MAYBE YOU SHOULD KEEP OUT IM NOT THAT HAPPY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    ((((THIS IS A LONG BIO SO IF U DONT LIKE IT.....UMMMMM T**O**U**G***H)))))))

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when death finally welcomes me i will laugh and my angelic wisdom will comfort me :P

I KNOW LIFE IS VERY DIFFICULT FOR ME RIGHT NOW BUT I WILL FIND MY LIGHT AND HAVE IT CARRY ME HOME



 One Simple Mistake You forgot protection what have you done
 

   what now ?? oh gosh a baby on the way 

  will be born now will the care and love be found 

   i doubt it and i dont see how 

all the fighting going on while the baby is inside 

not knowing the danger and fear hid outside 

finding out years later mother was a drug fean and so was dad the best
darn parents u thought u had 

One Simple Mistake One Comman Flaw

u forgot to use a condom remember that now all?? 

then on that kool august day a baby girl was born 

6 pds very small indeed found out mother was a drug feen 

SO NOW THE BATTLE MARCHES ON ...... 

THE BABY GROWS UP IN A SINGLE PARENT HOME SCARED AND ALL ALONE 

ONE DAY WHEN THE BABY TURNS 5 "MOMMY SHE ASKS IS MY DADDY ALIVE?? 

u forgot to use a condom remember that now all?? 

MOMMY GOES LOOKING FOR LOVE IN ALL THE WRONG PLACES BABYGIRL LEFT WITH
STRANGE FACES 

MOMMY FOUND A NEW LOVE FORGET THE OLD ONE BABY GIRL FINDS OUT MOMMYS GOT
A SON
KEEPING IT IN THE FAMILY IS WHAT MOMMY HAS DONE :( NOW RACHIE HAS A STEP
BROTHER AND
REALIZES SHES LOST HER MOTHER  

THE BABY GIRL GROWS UP:..... AND THE TENDER AGE OF 5 FIVE OR BABY GIRL
WILL NOT BE ALIVE...
.GRANDPARENTS COME AND THEY GO GRANDMA CROSEY LOST IN THE FLOWERS BELOW 

u forgot to use a condom remember that now all?? 

BABY GIRL TURNS 13 AND GUESS WHAT BABY GIRL THE TROUBLE HAS SEEN THE POLICE
COME AND THERE SHE
GOES NOONE KNOWS THE PAIN IN HER EYES EVERYONE MOVES IN
A CIRCLE NOT KNOWING WHAT SHES THINKIN 

baby girl turns 16 today shes supose to get her lisence but finds out she
cannot a dream a
hope forever flat now what the hell is up with that more trouble then this
life is worth not
caring and giving up on her catholic birth??? grandpa dies this tear
everyday a puddle of tears
giving up her religion and giving it all away just to be with her
grandfather one more day "
i didnt say goodbye she says with a cry!!!" im giving it all up becuz
they took u away if
god knew how much i loved u WHY THE HELL WOULD HE DO THIS TO ME ???? 
im giving it all up
and i curse his name i will never believe in him and on that i pray curse
his name i have given
up no more religion or church for me no more holidays nomore GOD I SHUNE
HIS NAME I DONT CARE
HE IS TO BLAME IM GIVIN IT ALL UP I DONT BELIEVE MY ONE AND ALL VOW I LL
NEVER BELIEVE IN GOD
NO HOW .....
  THE PAIN SHE CRYS AT HIS GRAVE THE PAT WITH THE DEVIL IS WHAT SHES
MADE
TURNING HER LIFE FROM GOOD TO BAD CURSING HER FATHER AND MOTHER AND THE
MISTAKE THEY HAD
 

BABY GIRL TURNS 18 TODAY MET A GUY SHE THOUGHT WOULD STAY HA HA THATS
A LIE ALL
THE ABUSE AND TOUTURE??? YEAH THATS HOW I WANNA SPEND LIFE UNTILL I TRY
WITH A KNIFE TO END
MY LIFE.....
I MET SOME GREAT PEOPLE THIS YEAR BUT MY PAINS AND ANGERS AND TEARS HAVE
DRIVEN THEM AWAY THEY
DO NOT WANNA STAY???? I LOST A FEW TO DEATH WITH CAUSED ME PAIN I LOST
SOME TO A TEMPER I HAD
NOTHING TO GAIN WHY DO THINGS HAVE TO BE THIS WAY LONELY WORLD I DONT
WANNA PLAY!!!!!!!!!!! 

