Chapter nine: Hikaris confessions.

The vampire cried out to her, Kari couldn't be dead. Matt landed a punch in the center of his brother’s brain. It had to have cracked the skull wide open.

The world seemed like it was frozen in its tracks. Matt stared down at Kari’s body, a single tear falling from his eye.

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When Kari woke up, she was surrounded by darkness. You always heard people say, don’t go toward the light. She moved her hand in front of her face, but that too was lost in the darkness.

She wondered what was happening, was she dead? She felt like she was, as if her body was as light as a feather. Her mind seemed freed from the burden of reality.

She couldn't die, there were so many things she still wanted to do! Like be with Matt and if she died that would never happen. Then she became aware of a light, her body was glowing.

Her body instinctively jolted upwards. She looked around; she was sitting at a table on a brown chair. The room was blindingly white colored and empty. “Where am I?” she asked herself.

Words began forming on the wall. She had to be dreaming, was this where you went when you died? The words on the wall formed completely, it said ‘confessions of Yagami, Hikari. Session 554372897.’ She stared at it. “What the hell…”

A man came out, from nowhere. She could only see his shadow. “welcome.” He said.

This was all too weird. Where was she, who was he? Did she die? What happened to T.k, and he baby? “Who are you?” was all she managed to say.

“I am your session master.”

“What?”

“It is something a mortal wouldn't understand” he explained “you were born a child of light, the angel of light.” He paused. “When you conceived your child, you were enveloped in darkness.” Kari was utterly confused, this was completely ridiculous!

“Am I dead?”

“More or less” she didn't understand the reality of her situation.

“How can I get back?”

“You cant” she jumped up, and he backed away.

“What do you mean I can’t?”

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Matt dropped to the ground beside her body, he looked down at her. She wasn't dead, she couldn't be. He wanted to protect her from his brother! He wanted her to be his, forever. She couldn't be dead.

Yet, there she lied, her body already becoming cold. Her heart had stopped and her pulse was non-existent. Tears began to roll down his cheeks as he picked her up into his arms. He would never let her go; he could never let her go.

The baby inside her body was dying; the vampire was using all his strength trying to keep himself alive. She had to come back; this was not how things were supposed to go. She was supposed to be the one who lived!

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Kari suddenly felt a wave of fear hit her. She reached down and touched her stomach. “What about my baby?”

“He will die” her eyes widened, and the situation hit her like a lead brick. She was dead, her baby was dying, and she would never kill T.k. her life was over.

She began to pace. “Cant I come back?” he looked at her, or at least she thought he did.

“Maybe”

“How! Tell me how!” she was crying now.

“You have to confess your greatest sin” she took a step back.

“What?”

“It is what you have to do, you are not in heaven or hell, I am neither god nor the devil, and I am just trying to help you.”

“My greatest sin…” what did he mean?

“You only have a limited amount of time”

So she did what she thought was right, she began confessing, everything.

“Um…I never really liked my dad. I have had a crush on Matt my entire life. I wished Sora would die. Yolie annoys me a lot. I think Cody is a homosexual. I cheated on my third grade math test. I have had sex with Davis. I think my brother is a man whore. I was the one who threw up in soras hat. I was engaged to T.k, before I was pregnant.” She looked at him; hoping one of these things was what he was looking for.

“Try again” she thought, this was so difficult. She had no idea what her greatest sin was.

“I… um…. I think the vampire is hott, who wouldn't. I want more than anything to be the mother of matt's kids. I crashed my dad’s car when I was twelve. I am not always as brave as I seem. I am afraid of cauliflower. I peed in my pants until I was six. I went to digiworld once way before I was a digidestin and never told anyone.” She couldn't think of many more things.

He still wanted more; there was something she was missing. She froze, she had an idea, and if it was her sin, and he didn't necessarily mean HER it could be her in a different life. She hoped that this would work.

“My greatest sin is letting my bloodline be corrupted by the darkness of the vampire when I was a little girl three hundred years ago!”

Everything around her disappeared, and she was back floating in the darkness. Why didn't she return to her world? What did she do wrong?

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Matt stood up, and walked over to his brother. He killed Kari and now Matt was going to make him pay! Sora jumped on him, tackling him to the ground. Forget Kari, Sora wanted to kill Matt.

Inside of Kari’s body, the baby was warm again. He didn't understand what was going on, was Kari alive?

Matt rolled around trying to punch Sora. “What is your problem? Get off me!” he yelled. He tried to push her off but she continued her assault on him.

He punched Sora and threw her off of him. “I don’t have time for you, unless you want to die also?” he said, looking down at her flames in his eyes.

She shook her head “I love Takeru” she said. Matt stopped, did she just say she LOVED T.k?

“What?”

“I know it’s stupid, I have had a crush on him since Kari and he started going out. I envied Kari. He told me he could give me something that Kari could never posses.” Matt couldn't believe it.

“Then why had you gone out with me and Tai?”

“To get closer to him” she said, her voice was cracking as she began to cry. “Then, he told me all this vampire stuff and I was afraid. So I did what he told me because I didn't want to die”

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In Karis mind she thought about all the good things, and bad. Her love for T.k, the death of her mother, matt's love for her. her brother, meeting Brittany, her times in the digidestin even her fling with Davis.

Then her mind was assaulted by a strange noise. At first it was like a soft whimper that gradually grew louder into a screaming cry. It was her baby, calling out to her. He still needed her!

Her heart leapt in her chest, and she began falling. Her body jumped, like it did when she had a bad dream and she found herself back in T.k’s mom’s backyard. Her head was pulsing painfully, she pressed her finger to her temple to try and get it to stop.

