If you twist a ray of light
and break it into shards sharp
as shattered glass,
Can we make eternal night?
Can we dissolve the killing light
Which strips away all flesh and thought
and gather here together?

[Aashild]

Random Musings

So wither away my comrades in pain I absolve you your sins and thus send the rain of the torment this side of the endless abyss. Know always your essence is mine with one kiss.
Just one.
Beloved! Beloved!Would you give your life to please me if only for a moment? Despair not, my lover but cease not your cries. Your voice will not cease to channel God's lies. To willingly die under pain of life. Even angel wings grow dusty with time.

[Aashild]

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Inner Sadness
July-19-04

My mind is fallen my heart is sinken',
why won't you bring me back.
My thoughts are all I've got.
My heart is in a place I can not reach.
Save me from the darkness over swamping me.
Take ‘em away.
So I can live someway.
Peacefully without my heart crying out today.
Take me away.

©[AnnMiuka]

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Some DayJuly-8-04

Some day I'll find my way
to a place faraway,
Start a fresh new life,
Someday,
Faraway.
I will be a differen't one.
The best I can be,
Maybe I won't tortured so,
Just let alone
Maybe one day.
Someday
Someplace
I will know what's there.
Far away
Far far away,
Where nobody will care.
People won't know me.
They won't find out who I am.
They don't need to know.
Who I am.
So someday,
Far away,
Someday.
©[AnnMiuka]

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FearsMay-30-04

Pulled apart by fears,
Lost amongs the unshed tears,
Will I be remembered,
Over all the years?
Or mocked and ridiculed,
with evil sneers?
Because you were my dear,
The one that I held near.
Who chased away my unwelcome fears,
Who laughed away my falling tears.
He killed me for his peers,
Lost amongst his insecurity,
And wild untold fears.

© ~*Rain*~

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The Song of the DeadMay-30-04

The song of the dead,
it echoes in my head,
It won't go away,
the screams and the pain.
I wait for the day,
when you will be sane,
And not run away,
And now I'm lost again.


As I cut deep into the vein,
The blood begins to poor,
And my mind reveals the door.
And I re-open the sores,
My body's broken, battered, scarred,
My life tattered and marred.
Only I can see the shards,
Of broken dreams,
And my shattered heart.

As I lay in the dark,
Curled up thigh on my bed,
The voices repeat those word in my head,
All that could possibly ever be said.
Because this is the song of the dead.

Screaming over and over again in my head.
It's all that I hear'
My open wounds and only fear.
Whispered loudly in my ears,
Is the song of the dead,
and homeless words unsaid.

The long lost words, I once read,
The voices that I fled,
They echo once more,
There strength again renewed.
Screaming those words again,
The words swirling through my head.
There's only one thing I fear,
And as it draws near
My eyes sting with tears,
Because it's all I hear.
Starting once again,
The voices in my head
Sing, the song of the dead.

© ~*Rain*~

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You Are
11-25-03

You are the reason
For all my sorrow and woe
You are not my friend
You are my hated foe

You're also the reason
There is no smile upon my face
Or have another happy thought again
I don't want to remember the disgrace

Did you know you're the reason
That my life is no longer important to me
Go away and leave me to die
This soul is destroyed, can't you see

Have I told you yet you are the reason
That my childhood memories are destroyed
I asked you stop so many times
But this horrid game you seemed to have enjoyed

You are the cause, the purpose, the reason
That no one cares about me any more
I used to have many friends
But now all they do is ignore
Again I must say you are the reason
That my song is no longer sung
Now if I open my mouth
You hear nothing but you just see my tongue

You must know you are the reason
That my heart no longer beats
With the beat that everyone could hear

One last time you are the reason
That do not wish to live any more
And you are the reasons for everything
For we aren't friends anymore

© Copyright of [Blaze the Nameless]

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Return to Sesame Street
11-15-03
I remember those days
So long ago
When my whole life
Was that Muppet TV Show

All I did was sit in front of television
I knew all the characters and songs
It was my life, I knew it well
I knew what was right and what was wrong

But then as I started my first grade
That's when everything changed to my despair
I never saw those monsters or birds again
The saddest thing is I can't go back there again

I grew up so fast unto my liking
I long to go back and be that kid
The kid who wanted to be friends with Elmo
But to my dismay I never did

I now only know books and papers
Full of Math and Science which I hate
I miss Big Bird and Cookie Monster
Because tests and quizzes aren't great

I long to go back to that street
With that grouch and his little worm
But now I'm a teen which I hate
But I have to be strong and firm

