you ok?
Now be honest in lying.
I know your still hurting.
I know you’re still depressed,
And I know you've tricked me
And left my life possessed.

AHHHHHHHHH
Blessed are the rest,
They know how they are best.
Free free free lee.

Really trend, you’re not ok?
Now be truthful when dieing.
I know you miss him a lot,
You miss him more so than you show
But its ok as you hurt me,
Hurt me to save your twisted plot.

AHHHHHHHHH
Messed are the rest,
Say so now all the rest.
Free free free lee.

He knows what he's missing.
Im not the worst there is,
Everything is ordinary.
He knows what he's missing.
This is the curse we live,
All life is scary.

Lucky him.

AHHHHHHHHH
Free free free lee.
Free free free lee.
Free free free lee.
Free me.


BE-LOW

Be low
Drown out in sound.
Be long
Part of a crowd.
Be leave
You’re not around.
Be ate
Make me proud.

Maybe (x3)
May be killing me.


EVA POUR EIGHT

Guests coming in an hour,
Number unknown, feelings were sour.
Time went by and then threw the gate,
There I saw coming a number of eight.

Eva pour eight
Eva pour eight
Eva pour eight

Sat in silence on mould chairs,
Avoiding eyes, eight shifty stares.
And teatime came very late,
A shout to Eva that we had eight.

Eva pour eight
Eva pour eight
Eva pour eight

Strange smile by our guests for fun,
Didn’t know they had a gun.
And Eva fell by the kitchen sink,
Or at least, that’s what I think.

Eva pour eight
Eva pour eight
Eva pour eight

Then eight ran and all had fled,
Taking all but the piss stained bed.
Sat looking at Eva, it was too late,
Tea was cold and soon it would evaporate.

Eva pour eight
Eva pour eight
Eva pour eight
Eva pour eight
Eva pour eight
Eva pour eight
Eva it’s late.


ABOVE LOVE

You’re still an echo in the dark of my heart,
Im still feedin’ of the loss from our start,
And we feel its not quite right ooh no,
And we say that love is fucking all the night, or so

But I
Still want love for a life
But why
I be in love
But why

You’re still an echo in the dark of my heart,
Im still feedin of the loss from our start,
And we feel its not quite right ooh no
And we say that love is fucking all the night, or so


But I
All I can give is I
But why
But I be above love
But die


Above love above love above love and fucked.

Yeah (x6)


BLOODLOSS

The newest blood loss,
A kiss on pain.
Cryptic thoughts,
That taste of shame.
Recall old memories,
Once lost to new.
My deepest secrets,
Ill bleed for you.

Bumpy as the ride was, I hope you are left shaken (x2)


CARBON COPY

If I could make a carbon copy of me I’d want it to be you,
If they asked me to choose another to die with it could only be you.
So just carbon copy try to relate to me,
Carbon copy and you celebrate to hate me.

Who would you choose to have to loose,
My love you are a whore and
My love you are no more.
Carbon copy
Largon poppy.


CAT AS TROPHY

Im a killer
Did it for fun.
Im a willer
Used a stole gun.

Im a beast
Killed me pet.
Happy at least
No one knows yet.

All blood fur
Hole in side.
Dead cats body
I must hide.

To mark this Cat as trophy
YEAH


CONFIDMENT

Solitary confinement in my own world
Fucking put me on parole for a day.
And now alone the whores all need done
That’s all I can expect in my own way.

Im taught to be one and shown to be another
Im part of two but always the lesser brother.

Just like before, Just like before.


DATE ME

Violate me
Isolate me
Insinuate me
Evaluate me
Relate me
Duplicate me
Inflate me
Sellotape me
Masturbate me
Castrate me
Investigate me
Weight me
Nominate me
Celebrate me
Segregate me
Interrogate me
Evaporate me
Separate me
Vertebrate me
De-nominate me
But please just fucking date me.


DATE

Within some shapes are a few,
Beside my date im alone it’s true.
Inside me hate, I love for you.
And for my date, a hidden view.
                  
Love you, hate you
Love you, rape you
Date hate rape you
Hate to separate you


DRUG

Deals for the drug dealer,
A fix in no time.
Feels like a thug and healer,
Needle in a spine.

Aint it sweet you and him, he and you
Lovers in a glance of romance.
Shared and compared views for the needle
Elixir of life, fixer of life
Risks, survival a small chance


PLACEMENT

Place me in darkness for twenty-four hours,
To verify that im sane again.
Throw me to the lover who devours,
Then test to see if I was to blame.

