NOTE]: Not intended in anyway to reflect said members( Outkast, Angel of Darkness) as was not aware to that persons existence :


[outkast]

Standing alone under an evening sky
watching the world spin around me
I see the faces of lost souls
dancing in the winds of change
and pouring through the sands of time

No one sees me standing there
Turning away when I don't dance to the beat
or march to the drums of a thousand fools
They pretend I'm not there
whispering about me as if I couldn't hear
just a piece of broken furniture
a part of the scenery
simply waiting to be thrown away

But there I stand
all alone to tomorrow
quietly challenging the song around me
by refusing to sing along
Instead watching as empty hearts walk along
looking past the invisible child
just standing there
waiting for the rain

And it's there I'll stand in a thousand years
long after the dance has carried the fools away
even after my body has given in to the grip of time
my place will remain unchanged

For I am the outcast
the one who refused the dance of a thousand fools
forced to suffer the wind and the rain
and stand transparent to the world around me
But the only one to remain
when the music stops and time marches on
grinding the dancers into dust
and scattering their memory to the winds of change

Though I'm left to an empty world
you'll never see sorrow in my eyes
I'll raise my glass with the other invisible souls
as we watch the last grains in hourglass of time
trickle through to the bottom
winding down the universe
letting us know our work is done
and that the ageless can now age no more

---

[In loving memory of the first and last time I met my mother]
Twas but an hour before dawn,
All the screams had ceased and she sighed a breath of relief,
The noise was gone as she looked into his eyes,
For a solitary moment she felt a trickle of love for his innocence,
But as the seconds marched on she pushed him away,
Back to the nurse and into a home.

---

Angel of Darkness]

Angel of darkness come with me
hold my hand, make me see
Child of the night show me your ways
drag me beneath to run through your maze

Everything not bright
nothing of light
pull me into your world
let me be your toy

Cover my eyes led by the blind
Just cuts, Just scrapes, don't worry I'm fine
Our blood blends together, our scars just the same
The darkness so beautiful, day so mundane

My love belongs to you, take it and make it true
Your mystique to angelic, so soft, so deep
Take me, make me, hold me, I'm yours
Immersed in your esoteric beauty, my essence pours

[Turning Corners]

I can't escape you
no matter how many times I turn around
I see you there
looking back at me
your beautiful face
too tempting to resist
your smile
too wonderful to deny

Not a day goes by
that you don't cross my mind
Try as I might to shut you out
I'm powerless against the stray thoughts
that wonder in when my mind is quiet
or my heart is in need of a smile

I need to forget you
I need to find a different path
but you made me so happy
and loved me so openly
that I can never forget what we shared
Even as the years push us apart
and time fades those joyful memories
I feel drawn to you
lost in you
and hopelessly entranced by you

I hope you find your happiness
even in the arms of another
No matter if the vision destroys me slowly
I know you deserve something more
than an absentee lover
waiting to take you home

Just know that around every corner I turn
I will see you looking back
Your face both beautiful and haunting
a welcome image
of a broken heart

I cherish our memories
and wish things could be different
but no matter how much I love you
I can never change what is
what was
or what has to be

So find your peace
and enjoy your life without me
But promise you'll think of me on those still nights
when I'm turning corners in my mind
and staring deep into your loving eyes
but missing your gentle touch
or heartfelt words

Give me thoughts of warmth
to let this shivering soul have some peace
don't let me slip into cold oblivion
and let me remember when you were mine
when life was easier
and nothing more need be said

[Seven Years]

Seven years
I've spent trying to dodge the lies
living life from joy
to meaningless joy
filling the void with shameful highs
and pretending it's the dream I kept inside

I've given into temptation
until there's nothing left to surrender
and now I only see tearful nights awaiting me
as I stare into my future's horizon

Because it's just another need to me
like the food I eat
it's hunger cured with shame
and a pain that stains my pillow
when I try to rest on those empty nights
wasted where I don't belong
getting things I'll never need

I never beat my demons
just changed them ones with smiling faces
while carrying promises never meant to be held
I pretended everything was fine
when I was more broken than ever
just a shell of who I could have been
and a shadow of what I was before

