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Basics
+ 001. name: Victoria Maurer
+ 002. nicknames: Torii, lil monoxide, short stuff, kinky juggalette
+ 003. sex: female (yes)
+ 004. birthday: 3/22/90
+ 005. age: 15
+ 006. star sign: aries
+ 007. place of birth: KS
+ 008. current residence: KS
+ 009. hair color: pink that fades top dark purple
+ 010. eye color: generally blue but depends on mood
+ 011. height: 5'4”
+ 012. writing hand: right

Body Ills + Skills
+ 013. do you bite your nails? no
+ 014. can you roll your tongue? definately
+ 015. do you have any habits? smoking
+ 016. can you raise one eyebrow at a time? yes
+ 017. colored hair: always. Changes every other month
+ 018. tattoos and where: soon to be anarchy sign on hip
+ 019. piercings and where: soon, tongue
+ 020. do you make your bed daily? Fuck no
+ 021. which shoe goes on first? Don’t care
+ 022. speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at someone? duh
+ 023. what jewelry do you where 24/7? All my rings, my ball necklace, and my anarchy necklace
+ 024. how many cereals are in your cabinet? Peanut butter cruch (yeah buddy)
+ 025. what utensils do you use eating pizza? none
+ 026. do you cook? Whatever I have a recipe for
+ 027. how often do you do the dishes? whenever

Grooming
+ 028. how often do you brush your teeth? 2 times a day
+ 029. how often do you shower or bathe? every night
+ 030. how long do these showers last? 30-45 min
+031. hair drying method: air dry
+ 032. do you swear? Too frequently
+ 033. do you mumble to yourself? If it creeps you out then sure, why not
+ 034. do you spit in public? yes
+ 035. person you talk most on the phone with? Levi and Justin
+ 036. what color is your bedroom? Black w posters
+ 037. do you use an alarm clock? yes
+ 038. name one thing and person you're obsessed with: music, no one to love
+ 039. window seat or aisle: window

Friends
+ 040. who are your best friends? Levi, Valerie, Justin, and ryan
+ 041. what friend do you hang out with the most? Valerie and Levi
+ 058. what friend makes you smile the most? Justin
+ 056. friend that you fight with the most? We don’t fight.
+ 060. one you talk to on the computer the most: Valerie
+ 061. friend that you miss the most: Ryan




001:name: Victoria Lynn Maurer
002: NickName: Torii, short stuff, lil monoxide, kinky juggalette
003: Country of living: United States
004: Shoe Size: 8
005: Birthday: 3/22/05
006: Hair Color: pink that fades to dark purple
007: Eye Color: blue but generally depends on mood
008: School/Work: both
009: Smoke: yes
010: Hobbys: Listening to music, Writing poems
011: Brothers/Sisters: 1 sister (she’s 13
012: Relationship: no but want one. Im lonely
013: Piercings: soon enough
014: Tattos: soon anarchy on front of hip below waist line
015: Favorite country to go to: Japan
016: Are there people you wont reply to: not really.
017: Nicest person you met this year: Valerie
018: Person you rather not meet this year: Bush
019: Who would you like to meet: Jonathan Davis
020: Who do you admire most: Munky (from KoRn
021: Most sexy person(s): Munky
023: Favorite car: dunno
024: Favorite Movie: House of 1000 corpses
025: Favorite City: Overland Park
026: Favorite Music: Rock
027: Favorite Stuffed Toy: My freddy doll
028: Favorite Perfume: dunno
029: Favorite Magazine: dunno
030: Favorite sound: guitar and singerz screaming
031: Favorite Tv Show: family guy
032: Favorite writer: anne rice
033: Favorite Nickname: kinky juggalette
034: What is on your mouse pad: a computer mouse. Duh.
035: What is under your bed: you wouldn’t want to know
036: Favorite Color: Black or neon blue
037: Favorite song: Korn- Right Now
038: Favorite song at this moment: Korn-Right Now
039: Favorite Food: ramen
040: Favorite class in school: Choir and Art
041: Favorite Drink: vodka. straight
042: Lucky Number: 13
043: What do you think is the greatist about yourself: My music
044: What deodorant do you use: suave
045: Favorite Shoes: combat or hooker boots
046: What time do you go to bed on weekdays: when I get tired 6am
047: What word do you use most: fuck off
048: Most romantic moment in your life: never had a good one
049: Most embrassing moment in your life: dunno
050: You spend your time outside or inside: Inside
51: What do you do in the weekends: Sleep
052: What class on school do/did you dislike most: algebra
053: Your Breakfast: Dont eat often
054: What do you really, really dislike to eat: broccoli
055: Pets: 2 cats and a dog
056: Laugh or dream: ……ok
057: Serious or funny: both
058: Fast or slow: Fast
059: You prefer being alone or have relationship with someone: Relationship
060: Simple or complicated?: both
061: Cremate or Buried when you die: Cremated
063: Stay up late or go to bed early: Stay up late
064: Light or dark?: Dark
065: Speak or Silence: Silence
066: Do you like a Tall or small men: tall
067: Newspaper or Television: Television
068: Hug or kiss: Kisses
069: Happy or Sad: sad
070: Life or Death: death
071: Gig or Disco: huh?
072: Left or Right: Both
073: Sausages on top, or on the side: what?
074: Brunets or Blondes: neither
075: What would you ask God if you could ask him 1 single question: what the fuck is wrong with you?
076: You believe in reincarnation: Yes
077: You believe in Aliens: not sure
078: When you die, what will be your last words?: at long last
079: Does true love exist: I hope so
080: How many kids would you like to have: none
081: What is the one thing you can't stand: having religion pushed on me
082: Best feeling: isn’t one
083: Worst feeling in the world: hopelessness
084: What are you afraid of: being abandoned even more
085: Are you an emotional person: not really
086: Do you ever cry during a movie: once
087: Your goal in life: don’t have one
088: What was the promise you made to yourself at New Years Eve: be happier
089: Favorite art-artist: none
090: As what animal would you like to come back as: snake or horse
091: What is the most beautiful part on the female/male body: mouth
092: Most original place to ask your love to marry you: I wouldn’t
093:What do you think of Elftown: Confusing
094: Is there something you miss about elftown: No
095: Where did you get this question list: dunno
096: Besides elftown, what do you do most on your PC: IM
097: Is there a question you missed in this all: No
098: Whats the most annoying thing that people ask you?: why is it pink?! You shouldn’t have pink hair, should you?
099: Do you get in trouble a lot: all the time
100: Is there a question you missed in this all: Again no
101. whos ur best friend on elftown: dunno