A shelter in my mind
Where no one can find.
I shelter in my mind
Where no one will find, me.

Compare me to others you find,
Purpled bruised right abused at birth.
Yet im the only one of my kind,
Alone to try and walk this earth.


EVERLONG

I can’t see in front of me, its dark.
But I can hear for miles.
What does it all mean?
Does anything mean something?
If we are all alive (2)
                     
I can’t feel me
I can’t heal me
I can’t see me
I can’t be me
It can’t be real (x4)

So it’s going to go for everlong
Everlong (x6)


FAITH

Where do they go?
When the conversation fades to slow.   (or When the situation turns to slow)
What do they say?
When it’s their decided time to pray.
What do they feel?
Life’s not that big a deal.
What do they need?
We all decide based on our greed.

A chop and change of friends,
Loyal to none.
A drop in range of trends,
Buy for fun.
A scream and shout for love,
All is fake.
A bullet then sent from love,
Fucks sake.


FATHER

Hello help me
Father my task is done
Hello help me
Father my task is done
Hello help me
Father my task is done
Hello help me
Father my task is done

Im killed and saved none,
So father help me.
Because my task is done.


HELLO GIRL

Hello girl im so aroused
But my feelings have been doused.
Come here girl it wont be quick
Suck it all and don’t be sick.

I'll have it my way bitch
Don’t shout you demonic witch.
Hell im gona’ rape you good

Lye down now im on top
Whats that girl you say stop.
Im in control and not you
Shit your cold and bodies blue.


HOSPITAL PILL 

Take a pill, you'll feel fine.
Stay in bed rest a while.
Blood we'll spill all in time
Cut of head, with a smile.

Feel the blade upon my skin.
Open up, ill let it in.
Cut the rut from me (x2)

My doctors drill it whines away
While I weep in the day
Nurse’s knives they cut me deep
While silently, I pretend to sleep

Feel the blade upon my skin
Open up, ill let it in
Cut the rut from me (x2)

Here’s a drug bound to help
Steady now boy don’t you yelp
Here’s a needle feel the prick
At last all im still sick

Feel the blade upon my skin
Open up, I’ll let it in
Cut the rut from me (x2)


PRICELESS

No one can afford the ransom of your love,
Your priceless and im in debt.
Im in debt,
Im in debt,
Im in debt,
To the price you demand.


TRACK  

Jamie’s on the track
Body bloody black.
Jamie’s on the track
Two boys wont come back.

Poop out batteries
And cry out paint.
Call for mommy
Hope you don’t faint.


LONER

Sitting by himself,
Though we all want to be him.
Sitting on his shelf,
Where we can all see him.

Seldom talks to any though his thoughts,
Are many (x3)
Loner Loner Loner Bone Her.

Running all alone,
When we fail I wish I was he.
Running to get home,
And who is better known in society.

Speaks a silent word to himself alone,
All alone (x3)
Loner Loner Loner Phone Her.

But clever doesn’t get friends or happiness,
Loner is clever and intelligent.
Loner got a home on me (x3)


LOVERS FACE

Believing I will see a face,
Blackened eyes on my lovers face.
Staring into another place.

Needing a partner so pure,
Red tears I’ve caused for sure
Touching a heart unsure.

But she's still there.
And I said I do when I don’t
I cant, I wont.
She needs me but I lie to her,
Why it’s not that I mean to be
I just need love, love me.


MAMAL SPOUSE

I miss feeling great.
I am but there are two types as of late.
I miss friendly love.
Friends and love and both aren’t love.
I love you all,
But wouldn’t tell you just yet.
I think it’s nearly time,
So I guess I’ve wasted enough.

Truth be told im alone and well, you’re my arouse,
Shit on me hate what im told, but mammals are our spouse.


MIXTURE 1

Invasion calls for celebration,
Sterilization leads to a nation.
Depression causes suppression,
Treason never has a reason.

Tell me that again
It makes me sane
I can create now
You show me how

I've been infected,
Because I was rejected.
My blade was dirty
Cuts, I have thirty.

She doesn’t care
She doesn’t see.
Beneath her hair
It screams out me, ME ME ME ME.

Honestly just leave it
Were out of luck.
Surprised to relieve it
You wanted a fuck

Gladly I gave it all.


LEAD

Im eatn’ lead
Don’t feel so good.
Im in my head
Knew that I would.
Im taking pills
All making pain.
Im feeling ill
But it’s the same.