She looked around, Matt was standing in front of Sora and they were talking about something. T.k was holding his head, sprawled out in the grass. Brittany had arrived but she had gotten stuck on the fence and was desperately trying to pull herself free.

She jumped up, T.k was down and now was the time to strike, she couldn't think about it. She just knew that he had to be stopped. So she grabbed the broken blade that lay beside her and jumped up.

She crossed the grass silently, Matt had finally noticed her, and ran past Sora. He would have to deal with her later. He stopped when he saw the look on Karis face.

“T.k” she said, through ragged breath “you have tried and tried to plot against me, I have to kill you, for both our sakes.” She was crying again “I am so sorry.” T.k couldn't defend himself; his brother had hit him hard. So Kari easily thrust the blade into T.k’s chest and ripped it back out again.

She watched him as the light faded from his eyes. He just looked up at her, and then apologized. “Kari, I-I am sorry for what I have done to you” and then , his heart stopped and he died.

Kari dropped to her knees and cried. T.k will always be her first true love, not even him turning into a vampire and trying to kill her could change that. Also, no matter how much she wished it wasn't true, he would always be the father of her child.

She sat there for a long time, contemplating all that had happened to her. It was all so confusing. She was carrying the king of vampires inside of her; T.k was now dead because of her. She had died, met a very strange man then came back. It all seemed like a bad dream to her.

As Matt gently pulled her up off the ground, she realized that soon enough this would be, to her more dream than reality.

THREE YEARS LATER–

Kari yawned as she looked down at her baby. He looked so much like his father it was frightening. He had the same messy blonde hair, the same kind blue eyes that seemed never-ending. He even had the same sweet and innocent smile.

She knew though, he wouldn't stay this way for long. He was to grow up and become the king of vampires, so naturally as he progressed through life he would develop the features of his past self.

She smiled as she continued to get him dressed. He was the only painful reminder she had of T.k. when he died, she wasn't in love with him but he was still a big part of her life.

She picked up her baby and walked out the door. It was a nice day, if not a little cold. She could see her breath leave her mouth. In spite that it was a typically beautiful autumn day. Just a little bit past the fifteenth of November. Matt was off practicing with his band, and she was taking her baby to the park.

She sat on a bench not far from where he played, daydreaming. She mostly thought about Matt but she also wondered about the rest of her life. She was one year out of high school, and had no thoughts about college. She had a job at the local bar but it wasn't enough to fully support a three year old. She mostly lived with Matt but at times his house was a little crowded for him, his dad, her, her baby and Mathew.

So she half lived in her brother’s apartment while he was away at college. Her brother and Brittany were now engaged to be married. They were going to the same college and living happily together, they were the perfect couple.

Kari sadly couldn't say the same for herself. She was un-married with a three year old son. She had a small paying job, no ideas on her future. In fact she didn't even have a boyfriend. She just had Matt.

As the day grew darker she called Matt for a ride home.

The sky began to darken even more, as she sat on the edge of the concrete. Feet sprawled out in a comfortable position in the street.

Her little boy clung, helplessly to her chest. Afraid to let go, afraid of almost everything, afraid he would lose her again. She looked down at the little boy, so helplessly fragile, as she waited for him to show up.

He uttered an incoherent word to her and she nodded her head.

As she looked down at his scared features, she couldn't help but think fondly of him. Even though he was her mistake that almost ruined her life.

Or, in this case he was the mistake that almost ended it.

Finally she saw matt's car pull up by the curb and she picked herself and her baby up. She smiled at him.

“Was it a good practice?” she asked as she buckled her baby in beside Mathew.

He just smiled. She raised her eye brow at him but chose not to press the matter any further.

They returned home, Mr Ishida was out for the night. The stuff in the house looked like it had been dug through; it wasn't like this when she had left that morning. Piles of junk were in-habiting most of the limited floor space, and a lot of matt's belongings seemed to have found there way into the living room.

“What happened in here?” she asked, looking at him. She was still a little suspicious as to why he had a goofy lopsided grin on his face.

He set Mathew down and took her baby from her, then disappeared into Mathew’s room. He came back a moment later, and in a very un-characteristic act picked her up and spun her around, still smiling.

“What is wrong with you?” she said, giggling. He was acting very strange.

“Guess what?” he was playing games with her.

“How about we skip the guessing and you tell me?” she said, giving him the irresistible puppy dog eyes.

“How can I say no to that face” he said, then he just laughed.

“Ok then, what is it that is making you so giddy?”

“My band has been picked up by a producer.” She didn't quite understand what he meant.

“WERE GOING TO BE FAMOUSE!” he yelled, and a wide grin spread across her face.

“Oh Matt! That is wonderful!” she said, throwing her arms around his neck.

“That is what I was doing today, working on our first demo CD! I even got paid to be there, and to sign my band over to him.”

“How much?” he pulled an envelope out of his pocket.

“I don’t know I wanted to open it up with you” he explained.

“Oh, well, don’t leave me in suspense! Let’s open it!”

He nodded and began tearing at the edge of the envelope. Kari bit her lip and held her breath. She wished it was a lot of money, for matt's sake he wanted so badly to move him and Mathew out away from his father.

They both found that they had closed there eyes, both afraid to look. Kari was the one to open them first.

“Matt, it says one-thousand dollars.” They looked at each other, both wide eyed and un-believing.

Kari found herself falling to the ground, and Matt caught her.

“Kari” he said, slowly still in shock.

“Yes Matt”

“I think I have enough to move out” she nodded.



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