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-=The Taste of Failure=-


I waited for you to comfort me
though i knew that you wouldn't come
I saw you for the first time through painfull eyes
Looking past your faults, to what you might be
You never came to touch my tears
And never took away my fears
You never told me I was the one
That you couldnt live without
Instead you belittled me, beat me
down into your way of thinking,
Your taste of the world, bitter and unforgiving
Cold as ever were your eyes when they looked
apon me.


I asked you if you loved me.. you hesitated.
You told me you were not here for me
and my pain was all in my mind.
I responded with a deeper bitterness, boiling
to the surface as you continued..
I no longer have the love i felt for you when we
married.. I no longer feel the strength of us combined
as we plod forward into life.. we are not together.
We are only living in the same house.
I hate you.
I hate you for what you have done to me.
I hate you for allowing me to fall so deep, that death was
an option. You never once tried to help me. You watched
as uninterested as you were with my passion.
Here is the part where i cry...
This would be where you sigh and shrug and wait for me to
stop, so you can get on with your life, and not be burdened
by my pain...
You will train my children to hate me, and play the victim as you
run and cry seemingly distraught by the loss of me...
And I will throw myself into oblivion, knowing that you are the reason
all that was pure and loving was dead in me..
Knowing that the only thing I have left is the love of my children, which
you will undoubtedly take from me as well, to finish me off.
You haven't loved me for a long time. You were just waiting for me to leave,
so you could have your pity from the world, and let them all look at me with
hatred, for what i have done to you.


And nobody will know, that it was you that killed me...

©2003 Samurai!FX/Marc Guerrero