I like to feel to stretch but not to break
I like to feel to be able to grow very short.
I'd like to go to a time were I can be old.
I need to see how to feed before you starve me bold.



Tucked under my flaky skin
Burns to be let in.
Im my blood drunk from a tap
Im a wasted and flooded sap.

You’re my super drug
Just one and im there.
You’re my only love
Who knows I don’t care.
Im not worthy of you
But still I do dare.
Why don’t I have a clue?
But I do know I care.


Im on my own left out again,
Im at my home stranger in a pen.
Im on my own left out again,
Im all alone without my friend.
Im on my own left out again,
Im stuck alone kissing my pain.


MIXTURE 2

Its quiet out
I think the storms passed
There’s a riot out       
It’s all in the past



Fuck shit with dick up Asses
Butterflies spill their guts for me      
Rape pig’s virginity and be glad
Bury it all in red blood sea



Makes me feel like ice in glass
Take the fail before it pass
Had a whisper in the back           
Hangs upon his death dealt rack

With a bang, by a man
With a bang, for a man

Drink vomit the glass empty
Had enough of whats plenty
Ride the house on wheels of greed
We all start of from seed.

With a bang, by a man
With a bang, for a man
With a bang, bang, bang
My turn to hang hang hang



Children’s eyes spit at me
Wish a gun lets drink pee        

Let it be
Let it be
Let it be
Be me (x6)




She’s in me she’s right there,
I feel it its in here.        
I see her there she goes,
I feel it but who knows.

Cut it out.
Shut it out.
Slut get out. (x3)



Hello and hello again
My oldest friend new
That was a long time coming        
But yeah it’s all true



It’s keeping me just right
They’re holding me very tight
And then through the darkness
I hope it will be tonight
That we all fight
                  
Darkness darkness darkness’
In you my light
Holy light (x3)




Up shit creek without a paddle
On the bull without a saddle
Take a dip in a lave pool        
Used fake money im a fool


PACT

Even my demons have to cry
But then again why must I?
Even the fallen still can die
Inside their lovers eye.

When time is gone and night is day
All shall talk of the feelings they play.
In life or death we all act
The thoughts are given from the endless pact.

Ever is the way I must go
Never can my feelings truly shine.
Deep within my home and show
Beyond the reaches of mortal time

When time is gone and night is day
All shall talk of the feelings they play.
In life or death we all act
The thoughts are given from the endless pact.


PATIENTLY PATIENT

Stick a wire on his head
Read on screen what is not said?
Take his heart from his chest
Rape, cut then burn the rest

Patiently a patient
Waiting in a bed
Patiently being patient
Wishing to be dead

Stick a wire on his head
Read on screen what is not said?
Take his heart from his chest
Rape, cut then burn the rest


PEASY

Whats that smell
Im not easy
I couldn’t tell
She was sleazy.
What the hell
It was peasy
I couldn’t tell
Im not easy.
Im not well
She would tease me
Im feelin’ swell
Im not easy ey ey ey ey ey ey ey ey

And all you wanted was a turn
Well now it’s your time to fucking squirm.


PLANS

Being different is seen as bad
Bad is being the same.
Intelligence only gets you plans
But plans aren’t intelligent

Planning is demanding


PRIESTLY DESPENSES

Do the chores as before
Run away and fuck a whore
Steal a car and kill a few
Burn a church and marry a Jew

Priestly dispenses
Licker fences
Sweetly assumed
Badly perfumed

Heal a dieing mans plight
Have a shout and start a fight
Swap your past with another’s
Have the worst and marry lovers

Priestly dispenses
Licker fences
Sweetly assumed
Badly perfumed

Make a mend of whats right
They hold each other tight
We swear to be asleep
Lost down below the deep

Priestly dispenses
Licker fences
Sweetly assumed
Badly perfumed

Do the chores as before
Run away and fuck a whore
Steal a car and kill a few
Burn a church and marry a Jew



RACIAL SKIN

Hate the Jew spick and nigger
Shallow grave to bury its digger
Kill the pounce proud and swine
Pay the law and skip the fine

Complaints of a racial
Withdrawals for a facial
Razored authority
Blistered serorority

Racial complaint
Straight A saint
My racial skin
Wear it within


SO SO

You’re so hyper
Still im as weak as an unborn baby
I cling and depend on you
I will become fetal matter if im not cared for
You’re always jumping
Sometimes im jumping over in my head
But it’s a bad thing for me
I will take my life and yours if I have to
You’re so gone
High as a light cloud and horny too
Im so bored again
It’s making me so slow and controlled once more
Im of with another
You’re too you
Im not me
This is over and im gone once more
You’re all different
Im not like our group anymore
I haven’t changed but im not the same
Im of now so long, so so.