here are some poems i wrote.

Teenage Suicide
I thought of dying
gazing into the black, seductive ice water
so glassy and so tranquil
I thought of dying
but in my place
Death's bony embrace
clutched listless children
gnawed by hunger;
prisoners on death row
detritus of their own childhoods;
poor shepherds grazing blunt-toothed animals
on landmined hillsides

I thought of dying,
to throw myself away
so much landfill
If it's no use to me
I could give it
I can holler with my lungs
at injustice
join hands in protest
at brutality
I realized that I had long been dead
but I could choose instead
to reawake
and be alive for them







UNTITLED

i see their faces in the hall
waiting just to watch me fall
they make fun when i walk their way
i take it because i have no choice
i have yet to find my voice
i hate to be here every day
i'm the one with which they play
do i really have to stay?

is it really hard t see
the damage that you do to me?
i'm good at keeping things insode
but sometimes hurt is hard to hide
to control myself, i've always tried
but i finally gave in and cried
for this pain i couldn't hide

so much sorrow in my heart
it's slowly tearing me apart
when did all of this start?

if i just give them their show
maybe they will let me go
i brace myself and watch it fall
i can't believe i'd risk it all
just to get a bit of relief
from all of this inescapable grief

after the fall i sit and cry
wishing i could give up and die
someone stops to look and see
what end the end they've done to me
she helps me up and sets me free
this is too good to believe
for all those lonely nights i've cried
there's finally someone on my side






The one called Goth

You can see it in my eyes
And with each passing sigh
I leave an impression
Of complete depression
Upon the ones who see
That side of me

This side of me wont go away
It leaves something for you to say
You think how did this all rub off
You ask me how i became a goth
But i truely say im far to soft
To be the one who is called goth

You single me out
Without the doubt
That i might be formal
But you said im not normal
Cause of all the black i wear
Makes it seem that i wont care
To be the outcast
How long will this last?
So tell me now what you see
Can you honestly say you see the real me?
I never got the chance to show
The side of me you didnt know

So can you see it in my bright brown eyes
That with each and every sigh
That the impression
That i leave is not of depression
But of hope for restoration
Upon those who see
That very side of me




Beaten

The man I hate is the one I love
His blows mean nothing to me
When afterwards I feel so free
This feeling of freedom is what keeps me here
Even past the blinding fear
My glasses no longer hide the bruises on my eyes
I can’t keep living a lie
Wandering out into the snow
Realizing there’s nowhere to go
Running aimlessly through the streets
Trying to get away from my beating love



Lost Love

I found someone who truly cares
Yet something about him gets me scared
Thoughts in my head drive me away
Though together, I wish we could stay
Love is what holds us together
Not even love can protect us forever
We grew so close so fast
My deepest wish is for this feeling to last




Broken Inside

Breaking down inside
These feelings I thought I could hide
They can’t stay hidden anymore
Falling apart on the bedroom floor
Trying so hard to be cold
Though now this act has grown old
Trying to help me were my friends
But every friendship has to end
Beaten and broken once again



misty

i see the fire in her heart
and i wonder what made it start
the sight of her tears me apart
and when i catch her sorrowful gaze
i notice there's an empty glaze
she's all alone trapped in her head
with no one to keep her fire fed
i knew i had to set her free
i never knew what we would be
until she said that she loved me
it was the that i began to see
how much she really meant to me

a year later we became engaged
but her mother was enraged
she grabbed my love up off the floor
and she dragged her out the door
this pain inside is so much more
than any ever felt before
i heard a distant engine start
her mother tore us both apart
and i lost all feeling in my heart

since then i've become a stray
wandering aimlessly every day
trying to keep the pain at bay
i don't know why she had to leave
once more i wish to set her free
then maybe she'd come back to me