I want to turn and face the truth
but how can I fight who I am
How can I conquer what I need
when I feel it beating within my veins

So as I lay here
temporarily pacified
with tears of shame streaked across my face
and broken promises ringing in my head
I cower in the dark again
too weak to stand up to myself
powerless to challenge who I am
even as the world plays my weaknesses
like a bow on a violin
I know the struggle will never end
only abated by momentary joys

Even when gazing into the eyes of love
I'm just a pathetic soul
born again just to be sacrificed
like so many times before
in these seven years
I've lived through the blur of addict's eyes
where highs are lows
and everything in between is a bed of lies
and though I see the truth now
and gaze upon my sins with open mind
the world remains unchanged

For it's seven years until tomorrow
tomorrow when I'll be broken again
just another empty day
spent bowing before my vices
while trying to call it life
between dodging the lies
and living the meaningless joys
I've come to know so well

[Gothic Emotion]

The Gothic Poet walks down the street
And stops at the bus stop
he posts one of his poems for all to see

"What do you make of me"
"Am I a freak or am I just part of a click?"
"Dressed in black - am I a tiger or a pussycat?"
"Read my words and you will see"
"A deeper soul lies in me"

He sits at home and paints his self-portrait
Slightly distorted - this is the way he is viewed by the world
He walks on down to the art gallery
And posts his portrait at the entrance door

"Do you want more?"
"You will see more reality in this picture"
"Than anything that lies behind this door"
"Open your eyes and you will see"
"All nature's beauty"

He lies on his bed at home
Waiting for a reaction
But the passers-by fail to express any emotion
Too wrapped up in their own worlds
In God and man we place our trust
Another creative soul bites the dust

---

[Of Passions and Pain]
Our skies are starcrossed
And our souls pay the cost
But at least we have the rain
To cover the stars and clean the pain

Let me cut open your chest
Rend apart your breast
So I can see
The heart that beats for me

And your blood will be on my hands
As our Love pours in crimson bands
You are my every fantasy
And thus you bleed with me

With a serrated caress do I avow
A Love that will never bend or bow
Only in the pitch of our screams
Can we ever truly realize our dreams

For our souls are bound
To this morbid sound
Of screams made symphonies
And sensuous Miseries

I’ll silt your throat and you slit mine
And our love will never pine
To attain bliss Romeo and Juliet did realize
That Pain is merely Passion in disguise

---

[xperation date]

the architectural structure of our
s e e t h i n g construction
.
./blurring.
into a cloud of vast.wine.bottled.illusionary.sunsets
bursting into flames of fire of blue
simmering desire
crashing down unto ashen smokey wooden.blaze
-a minsicule second of that deconstructive gaze
warming itself into flesh.filled.yearning
interaction[s]--a sucker for impulsive
satisfaction
in the beat of starlit pulse/a willows breath/
red glow of a robin's breast in the light of spring
all these subliminal messagings.eating
us a w a y
gnawing on the bones of something smelling a bit
EXTINGUISHED.EXPIRED
kissing flames with sugary lips
squirming hips.vanishing.from thread bare fingertips
in the rise of our angelic pose
i suppose
those halo's
formed clouds of transparency round you & me
fueling gas tanks of obsession
never asking a question
.just guessing.
& breathing [in.out] the teetering[s] of heart.s. beating
between the sheets & underneath
our feet

---

[This Moment]

Straying the same,
fast fading away.
Faking the dreams,
dreaming of memories.
Lieing awake,
dreaming of sleep.
Reminding of pain,
not feeling a thing.
Not lasting, as the time passes by .
Sleeping awake, thinking of another life.
Keeping in mind,
escaping my thoughts that I never think.
Forgetting before I can pretend to remember.
Missing to remind,
not dreaming another night.
Believing goodbyes are before and after.
Seeing Beside, Before, Behind, Believing.
I think my thoughts are blinking like my vision.
Forgetting it all in small little pieces.
Not really seeing what I believe in.
Slightly dreaming it all, remembering to breathe in.
While these thoughts leave me no memory or feeling.
Fading with light,
erasing the blind faces
wasting away again.
Faking to breathe a stolen breath of reason.
Hating the taste of this illuion.
Finding I'm missing a life to give.
Somethings can fade so fast.
Forgot my thoughts just the yesterday passed.
Like the whisper of a thought, living only for the moment it takes.
I live only in this moment I take.