BABY GIRL TURNS 20 TODAY A LL ALONE WITH NOONE...... HER TEMPER HAS DRIVEN
THEN AWAY
ONCE AGAIN A BLADE SHE TRIES TO USE ALONE AND ABUSED HER BEST FRIENDS IN JAIL
HER OTHER FRIEND
DOESNT KNOW SHE EXSIST HE LIVES IN HIS OWN WORLD FAR FROM THE MISDT OF TEARS
HES BETTER OFF HE
THINKS WHILE SHE SITS IN A PUDDLE OF BLOOD AND TEARS
SHE HASNT GIVEN UP AND SHE HOPES HE FORGIVES HER BUT SHE KNOWS SHE HAS TO
SHOW IT MORE
ALCHOLE HAS BECOME HER BEST FRIEND REPLACING THE OLD SHES TRIED TO DO ....
BABY GIRL TURNS 21.............HELL GUESS WHAT >>>?????? HER LIFE IS DONE..
.... THATS WHAT
SHE HOPES FOR AND WONT GIVE UP TILL ITS DONE !!!! WRITEN BY RACHEAL JEAN
JUNE 08 2000 


BABY GIRL TURNS 21 TODAY THE HURT INSIDE WILL NEVER GO AWAY FORGIVING
AND FORGETTING AND MOVING
ON SO FOR NOW SHE ENDS HER SONG MAKING NEW FRIENDS AND HAVING A BROTHER
WHO LOVES HER AND FINDING
HOW HARD IT WAS TO BE A MOTHER THE SADDEST DAYS COME AND THEY GO NOT KNOWING
WHERE THE WIND WILL
BLOW SHE MET A GREAT GUY AND IN TIME THEY WILL BE TOGETHER IN THERE OWN
SPECIAL RHYME SEEING ALL
SHE HAS DONE AND AT THAT IS LOST MAKES HER BITTER COLD INTO AN NEVER ENDING
FROST WRITING HER
POEMS TO STAY ALIVE AND IN HER MEMORY SHE WILL ALWAYS BE ALIVE 

HEY shes 21 and things change
her life has been rearranged
a boyfriend who cares
new parents to show support
they dont realize how much they mean to her
things change and so it goes
the life once bad
the girl who turned a rose
and so her life moves on

again after having her heart broke she tries again
her high school sweetheart is who she fines
they have so much fun in school a chemistry almost magical
but one day mom comes home and says there is a problem
i'm pregnant and its your fault and now you dont know what to do

i have to tell my friends its time to leave school
my best friend mark is crushed my head is such a rush
so as a tear hits the ground i hear myself cry

well finally after all the pain my baby brother is born
him and i will be together till the end i love him to death
and he is the best for me but my life will never be normal again

things pass and ages grow and so time starts to show
i make new friends and loose them too but what am i to do
one day some things happen and someone is taken from me its not fair
but thats alright because i cant change it

i finally start to get my life on track get a job at a computer store
but somehow i want more and guess what it happens.....

i realize that when i go to the store mark my sweety who once was
works there but hes out that day and i tell ed to have hin stop by
thats the best thing i could ever do and yet possibly the saddest
other that that i will forever be glad

so mark stops over and summer is back and im glad once again

now things are where they should be right??

but i come home and my door is locked i have no home anymore
so marks parents let me move with him
we love each other but it gets rough
sometimes i just have enough
but i keep going

we finally celebrate 1 yr together after all the hospital visits and
what have yah Mark gets to celebrate his 21st birthday and its so funny
him in the money booth and me just laughing when a person dies things
like that just hit you

well after a basic summer of tears mark ends up making a full recovery and
im so proud he asked me to be his wife :)

so we set the day Feb. 14th 2005 at 5:30 pm the time he asked me to be
his girlfriend our guest include:
Renee Sorola --- Maid Of Honor
AAron Mocco----- Best Man
Michele Slaby---- Bride Maid
Dan Entringer--- Groomsmen

At Bridge Port Resort -----
---Keith Main Residing----

But things happen before then and we are lucky to be alive
we get in a car accident and fight to survive

everyone makes it but we are badly bruised
we are all blessed that noone dies that night

my bridal shower goes on as planned but since we needed
some humor my brother starts calling me Quazzimodo
and i look and feel horrible

but we marry and everything turns out beautiful
we have our huneymoon in florida and its ok
but i would change things and voice my opion
find out later im gonna be a mommy and tell mark
hes so scared but wishing for his babygirl

we decide we are ready to move outa the parents house
and finally get a place of our own with some help
have a huge party but i have to be careful
then sorrow strikes......
the day we lay him in the ground is the day i lost my mind

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sad things happen later
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mark ended up getting sick and i guess we will never know why
i guess it was his time to go and say goodbye
he got sad monday as i look back at the pictures
i never knew why and now i do and cry and cry
the day he left is the day i lost my mind

  
     
        Hi Im Racheal Jean
          KNOWN AS


(((panda lover))
        ((((PANDA LOVERS UNITE))))
 
Im now 26 I turned that August 29th :)
((((YEEEE I CROSSED OVER TO WITCHCRAFT AND PAGANISM IM LEARNING MY NEW WORLD DAY BYE DAY GO



I HAVE RED HAIR ON THE TOP AND BLOND AND BROWN STREAKS ON IT .....................

