Black – white

Like rains of fire falling down on earth
My heart is conquered by a feeling: love
But I loved once, I did, the pain was strong
And I’m afraid now, I’m afraid of love.

From opened graves my heart is shouting, still
She’s warning me that this will close her stones
And all the walls around my brains are yelling
That this will put me down for ever, sleeping.

But I see lights, like angels, flying, coming,
White lights and shadows blacked of anger.
The light of rationality, of passing human love
Behind them shadows of the pain of hearts

I have so many wishes, millions, like stars
Non – coloured wishes for a life of darkness
I’m trying, hardly do, to see, my place in world
But I see nothing else but false faith, diaphane.

Dark faith, in death, the faith of resurrection
As I was educated in my smoky childhood
Cause all my hope stands in the night of heaven
And all my prayers stopped by the black angels

The sparkling coffin of my heart it’s opened
But coming love will close and never,
This, once, an iron heart, will see the fields
Of grey love and forgiveness, black forgiveness

I seek revenge and what I get is huge pain
Cause even demons hate me, for what I am
I want relief; I get just tones of hot tears
Because in front of death my small heart fires

Some times I think I see small colours
But those are moments, for a moment stay
My life goes on, like now, non – coloured way
And the eternal sleep is all that matters.