Hello guys. I have been rather disabled from computer use lately. So i havent written much. well anyways if you want to see some writings, heres a site. Sorrowandregret.livejournal.com It has alot of writing on it from lately.





I am: the dark that haunts your dreams
I hurt: everyone around and every part of me
I want: to no longer be noticed by my pain
I hate: everything
I cry: when the blade meets the skin
I fear: the light
I hope: to find my soul someday
I feel alone: every second of every day
I waste: myself in mindless thoughts
I talk: only to the ones in my heart
I break: my confidence with painful thinking
I watch: others indulge themselves happily
I remember: my grandfathers death
I sleep with: the premonitions of death
I hide: my pain and my thoughts
I drive: people to insanity
I burn: my soul in the pits of hells flame
I breathe: in poison thoughts and words
I miss: my grandparents, and happiness
I feel: absolutly nothing at all, ever
I know: someday it will come for me
I dream: about those days
I await: my final day alive
I live: in fear of the darkness
I die: every time i see his face




Yeah i need to get some more stuff on here.
i just wish i could upload some of my pics on here. i need to get a scanner asap.
welll if anyone has ideas for me... hit me up.


SO here is some more stuff. like some poems i wrote.

   I havent titled it, so any ideas are welcome.

She can't see the lies, nor feel the tears,
Her heart singed by pain, hidden for years.
Torture brought on by her brother's mistake.
She silently screams, driven by hurt she can't take. Hidden pills through out her room. The people and doctors say they'll only bring doom. A secret blade under the floor. She cuts to see blood until she cant look anymore. Self injured and bruised, she lays on the floor. Not noticing that he has just walked through the door. A look of shock crosses his face, a new found emotion he cant seem to place. Her friend is confused and hurt badly inside. She just wanted to hurt, never wanted to die. Hoping that she wouldnt not draw her last breath, he rushes to the hospital hoping to prevent her death. Awaking the next morning and seeing her friend ben, he looks at her plaeding " please dont do that again".

By me ( jenn w)









ok people, whats up??? Just wanted to add a little more about me on here. well lets see, where to begin? i think i shall start with the beggining of my life.
  Well when i was 6 my mom had left me. it was almost 2 yrs before she had even made an attempt to call us. well anyways, i guess i got a little umm depressed, because i started playing with candles. now the story has varied a bit so i wouldnt be put on pills. But if ya want to no the truth, here it is. i had been light holes in my shirt with a lighter, and i tried to put it out the second time but couldnt. that day i ended up with a 2nd degree burn on my arm. i have yet to get a surgery on it since i dont have an extra 42 thousand dollars.
  anywho. things got a little better, but then when i was nine my brother started soing things he shouldnt of. ( if u want to no what email me later). so then i got even more disturbed. when i got in 6th grade. people constantly tormented me. well anyways....in eigth grade it got really bad. i started cutting and doing stupid stuff like taking my dads vicodin. it happened because, he started being really abusive.
  he had let this woman, my best friends mom, sleep with him. the first freakin day. she got knocked up too!!!!!!!! the only thing good that came out of that was my baby brother hunter. and i feel really bad because he has to live there. he never asked to be born. I am glad i got outta that house. ( i moved in with my mom, we cool now!!!)
  he started favoring felicia and connie ( literal physcos!) he total ignored me a hell of alot more. he became wrapped up in his damn computer. not paying any attention to me or my little brother. my older brother was never home and he didnt care anyways.
  Well i started running away. and i met this guy. well i started dating him, and then we became really good friends. Well i guess he viewed me as a challenge, at least thats what he said. Anyways, after 7 months of waitin he got wat he wanted.
   so he screwed me over in court, and now i got 40 hours community service, and 1 year probation.  ANyways... another twisted highlight would have to be, the fact that my Father tried to kill me. I guess even though i new he hated me, i just didnt want to believe it, and now i have a reason to.
  SO yeah, thats part of why my life sucks so bad. But good things are: I have a boyfriend who cares, Good friends, New school, New House, And Ap classes. so that gives me some light to my morbid blood filled world.

any questions ( email me them)





Ok i thought that this was a site that u could exspress yourself on.....i even took a look at some peoples stuff such as their writings and drawings. But if u think i shouldnt be excepted....... maybe a twisted poem i wrote might change things. 

         It Comes
      By Jennifer Wakefield

 Sitting in the darkness, lurking in the shadows. It watches you. As you slash the blade against your wrists to watch the crimson red blood drip, It sees you. It feeds off the souls of the truely disturbed.
You don't ever see It coming, not even before your death. Continuing to be your depressed, anguished, emo self, It creeps along the shadowed wall. It senses all your dark emotions. Seeming to think that you can hide your demons within your mind, It will begin to lurk there to. You will begin to fear the dark, as It implants evil visons of the gory death It lays before you. No one that is truely disturbed ever escapes. They try and they try, but they all wind up watching crimson colors seep from them, staing their mothers prized carpet as they take their last breaths of air. It is like a demon, a monster sent from hell. Not just from hell though, the deepest corner of hell. It comes to send your bloody corpse to a place where it will eat it over and over again. The monster, the demon. It is called many things. A corpse drawn demon perhaps. It, However doesn't care. IT IS YOU!!!!!!!!!!


See this is why i wanted to be a part of this... but alas i see that this may be to gory for you to handle on your site. and that you have no talent in this site content what so ever. anyways im going to let you review my application one more time.

(ps) if you take this and try to copyright it on your page...the government will get involved.
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