I AM VERY INTO POETRY AND MIGHT JUST PUT SOME ON HERE...maybe grrrrr


     ((((PROUD TO BE A VIRGO))))
         and august baby


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     [x001: Name:] Racheal Jean
[002: Nickname:] My adopted mom, RJ, Jgirl,  Jinco
[003: Country of living:] Usa
[004: Birth date:] 08/29/79
[005: Height:] 5'8
[005:Best friends:] Marnie (I LOVE HER TO DEATH SHE IS ALWAYS THE ONE PERSON I CAN COUNT ON)TRACY MY OTHER HALF I LOVE HER TO DEATH BECAUSE SHE WAS THERE WHEN MY HUSBAND DIED jessica,Erica J, Troy =) Tyler Renee Summer new friends on here
[006: Eye color:] Brown
[007: Shoe size:] 8-9
[008: School/work:]Work
[009: You smoke:] not really its really nasty for me now
[010: Hobby's:] POETRY TRYING TO STAY OUTA TROUBLE AND HANGING WITH FRIENDS MOVED HOME
[011: Brothers/Sisters:]2 Brothers ONE IS DAN HES LIKE MY PROTECTOR AND THE OTHER is my baby boy Austin --- and satins spawn (hedi)
relationship (maybe maybe not
[013: Piercing(s):] Ears and Nose PUT BACK IN YEAH BABY HANDS UP
[014: Tattoo(s):] Getting angel wings on my back and guardian angel on my arm with a rose will put up the picture (JINCOGIRL WITH A FLOWER RIGHT NOW PARTY DOTS AND A CROSS DONE BY A FRIEND OF MINE (SUMMER LEE)
[015: Vacationland:] Gonna go to Salem .
[016: Are ther people you wont reply to:] Nope ANY ONE CAN LEAVE A MESSAGE BUT IF U DONT HAY ITS YOUR LOSS
[017: Nicest person you met this year:] Tyler and Erica Eric and some others
[018: Person you rather not have met this year:] James Seymour (((that was along time ago we are trying to mend a relationship and i have forgiven him as he did me so now im happy i met him and relize you cant fix your past but you can make your future stronger ((KRISSI HARRIS STUPID LITTLE WHORE WHO OWES ME MONEY AND FUCKED UP MY LIFE)) JUSTIN LAWERENCE WHO IS A WANNA BE PLAYER AND GETS PEOPLE PREGGY AND STEALS AND SHOULD BE SHOT. DONT FUCK WITH ME there are a few other people but thats ok revenge is sweet
[019:Person you would like to meet:] Jonathon Brandis, Clair Danes, Britney Spears ALI LARTER, MICHELE BRANCH, Elle Mcpherson, ANGELINA JOLIE, Ozzy Osbourne, Julia Stiles EMINEM ,CRADLE OF FILTH
[020: Who is it that you admire:] My Grandfather and my husband
[021:Most sexy person:] ME BECAUSE IM TOLD I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL SOUL AND ALMOST EVERYONE ELSE
[022: Favorite Pajamas Eeyore or BLACK silk
[023: Favorite Car:] Mustang convertible
[024: Favorite Movie(s):] Practical Magic...
[026: Favorite City(s):] Oregon, Wisconsin Dells
[027: Favorite Plush All my aging bear and my pandabear
MY POETRY BOOK MY WITCHCRAFT BOOK
[028: Favorite Perfume/Glow and Curious BRITNEYS NEW ONE
[029: Favorite Magazine:] Nick
[030: Favorite sound:] ma music
[031: Favorite TV-series:] Futurama FAMILY GUY adultswim
[032: Favorite Writer:]VC Andrews
[034: What is on your mouse pad:] Wolf
[035: Whats under your bed:]Nothing I have a water bed frame
[036: Favorite color:] Black red dark blue and pink silver TEAL
[037: Favorite Song ever:] Right here by stained.... Broken By Seether IM LIKE BIRD BY: NELLY FURTADO
[038: Favorite song at this moment:] I'll Fly with you, IM LIKE A BIRD
[039: Favorite food:]Food in general
[040:Favourite class at school:]Pyschology
[041: Favorite drink:] Jolt Blue
[042: Lucky number:] 13
[043: What do you think is greatest about
yourself:] My personality and way about life
Im a witch
[044: What deodorant do you use:] Dove
[045: Favorite shoes:] ma Vans *off the walls* MY AIRWALKS AND MY NIKES
[046: What time do you go to bed on
workdays:] Bout 1-2am
[047: What word do you use most:] Fuck Its such a gd fuckin word it goes with fuckin evryfin in any fuckin place!
[048: Most romantic moment in your life: when my husband proposed on valentines day