SOME

Someone has your fingerprints
Someone has your eyes.
Somewhere in a world beyond fake
I see past your lies.

Someone's sleeping in your head
Someone hears your thoughts.
Someone has the love you make
And all the clothes you bought.


LESSONS

Nobody lessons
Nobody lessons
Nobody lessons
Lessons for me.

Somebody teacher
Somebody teacher
Somebody teacher
Teach her for me


TEA REASON

At the time I had a reason
Now I don’t know.
Maybe caused by treason
I let my rage grow
                   
Sweet treason
Tell me your reason.
Good bye my reason
Im not going to miss you (x2)


TRANSPLANT

Transparently transplanted
Cut inside my head
Removal of remedy
Patient in a bed

Take a pill you'll feel fine
Stay in bed rest a while       
Blood we'll spill all in time
Cut of head with a smile

Swear to be asleep
Out cold to hear the world
Yet doctors help as clear
As a double edged sword


UGLY

I think im ugly
I don’t even care.
So I just lied
Im of to swear.

I like girl
Girl like me.
Girl and I
Wouldn’t be.

I know im bad
In all that I do.
Still im so glad
That I’ve lost you.


I like girl
Girl like me.
Girl and I
Shouldn’t be.


VOICES

Never knew
What was in store?
So true,
You are a whore.

Open eyes and see the truth,
I'll go along with this.
Lie some more and tie the noose,
Fuck it, ill have bliss.

Curved and round with the dark in places,
This is how I see their faces.
Widened eyes to glare at me and my,
Voices in head are saying you should die.


WAR FAIR

Wrong words he said,
It doesn’t mean the worst.
A plan that’s designed and misled,
Now makes his conscious cursed.

I tricked the master to being a slave and now im on the run
I was only faster in telling the shrouded truth for fun.
I gave it all and ran past her, spat on sacred pun
I know the last hour will belong to the evil alien mum.

Wright moves are played,
Advance go back two places.
Small babies are slaved,
To serve our foreign races.

I tricked the master to being a slave and now im on the run
I was only faster in telling the shrouded truth for fun.
I bled and said the rest to all but master and then told none
I fled the head of an enemy disaster and now im on the run.

General on patrol,
Fall down victims.
General steals the dole,
To pay for his victims.

General war fair
General war fair.


WINDOW

I hear rain on my window,
I fear pain from my bimbo.
I paste you onto my lips,
I'll waste you then fuck your hips.

Stole a finder
Souls are kinder
YEAH (x6)

I see blood on my finger,
Lick it up wont let it linger.
And I see blood on her legs,
Coming from her factory of eggs.

Stole a finder
Souls are kinder
YEAH (x6)

Im sorry my girl there’s a fine line between reality,
Im sorry my girl but there’s a world between you and me.


WITH OUT YOU

Are you really gone?
Or did I imagine that.
I really can’t tell
I wasn’t with my body for most of it,
Stay please (x2)

Without you im just a shape and a lonely view
Whispers of a word and a senseless clue.
That’s what I am
Without you (x2)



ANYTIME

Anytime tomorrow I’ll feel fine,
Plenty of sorry to ease my crime.
Soon I’ll forget and feel good as new,
Soon I’ll regret having ever lost you.
It's just that im evil and I cared,
It’s because I love you that made me so scared.
Im sorry im just not quite right,
Be sorry, I really love it when we fight.

Over and over we go,
In our minds the world moves slow.
Were never gona be ok,
Never gona be ok.


MY FIRST

Im in my head again,
Knew that it would be then.
Were on top once more,
I’ve lost the plot my whore.
We spent all night each year,
The cost was mighty dear.
And now I leave it all,
In life im gona fall.

And my first,
My hearse,
My first,
My ahh.

I slept and went away,
To look for a better day.
Inside this open case,
That’s behind a secret place.
Threw all we gave and took,
Im sure we killed the crook.
On average I don’t care,
A lie I told right there.

And my first,
My hearse,
My first,
My ahh.

In closing I will say;
Sleep well tonight and may
You have a better chance,
Than me in my romance.
And may your health be well,
For im just feeling swell.
So many lies ive told,
Why must it all be old?

