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_{Here are some of my poems. Some of them need a little work, but tell me what you think okay? ^_^}


Who knows

We talked..
You hurt me..
We talked again..
I told you what happened..

Who knows what happened?
Who knows what went wrong?

No one does because they don't understand
They never did..
I loved you..
At least I thought I did..

Until you broke me
Until you destroyed me..
As I lay dying on my bed..
You don't care..

Who knows what happened?
Who knows what went wrong?

No one does..
No one did..
Goodbye my love..
Goodbye my friends..

I draw this last breathe..
As no one knows what happened...

So who knows what happened?
Who knows what went wrong?
No one did
Because I kept my mouth shut.

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You don't know me


You don't know me
You'll never know me
Every time I try to open up
All you ever do is shut me out

Friends say that no one is worthy of me
I tell them I'm not worthy
I've never be worthy

I've bled..
I've been in depression
...I'm alone..

People say they know me
But they don't know me
They've never cared
They say they do...
Why should I believe them?

You don't know me
You'll never know me
So don't try.

I've been broken for too long.
I've been searching for too long.
You've watched me..
You've seen the pain
But never say you know me.
So don't say you know me..
When you don't.

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I'm Sorry


I'm sorry for the pain I caused you
I'm sorry for I did..
I'm just sorry...

I cry every night
I cry during school
I'm so sorry..

But you hurt me too
You hurt me in the worst way possible
You broke all your promises
You said you'd come here..
You never did
So now it's over...

I'm sorry.....
I'm sorry....
I did love you...
I'm sorry for meeting you..
I'm sorry!

I can't help myself anymore
Because of this I've become so broken

Don't you think I've been toyed with enough?

I cry!
I bleed!

I'M SORRY!
Okay I'M SORRY!

Won't you leave me be?
I've said everything I've wanted to say!
I break down again!
You'll never be sorry!
Because you never cared!


But I'm sorry

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Three years

3 years is all it took.
3 years of loving you
3 years of being your friend
3 years of being by your side
All it took was
3 years Now your gone
3 years of love
3 years of friendship
3 years of being by each other's side
My heart finally broke those
3 years were the best I miss you so much
All i wanted to say was I love you
And I'm not longer afraid 3 years is all it took
3 years of love
3 years of friendship
3 years of being by each others sides
3 years of fighting
3 years of bloodshed
3 years of everything now those
3 years are over out of those
3 years I've grown to love you
I've wanted to be by your side
My stupid mistakes cost us
3 years of pain but...
3 years is all tit OK 3 years of love
3 years of friendship
3 years of being by each others side
I wouldn't take it back
I wouldn't take anything back
I would only take the away the pain and suffering but...
3 years is all it took
3 years of love
3 years of friendship
3 years of being by each other's side

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He

He talked with that soothing voice of his
He said he'd be gentle
He said he wouldn't cheat.
He was as caring as can be

His breath was hot on my neck
He rubbed against me
Sweat dripped down our bodies as we moved to our own rhythm

His hands were shaky as he touched my body.
I told him it was OK.
He just nodded and smiled that smile that I love
He understood that it was OK to go faster and deeper

I woke up with a start
He was a dream..
It felt so real...
His hands..
His body..
He's the one..

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Deilver Us

Tears of a broken heart

Pain of a broken soul

Deliver us from the pain

Bring us the happiness we deserve

No more burning

No more breaking

No more shattering

No more pain

Just no more

We don't deserve this

We don't deserve the scars

The bruises

The pain

The everything we gain

Tears of a broke heart

Pain of a broken soul

Deliver us from this pain

Bring us the happiness we deserve

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Shot through the heart

I've been lost in my deep mind.
So lost in thought that I was just shot..
I was shot in the heart..
Did you care? No!
Did you ever care? No!

You're the one who shot me
You're the one who did this to me!
You're the one who made me like this!

If you hadn't of done that...
I wouldn't be so lost..
In the back of my mind...

Happy memories come back...
I lay down..
I cry...
I wait...
Just waiting...
Why'd you do that?!

You freaking shot me through the heart!
And now you want me back!
Well Screw off!

