hey whats up? im christy. i dont really know what to say about me, other than petty information. im not gonna waste your time on all my opinions, there are quite a few of them. anyway...message me if you wanna talk. i will reply to anyone....so dont be afraid..


LIKES: glitter, dresses, frilly skirts , blood, nail polish, spiders/snakes, gay people (so cute)guys, music, movies, necks, eyes, hair, fishnet, nightmare before christmas, pirates, makeup, asians, Xtina's image, marilyn monroe and betty boop and betty paige , and madonna (erotica) and funcky eye makeup, and peircings, and  french outfits, japanese outfits, ..hehe....a good time...um..anything else just ask...oh yeah ...
DISLIKES: Rape,liars ,users ,abusers, cheaters, heart breakers, happy pills, peas, people who tell lies just to be accepted and be in the "cool" group(like i used to be), attention whores, drama queens/kings, people who tell me what to do, homophobes, people who kill random people for no reason (if there was a reason to kill them then ok whatever), people who cut/overdose/suicidal/depressed for attention, clowns (eek scary) and trenton,
and...peoplw who think they know me but who really dont...and they think im some slut or whatever

Favorite Music: Xtina, my chemical romance, delerium, HIM,sarah McLachlan, LOTR soundtrack, the killers, some spice girls songs,evanesance, trish thuy trang, APC, Tool, Misfits, Jack off Jill, Delusions of the Necromancy ( my lovers band) madonna, Blood brothers, slipknot, M.M, AFI, lower class brats, zombina and the skeletons, Thrash, Bad company, Ozzy, Big and rich, the bitch boys ( hehe) lacuna coil....and alot more but im to lazy to type them all. just ask.


The final hour of her life has waned,
Her love for him could not be tamed,
But now she writhers in shame,
Society she says, is the one to blame.
Pink soft lips and light brown hair,
She wonders why life isnt fair,
She wishes someone would care,
And take her away from here.
Angel of darkness, lust, love,
Take me somewhere up above,
where i cannot be hurt or torn,
Where my love will adorn...
Silently she closes the door,
and in defeat, falls to the floor,
My broken rose, is finally no more.

a poem i wrote in like...10 minutes

Deep down inside,
theres a fire, a rage,
where Jasons heart,
is locked in a cage.
He is afraid to give into his own desires,
loves hearth, a blazing fire.
He has been hurt,
Struck down by hate,
By the evil that loves deviates,
Someday...i think he will be freed,
of his loves insanity...
TO BE CONTINUED...something i wrote about my great friend [Discarnate Heart]
in like...5 minutes

"no, the world isnt a movie where the sky is the color of laundered-to-the-perfect-shade of blue jeans. it doesnt have clouds like the wings of starlets-fluffy platinum spun floss. there are not perfect hills with houses from every perfect place and time, No English Tudar manors, Swiss chalets, Spanish villas, California Craftsman. Flowers dont threaten to grow over their doors and windows like that happened to Sleeping Beauty's Castle. Pools dont flash like jewels in backyards where Beauties in sunglasses float topless, sipping from goblets of exotica decorated with pineapples, cherries and hibiscus blossoms. Crime doesnt exist in this world. REALITY- you may not know it but crime is everywhere, and it does exist, people dont really think alot of it happens but it does happen, and what do the perfect models and billboard faces have to say when it happens to someone the silicones have love for. there is no such thing as perfect, and people need to realize that." -me when i was thinking...and it kinda came to me....tell me what you think about it.


" My Philosophy on life-most people are chickenshit, theyre afraid of their own dark natures. But thats what life is about,man. Its about darkness as well as light. If you dont acknowlege the one, you are thoroughly fucked. you will never know the other. Carpe Noctum! seize the night, you know what i mean? take what you can get even if it seems wicked. i mean whats the alternative? Rot. Death" -FLint Cassidy (spent pleasure)

"girl jesus, your so thin,
sleep on my cross for your sins,
when you ever gonna let me in?
i guess this has to be a kind of redemption.

Girl vampire, your so red,
sleep in a box like you were dead,
just another demon in my head,
i wish you'd bite me then take me to bed.

GIrl angel you bind my eyes,
i sleep on the cloud of your thighs,
when you touch me you make me rise,
are you wearing just another disguise?

Girl satan you love me the most,
am i your father, son, and holy ghost?
will you betray me if you cant get close?
or within the circle of your flames i will roast.
-Flint Cassidy, Spent Pleasure

"love is a fire. But whether it is going to warm your hearth or burn down your house you can never tell." Joan Crawford

" I prefer to think wonder holds a sense of heaven...to be in awe is to recapture innocence." - Jack Stryker

 name/ results
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very high
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: moderate
Avoidant: High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate

[001: Name:]christy
[002: Nickname:] spookykittyfuck, spooks for short (
[003: Country of living:] usa
[004: Birthdate:] sept 13
[005: Length:] of what...my height is 5'3
[006: Eye color:] shit colored (brown)
[007: Shoesize:] 9
[008: School/work:] both
[009: You smoke:] i did
[010: Hobby's:] singing, playing sax, sitting and staring at my walls, dancing, [011: Brothers or sisters:] 2 sisters 1 bro
[013: Piercing(s):] 2
[014: Tattoo:] Not yet
[015: Favorite place to go to:] lauras house
[016: Are there people you won't reply to?:]nope
[017: Nicest person you meet this year:] grim, kiefer, haven,laura, nick
[018: Person you rather not have meet this year:] er....i dunno
[019: Who would you like to meet:] betty paige
[020: Who do you admire most:] betty paige, marilyn monroe,
[022: Favorite Pajamas(clothes to sleep in):] naked! i love naked time
[023: Favorite Car:] mini coopers!!
[024: Favorite Movie(s):] charlie and the chocolate factory
[026: Favorite City(s):] san francisco
[027: Favorite Plush(stuffed animals):] my stuffed dog spotty
[028: Favorite perfume:love spell
[029: Favorite Magazine:] vogue
[030: Favorite sound:] growling
favorite desert: chocolate covered strawberries

Truly

(Featuring Nerina Pallot)

I know good things, I know bad as well
Any witness to the world will tell
If there is sorrow, then there is beauty and trust
A secret pearl inside the heart of us...

So truly, if there's light then I want to see it
Now that I know what I am looking for
Truly, if there;s joy then I want to feel it
Here in this world is where I want to be
'Cause I can't cry anymore

And there is magic now, under blood red trees,
All the sky will scream a mystery
And if we're strangers here, from the day we are born
Why be afraid of freedom if it is yours?

So truly, if there's light then I want to see it
Now that I know what I am looking for
Truly, if there's joy then I want to feel it
Here in this world is where I want to be
'Cause I can't cry anymore

All the world is calling, calling out my name
All the world is saying it won't be the same
All the sky is showing how it's gonna be
But I'm scared and I'm tired of being like me...

So truly, if there's light then I want to see it
Now that I know what I am looking for
Truly, if there's joy then I want to feel it
Here in this world is where I want to be
'Cause I can't cry anymore




THE DARKNESS OF MY FRIEND

She died today. My friend died.
I don't know how.
It doesn't really mater.
I know she was tortured by a blackness
She could never make people understand.
She tried to make me understand. I didnt at first.
They call it depression. It doesn't deserve a name that good
There is a blackness, and I go headfirst into that black. I can't get out, I can't get out."Some people tell me I don't really have to be like this. Can't they understand I don't want to be like this?
In the black world where she struggled
Were we, her strong, sure friends,
Too weak to help?
Were we so blinded by the glare and light
of our own lives
we were afraid to look into her blackness
Lest it darken our bright day?
She died today. My friend died.
And this evening
In my shadow was a reflection of
The Darkness of My Friend.Now i suffer from that darkness...it will never end.

Rest in Peace alisha sandoval, lived 1989-2003. she died to suicide, i hope she is in a better place now. <3<3

LAST CHANCE

She looks up
From the floor to the sky
Her wings spread
She is ready to fly
She hasn't left
She's waiting for something
What is it?
What is this one thing?
It's a him
And a thing called love
For a moment
It's all her world is made of . . .


END IT ALL
 
End it all, just go away
Take the fall, I cannot stay
My demise, I need
Silent cries, I bleed
Hesitation, I can't chance
Destination, Final dance
Macabre, morbid, yeah maybe I am
Suicide solution, I take a stand
Cut me off, cut me down
In life's wadding pool I drown
End it all, just go to hell
Take the fall, my mind's a cell
My demise, I can't wait
Silent cries, full of hate
Hesitation, I refuse
Destination, I've paid my dues
You don't want to hear it, so what's new
I scream for help til my face turns blue
You say I talk the talk, but can I walk the walk
Mr. Grim Reaper, Mr. Death is who I stalk
End it all, this is it
Take the fall, don't give a shit
My demise, a welcome thought
Silent cries, help once sought
Hesitation, no way no how
Destination, it's over now.


DECAYING INNER SANCTUM

Burried in a cell
Won't somebody save me
From my personal hell
Only death can set me free
Eating away my inner self
Can't you make it go away
Decaying inner sanctum
Stuck in shades of grey
Morbid thoughts abound
Invading all I know
May sanity cannot be found
There's nowhere left to go
Am I insane? Is this a dream?
Edges blurred, or so it seems
Walking nightmare, what am I?
Everything you've told me has been a lie
Bringer of death, companion at my side
In my soul you reside
A part of me that will never leave
The end is near, I do believe
Shackled in this stagnant place
No way to escape
No such thing as saving grace
We have to earn our keep
Delving deeper in my mind
Trap doors everywhere
Hidden keys I seek to find
Cannot break these chains that bind
Am I insane? Is this real?
Even when I touch I cannot feel
Cold and black reality
Tell me what am I supposed to be
Father of light you do not shine
In this horrid life of mine
A part of me that will never be
Open eyes I cannot see.



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