And my first,
My hearse,
My first,
My ahh.

Ahh.


WHO’S INSIDE MY SHADOW?

I don’t know who I see beside me anymore,
Or on every mirror painted inside my head.
And parallel words collide with the truth,
In all that’s thought but never gets said.

Im aware of my past and my place in life,
And of how Im trying to write my future.
Made from old dreamful hopes and wishes,
Of how cleverly I am still all too unsure.

I understand how to achieve what I want,
Yet I’m restless as to even try and grasp it.
And by caressing my soul in sadness and hell,
I can slightly avoid all but a single bit.
Loneliness.

I don’t know who I see beside me anymore,
No matter how hard I try to see beyond the truth.
I used to see a lover and a secret place,
Where in times of need I could seek solitude.
There use to be a person who would scoop me up,
Telling me of how love would never end for us.
Now there’s a distant and fading memory,
A blistered belief that we will be together again.
I just guessed I had hoped to be more than simple,
I really would have liked to have been more than I am.
Talent would help and more so I would love to be me.
Not trying to be a universally hated man of lies.


Chorus to song!

im not heavy im light
im not wrong when im right.
Im not sure if we can
and im not really your man.


CHORDS FOR A SONG

Am then C then E then G

Pattern is down P.M. down up down up (change chord)
Down P.M. down up down up (change chord)
Down P.M. down up down up (change chord)
Then down down up down up down up! Then back to start

Other song

Am then g

Strummed like Soundgardens Blow Up the outside

Down down v

Lyrics- The Way Things Are

I guess it’s just the way things are
No one meant for it to go this far.
I know in time we will be glad
For all these things that now make us mad.
If I could change it I would
But don’t really know if I should.
I guess, we guess that,
It’s just the way things are.
I guess, we guess that,
Its just the way things are.


WHY?

Why are you here?
And where should I be.
I can’t find my sleep,
There’s no one here for me.

Why do you stay?
And what should I feel.
I feel our hurting,
Yet never shall it heal.

Why do you linger, alone in this place?
Why do you wait, with grief stricken face?
What must I do, what can I ever say
To show I love you, more and more each day.


Well if you read any of those then you have officially got no life, well lol that or you just got really bored, really, really ,really bored :D

I noticed tht alot of other people had these quiz things on their pages and that made me feel segregated (yeah thnkx alot for that) so i decided to make my own but kinda lost interest in that straight away so i just got one and filled it out :D enjoy i guess.



(1) Your gender: male...female....male....shemale......donkey...
(2) Straight/gay/BI?: straight..nah im really a tranny granny posing as a teenage boy, ooh damm you now know my deepest secret how foolish of me to let you know!
(3) Single?: single and looking for someone...or something i aint that fussy, lol beggars cant be choosers!
(4) Want to be?: A famous musician (lame i know but its what i want, well apart from a wife and kids which is lamer when you think about it, hey i just want to be a dad ok)
(5) Your birthday: feb 10th in the year before the dawn of time.....1989 then :D
(6) Age your act: 16
(7) Age you wish you were: 1,000,000
(8) Your height: 5'8 and one tinyer bit taller than my dad so that tall
(9) The color of your eyes: blue (well azure blue)
(10) Happy with it?: i aint complaining so yeah.
(11) The color of your hair: bllonde origionally, then brown, then black red and blonde, then bright red, then blue and green, now black
(12) Happy with it?: yeah, kinda miss me natural blpnde locks so itl do.....for now lol
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: right
(14) Your living arrangement?: livin with my dad and sister and brother
(27) Your family: dad,3 sisters and 3 brothers
(29) What's your job: Work on a shop floor and in a band
(30) Piercing?: not yet but want lip and eyebrow done and nipple and everywere i can go to, lol ooh yeah 'everywere'
(31) Tattoos?: Yeh when im a little older, really just havent decide what i want yet to be honest
32) Obsessions?: music (both listening and creating, i.e. band), xtreme cycling, mountain boarding, girls, alco, kittens lol and others too
(35) Do you speak another language?: i invented a language when stoned once, does that count??
(36) Have a favorite quote?: "No one dies a virgin, the world fucks us all" "I'd punch you but shit splatters" "Love is both the sword and the shield" "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder" "Your living on the edge, wheras i fell of a long time ago" "I'd rather be hated for who i am than liked for what i am not" and my fav one of all "hello" aww its so good lol
(37) Do you have a WebPage?: not yet


DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it...ahh love, life, masterbation, death, hmm wht the sweet fuck, ewe thts just wrong...nah not really its ok i guess :D


(38) Do you live in the moment?: yeah..always
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Well yeah just until they really aggrivate or piss me off, but i uess even then i'd still be tolerant....until i get my army of ninja kittens, ooh then youre all pure fucked!
(40) Do you have any secrets?:of course, everyone does...well thsi one time...nah sorry wudn be a secret if i said!
(41) Do you hate yourself?: not all the time but yeah at times i do, i hate mainly appearence and just silly little things to be honest.
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: Its alright i guess..jesus what the hell kind of a lame question si that, who the hell stays awake at night cursing their sloppy floppy handwriting, fuck man get a life!
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: yeah Plenty unfortunatley,i swear way too much is just one of them, alco, speaking my mind blah fuckity blah!
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: "Aww your such a good hugger" meh i dont kno if i am caus i cant hug me!
(45) If a movie were made about your life, what would it be called?: To Shit To Make A Movie
(46) What's your biggest fear?: Bears and huge machinery like oil rigs, lol im am weird i know!
(47) Can you sing: Yeh but not very well, i do vocals for the band
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: no, i am me and even if at time i dont like that fact i would never be someone i aint.
(49) Are you a loner?: No thank fuck, though i do believe geeks are just like us WOAH GEEKS UNITED!! Lol :D
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: definatley, without sounding too big headed, i duno, id just wanna see what makes me tick and bleed and all tht othr crap, im curious all the time!
(52) Are you a daredevil?: Ahh most of the time yeah, actually im up for pretty much anything so yeah!
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: aggressive and passive....ish...
(55) Have you got a question?: yeh, why is it that if you brush your teeth and then drink cranberry juice it tastes like liquorice??
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness?: My strength would prob by my attitude and level of determination, my weakness is that im a sucker for my friends, always wanting to help!
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself? Probably my appearence and mentality.
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: love, through both being creative and beautiful, heh heh i used all three then!!
(59) How do you vent?: Grabbing a guitar and blasting out a loud song whilst screeching vocals along to it.
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: pretty damm strong yeah...i mean i think...oh god...im a wreck arent i...AHHH I KNEW IT....ohh im a mentally disturbed child hood wanna be wreck...
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: a lot of things really, everyday little things happen and afterwards i just think fuck i should have done this or that.
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: At times it has, but others no way. For alot of reasons really, life, family just that kind of stuff you know!
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: To never judge a person and to see everyone as equals, i could go over and talk to the school stud and then go to a group of loners and have as much respect for what the loners are saying as i would the stud, actually prob more for the l's! and yes smart asses there can be groups of loners......even tho it defeats the purpose of the title as in to be alone...shit thts scientific, christ look what you've reduced me to now!!!
(64) What is a good feature of your body?: ahh ok and these are what im told so dont think im being a self prasiing wanker, my eyes, ass and body, yes even tho i aint proud of it or never do i ever flaunt it i am buff as fuck, pack, abs the works.... :S
(65) And least? my fingers, i want longer fingers to be able to play quicker and faster and to improve my soloing when we do gigs!
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: No in all honesty i do not think i am, if anything im average or below....more to the below side of things....alot more....
(67) Are you confident?: No not all the time, really it depends,ahem drunk or not drunk type of depends lol :P
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: WOnderwoman, lol :D woah you go girl friend!
(69) Do people know how you feel?: not really, i aint an open book and even if i was i would blot the pages with ink and blood.
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: Not often, i always be me so when people meet me they just tell im relaxed and can pretty much assume what im like, however i hate it when you have been assumed wrongly!!


DO YOU...smoke....eat....sniff people....


(71) Smoke?: yes..unfortunatly, its ok i guess, i aint too hardocre...ok so maybe i am...kinda...yeah i am.....
(72) Do drugs?: yes unfortunatley!! :S
(73) Read the newspaper?: Sorta, if you count glancing at the pics the odd day readn it.
(74) Pray?: no, not since about twelve years ago, for somewhat personal reasons!
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: Definatley, i love meeting new people!
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: no!! lol not entirely...i have had these two teddies since i was born and i have them on the shect beside my bed so they will always be with me no matter how old i get or whrer and who i live with, theyre just a part of me!
(78) Take walks in the rain?: Well since rain is all we seem to get in Ireland yeah all the time, specially if its thunder!
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: no..i am honest about that kinda thing!
(80) Drive?: yeah its alright
(81) Like to drive fast?: Not really, doesnt deliver as good a buzz as id hoped it to!


