Alright so my name is James and im 18 years old. I in the navy to become a navy seal. I want to go back to school and become a lawyer. I have been through a term at LCC for criminal justice. I love the practice and I like everything about the subject. I love to ride quads and streetbikes. I want to get a 2009 Yamaha R6 and a 2009 YFZ 450. I am going to start saving up for both of them right now. I am unemployed right now but I am searching. I like to just kick it with friends, go to movies, and just have a good time. I like to go to Taboo as of late and just have fun. I like to dance and I have been trying to learn some hip hop moves and such. not the best at it but it'll come to me. Im a pretty simple guy though. I like to meet new people and get to know them. If you want to know anything about me just ask. Im open but it depends on if I feel I can trust you. I have trust issues but I am quick to forgive but I wont forget. I met a girl at the club this weekend and I want to get to know her better. I think she likes me as well but we'll see how things go. My mom passed away when I was 5 and my dad when I was 14. I love to paintball and I shoot an Invert Mini and an Ion. I love to drive and my dream car is a 1998 Toyota Supra Twin Turbo. I have so many things that I want to do to the car if and when I get it.

      This is something I wrote for a girl I knew for 3 days.
      This is in my myspace blog

The other night something happened to me that never has before. There was a moment where nobody else existed. Nobody else mattered. It was just us. For those moments that we were one I just didn't care about anything that was happening around us. Oblivious to the music, to the people, to the time, to the world. Once we became one person it was like we weren't people at all but more of a soul. For me it was a complete soul. Something that I have been looking for since I was a kid. When she looked up at me and I looked down at her I just pulled her close and went with it. I gave it everything I had and did the best I could. I don't know if anything would ever be as perfect in my life again that was as perfect as our first kiss. I didn't realize what was going on around me because the only thing that I heard, the only thing that I felt was her heartbeat, was my heartbeat. Knowing somebody for as little time as I have her this may seem crazy but it's amazing what a single kiss can do to two people. I wish I could have found out why it was me that she picked but I don't need to know anymore. I just need to remember that feeling of pure bliss for that period of time. When our lips touched things emptied and never came back. All my memories of my past kisses were nothing compared to the memory I have now. I wouldn't change that for anything in the world. Nothing could compare to the passion that was in that kiss. Nothing could compare to the look in her eye. Just that little twinkle that makes you realize that she could be somebody that could give you more than just the best first kiss.Possibly somebody that gave you the last first kiss of your life. Im not an obsessive person but I have to get this out. Love at first sight does exist. True love does exist. I long for the next time that our lips meet. I don't wanna have to set that feeling free...so don't make me. I don't wanna know what another woman's kiss feels like. I just want your hand in mine. I just want our hearts to be one. I would show you how you truely deserve to be treated.Not because of your beauty or because of your heart but because of what you do to me. Nights seem to linger on just taunting me with your return. Anticipating our next meeting. I must only wonder though, have I pushed this too quickly? Have I put you in an akward state? I think I have and I apologize to you with everthing I am. I just want you to know that when I see you I won't be clingy. I will give you the room that you need, that you desire. But know that your my desire. Your what I want in life because of our commonalities and our personalities. So perfect for each other that its sometime scary to think of what may happen if I do something wrong. Could I lose you? If I ever have you. Could I hurt you? If your ever mine. Could I be the last one? Who knows. Could you be the only one that could possibly do the things you do to me? yeah your the only one. As long as I still hold that hope in my heart that we may someday be together then there is nothing that could turn me away from you, from us, from your heart, from our friendship. There is nothing that could keep me from your lips. Keeping you close in my arms is something that would never change. Having you fall asleep in my arms by just listening to my heartbeat because your the only person that can make my heart beat faster and slower at the same time. I would like you to see me in the same way that I see you. I want you to see me as an angel that has been sent to you to show you the true meaning of love. True love. I want to embrace you with my wings of love and keep you safe from the temptations of lust and desire. I want you to know that no matter what happens nothing could possibly come between us and nobody could break that bond. Now that you have read my heart and soul I would like you to read my lips when I say this. When I grab you close and pull you in tight and slowly bend down to whisper sweet nothings into your just know that your the only one that will ever make me believe. I believe that things happen for a reason. When I grab you and look into your eyes, know that I speak the truth everytime I say those three little words and kiss you. I want you to know that no matter how long it takes I would wait till the end of eternity to have your hand in mine. I would give you the moon if you asked for it. I would give you my word that your the only person in my life that truely means the world to me. I hope I get that chance one day. May not be tomorrow, may not be next week but if you truely believe and get to know the real me then I will get my chance. I would give you that corey and topanga kind of love. I would give you the love that you deserve. I would give you my soul because I know that you would never do anything to break it. When I met you I was just sitting there and I never thought that I would be graced with the beauty of someone such as you. Things in this life will go wrong and things may get hard but I will always stand by your side for all of time.
When you look into my eyes what do you see?
Do you see your future, or do you see your past?
Do you see your desires and wants or do you see your reflection?
When I gaze into your entrancing eyes I see the life that I have so dreamed of having and I have wanted for so long. I see happiness and hope. I see somebody who cannot begin to fathom the meaning of lucky. I see in those beautiful eyes the rays of hope gleaming on a lake of endless possibilities. However when I look in the mirror I see something that I have never seen before. I see a newfound confidence and respect for myself that I never could of dreamed of having. I see the person I want to become and I see the things that I never thought I would achieve. I have found out that through a life of harsh love and tough realizations that anything is possible given the chance to shine.
I see in the reflection the person that my parents would be proud of. Somebody who has overcome unsurmountable odds and has gained a great deal of respect for everything in this world. I see me.
When I see you I get this feeling in my stomach that I wish I had all the time because its a feeling of security and sanctity. When I am with you I know that I don't have to show off or try to impress you. I know that if it's meant to be you'll see me for who I am. I have written my feelings down before and burned them so nobody could see them but this I want the world to see because it shows that no matter the appearance of somebody on the outside it's the inside and the truth that really makes a person who they are. I have so much more to say and so little time to say it because the feelings that I feel for you cannot be described in a million lifetimes. Put very simply but ever so delicately you are my future. You are the one who can put back the pieces that have been shattered into a million. When you see somebody who you have no clue who they are and you talk to them first impression is everything. The impression that you gave me was that you were there to have a good time. I had no idea that I would grow to like you this much. I never thought that somebody of your beauty and grace would ever in my lifetime and beyond be so kind as to show me the true meaning of love at first sight. To show me that it's not who gave you the scars in your life but how you have overcome the fact that they're there. You have shown me in these past few days that true beauty is not on the outside but on the inside. In your case your as gorgeous and amazing on the outside as you are on the inside. Know that I am only human and my heart can only handle so much loss in this life...so I must ask you this. Who's kissin you tonight? Will it be me? I know that I am tough but if it's not meant to be then by all means don't delay. Tell me today. Will I be able to show you how a kind and gentle soul can give so much to the person that he's head over heels for? 
But who woulda thought that all these feelings and emotions would start with such a simple thing as the last first kiss of the rest of my life....



If you read this know that this is my hopes and dreams that you have given me. You have given me the hope that TRUE LOVE does exist.

James Nicholas Caraveo (Oct. 23 2008 at 1:59 A.M.)