[I once loved a spider]

I once loved a spider,
When I was born a fly,
A velvet footed spider,
With a gown of rainbow dye.

She ate my wings and gloated,
She bound me with a hair,
She drove me to her parlor,
And up her winding stair.

To educate her young,
She took me all apart,
My ghost came back to haunt her,
I saw her eat my heart.

[Ghost Within My Mind]

I would have told you I love you
if we hadn't been saying goodbye
With the end always a breath away
it never seemed real to me
like vapors disappearing before my eyes
and even though you're gone today
there's a ghost lurking within my mind

I wanted you to know me
to make sense of a heart gone wrong
I wanted you to need me like I needed you
and to wash away the sins of thought and deed
You were too perfect to grasp
and too wonderful to touch
but now that you're gone
all I have are memories fading
and a ghost walking withing my mind

It's only now that you haunt me
on quiet, lonely nights
when the wind carries your name into my ears
leaving me adrift in a sea of regret and remorse
I can't face who I am
much less what I've become
Just a wounded soul living in an broken heart
walking these empty halls
hoping to catch a glimpse
of the ghost stalking within my mind

[Soul and Body Part]

its a kind of lonesome you can feel
even when your in a crowd.
Its in the heart, a silent killer
though always screaming loud.

In the rain or in the sun
your days all feel the same.
And no matter how hard you try
you can never numb the pain.

Sweet words are spoken , but you cant hear
thoughts all put with one.
And tears cry out from your pillow
when your day is gone and done.

When morning comes its raining.
you go out. and the puddles you kick.
You go back inside and cry some more
and end up very sick.

The doctor asks you where it hurts
you say here, and point to your heart.
And at that hospital in that bed
your soal and body part.

[Savage Murderers]

Blood and screems and tears of woe.
Of whom they kill they do not know.

Every time one trips and falls,
You hear the father's cries and calls.

For every sin, another whip.
While you hate, his blood does drip.

I wish each one of us could feel,
Each drop of life we drain and steal.

You stab each other with your tounges.
You kill yourselves with your smoke filled lungs.

Murderers! You have no compassion.
You think that guns and war are fashion.

Must you spit and seal your fate?
You die to only live in hate.

[Lying Cold Upon The Floor]

I'm stuck here in this dark disease.
Nothing will set my mind at ease.

I'm in a room without a door.
I'm lying cold upon the floor.

Pills are shoveled down my throat.
In this darkened chamber where I float.

Blind I am. There are no holes for light.
I'm stupid, and deaf, and I'm never right.

Let me out! I can't take any more!
I'm lying cold upon the floor.

[Underworld Jew]

An underworld Jew sits by his own choice
On pocketed suits and the wind in his voice

Im nothing and something and I'm in between
A capitol rainbow and opening scene

I must have emotions, so therefore I cry
I must be human, so therefore I die

A winner's a sinner and a sinner does sigh
At the pondering question, the lingering why

Musing over a glass of warm wine
I believe that man will get better in time

The glass in the window reflects my pain
In a puddle of tears and candlestick rain

Thinking of something that lies in a dream
He cries for lies and dark horses they bring

Running from a world that's standing still
Studying the ruins of a pristine landfill

[Love not me]

Love not me, though I love thee,
and have for long remembered.
For I have dreamed a thousand dreams
whilst fires turn to ember.

Love not me, for you fly free,
but I have lost those blazoned wings.
And I look up in forlorn glee
while the Muse melancholy sings.

Love not me, my jubilee
forever gone unto that place.
Replaced by longing, one more time,
to feel that radiant embrace.

Love not me, though I love thee,
and you have me forgotten.
But I will dream a million dreams
'til die these sorrows misbegotten.