When I die I hope to see that street
Which is the thing I lack
Even though I try so hard
I know I can never go back

© Copyright of [Blaze the Nameless]

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"YOU KNOW ME?"
You know me you say?
The dark of my heart.
The fall of my soul.
You preach,
you teach,
fight and repeat.
While you stand behind
the walls
barriers,
barbed wire,
and twisting river of flesh-eating acid.
Which believeth you is my soul
You know me?
I think not.
You know but the color of my hair.
The color of my eyes.
The depth of your own soul decieves you.
Maybe next time,
instead of looking so hard,
to find a way to knock down
these walls which are me,
you will find
the door through the barriers,
the bridge over the river.
Then you shall know the true me
and not what I have been thought to be.
Then and only then will you know me.

© Copyright of [deleted, gone]

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Screw you
Screw you and your conformity
Screw all your insecurity
Take your rules and go to hell
I'll do what I want - and I'll do it well
You all forget that it's my life
You're just being screwed by your trophy wife
Looking out at the world makes me heave
All the dull little people frightened to breathe
Screw you saying my life's a waste
Screw you trying to keep me in my place
You all think that you can own me
Well screw you all - I know I'm free
I'm not a pet you can put on a lead
I ain't someone you can just bleed
SCREW YOUR RULES - Just go to hell
I'LL DO WHAT I WANT - and do it well
By [Alfirin Lindlea] (Intentional lack of punctuation lol)

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Are you?

Lost and Confused,
Left to think of you.
Memories fade,
Increasing the pain.
I mourn for you,
Miss you,
Love you.

Remember me?
The one?
Remembering you?

The rain comes again,
Clouds pour above my head.
I welcome the rain,
It comforts me,
Cresses me,
It's touch warms me,
Makes me think of you,
I cry for you,
Lie for you.

Are you happy with her?

Are you missing me?
The one?
Missing you?

I see you,
You hide,
Locked up tight inside,
The skeleton no one sees,
The ghost,
Haunting you.

Are you lost with out me?
The one?
Who's lost with out you?

A ghost of me
Seeing you,
Missing you,
Still devoted to you,
Left loving you.

Are you watching me?
The one?
Watching you?

I am you,
My broken heart,
Tattered soul,
crying tears,
That won't go.

Are you trying to mend me?
The one?
Trying to mend you?

The ripping pain,
running tears,
Left in a world,
Of childish fears,
Everything is beginning,
Starting to Show through,
Now tell me,
What it is you have me do?

Are you still Loving me?
The one?
Loving You?

© ~*Rain*~

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13Hatred

Hating is like loving with an extra passion.
Confusing,
tormenting,
noneverlasting.
It breaks you down,
until all that's left is one last feeling...
Cold.
Cookie monster ate my underwear *ann*

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16-07-05
Help me

There’s nothing I can do

But something you can do

Just like me for once

Why do you hate me?

I don’t know

Leave me in peace

I never did anything to you

Save me

From this life

Though it is too late

There might be hope

Just like me

Please.

[omgOMEGA](c)

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Anorexia


It seems Like the pain is over
but theres so much more to come
there's so many horrors
we never drempt of
stick with me through this
and never let me go
help me through this
save my soul
i cried last night,
i'm scared to die
Dont let me belive this,
help keep me alive
it hurst so much
to know you cant see
whats going on
inside of me
i want to belive you
when you say
you'll be by my side
but its hard to see it happen
when SHE wants me to die,
please dont let Her
ruin your life,
please dont let HER
help me die
the docters can try to save me
bit in the end its you
with out you hear
i will surely die
so please stay by me
and keep me alive

© Laura Szymansky

Misunderstood   


Why does this keep happening
Why am I always brought back to this
The point of collapsing
As depression and pain fill me
Because my life is pointless
I get nothing from it
Nothing but pain and misery
No one understands
No one ever will
I guess I'm just
The misunderstood
That's all I am
I don't matter
I will not make a difference
In life or death
As i sit silent in the darkness
Watching the world
I fade away
Without even a goodbye
Nobody cares
So I continue to fade
To nothing

by [The Misunderstood]
(more of mine at The Misunderstood's poetry)

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Problems
No one will listen to my problems.
No one will help me in my time of need.
No one worries at all.
Except me.
I want to tell you, I really really do.
But you would only judge me,
So SCREW YOU!
There's nothing to be done
Nothing I can do
Have to suffer in silence.
With my problems.

[omgOMEGA]

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