SOBS : I REALLY REALLY REALLY MISS HIM
[049: Most ashamed moment of your life:] there are lots but stupidy over rules (WHAT IM IN TROUBLE FOR NOW)
[050: You spend your time rather inside or
outside:] Out
[051: What do you do in the weekends:] Hang out with mates and get MY LIFE BACK ON TRACK[052: What class in school do/did you
dislike most:] French
[053: Your Breakfast:] None
[054: What do you really really like to
eat:]Combos
[055: Pets:] KITTEN PANDORA ROSE
[056: Laugh or Dream:] Both of course
[057: Serious or funny:] Funny, hell yea!
[058: Fast or slow:] If ur talkin bout kissin slow its more romantic if u talkin bout anyfin else then depends on wat it is!
[059: You prefer being alone or have
relation:] Relation and alone
[060: Simple or complicated:] Complicated Nost of the time but hey lifes wat u make it i spose
[061: Cremate or Buried when dead:] Cremated and spread in lake michigan
[062: Sex or alcohol:] Duh Both ... at the same time lol!
[063: Stay up late or go to bed early:] Stay up late.
[064: Light or dark?:] Dark its more misleadin nd mysterious
[065: Speak or Silence:] Speak v v v loud too!
[066: Tall or Small Man:] Taller than meevrybody to think about not for me to answer xXxIf I were a profession, I'd be an psycholgist
If I were a country, I'd be australia.
If I were a ocean or body of water, I'd be the lake michigan.
If I were a piece of candy, I'd be fifth anvenue.
If I were a famous building or piece of architecture, world trade center or stonehendge.
If I were a store, I'd be hallmark.
If I were a brand of shoe, I'd be vans
If I were a bad habit, nail biting.
If I were a swear word, I'd be bitch.
If I were a ice cream flavor, I'd be peanut butter cookie dough.
If I were a disease, I'd be the kissing disease
If I were a board game, I'd be sorry.
If I were a feeling, I'd be annoyance.
If I were a president, I'd be unreachable.
If I were a war, I'd be my own war.
If I were a city, I'd be sturgeon bay.
If I were a color, I'd be yellow lightning.
If I were a celebrity, I'd be Britney Spears.
If I were a movie, I'd be The nightmare before christmas or big fish.
If I were a brand of toothpaste, lemon toothpaste.
If I were a business, I'd be a strip club
If I were a month, I'd be March to reinvent hell.
If I were a day of the week, I'd be Friday.
If I were a time of day, I'd be midnight.
If I were a planet, I'd be Uranus.
If I were a sea animal, I'd be a seahorse
If I were a direction, I'd be anyway.
If I were a piece of furniture, I'd be a a womans bicycle seat.
If I were a sin, I'd be shame.
If I were a liquid, I'd be water.
If I were a bird, I'd be a vulture.
If I were a tool, I'd be a spray hose.
If I were a flower/plant, I'd be a rose.
If I were a kind of weather, I'd be sunny, warm, and with a slight breeze.
If I were a musical instrument, I'd be a guitar.
If I were an animal, I'd be a panda bear.
If I were a vegetable, I'd be carrot.
If I were a sound, I'd be crying.
If I were an element, I'd be fire.
If I were a car, I'd be a mustang convertible.
If I were a song, Right here by stained
If I were a book, witchcraft for dummies.
If I were a food, I'd be poison.
If I were a material, I'd be silk.
If I were a taste, I'd be undetasble.
If I were a word, I'd be mundane.
If I were a body part, I'd be a cunt.
If I were a facial expression, I'd be a smirk.
If I were a shape, I'd be a octogon.
If I were a number, I'd be 13.
If I were a piece of jewelry, I'd be my 3 heart necklace.
If I were a speed, I'd be over the limit.
If I were a name, I'd be November Raeign Rage.
If I were a disorder, I'd be multiple personality disorder.
If I were a royal job, I'd kick some ass.


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