I am psychotic and I love it with a crazy passion! Erm...umm...what else? I have a Deviantart account "NekoEinhander" its pretty sweet I guess. My Elfwood gallery is under Nichoal Rhodes in gallery 550. More info there.
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Here is a song I wrote for a project I am working on called "Penetrated Masochist". The song is called "Blank Stare"
 Now I sleep my days away
Maybe its not the best for me
But I pretend its helping anyway
And thats good enough for me

Now I think about our days gone by
Maybe I never really tried
To prevent the pain that I felt
But drifting into sleep is good enough for me

And the walls are filled with shadows
Of the useless toys I keep
Pretending I have a friend
When I close my eyes to sleep
But my head is filled with memories
That you'll never understand
Why I keep close to me
And I'll never sleep
Just lie awake with a blank stare
Cause I'll never get you out of here

The black abyss inside of me
Thats where you used to be
Thats when I was with you
When I was whole and happy too
I'll never understand what happened to those days
And every night I lie awake
Even though I don't believe I pray anyway

Maybe I'm so dense
I'm still hoping you'll hold me again
Or maybe I'm losing myself in empty tired thoughts
But either way is good enough for me

And the walls are filled with shadows
Of the useless toys I keep
Pretending I have a friend
When I close my eyes to sleep
But my head is filled with memories
That you'll never understand
Why I keep close to me
And I'll never sleep
Just lie awake with a blank stare
Cause I'll never get you out of here

I'll never hide my tears from you
Or keep my voice unheard
But I'll never let you know
How much I'm really hurt
I won't let you feel superior
Or pretend that I don't love you
But I'll always back away
And let you have your way
As long as you can fool yourself
Into thinking we're okay
And thats good enough for me
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Well, lets see...what are some of my traits?..Qualities?...Talents?...
The Good: I'm pretty nice if your nice to me and to my friends, I care alot about my friends, Some people say I'm a real-life Anime Gal and others say I'm a Human Kitty (to which I gained my nickname)
The Bad: I get angered easily, I love pain (I guess thats a good and bad), I like fighting, I tend to hide my feelings from everyone else, I don't like to make new friends,and I don't easily trust people
Talents: Drawing, Writing, Singing, Seduction ;)
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Word of advice from the Mind of Neka!! Today's Word of Wisdom:
"If you never take the risk, how will you know if it was worth it or not?"
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"Blank" by:Neka
He holds her tight
Trying to help her forget
And the black It looms back in
The dreamcatcher sits
Worthless to this
And the black settles in
Looks like you've won

And look at the girl
Who can never love again
Your black settles in
And look at the girl
Who can no longer smile
Your black settles in

A collateral lie
An unforsaken bliss
The truth lies in her
A heartbroken kiss
Heal in time
The innocence with her
How can you fall
Without any guilt
The light slowly crumbles
For a shadow of filth

And look at the girl
Who can never love again
Your black settles in
And look at the girl
Who can no longer smile
Your black settles in

And look at the girl
Who can never love again
Your black settles in
And look at the girl
Who can no longer smile
Your black settles in

Dangerous tears
Fall like the sun
And look at the girl
Who will never know
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"Pick me up on the outside" By:Neka
Please pick me up
On the outside
It will be raining
But I'll be fine
Give me your money
I have to survive
If you'll pick me up
On the outside
I will be wearing
Whatever you want
Take me or leave me
Pay me or not
I'm wasting my time
No matter what
I am a lady
Even though you call me a whore
You have a family
I don't anymore
I'm sorry your life is so perfect
Maybe one day
Mine will be like it
Just please pick me up on the outside
Why so harsh
I'm not asking too much
Beat me Rape me
Whats it matter to me
Noone wants to help
A girl on the streets
I'll be walking
Down a silent dirt road
It will be raining
But it doesn't bother me so
Please pick me up
On the outside
I don't have any wings
Or a holy halo
I don't care for singing
I quit so long ago
I'll be saying I love you
And I'm waiting
If you can find me
To save me and love me
It will be raining
So please pick me up
On the outside
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Some of my fave bands/singers:
KoRn, Marilyn Manson, Slipknot, Lacunacoil, Evanescence, Kittie, Rammstein, Linkin Park, ICP, Twiztid, Zug Izland, MSI, The Legendary Pink Dots, The Dresden Dolls, Rasputina, Dixie Chicks (yeah yeah I know, guilty pleasure, so shush), Ayumi Hamasaki, Jade, Missy Elliot, Ashlee Simpson, old Metallica, System of a Down, Stone Sour, Tenacious D, Shinedown, 3 Days Grace, and god so many more...
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Fave movies:
Bio Dome, Legend, anything with Jack Black, anything Disney or Pixar, Interview with a Vampire, Queen of the Damned, Underworld, Lost Boys
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Fave Men:Creasman
Fave women: Madonna, Rebecca Romane Stamos, Uma Thurman, Drew Barrymore, Ayumi Hamasaki, Tyre
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