HAVE YOU EVER...married two gay monkeys illegally....


(82) Liked your voice?: yeah, i kinda need to to be able to sing comfortably. But like the odd day i hate it to bits!
(83) Hurt yourself?: Yeah im a self confessed cutter..but i havent in fuck knows how long so i mgetting there!
(84) Been out of the country?: well alot of times but it was mainly on gigs and all that!
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: yeah i made a sherbert, egg, ham, chocolate sauce, fizzy drink pizza once lol, no one ate it but me :D
(86) Burped?: All the time, and it dont matter who is around me i just let it out and im proud of that :)
(87) Been unfaithful?: No, i can honestly say i have never been unfaithful, tho for me it seems to be a trend that teh lover im with finds it alright ot not only go of with others, but to fuck them, lol its not liek i dont deliver enough ;P if ya know what i mean!
(88) Been in love?: not too sure on this one!
(89) Done drugs?: Yes i have
(90) Gone skinny-dipping?: No but will before i die so ill get back to you on that one, hey btw who are you?
(92) Had a surgery?: no, and hopefully wont. well i was down for a brain transplant but turns out thats not possible and im severly in need of it!
(93) Ran away from home?: yeah for about an hour then i got hungry plus it was cold! :P
(94) Played strip poker?: yeah..we cheated so the girls would lose!!
(95) Gotten beaten up?: yeah
(97) Been picked on?: yeah
(98) Been on stage?: Yeah, ii like being on stage both drama and band related
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning?:not that i know of!!
(100) Slept outdoors?: yeah i love camping and all that but more just living rouf, never been camping more than once but ived rouf for fuck knows how many years, no not nights, but years!
(101) Thought about suicide?: only thought about it but never taken it further
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?:more than that, about a weeker if you wanna know!
(103) If yes, what is your record?: li just said a week plus you rehab...i officially do not fuck like you you repetative dick..head...lover!
(104) Gone one day without food?: a shit load, i only weigh 10 stone, actually alot less, im size 30 waist!
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: yeah to my girl friend or x of a while ago
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: yeah, actualy it was really nice
(107) Slept all day? Lol i do that most days
(108) Killed someone?:Yeah but its a secret so dont tell anyone.....please :D
(109) Made out with a stranger?:yeah
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: No, i always make it a rule to ask their name!
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: No cause i am
(112) Kissed the same sex?: no
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no!!
(114) Been betrayed?: yes alot of times. i had to go do work experence for 2 weeks and when i got back shed slept with abou five other dudes!! i had so many oppertunaties to do likewise in Belfast but didnt, i stayed faithful!
(115) Had a dream that came true?: yeah..it was a good one too
(116) Broken the law?: yeah alot actually!
(117) Met a famous person?: yeah
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: yeah..a rabbit and a pigeon!
(146) Stolen anything?: yeah alot candy as a kid and food as i got older
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: yeah
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: yeah and it was deadly!
(149) Had a nervous breakdown? not yet..but its coming!!
(150) Considered religious vocation?: no...what the fuck does that mean anyway!
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: no..thankfully, im pretty god dam ample and lets just say most of the people ive been with have had multiples so WOAH!
(152) Bungee jumped?: no
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: yeh recurring nightmares happen quite alot to me!


CLOTHES and other fashion

(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: baggy jeans/chords (darkish), shirt or t'shirt, top on top then, or a hodie, so liek shirt and top (white shirt black top) or tshirt and hoodie)!
(159) Wear hats?: yeah quite a lot
(160) Judge other people by their clothing?:nope, clothes are a means of defense for some people so its fine by me what the ywear....hmm and if some dudets wanna wear nothn then thts ok too lol :P
(161) Wear make-up? : once when i dresses up as a woman and my dad thought it was my sister kenda when he saw the photos, and then again at a friends party an some gigs, lol alot then!
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: my Kurt hoodie which is over ten years old!
(164) Are you trendy?: i wear what i like and feel comfortable in, to be honest i dont care what other people think!!
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: no..who would??


BELIEFS...and all tht other crap!