Look at me!
Look at what you did!
To me!
To her!

If I touch her I bleed..
I bleed so much!
A thousand knives pierce my skin!

Why didn't you call me?
Why didn't you tell me?!
WHY!?

No...
No...
No...
All you did was shoot me through my already broken heart....


Thank's a lot....

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Forgotton


Bodies shake.
Fear takes control
Blood drips down
Darkness has over come light
Dark is light
Night is day
Her suicide killed all
Everyone misses her
Yet she was forgotten
They said they wouldn't forget her
Yet she was forgotten
She misses them all
She yearns for their touch
She misses his touch
She misses his voice
She misses his kisses
But now she's gone
And he has felt nothing
His heart broke
As he watched her die
He tried to stop her
But did not succeed
He misses her much
But he heard her last words.
"Live life to your fullest"
He did just that
He visits her gave
Everyday,
But still does not
Forget those words.
Even though she's dead
She still lives in out hearts.

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I miss you


I remember the looks you gave me
I remember the sweet words you whispered in my ears
I remember the way you made me laugh

Now I miss you
I miss your smile
I miss everything about you

I bet you miss me too
This sounds cheesy
This sounds corny
But I'm still in love with you

My heart is breaking
My soul is hurting
My eyes are filled with tears

Have you ever loved someone
You though would be the one for you?
But then he goes behind your back
And screws around with other girls?

I forgave him for that
Oh yes I did
I was foolish
But I miss him
Oh I miss him so much

I gave up everything for him
I was by his side
I did all that I could

I told him all my secrets
But that wasn't enough
He wanted the warm touch of a girl
That girl wasn't me

God How I miss....
I miss you..
With all my heart...

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  Love kills

He told her
He loved her
She told him the same
She went home that night
Wondering if what he said was true
The next day She went to school
She saw him with another girl
She loved this boy dearly
And would do anything for him
Including die for him
He looked over and saw her
A smirk on his face
Tears rolled her pale cheeks
She ran home
She wanted to end it all
She loved him so much
She couldn't believe this
She couldn't handle this
She gave him a chance of love
He broke that chance
She felt nothing
She saw nothing
She died with nothing
The next day...
He wondered where she was...
He called her house...
Her mom answered...
When he heard she...
She died for him...
All the mother could say was...
She loved you and you broke her heart...
She always wanted you...
But when she had you...
You had someone else...
The boy dropped the phone
Tears rolled down his cheeks
He couldn't believe this..
And he wouldn't...
He ran to this girls house..
Went up to her room...
He saw her dead on the ground..
With a gun in her hand...
He too took the gun...
And killed himself to be with her...

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 Why'd you have to go?

Bang!!
Went the guns
Two bullets hit you
My best friend
My lover
My soul mate

Why'd you have to be the one who was shot?!
Why'd you get in the middle of it?!
Why'd you have to go?

You knew I loved you
You knew I'd do anything
Why'd you have to go?

Late at night I still see your face
I scream inside my mind
Why?
Why wasn't it me who died?
Why'd you have to go?

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Memories of a 12 year old

Party was happening
It was a 13 year old boy who was running it
12 year old girl thinking nothing of it
She went down to the basement
8 boys one girl
What's going to happen?
They decided to fight
The fight led to her getting her dressed ripped
The boys saw her thigh.
Trying to look up her dress.
Pulling at her top.
Lust in their eyes.
She screamed and ran away
Bruises left on her arms and legs.
She ran home
Ran to her room
Stayed there all night
Memories to this day keep coming back.

When she goes outside
She See's the boy picking on her brother
She stands up for him
The 13 year old boy hits her
She hides the pain
He beats her
She keeps everything locked up tight
Every summer its the same
He beats and abuses her
She was almost beat again.
So was her friend
Scared to death they both ran
Her friend ran to her house to get her dad
While the other girl ran for dear life as the boys followed her,
Memories of what happened when she was 12
Still run in her head
She wants them out..
But they won't leave her alone...

