Time
Waiting
Watching with anticipation
Anxious
Circular repitition

Rushing
Time moving motivation
Eager
Repeating circulation

Controling
Lost all concentration
Braindead
Entire thought abortion
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Crazy Days
Crazy dasy come
Crazy days go
But today, oh today
Went by way to slow

For some theres people
We avoid in the hall
For me its past boyfriends
At school, 4 in all

Some days I'll see one
Rarely its two
But today, oh today
Just let me tell you

While walking to first
I bumped into one
Another right after
I wanted to run

Then going to third
My oh my there were two
If this were a trend
It was awfully new

The worst was to come
In the hall during passing
All four at once
As if tantalizing

This was worse then in class
Battle of the sexs
This was full out
Attack of the X's
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 Finding Myself
"Who are you"?
I shout to the reflection I see
A stranger
This person couln't be me

My hand to the glass
The imposter does the same
Imitating my actions
As if playing a game

Raged and confused
I turn my back on myself
Resting my eyes
To a rose on the shelf

Life lies in the stem
As mine in my soul
Thorns of mistakes
My pain is the tole

A realization was made
I can't quite explain
Yet, now believing this to be me
Now wasn't so insane
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    The love that comes with a deeper                       
      understanding
I feel like I'm losing him,
  he's slipping away
He plays with my heart,
  as if it were clay

I'm holding his hand,
   but no one can see
I'm tying a string,
   connecting him to me

I claim it's a game,
   only he knows it's true
He pulls me in close,
   to say "I love you".

On my fingure he places
   a sign I should know
With who I'd be with,
   I asked God to show.

Our paths to the future
   are tangled and intwined
We're moving on together,
   to leave this hurt behind.

Someday soon I'll show him
   sometime soon I know he'll see
The only impossible is living without him
   and finding all of me.
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     Symbols of Love
A sign in which to say I love you, consists of more than words.
Some say the sign is a rose, others insist it's birds.

There is no symbol to explain this feeling, not one or even two.
The only way to make it real, is simply saying "I love you".
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Falling in love happens to the best of us... you can't prevent it and you can't take it away. It can heal and it can hurt,it's happiness and anger, relief and a whole new set of problems... never be sorry for loving someone, only be sorry you couldn't love them sooner.
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Stealing Time
        Take a picture
          Commit a crime
         Become a criminal
          For stealing time
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            All I Ask
 Kiss me to kiss me for no reason at all
 Love me for me and be there when I call
 Hold me close as close as can be
 Above all I ask you to let me be me.
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           Uncertain Love
 I feel like I have known him forever
       nearly a stranger
 If only I could have met him sooner
      when I wasnt so afraid
 Do I really know him
       he seems to know me
 he is like a jar of jelly
       i cant get into him
          what is he thinking
   Is he lying like the others
 I wish I could be him for a day
        to see what makes him happy
         to see how he sees me
 as a toy,
     a game,
    mabey hes not ready
  does he know i am scared
does he know of my dreams
as he knows all else
 can he see himself breaking my heart
    mabey i am being too precautous
    physical nightmares of my past
i have tried to make good memories of it
   i wish i could forget
 alone and cold everytime i try again
im unstable and need a steady hand
    i tried to tell him
sometimes i think he understands
  i try to be me
    i am lost and broken
 i need him
   this he does not know
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        The Inside View
Broken roses on your doorstep
  Bleeding thorns caress my skin
Everytime I try to start over
   I end up getting hurt again

A Pomise made
   A promise broken
I dont know what to trust anymmore
   They tell me one thing
      They do another
What am I getting hurt for?
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         Fake You
  I know he is lost
I can see it in his eyes
still a boy at heart
   denies the tears that he cries
he seemed so sure
 now i can see
  hes trapped from himself
just like me
  a new mind takes over
a new sence of longing
afraid to be him
afraid of not belonging
  two mirrors on the wall
 a man and a child
the child wants out
  the man has gone wild
its just what i see
 mabey im wrong
i havent known him
   for very long
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      To Love is To Lie
I wish I didnt have to lie to him
    I Love him
I didnt want to hurt him again
    I told him of others,
  I told him a lie
    to save him the pain I know
 none will ever be better
     I love him
    This he cannot know
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        Away From You
It is like trying to to see the sun at night
    I am scared and alone
I need your hand to guide me
    I am cold through my skin, to the bone
Every turn brings me more pain
    To see that you are not there
Every breath stabs me like knives
     You are my air
I cannot see
     I cannot think
          I am forgetting how to love
Please don't leave me
     I know you can see me
          You are watching from above
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        A Poem Just For You
A poem for those who hurt
      For those who cry alone
A poem for all who have no one
      no reassuring tone
For those of you who sit at night
      who dream of something more
For all who wonder if their life
      is all in all worth living for
Well let me tell you here and now
      For you a candle's lit
And always there will be someone
      To hold you till your through it
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           Unaware
First day of school
Many children walking
Completly unaware
Of strange eyes gawking

Your childs name is called
No one hears a sound
Too much is assumed
Your child's never found
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           Try to Be Me
Looking in the mirror,
   is like looking at my past
Hopes and dreams to fragile to last
   You can't be me,
      I grew up too fast
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           Becky
I can be me,
  However I want to be
Listen to what I want to hear,
  Wear what I want,
      Do what I please
Go where I want to go
   Freedom of speech
A virgin cause I want to be
   To smart to get high
      Im to wise to get drunk
I try for good grades
    Polite enough
Mean, only when it calls to me
    T.V.s not my thing
I dont have to do anything I don't want to do
    The choice is mine
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          Dear God-
Why would you love
     someone like me
So much as to give
     a sign to help me see
For years I would ask you
      for years I would pray
On my knees in aderation
      here's what you had to say

You told me of the time
      when I was young and had a bird
I fed it when it churped of hunger
      It's voice soo small I heard
Though once or twice, my fingure he nipped
      I did not hold him to blame
I beared the pain and kissed his head
      and loved him all the same

In that moment I understood
      the point you tried to make
You beared the pain and hung on the cross
       You died for my sould sake
Throughout my life I've sinned
       From birth to this very day
As thanks I'll live for you, for life
       If in my heart you'll stay
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        Would I
         If I
         Could?
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           If
If I were a butterfly how high would I soar?
If I were a lion how loud would I roar?
If I were a shark would I eat all the fish?
If I were a wishing start could I still make        
    a wish?
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          Im Sorry
Im sorry if I hurt you
  That I broke your heart in two
Im sorry that I walked away
  Instead of standing by you
Im sorry that I wasn't there
  When you really needed me
Im sorry that I made you pay
  but love is never free
There will always be a chance
  that someones heart will break
For your love that's a chance
  That I am willing to take