(175) Love at first sight?: yes, im counting on this one!
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? yeah i have so far and always will!
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: No, lol i've tried to find it and its just not do able.
(181) Do you wish on stars?: no
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: ooh doo buggery i just shit myself i was that afraid!
(183) Do you remember your first love?: yeah
(184) Still love her?: kinda, bit confuses on that one!
(185) Do you consider love a mistake: no!!
(186) What do you find romantic?: Just being with someone who you can have a laugh with and talk with about anything, thats always nice but sex is just an added bonus. If my girl asked me to wait til after marriage i would!!
(187) Turn-on?: Girls who feel confident about themselves, black eyeliner *aww drools*, pretty eyes, eyes are the doorway to the soul so if the eyes are good then the girl is great :D
(188) Turn-off?: girls who only care about their looks and have to be the it girl!!
(189) Do you base your judgement on looks alone: no..never have never will!!
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating, expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: Happy, sad, guilty, very confident, regretful
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating him or her or going on a date: hard to say, its great getting to know someone but also its great already knowing them and having a level you can connect on, a special bond
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: i didnt know it wasnt!!
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: Ok stop the fuck here, and who ever is reading this listen closley, everyone is absaloutly fuckn beautiful, beauty is in the eye of the beholder, so no one is ever, ever fuckn ugly or unnatractive!
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: hopefully!!
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: They are honest and open, truthful and emotional and the ydont end every sentance with a 'dude sweet' fallowed by a punch or headbutt!
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: Well some of them are very bitchy and two faced, some not all now but like having said that so are we so i dont really know!
(207) What's the last present someone gave you?: A shopkeeper gave me some free posters and a guitar pick
(208) Are you in love?: No not at the moment, just finished with ms "five timer"
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: yeah!! Drop dead gorgeous!!
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot girl standing on her own?: Go over and say high and if she seems alright talk away!


WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...

(211) That haunted you?: My pet rabbit i killed
(212) You wanted to kill?: my dad
(213) That you laughed at?: my dad
(214) That laughed at you?: My sis kenda, she saw me fall and bang my balls on a metal bar!
(215) That turned you on?: the mirror, lol ewwe nah it was a friend drunken stripping, i walked in half way threw it and about four of her so called best male mates were taking advantage of her for being drunk and ordering her to do it, i got her down fro mthe table and took her out and got her clother again, it totally turned me on but i still hate the fuckers for taking advantage of her like that!
(216) You went shopping with?: My older sister for clothes for her, i payed too!!
(217) That broke your heart?: Ms. five fucker
(218) To disappoint you?: Ms five fucker
(219) That you asked out?: Blondie Sarah
(220) To make you cry?: Blondie sarah
(221) To brighten up your day?: My sister Sarah
(222) That you thought about?: Ms five fucker
(225) You talked to through IM?: Quite alot of people!
(223) You saw a movie with?: A huge crowd of friends!!
(224) You talked to on the phone?: Just this random stalker dude
(226) You saw?: My dad as i had to give him the phone back
(227) You lost?: My sis sarah, she has gone to uni!!
(229) You thought was completely insane?:The person who i see in the mirror (o.O)
(230) You wanted to be?: Apart from just me Kurt Cobain i guess, lol not in a gay way now!!
(231) You told off: Keith, he kicked me in the privates twice people, VERY SORE!!
(232) You trusted?: Hatty, she's the one i like too!
(233) You turned down?:dunno
(234) Smiled?: few seconds ago
(235) Laughed?: Just a little bit ago
(236) Cried?: cant rememberto be honest
(237) Bought something?: today, food and other things lol!
(238) Danced?: Tongiht, more like freaked out whilst jamming on guitar
(239) Were sarcastic?: im always sarcastic, lol or am i!
(240) hugged someone?: few hours ago, I love huggn both dudes and dudets!!
(241) Talked to an ex?: Today at school
(242) Watched your fave movie?:Well im about to tongiht so, well ok so its more like the end of it!
(243) Had a nightmare?: Last night
(245) Talked on the phone?: Half an hour ago
(246) Listened to the radio?: right now
(247) Watched TV?: A little bit ago
(248) Went out?:? This morning
(250) Were mean?: today lol
(251) Sang?: An hour ago whilst playing
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: last week!!
(253) Said "I love you"?: cant remember really, prob a week ago
(254) Missed someone?: My sis sarah, i need her for support alot!
(255) Fought with a family member?: always..with my lil sis
(256) Fought with a friend?:week or so ago
(257) Had a serious conversation?: all the time
(258) Got drunk?: im tryin right now!!
(259) Had sex?: today at lunch time lol!!
(260) Been kissed?: Today...all over :P


Well if you read any of that then well done, it was prob pure shit but ah well sry i bored you....not really im glad for it :P



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