A collage of my friends and family, made by me:


Little update thingy, it's just a recent poem.

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In my room I lie awake,
Until the light of dawn does break,
Shining down on child's face,
Happiness has found its place,
But to leave in despair,
A sullen whisper lost in air,
Tear marks line suicide,
Everything lost but my pride,
I cannot take it all in stride,
But to be gone is my request,
I cannot do more than my best,
You push, you pull, you poke, you prod,
Liars, everyone is a fraud,
I've told you, as I must try,
All you do, makes me cry,
Fear comes coursing through my veins,
I speak, But you ignore the pains,
The help you've tried,
To them I lied,
The voices in my head,
Make me wish I was dead,
Better me than you all,
I'm not an angel, I cannot fall,
Fall from grace,
The look upon my face,
Leaves no room to question my fate,
Eternity, Welcome me,
I have come to meet my mate,
I do not know what awaits me,
I am scared to think,
But to stay here would be homicide,
I'd rather keep my pride.

12-08-2006

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My name is Leanna, I'm 15 years old, I have black hair, and green eyes..I go to Eastern Guilford High School with some of the coolest people you will ever meet. I love fiction and almost everything that is magical or magickal. Fantasy and fiction are what keeps me alive, it's my escape from reality and I would love to meet people who share that and many other things on here. I love to draw and read, I write a little bit, mostly poems and all that. I think of myself as artistic, but I know others just think of me as a freak.



My favorite artists:
Disturbed
Metallica
Slipknot
Korn
Paramore
All-American Rejects
Green Day
Blue October
Evanescence
Hoobastank
Smashmouth
The Click Five
AFI
Linkin Park
Yellowcard
The Goo Goo Dolls
Cascada
Third Eye Blind
Three Days Grace
Malice Mizer
Presidents of the USA



Yes, I support gay marriage.
Got anything to say?
Write it down,
Read over it,
And Burn it.
Maybe you'll learn something.

Favorite tv shows:
CSI:Crims Scene Investigation
Miami Ink
Robot Chicken
Inuyasha
Trinity Blood
Futurama
Family Guy
12 oz. Mouse
Full House
Unwrapped
Good Eats
Jump Start
Jakers!
The Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy
South Park
Mind of Mencia

Favorite movies:
Walk the Line
Ever After
Minority Report
Cold Mountain
Brave Heart
Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory

Here's a poem I write in my first period math class 9-28-06:
My eyes run down,
Crimson tears,
My mind has gone,
My body numb,
Another notch in my skin,
Another one, Marked for sin,
Sky blue eyes,
Filled with a crimson rise,
A billion screams sound,
Within me,
A thought to fast to follow round,
Has me spinning in squares,
To raise myself,
I am dead,
When asked,
You know me?
Not,
I barely know myself,
To see a tear,
Only close to it's maker,
Follow down,
The old faker,
Sew me shut,
Eyes, nose, mouth and all,
But wait,
I still wait,
Not to escape, for pain comes,
I enjoy those poor cretans,
Who cannot know,
The screams that embrace me,
The saint that sees,
But cannot touch,
My sight has been,
Blurred for centuries,
And knowing now I see,
I am too weak,
For why to speak,
No one there yet does,
Mind to mind, I drive,
Insane,
My own, to be
Myself and you,
Who to die?
Who to cry?
You try to know,
Not,
Care for though,
I care not at all,
About you,
Speculaters, Spectaters, Stereotypical,
Hypocritical
To say I've loved,
Would twist the knife,
Which is wound in my brain,
I cannot feel with my heart,
It beats so much apart,
But still I know so much,
The same, A cotton web,
Of artifical man has made,
I see clear shining,
Crimson seas,
To me I feel,
Almost none,
Do see,
Can you?
Be free; no,
Amount of tears,
Could be,
An equal to a drop,
Choose,
Blod, Crimson, Life force,
Retch, me up to my own,
Death does not, but I agree
Welcome home, no arms to hold,
And I am left to me,
I scream, cry, slap, hit, curse,
hurt, and attack myself,
And I refuse,
Special,
Go to be better, Smarter,
Needed not,
But follow everyone else,
No I cannot, will not,
Yet dragged by guilt,
Insanity, is friendly,
To sanity, I turn away
And face a brand new,
Night of day,
And numb,
I follow,
Where I go,
And hollow,
I follow.



A test I took for Personality Disorders.
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Very High
Narcissistic: Very High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html

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