Yessssss....here it is again....yet another page to bash people with my feelings on life, hate, my random insanities, and the love I feel for VERY few people.
Obviously, judging from the size of Part one...I have much to say.
And for those who are lost and need to find their way back to wherever....Filthy Little Secret.
I waited for you.
Minutes seemed like hours.
Deep emotions flood me.
Inside myself, I'm scared.
Feelings flooding over me,
That I’ve never felt before.
Hearing you...
Seeing you...
Fear is gone.
I'm home.
In your arms.
My heart’s pounding,
So strong I'm sure you can hear it,
At least feel it.
But you show no sign.
My eyes drift over you.
Unaware til now,
How eyes can feel
As much as a heart.
Trying to hold this moment
Forever.
Holding you.
Kissing you.
I feel a shock go through me,
Not sure what is happening.
Feelings that leave me breathless,
Uncertain how to react...
But, sure the reaction is right.
Taking the uncertainty,
Pushing it away.
Allowing myself to feel you,
Over me.
In me.
Through me.
Time... the enemy that creeped,
Torturing us,
Laughing at us,
Knowing we were in want of this moment...
Slowly came, and quickly left us wanting more.
Time is not our friend....
~me
I did not expect to find him....
the one person....
you know the one I'm talking about....
the one that makes you happy....
the one that soothes your pain....
the one that you know without a doubt....
loves you....truly.
but....
the days seem to have a different plan....
no way to get around the issue at hand....
just left here....
love growing minute by minute....
with no way to show it....
no way to give it....
I'm just....here.
waiting....
~me
love...
tries...
hard...
you...
give...
endless...
pain...
fed...
up...
move...
on...
make...
something...
happen...
to...
ease...
pain...
lies....
not...
to...
hurt...
but...
to...
escape...
new...
beginning...
evade...
truth...
happiness...
shows...
it's...
face...
I...
love...
you...
happiness...
turns...
to...
emptiness...
lost...
hope...
stolen...
dreams...
truth...
hurts...
fear...
rules...
heart...
never...
wanted...
you...
in...
pain...
I...
am...
alone...
stay...
here...
till...
the...
end...
so...
very...
sorry.
~me
kept warm by the light of the moon.
lost faith in all i knew.
my life is black with shadowed fears.
i search for hope in hopeless cases.
the scorn is wearing me down.
promises of better tomorrows,
plunge the blade deeper.
no trace of hope alive.
fires burn the last of treasures hidden.
i am far gone now.
the slightest touch of life,
pushes me over the edge.
memories rage the mists of my mind,
i'm plagued and lost.
dripping fluid from my eyes,
siezes my next heartbeat.
thougts are distorted.
i'm safe in confusion.
depravity to the core,
lurking right behind me.
~Me goddamn it!
It comes to pass it's judgement on me,
Shattered thoughts pieced together by broken dreams,
Woke me to another day.
Death is knocking for my life.
Cast the spell of bitter heart,
Cold earth becomes my home.
Damp is my skin,
Last breath stole my words,
Air kissed my lips goodbye,
Left me alone with it's hiss.
Where is my soul's host?
I repented with jagged edge.
I sealed my fate.
I slither deeper down,
Becoming jaded and broken.
I found hope in emptiness.
See? The light shines dimmer still.
I have passed through the gate.
I forge myself into your heart...
And here am I...
Your life.
~Me
Suffocating darkness,
creeps it's way into my mind.
Coldness pulses through my veins.
Pry my heart open,
feed my disease with your life.
Holding my breath,
for the chance to breathe again.
Peeling my skin away to feel your lust
tearing through my system.
My sight becomes obscure.
Feelings of my black heart
show the purity of the truth
that lies behind my tears.
Do not leave me.
Never leave me.
Do not leave me.
Never leave me.
The damned being that I am....
~me