I HAVE A MYSPACE!
http://www.myspace.com/poetryismypassion
a new poem!
10 minutes
After 10 minutes when i have forgotten all about you, you always come back to me. your voice, your face, why cant i get rid of the memories with you? All of them hurt me because they were so happy, and you ruined that. You lied to me, that word is all over your face like a disease. its flowing through your body, does it feel good to you? i want you to feel what im feeling, my tears...ive had so many from you. You said you would never break my heart, but look what you did. now my heart is broken in pieces all over the floor, and you wont even pick up the mess you made. it seems my heart is abandoned, and unwanted. Something has to go where my heart was, but i cant find anything to put there that would heal my wounds. I need a getaway from you. All the time i see your face or hear your laugh. I need to get miles and miles away from you, so all i hear is silence of what was in the past, because right now the past is ringing LOUDLY in my ear. Now, after 10 minutes of forgetting you, all i remember is your name.
Sinning your own Daughter
I am not sinning, I am praying.
Praying for a different image of a father.
I've broken the mirror,
I am no longer the reflection of you.
Im waiting for a pigeon to send me a letter.
Waiting for weeks, months, years.
My higher power is not god, but my higher power is love.
Cant you see that?
Im reading you page after page,
but the answer isnt in your biography,
it isnt inside you,
The answer is in your breath, so just say it, say it out loud.
These are my confessions to you.
Not of a broken heart, but of a stone heart.
It wont move, and it wont breathe.
It just sits there, like an empty rock.
Lock myself in the bathroom,
saying why why why, why you.
Why bring my tears?
why bring my madness?
Why bring my anger?
My faith is that you are sinning your own daughter.
Its crystal clear that yelling is your faith.
You seem small to me,
but you can take me out with the snap of your fingers.
Don't wipe my tears away,
I want my cheeks to burn.
A mark of you dad.
Let them fall out.
Let me see things my way,
Uncuff my dry hands from you.
I am monkey in the middle,
Mom v.s. Dad.
But the one who is winning is me.
So i am not the one who is sinning,
but i am praying,
praying for the pigeon who has my letter from my father.
Memories with who again?
I want you to show bruises on my neck,
so that i can put you behind fear.
I hold your music in my hands,
but I don't look at the memories in the music.
I dont want to take your memories away from them.
Eyes are burning when i wake up with kleenexes on my bed,
my paper is filled with tears for it to hold.
Sweetness in your smile,
but hatred in your eyes and hands.
I file our memories,
but i am filing more bad ones than good ones.
Its not a home but a psycho ward.
A lock on my door is the only protection in the house.
You didn't ask for my permission to hit me.
THe flowers all around the house begin to shrivel up,
they smell they yelling and the throwing.
I see a young version of me.
a tear in her eye,
wheeping in her corner.
I wish i could go back to my first word,
when all that was said from me was light.
i dont want to be constipated anymore,
meaning i dont want words coming out of my mouth.
I dont want to become like you,
but im starting to yell at innocent people.
You know what they usually dont say,
like father like daughter.
its a black and white picture now,
no more color.
There's always your shadow behind me,
i see it through the mirror.
I dont want to be a clone of you.
I see your finger prints on the piano,
staining the keys.
The piano is your music,
my voice is mine.
The times we spend together are the times i want to rewind back,
to make them into perfection.
I am eating everything,
but i feel so empty inside.
I need something more.
true love from you.
You dont know me at all,
but i know everything about you.
Your heart has broken into many pieces,
and they're spreading through your body.
Both parents are gone,
so who will teach you?
I cant. Your wife can. Everyone around you can.
So stay close with me, and hold on.
