Apparently I am going to die on Friday, July 5, 2052. This is a day before my birthday.Well, Happy 63rd Birthday to me... Huh?


[ Layer One ]

Hi I'm Lauryll, I'm 16 I live in gahanna OH...i was born in raised in [ DETROIT! ] oh yes I know thats awesome....anyway, I am a writer/poet/artist, and I LOVE feedback, so comment the hell outa my stuff...Also i am trying to learn Romanian, just really hard to find a textbook for that haha
And I am in love with my sexy hott fiance Matt

So what else do you wish to know?


I am...

I am Lauryll the Loser
I am the one who make up words for yes
I am the one who worries worry about my family 24/7
I am the one with the best fiance in the world, Matt
I am ugly, and know it and nothing you can say will affect me
...on the outside


I love...

I love my friends
I love Social Code
I love my family, though I may not like them at times
I love the way Alex used to look at me
I love the way Ben smiles, because he doesn't do it enough
I love how I feel safe with Scott
I love how Sameth thinks I am beautiful
I love Shae's douchebagocity
I love innuendo with Eric
I love Erica's contagious hyperness
I love Jordan's hair he refuses to let me braid
I love my life
...ish


I miss...

I miss Detroit, maybe more than I should
I miss my baby Matt
I miss being ignorant about my parents problems
I miss my mother BEING a mother
I miss my father being sober
I miss not having to try and take care of them
I miss my friends who I don't talk to anymore
I miss the way things were, though I wouldn't change how they are
I miss the way Alex used to act towards me
I miss talking to Ben
I miss my Juan, he lives too far away
I miss hanging out with Brian
I miss speaking spanish and french with Sameth
I miss being able to be myself without care
I miss being in control of my life

[ Layer Two ]
More pictures of me, I know, SWEETNESS




[ Layer Three ]
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your house and see what I say about you?

[LAYER FOUR]
A poem of mine, currently untitled
older poem, but ah well, read it anyways
I've changed grown up
In so short a time
Goodbye innocence
So long peace of mind
Swept into a life
worse than I thought possible
This is so hard
My life, so hateful
My mother, My father,
Both major fuckups
but nonetheless
I miss them so much
Here, and yet not
They don't realise I'm here
My mother too busy
and my father just grabs a beer
Do I exist,
If no one cares?
Pain engulfs me
and it's just too much to bear
Maybe i overexaggerate?
My life can't be that bad
yet I am curious
to know someone as sad
I must get through this though
And learn how to go on
Start looking to tomorrow
Though today may seem so long