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[BlEedINg bLAcK ShaRDs]

Chaos

*~* Love, *~*
X^ Hate, X^
~*} Happiness, {*~
Z#^ Depression, ^#Z

Everything, from the hottest passion.
To the lightest fling,
Screaming for attention.
In my mind,
Not one emotion of the same kind.

They are nagging me,
Won’t leave me the way I came.
Forcing me to see,
And never be the same.

There isn't just one true me,
‘Cause you won’t let me be.
But that there are so many,
All of the different facets in my soul,
But their not mine to control.

Battered and bruised.
You act so confused.
I keep trying to tear away.
I just can’t say,
FUCK YOU!!!
I’ll show you, I’ll pull through!!!

This damned chaos.
Trapped in my head.
Overwhelming my emotions.
They will never set me free.
I drink a glass full of poisons.
No matter how far I'll flee.
How deep I try to hide it,
I’ll never come around,
It makes me feel like shit.
I wish I’d never be found…




[BlEedINg bLAcK ShaRDs]

5/3/05

Bluebird


Sing a song for me bluebird,
to the pulse of broken time;
whisper to me shifting winds,
bringing solace to this troubled mind.
Silence fills the breaking dawn;
Invade the trees with gentle breezes
Hushed the birds, in sympathy,

Sing a song for me bluebird,
whistling low and quiet in their compassion.
fragmented words still echo in the silent morn.
are they yours those tears?
From long gone years,
But the rose sees only gladness
in the joy her short life brings, 

Sing a song for me bluebird,
The sun behind a sheltering cloud,
weeps his own sad tears, 
he knows the futile sorrow
Sees the human river cry;
Bend towards me weeping willow;
for you share more tears than I, or just memories fading into summer skies.

Sing a song for me bluebird,
hears it's painful reverberating, in his home up there on high.
Sighing sunflowers turning, a thousand heads upon the sun,
gazing longingly Towards him and begging for a smile:
and the moon a sulky lady takes all homage as her Due,
from the billion smiling stars, 
dotted round her inky realm.

Sing a song for me bluebird, 
Sing for me bluebird, sing a lonely tune,
sing for me bluebird to the pulse of broken time.
Soft rain from the east,
wash away the hidden tears
Buried deep inside the journeys
made through time.





[BlEedINg bLAcK ShaRDs]

7:28pm-
April 3, 2005
Gently


Gently, as my heart starts to cave in.
From all the pressure.
What a pleasure,
With all of my sin.

Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming,
And pray for the deep sleep dreaming.
With all this time I’ve been so hollow inside,
Locking away all of this pride.
-7:38 pm





[BlEedINg bLAcK ShaRDs]

4/29/05
Braille


Like braille,
I read your face,
As my hand gently slides across it.
I’m blind to see,
Your true potential.

Like braille,
I read the deep facets of my soul.
So easy to feel for,
So easy to want to see,
But I’m blind by your disguise.

Like braille,
I can feel what you feel.
I’m blind, but now I can see,
Who you really are.





[BlEedINg bLAcK ShaRDs]

deviance

You can imprison me,
Keep me tied in a chain,
Never set me free,
Till only you remain.
And take away everything of mine.
I will make you pay.

Beat me till your hands are red with stain,
Until,
I no longer can feel the pain.
Leave me alone here,
Try to kill me with all the things I fear.

If you don't want to hear me,
You can gag me,
And make me shut my mouth,
That's the way you'd like it to be,
Me helpless,
So I can neither speak nor shout.

I know you'll never be tender.
And you'll never give back the freedom you stole.
But I will never surrender;
I'd rather die than give you control.