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First Kiss

You walked me to the front door
You held my hand
I turned around with a smile on my face

A blush was on your face
I tilted my head to the side
You leaned in and gave me my first kiss

I blushed as you pulled away
The tingle of your lips on mine was still there
The feeling of your lips was still there

You walked down my drive way waving good night
I waved back still remembering my first kiss

At school I saw you in the halls
I walked up to you and said hi
A smile was on your face as you leaned in for another kiss

I hoped it was like last night when you gave me my first kiss.
I kissed you back as I pulled away.
I hugged you and said see you after class.

Those kisses were still on my mind
I still felt the tingling sensations you gave me
I still felt your lips against mine.
Those two kisses were always on my mind

I hope we'd have more kisses like that
You gave me my first kiss
And I loved it a lot

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Tell me

Hold me in your arms
Tell me what to do
Tell me how to stop this


Tell me how do I stop this?
Tell me how to get rid of this?
Tell me how to get rid of these tears?


Baby,
I know that you don't like me
You don't like me like this
I've changed so much
I know its not fair


I know,
Oh I know


But please
Please tell me how..
How to stop all of this pain!


I've always tried
But I've always failed
Oh tell me,
Tell me how to,
How to stop all of this!


I've always been
I've always have..
I'm not the same..
I've changed so much
I've wanted you to know
I've wanted to tell you


Ooh tell me..
Tell me..
Tell me how to stop this


I've been bleeding
For so long
I've died
I've lived
I've been bleeding to death


I've wanted to be by
Your side
For the longest time


But You've never told me..
So tell me now that you love me..
Please tell me...
Tell me please...

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Shadows

Lost in the darkness of my shadows
Just waiting to be lied to again
I'll never be strong enough
I'll never be good enough
To fend this burning feeling deep inside of me
Lost for so many years
Never to be found
As I've killed myself
To be the strong one again
Devoured by the shadows of my heart
Use to be the person
Everyone could count on

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Never done

Could have stopped it
Could have don it
What stopped?

The beating of hearts?
The stone cold flesh?
The look in his eyes?
The look in my eyes?
The feelings that were never shared?

Should have been there
Should have cared.
Should have told him all.
Should have just been there!

I never did it!
I looked around
And saw what I did wrong!
If I fixed it would he have stopped before commiting suicide?!

Tears of blood pour down my cheeks!
Just listen to me for once!
And hear my screams!

Don't you see?!
I'm a broken soul!
I'm a broken heart!
I'm broken!

I never did it!
I was never done!
I never told my story!
I never heard his story!

Why didn't I stop it?

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Just...

How does one forget?
When one can't forget
The memories still play on in my head
They make me laugh
They make me smile
They make me cry
I've held on tight
I wouldn't let go
But now she wants me to
But I can't...
But I have too...
Its so hard....
Please come back...
I spent hours and hours crying...
But you're no longer here....
You don't want to talk to me...
So throw me away..
Just throw me away...
I'll sing my happy songs
I'll sing my sad songs
I'll let the memories play
Just don't let me give up on them...
Just please don't let me give up on them...

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Love

I miss your touch
I miss you arms around my waist
I miss your kiss
I miss the way you looked at me
I miss everything about you

When you held me so tight
When you told me it was gonna be alright
When you letr me cry on your shoulder
When you looked at me with bright brown eyes
When you told me some personal stuff about your past.

I know you can't open up easily
I know you want to open up to me
I know you love me
I know You want me
I know you need me

You know I love you
You know you can talk to me
You know I'm always there for you
You know you can come and cry on my shoulder
You know I'll be all you need

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Gruesome Death

She grabs a knife
She takes out her arm
She plunges the dagger through her arm
Then the other arm
Then her legs
And finally her chest
The blood pours out
She waits for the last time
She was the happiest girl alive
But no memories come back
Her last breath slowly comes
She says her last words..
"I love this world.."
She lays there dead
Tears would spill out if she was alive
But now she doesn't
She See's the darkness then..
The light...
She opens her eyes
She See's that she's in a bright
White room.
She tries to get up but the pain
Is to much
She lays back down..
Her family around her...
Her friends around her...
She missed them all..
But all she wanted to do..
Was to be in his arms..
And let him see her die...
A gruesome death.

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