-Laura Henry
Music: fallout boy, zeromancer, kittie, trapt, type 0 negative, orgy, disturbed, the perfect season!, motion city soundtrack, crossfade, nirvana,HIM,st
aind,relient k, system of a down, MSI, ICP, AFI, breaking benjamin, the all-american rejects, linkin park, hoobastank, switchfoot, stabbing westward, nickelback, sum41, blink-182, three days grace, MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE, perfect circle, hawthorne heights, pussycat dolls, gwen stefani, d4l, a recent one i like is mobb deep, snoop doggey dog, r. kelly, kanye west, eminem, D4l, anything that is on the mtv music videos basically lol i love hip hop and rap soooo much. i have to listen to music every 30 minutes or else i'll die lol and i dont want that
Movies: Edward scissorhands, donnie darko, bride of chucky, grind, drumline, something's gotta give {old people having sex makes me horny hahaha jk}, nightmare before christmas {and i really want to see corpse bride}, GOONIES!!!, thirteen,chronicles of narnia,40 year old virgin,phantom of the opera, forest gump {hi im forrest forrest gump}, underworld, queen of the damned, interview with a vampire, van helsing, etc.
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Laura Henry
Birthday: August 1rst, 1989
Birthplace: St. Paul, MN
Current Location: St. Paul, MN lol
Eye Color: dark brown
Hair Color: dark brown
Height: 4'9
Right Handed or Left Handed: left handed
Your Heritage: israel, germany, poland i think...
The Shoes You Wore Today: flip flops
Your Weakness: food lol
Your Fears: spiders, rollercoasters, the dark, life, death, etc.
Your Perfect Pizza: pepperoni
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: get my grades better
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol, omg
Thoughts First Waking Up: o shit, im up
Your Best Physical Feature: my eyes.
Your Bedtime: i have a wierd pattern...sometimes 10, 11, 12 or 1
Your Most Missed Memory: when i was in london...i wish i was there right now
Pepsi or Coke: neither
MacDonalds or Burger King: mcdonalds
Single or Group Dates: i would think group dates are better, but never been on one. lol only single dates. :D
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton ice tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: i HATE coffee and cappa whatever lol
Do you Smoke: used to
Do you Swear: oo yes
Do you Sing: ooooo yes
Do you Shower Daily: ooooo no, kidding!
Have you Been in Love: yes
Do you want to go to College: yes
Do you want to get Married: yes
Do you belive in yourself: most of the time
Do you get Motion Sickness: i havent really before
Do you think you are Attractive: yes and no
Are you a Health Freak: no lol
Do you get along with your Parents: i get along with my mom
Do you like Thunderstorms: yes and no, if that make sense lol
Do you play an Instrument: piano
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: no
In the past month have you Smoked: no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: no
In the past month have you gone on a Date: yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: lol not a box, but definitely alot
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: never had it, maybe i will try it...but it looks wierd lol
In the past month have you been on Stage: yes
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: no
Ever been called a Tease: yes
Ever been Beaten up: no
Ever Shoplifted: no
How do you want to Die: i dont really want to choose how i want to die, but i know i dont want to be murdered, died in a car accident, or in a hospital
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: fashion designer/owned my own hair salon
What country would you most like to Visit: i want to visit Italy..but see, im not sure if thats a country...lol i need to work on my geography i know
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: blue
Favourite Hair Color: any hair color
Short or Long Hair: short and long
Height: definitely doesnt matter
Weight: doesnt matter
Best Clothing Style: doesnt matter
Number of Drugs I have taken: wtf? wat kind of question is that?
Number of CDs I own: at least 10 lol
Number of Piercings: any number but not ALL over the body
Number of Tattoos: doesnt matter with tatoos, just not on the face
Number of things in my Past I Regret: MANY things i have regretted
A girl and guy were speeding, on a motorcycle, over 90 mph on the road..
Girl: Slow down. I’m scared.
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No, it’s not. Please, it’s too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? It’s bugging me.
(In the paper the next day)
A motorcycle crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on it, but
only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his
breaks broke, but he didn’t want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved
him & felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.
..*..If you love someone this much put this on your site..*..